It's going to be on the shelves again, and I was thinking that I would just write a sentence or two to notify me of the testimonials on the shelves.

But I have a lot to say in my heart, so I'll waste a little bit of your time!

First of all, let's be honest, I am a post-90s, a 94-year-old code word dog, unmarried, no wife, and no daughter.

The reason why I wrote this book is because life is already very boring and boring, so I want to write a warm story to adjust my depressed mood.

So this is not a cool article, there is no plot to pull hatred, and then pretend to slap the face, at the moment of Shuangwen's preaching, this book is like a cup of tea, it is not cool to drink, but it can moisten your throat.

Therefore, this type of novel is destined not to be too good, but it is not too bad either.

Some people say that by looking at the style of the novel, you can see what kind of person the author is in real life.

In the impression of some readers, maybe I am a fat house, and Xinfeng even blackened me into a fat man of 300 pounds. But in reality, I don't even weigh 120 pounds.

It may be the reason why the stomach is not good since childhood, so eating too much will only cause stomach problems and stomach problems, and you can't get fat.

Secondly, some readers who have read my previous books may think that I should be a very cheap and funny person in reality.

Not really.

If I told you that I was a withdrawn, depressed, or even world-weary person, you might be surprised.

But in fact, I do.

I don't like to be lively, I don't like to socialize.

Whether it's shopping, watching the sea, eating, or watching movies, I often go alone, it's not that I can't find someone to accompany me, but I don't like people to accompany me, because there is no common topic.

Speaking of misanthropy, when I was very young, I first understood the concept of death, and the first time I saw the funeral of the house next door, I began to think about death.

I don't understand why we all have to die?

It's a heavy question, so I often wonder how I'm going to end this life.

Sometimes, life is not satisfactory and I am in a bad mood, and I, like many people, stand upstairs and think about jumping. Standing by the river, I thought about jumping into the river, but I was subconsciously afraid of death, so I continued to live in secret.

Therefore, I have been very fond of sentimental things since I was a child.

When I was young, the talk and log published on QQ space were described in the non-mainstream words of the year, which was one word: 殇.

In the past, I always liked to use sentimental words to remember my feelings.

It was because of my relationship with words that I embarked on the road of no return to writing novels.

That year, after graduating from high school and working for two months as a summer job, I went to Beijing to work.

From south to north, it was the first time I was so far from home, the first time I drifted north, and the first time I took a train for more than twenty hours......

In the autumn of that year, I was still full of confusion about life, and I couldn't find the meaning and motivation of life all day.

The deepest impression is that one day at noon, I looked at the window in a daze for a long time, and then posted a message on QQ space, describing myself as the fly lying on the window, with a bright future, but I couldn't find a way out.

Then, in a state of confusion, I wrote my first novel on my mobile phone and posted it on a website.

At that time, I wrote tens of thousands of words intermittently and failed to sign a contract, coupled with my busy work, I didn't have a day or two off to rest in a month, and finally became a eunuch.

No one collects, no one votes, so the eunuch didn't even have a single comment to scold me or make me stick to it.

At that time, I wrote too much literacy, and in retrospect, it was the best time in my life to write Chinese, and at that time, I really lived like a lonely poet.

Later, in the winter of the same year.

It was very cold in Beijing, and I read a doomsday novel, but I didn't read it long before I found that the author's writing collapsed and it was not good-looking, so on a whim, I wrote a doomsday novel at the starting point.

After sending a few chapters at that time, I received a signing message from the backstage, and that night I chattered my teeth, shrunk and walked for a long time, looking for a long time, and finally found a place where I could print the contract, and then filled out the first signing contract with trembling hands crookedly.

Not because of excitement, but because the winter in Beijing is too cold for me.

It's just a pity that there is still not much time to write a novel, so that there is no guarantee for a daily update, and in the end, there is no follow-up recommendation after the first signing recommendation is over.

At that time, the starting point was very strict, and I remember that after insisting on writing 300,000 words, when I asked the editor if I could put it on the shelf, the editor said very tactfully that it couldn't.

Because the collection is too small, it can't be put on the shelves.

In the end, while working, I slowly wrote, and in the second year, I finished writing more than 500,000 words.

At that time, a few readers commented that they were moved to tears, but there were also a few readers who scolded me, cursed me, and even told me to die because I wrote the protagonist dead.

But that ending is the most memorable and my favorite in my life. Because life is so imperfect, it is full of all kinds of regrets.

If I have a choice, I also hope that I can bid farewell to this world as a hero in the future.

I still clearly remember the last paragraph of the ending, the heroine wiped the crystal coffin and said to the male protagonist's corpse inside: You are still so young and handsome in the crystal coffin, but I have become an ugly old woman......

The past goes with the wind.

After that time, I didn't write any more novels.

After all, I worked hard to write a book for more than half a year, but in the end, I didn't earn a penny, and I lost 24 yuan in the courier fee and the printing contract.

It is precisely because I always think about the 24 yuan I lost to the starting point, and I am thinking about so many days and nights of racking my brains to create.

So after a year and no longer drifting north, I was confused and didn't know what job to look for, and I once again germinated the idea of writing a novel. At that time, I didn't think about it so much, I just thought that it would be enough to earn two or three thousand yuan a month.

So I started signing up for this account.

For some reason, I decided to put the word "autumn" in my pen name, and then I thought of the song "Seven Miles of Fragrance" and decided to name it "saury".

It's just that unfortunately, "saury" was registered by someone else first, and even "the taste of saury" can not be used.

Finally, when I was cooking, I came up with an autumn knife to chop fish...... It's kind of weird.

Well, the pen name has been confirmed.

The first novel released by this account was also successfully signed.,It's just influenced by the brainless Xiaobaiwen.,At that time, it was also written very brainless.,So now in retrospect, I feel like what I wrote is a stupid thing.。

But at that time, the treatment of the authors at the starting point was much better, as long as they signed a contract, more than 200,000 words could be applied for listing.

Updating 4,000 words a day, I can get 600 yuan a month, so after three months of persistent writing, I finally earned the first manuscript fee in my life. Although it was only a few hundred dollars, it was comforting.

Now in a blink of an eye, it has been 4 years since this account was registered at the starting point, and time flies really quickly.

Writing novels has gradually become the only thing I can't give up in my life, because of my low education, it is difficult to find a job with a good salary if I go out to find a job.

And people with my personality can't fit into the atmosphere of other jobs.

It's not easy to write a novel, but it's really suitable for people like me to make a living in this world.

During this period, I hit the streets many times, but compared to the authors who actually hit the streets, I was at least lucky to survive in this industry.

I still remember the excitement and joy when I signed the contract for the first time, and I still remember the feeling of constantly refreshing the backstage when I collected 10, 100, 1,000 or even 10,000 for the first time.

I remember that when I was at the lowest point in this circle, when I wanted to give up writing novels, "love for others" kept urging me to keep finishing it.

"If the foam of water" has been sending sign-in buildings to support rewards, but there are very few people who sign in, and the building collapses once it is built.

I remember the first book friend who rewarded me with the helmsman, "Dead White Fish", and now I can't understand that someone would reward a hundred yuan for the messy street book at that time.

I kept in mind the first book friend who rewarded the leader of the alliance, her name was "Unique", and there was also a name called "Unique", but later changed its name, which is now "Watching the Flowers Bloom and Fall", and since then, she has rewarded the leader of the alliance for every novel and has given a lot of support.

Therefore, among so many readers, I don't want to face her the most because I feel guilty.

Some authors told me that there are not many readers who are so iron-clad, and they have to deal with others well, and those who want to make the list in the future will also support them generously.

But I don't want to or want to spend time on operating readers, so I don't even bother to think about dealing with local tyrants, opening readers, encouraging readers to crowdfund, and so on.

Because I owe a debt of affection, I know that in this life, Huabei can be paid off, credit cards can be paid off, but the debt of affection cannot be paid off.

There are many familiar and impressive reader names that I still remember.

"Brother Lin" who broke his leg, XJ's "Unintentional Drag" who sells tobacco and alcohol, "YY Thought" in the same city, "Hokage's Dad" who is a doctor in the United States, "Chicken Leg", "Rui Beast", "Shenlong" and so on, which were students two years ago......

And let me help his daughter name I don't dare to mess with the leader of the alliance "Dream House Idiot", he once told me that if there is anything you need help in the future, just call him, but except for that time when he asked me to help name him, I never contacted him again, and now I can't see him at the starting point, I hope it's okay.

There are many, many familiar names that I can still see in the voting records and reward records in the background, but there are also many familiar names that have been washed away by the torrent of time.

That's all life is.

Gather and scatter, divide and merge.

There is a lot of competition in the circle of online articles, and the authors who can really mix a bite of food are far less than 1 in 10,000.

Therefore, if there is competition, there will be all kinds of open guns and hidden arrows, and this circle is far from being as harmonious and comfortable as I imagined.

I read all the comments that jumped out from time to time to scold me, report me, and insult and curse me.

I always believe that normal readers, except for digging up his ancestral grave, would not bother to spray a novel against an author.

And the vast majority of the list I banned are pirated accounts, as well as accounts that have registered authors.

People's hearts are separated from their stomachs, and every industry and every circle is actually the same.

Writing novels is now just a matter of eating for me, and it's up to me to eat more or less.

When the results are out, don't be jealous, and don't jump out of the street to sneer and step on it.

It's not easy for people to live, but it's always good to be kind.

This time on the shelves, I know the results will not be very good, but it will not be too bad, if you are willing to pay to watch, you can come to the starting point to give a subscription, if you don't want to, you can watch pirated versions with peace of mind, don't look at pirated versions and run over to urge more complaints, this kind of behavior is very shameless.

Finally, I will inform you of the shelf time, which will be put on the shelves at 12 noon tomorrow, Friday the 10th.

Other authors have added conditions, and I may promise to find a motivation for myself to be underestimated.

The alliance leader adds two chapters as usual, and the two alliance leaders currently owe four chapters, so at least six chapters will be updated tomorrow.

The follow-up cumulative 200 monthly tickets will add one chapter, on the basis of the first order of 1000, a total of 200 more will be added to the first order, and the first order will only be on the shelves for 24 hours, because the first order results within 24 hours will determine how far a book can go.

The first order is too bad, and it will be rare to recommend it in the future, so whether it is other channels or readers who watch pirated versions, I watched it for free for two months, and now I am willing to spend a dime to give a first order, welcome to come and subscribe to the first chapter after the shelf.

Okay, see you tomorrow at 12 noon.