Chapter 239: I can't even find a reason to hate
Li Zimu is really a person, at this time, he can't take the initiative to call me, report his safety, and tell me by the way, whether Gu Weiwei will bring him danger in the end, and I don't need him to tell me the whole thing clearly, but this person likes to be so quiet. In the past two days of reading the newspaper, I have read almost every page carefully, and as long as there is nothing fatal, I am still relieved.
Fang Qin's bank also resumed normal business after being reorganized. However, because of this accident, she was not only demoted, but also the rights in her hands were also hollowed out, and it is reasonable to be demoted, but the rights in her hands were hollowed out, which is unusual.
I think someone should be behind the ghost, because as soon as the newcomer takes the position, there will be problems with Zhengyuan's loan in this regard, and Zhengyuan's current capital chain is a little tight, as long as there is a little problem, it is easy to break. The last time the restaurant problem hit Zhengyuan hard, and most of Zhengyuan's income now depends on the food industry, and other aspects are investment projects, and it has not yet made a profit.
After the new president took office, he somehow checked the loan projects, and after such a check, he found several illegal loans, which happened to be positive. Since there may have been a little problem in repaying the loan, which brought risks and losses to the bank, Fang Qin lived a good life in less than two days, and was arrested again.
Before she was arrested, the two of us had met once, it was she who made an appointment with me, and it was very hidden, and the agreed restaurant was also a private restaurant in the alley, and when I was invited to go over, she was there early in the morning, and the decoration here was antique, and each private room was also decorated with antique.
I still came here about ten minutes early, but I didn't expect Fang Qin to come earlier than me, sitting there alone, the window was not open, and the whole space seemed relatively closed. I pushed the door in, and she looked up at me, and when she saw me, she smiled gently.
To be honest, since I knew about them, I had no way to face Fang Qin, in this love, in fact, it has never had much to do with her, she just became a shield very innocently, Ms. Wang Yueling wanted to use her to completely cut off her thoughts, but Liang Yiquan used her to stimulate Wang Yueling, and even used her to protect my mother in the end.
I don't know if Fang Qin knows these things today, but no matter what, from her point of view, Liang Yiquan and Wang Yueling are not good people, and they are very selfish. But after all, Wang Yueling is my mother, no matter what, I have to protect her. Wide range of talents.
The waiter behind me asked, "Can you serve the food?"
Fang Qin nodded slightly, and then beckoned me in, I walked over, sat down opposite her, smiled lightly, said hello in a relaxed tone, and said, "Long time no see, aunt." ”
She reached out and poured me a cup of tea, smiled just as lightly, and said, "Yes, long time no see, I heard you went to London." ”
I was stunned for a moment, this must have been said by Yu Jiaru, I didn't hide it, nodded and answered. Only looked at Fang Qin's face with her spare eyes, only to see her laugh lowly, with a hint of mockery in that smile, and said, "They must be all disappointed, and he must be even more disappointed." When she said this, her eyes were a little colder.
I knew who this 'he' was referring to, and the atmosphere seemed a little stiff, so I picked up my cup and took a sip of tea without speaking.
"How good it is to let this secret be a secret forever, what kind of daughter to find? Death is going to die, and you have to break a dream of yourself, why bother, don't you say? In this way, it is not safe to die, it is really self-inflicted. She hummed coldly, as if she were telling a joke, and then, with a smile, asked, "What was he like when he died?"
I don't know what Fang Qin wants to express to me, I raised my eyes and glanced at her, how to say that expression, obviously smiling, but it looked very bitter, I think she should want to be mean, but I have to say, she looks like she is now, more like sadness.
Women, women like Fang Qin, also want to be embarrassed, when she was played like this, she couldn't say it again now: Actually, I still love him very much. She's definitely not going to make herself so cheap. It's a pity that her expression can't hold back, when a person is alive, she can still hate and hate, and when a person is dead, she can't even find a reason to hate.
She is different from Su Meng, Su Meng's hatred is in her bones, and without hatred, she probably doesn't know how to live, so when people die, she holds on to the living. But Fang Qin won't.
I thought about it for a moment and said, "It's ugly to die, the whole person who was tortured by the disease is out of shape, very thin, and the hair is gone." It's definitely not the same person you thought it was. In fact, you can ask Yu Jiaru about this, and she also saw it. ”
She looked at me, pausing for a second, then smiled lightly, as if to laugh at my ignorance. Thinking about it later, she was really ignorant, how could she open her mouth to ask her daughter about her old lover, it was a mistake she made back then. What's more, Yu Jiaru has a very good relationship with Yu Boyang, if she wants to know that she still has a longing for the people before her, wouldn't it be even more hated.
Who made her habitually say that the past was just a mistake, she was just young and ignorant, and I believe she wouldn't tell the truth anyway. Now I can only tell me the truth, but I don't really want to hear it, I really hate them telling me the truth, and now I don't want to know anything, but I know everything, and I regret it when I know.
Fang Qin looked at me, his originally tense expression suddenly collapsed, maybe the light in this private room was a little dim, I was not so real, this Fang Qin's eyes seemed to flash tears. She was silent for a long time before she asked, "Since you went to London, you must already know everything about the past, right?"
I thought about it for a moment, but I didn't hide it, so I nodded and said 'yes'. She seemed to struggle in her heart for a long time before she suddenly looked up at me, her lips were tightly pursed, and the corners of her mouth moved slightly, as if she was very hesitant, I didn't speak, just waited for her to speak, and I was not in a hurry, let her think about it slowly.
Probably struggling in his heart, he finally decided, took a deep breath, and said, "Did he mention me, even in one sentence?" ”
Her eyes were blazing, and I could vaguely see a trace of expectation in it, of course it was mentioned, but it was just a name, and I knew in my heart what Fang Qin's words meant, and she probably expected Liang Yiquan to have a trace of affection for her.
I looked at her for a long time, thought for a while, and said, "Yes, he said you were a very good woman, but he hurt you, and he felt very guilty. "I'm really talking nonsense with my eyes open, but it's better than telling her the truth. I thought about it for a while, and then said, "Auntie, in fact, things have been going on for so long, so why bother ......"
"You don't have to say more, I understand. Thank you for still being able to deceive me, in fact, I noticed that something was wrong with the two of them early on, but I didn't want to delve into anything, just as if he had affection for me, just when we were in love. Anyway, I knew that Yueling would definitely not be with him, so I kept deceiving myself until the hotel time, and finally completely shattered the dream I had woven myself. He hugged me and kept calling Wang Yueling's name, and he asked her to go with him, don't care about anything, just leave, he said that he didn't even want the Liang family's things. ”
"How touching, isn't it? But to me, these words are a thorn, a prickly prick. So these words, I have been buried in my stomach, and I have no time for anyone, and then Liang Yiquan left. Actually, I thought he would pull Yueling away, but he didn't. When she said it, now there was only sadness, but there was no hatred.
But I don't understand, didn't she get married at that time, and she had a child with her. She probably saw what I was thinking, smiled, and said: "I followed Yu Boyang because I was drunk once, and Liang Yiquan didn't go long after that meeting, I always went to the bar to drink, and I got drunk myself, and once I met Yu Boyang, drunk and disorderly, he was still a person in charge, and he was responsible for me, and then I got pregnant and got married." ”
She said, laughed again, and shook her head: "I also blame myself for being paranoid, Bo Yang is actually quite good, but a year later, Liang Yiquan came back, Wang Yueling called me, and I ......" She took a breath and didn't say any more, just smiled bitterly, "Now that people are gone, even hate has become ridiculous, I want to hate, but how can I hate?"
After saying this, she seemed to spit out the turbid breath that had accumulated in her chest for many years, and she seemed to be a lot happier. I think she's talking to me because I know everything and don't have much of a burden to talk to.
But I feel tired.
Soon, the waiter came to serve the food, it was some home cooking, the dishes were good, I tasted it, it was quite in line with the taste, at least I liked to eat. Now when I meet something I like, I want to take it back for Liang Jing to taste and share it with him, and I immediately thought about it, and when the waiter comes in again, I will pick a few dishes and let them pack them for me.
So when the waiter came in again, I said to him, "When we're almost done, I'll tell you, but I will place another order, it must be freshly made, I don't want to go back with the leftovers." ”
The waiter laughed and nodded.
Fang Qin's shrewd gaze fell on my face, and when the waiter went out, he smiled and said, "What's the matter? ”
With her sharp gaze, I was very uncomfortable to look at, so I laughed dryly and said, "No, I'll take it back and eat it myself." I hung my head slightly and smiled faintly.
Fang Qin looked clear, raised his eyebrows lightly, put down the chopsticks in his hand, and said to me with a bit of seriousness: "To Liang Jing, I advise you to accept it as soon as you see it, don't let yourself sink again, how much emotion can a person like him have in his heart? He is the son of Su Meng, don't try to pluck the hair on the tiger's head." He does things like playing chess, there is no movement at first, and when he closes the net, you will find that the previous inadvertent thing is the invisible net he laid. In any case, you have to remember that he is the son of Su Meng, his own son. ”
I smiled and nodded, and continued to eat, this is not the first time I have heard this kind of words, or maybe I have really heard too much, and now I really don't feel anything in my ears. However, at that time, I was also a little confused, I didn't know why Fang Qin wanted to tell me this, and then she had an accident, and then contacted this words, I suddenly understood, maybe these things have something to do with Liang Jing.