"Hmm!" I replied casually, completely distracted.

The driver is very talkative, introduced Kunming to me and said: "Kunming is a city like spring all year round, the city center is in Jinma Biji Fang, I will take you to go around that neighborhood, Kunming has developed rapidly in recent years, before Caiyun Road was a desolate, now it is developing very well, the new snail has become a commercial area, or the largest wholesale market in Southeast Asia......"

The driver's mouth is like a small radio talking, and my mind is not here at all, the neon lights outside the window illuminate the city, the first time to evaluate the city in other people's language, I am already too familiar with this place, familiar to the motorcycle to walk through every corner, to see every scenery, but can not see through my own heart.

Under the neon lights, I was like a wandering soul, unable to find a place of my own, when the driver asked me for the fifth time where I was going, I thought of Lao Zhou, it seems that only his bar can place my wandering soul.

It was late at night, and there was only one table of customers in the bar of Lao Zhou, which was in stark contrast to those discotheques, Lao Zhou sat on the stage with his guitar in his arms, and I took a dozen beers from the bar and sat in the still familiar corner.

At the end of the song, Lao Zhou put down his guitar and came to me to pick up a bottle of wine to moisten his throat, looked at me and asked, "Why is this time coming?"

"What time is this?" I looked up, and it was nearly half past eleven, and it was indeed late.

"What's wrong?" Lao Zhou jokingly asked, "It can't be that he was kicked out by Yuxin, right?"

"It's not. I said to Lao Zhou: "Cheng Jia found me tonight, and the two of us went to see Gao Xu together, and then Cheng Jia and I went to have a barbecue and drank a lot of wine. ”

Lao Zhou guessed: "Maybe I figured out something." ”

I shook my head, leaned back on the sofa and said: "I talked a lot with Cheng Jia and Gao Xu today, and I can be regarded as having a frank chat with each other about everything that happened in the past, I found that I am not the only one who is dark in my heart, everyone has a period of unseemly, or I don't want to be known about the past, this society has made us so ugly, this era, let everyone live so helplessly." ”

Lao Zhou twisted his head out of the window, and was silent for a while before saying to me: "It's good to learn to forbear, you can't change anything, just keep your original intention, I won't say anything to comfort you, I can only talk to you casually, if you want to open it, it's not a big deal." ”

"You've been here alone all these years, so you're still waiting for her. ”

Lao Zhou turned his head, looked at the paintings on the wall, picked up a bottle of beer and drank most of it, put down the bottle and asked, "Silently, what kind of life do you think is perfect?"

"I don't know!" I said, "I don't even know what I'm after, what about you?"

"Me?" Lao Zhou said very calmly: " I think I'm very simple, I figured out a truth before I was thirty years old, a person's life, is nothing more than to live a dull life with the beloved, we are all ordinary people, there are not so many vigorous events waiting for us to experience, the most realistic is firewood, rice, oil and salt, every day I wake up with a beloved by my side, kiss her face, and then start a day's life, although it is said that it is repeated over and over again The previous day is not new, but this is the most real life, isn't it?"

"Maybe, yes!"

Lao Zhou took out a cigarette and lit it for himself, he knew that I wouldn't give it to me after I quit smoking, after lighting it, he continued: "I thought very thoroughly back then, since I can't be with Qiao Man, then why do I have to force myself to share a bed with another woman? ”

I asked, "You didn't think you'd be in a relationship with another woman, and you didn't think about trying?"

"What about failure?" Lao Zhou asked rhetorically: "If you marry a woman you don't love, and finally find that you can't adapt to being together at all, wouldn't it be very sad?

Lao Zhou and I poured beer into our stomachs bottle after bottle, drank until we turned over the river and the sea, ran to the bathroom and hugged the toilet to vomit, and after vomiting, I came back and continued to drink, he confided in me the past things that had accumulated in my heart over the years, and complained to him about why growing up was such a painful thing.

When the guests at that table were leaving, they asked Lao Zhou to calculate the cost of the drink, and they had to pay the bill! Lao Zhou also drank a lot, looked at the guests in a daze and said, "Just give it." ”

The guests all smiled and asked, "Big brother, can you still do this?"

Lao Zhou waved his hand and said, "Arbitrary, arbitrary!"

The guest also felt very embarrassed, and left 300 yuan, which was similar to the actual consumption, and Lao Zhou didn't care, and continued to drink with me after receiving the money.

About two o'clock in the morning, Lu Yuxin came to the bar, Lao Zhou and I were very surprised at that time, because we were both drunk in a daze, it was impossible for anyone to call Yuxin, Yuxin walked in and saw the two of us in this state, and she was quite speechless, but I clearly saw a relaxed look in her eyes.

I staggered to my feet and asked, "Yuxin...... You...... Why are you here?"

"I'm worried about you. Yuxin walked to the table, picked up a few tissues, and helped me wipe the water on my body...... She couldn't tell whether it was beer or spit on herself, she didn't dislike it at all, and asked with concern while wiping it, "Drink a lot of bars?"

"Not much. I held on to the table and said, "I can still drink, you can go back and rest first." ”

"Come with me. Yuxin said to me, "Let's go home together." ”

Lao Zhou also stood up at this time, and said to Yuxin: "You don't have to go back, if you are drunk, go upstairs to sleep, and the room where you have slept silently is still empty." ”

"That's right!" I said to Lu Yuxin's hand in a daze: "It's on it, I'll bring you ......here" Saying that, I walked forward, and I didn't take two steps, and as soon as my feet slipped, my whole person fell unconscious!

When I woke up, I was already lying on my bed, everything in the room was very familiar, as if I had returned to a year ago, when I had just moved into Lao Zhou to live here, the small room could not accommodate a table, but here, there was a different kind of warmth.

(The book will be completed soon, and a new book is in the pipe.) ）