Chapter 137: Now I'm Me
"Uncle Di, go back and rest. Pushed to the front and back of the study by Di Yu, Xu Yue looked back at the man behind him and said so.
When the butler heard this, he nodded, so that he could retreat at that time.
Xu Yue stood in front of the study of the Wei Mansion for a few breaths, before taking a deep breath and reaching out to knock on the door.
"Ahh
There was silence in the door, and it wasn't until more than ten breaths later that Wei Lai's voice came from inside: "Well, I'm here." ”
Xu Yue pushed open the door, turned his wheelchair, and slowly walked into the study.
The shelves on both sides of the study and the floor outside the shelves were filled with neatly stacked books, and the large room was congested with these books, and there was only a narrow passage for people to travel between the door and the desk.
Probably because there are so many books piled up in this room, even if there is a candle in the room, the fire is difficult to penetrate the book wall, and the whole study is still slightly dim.
Xu Yue came to Wei Lai, and although Wei Lai put the book he was looking at in the corner of the desk in time, Xu Yue still caught a glimpse of the word "cut dust" on the title page of the book. Xu Yue was very considerate and did not poke this point, but put the food box on his lap on the desk, and asked with a little reproach: "Ah Lai is really, why don't you even come here for dinner, and lock yourself in this study?"
"Even Uncle Wei didn't love books like you back then, right?"
As he spoke, Xu Yue had already opened the food box and brought out the dishes inside. These things are no longer the "poisons" that were empty and tasted like they were a few days ago. As soon as it was put on the table, the smell of food came to my face.
"Eat something and see, don't go hungry. After Xu Yue arranged the dishes neatly, he handed the dishes and chopsticks to Wei Lai, and said with a light smile in his mouth. The look of reproach and resentment, and the tone of concern, no matter how you look at it, she looks like a gentle and lovely wife.
Few people can refuse such a request from such a girl, but Wei Lai was stunned when Xu Yue handed over those dishes and chopsticks, he was already halfway out, and the hand that was about to take those dishes and chopsticks was immediately suspended in the air, and then he took it back.
"What's wrong?" Xu Yue naturally saw his strange appearance, but asked calmly.
Wei Lai looked directly at Xu Yue, his eyes were blazing, even the girl who had always been calm showed a little nervousness and unnaturalness under Wei Lai's gaze. She reached out and touched her face and asked, "Is there something on my face?"
"I heard that Commander Xu has already set the wedding date in the Prefecture Governor's Mansion today, right?" Wei Lai didn't answer her question, but asked with a serious face.
Xu Yue was stunned for a moment, her face flushed slightly, but she still nodded her head and answered softly: "Hmm." ”
"And after that?" Wei Lai asked again, his face still very solemn, and the slight shyness of his daughter on Xu Yue's cheeks at this moment contrasted sharply.
Xu Yue also reacted at this time, realizing that there was something in Wei Lai's words, she slowly put down the dishes and chopsticks in her hand, raised her eyes to look at Wei Lai, and said, "I told you at the beginning that we only have two months. ”
Her tone was calm, so calm that it was hard for Wei Lai to guess what she was thinking at the moment. And it was such a calm and unpredictable situation that made some of the emotions that Wei Lai had been holding back in his heart finally burst out unconsciously at that time. Wei Lai stared at her, and his voice was a little louder: "Do you know what it means to you after cutting the red dust?"
Xu Yue didn't answer his question, but began to look Wei Lai up and down, and finally his eyes stayed on Wei Lai's cheeks with a little anger, Xu Yue looked at him like this, the corners of his mouth suddenly rose, and his eyes lit up.
Then she asked with a slight smile, "What's the matter?"
Wei Lai frowned, he couldn't understand why Xu Yue still had the heart to laugh with him at this time, he opened his mouth to say something more, but at this time, Xu Yue suddenly stretched out his hand and suddenly opened it towards the desk in front of Wei Lai. The book that Wei Lai had carefully hidden in the corner flew out and fell into Xu Yue's hands.
Xu Yue looked intently, but saw that the title page of the book had the words "Cutting the Dust and Floating Thoughts" written on it, and the handwriting in the book was not rubbing, but hand-copied. And she looked at the various books that were placed on the desk by Wei Lai-"Guiyuan Seven Palaces", "Dust Cutting Divine Palace", "Guiyuan Secret History", ......
Some of these books that record the Guiyuan Palace may have some basis, and some cannot be said to be just arbitrarily deduced by others. And Wei Lai began to study these things, and what was going on was naturally known at a glance with Xu Yue's intelligence.
She slowly put down the book of "Thoughts on Cutting the Dust", and turned her head to look at Wei Lai, who was about to say something, and the smile on her face suddenly retracted.
"Ah Lai, do you know what kind of place Guiyuan Palace is?"
Wei Lai frowned and asked, "What do you mean?"
"Guiyuan Palace is the third ranked Divine Sect in the north, and the land of the Nine Kingdoms in the north is so vast, there are no less than thousands of people who can call the name of the Divine Sect, and the dynasty has changed for thousands of years, and the sect has its rise and fall, but this Tianque Realm, H Nine Lotus Golden Temple, and Guiyuan Palace are firmly in the top three, although their rankings have changed, but the top three thrones have never faked others. Xu Yue said slowly: "I know that you have come into contact with that prince of the Tianque Realm, his name is Song Douyuan, right?"
"His cultivation and talent are not too high, but this is far from representing the true strength of the former Three Divine Sects in the Northern Realm. He's just a star on the list of new generation generals, well, to be precise, a candidate star. The real general star can only be truly determined after going to the mountains and rivers map, and as I once told you, the mountains and rivers map is the most important foundation for cultivating disciples in the Tianque realm, and only the disciples who have really gone through it can represent the true strength of the younger generation in the Tianque realm. The reason why Song Douyuan deliberately wanted to return to the list of generals was that after the mountain and river map was opened again, he would be qualified to go to it. ”
"The same is true for the Nine Lotus Golden Temple and the Guiyuan Palace, they each have their own special methods for cultivating their juniors, and only after the help and promotion of those methods can those disciples be counted as their true strength. ”
And before that, taking Song Douyuan's as an example, he didn't even have the qualifications to carry shoes for these disciples who could represent the true strength of the younger generation of the sect. ”
Hearing Xu Yue say this, Wei Lai's brows furrowed a little deeper, he stared at Xu Yue deadly, and asked, "What do you mean by telling me this?"
Xu Yue glanced at the books about Guiyuan Palace on the desk again, then shook his head and said, "It's useless." ”
"The more you see, the more you know, and the more you know, the more desperate and frightened you become. ”
"Is it because they're strong enough that we're going to be caught?" Wei Lai asked, puzzled.
Xu Yue suddenly stretched out his hand and held Wei Lai's hand: "My father said that everyone in this world has their own life, accept everything you get, and admit everything you will lose." Person...... You can't fight with the sky. ”
Xu Yue's gentle words echoed in Wei Lai's ears, Wei Lai looked sideways at the girl, and asked in a strange tone, "What is life?"
Xu Yue smiled and said, "Do you know what it's like to be born lame?"
"I can't go where I want to go, and I can't feel the spring meadows, the summer ponds, the autumn wilderness, the winter snow with my feet. I don't know the pain of the wind blowing through my cheeks when I run, nor the laughter of chasing people. ”
"I didn't want to accept this kind of life, I wanted to be a normal person, so my dad made a lot of efforts at that time, and he found almost all the people he could find to treat me. ”
"But the results were not satisfactory, and the famous doctors were helpless about my illness. Until I was ten years old......" Xu Yue, who said this, paused, she glanced at Wei Lai, and added: "It's the second year you promised to marry me." ”
"I suddenly became seriously ill, and it was very strange, and I felt like I was in the middle of the snow and ice, and no matter how much I burned the fire, no matter how thick the blanket was, it didn't help. The doctors in Ningxiao City were as helpless as ever, and it was the state pastor who came to suppress the evil disease at that time. But suppressing does not mean curing ......"
"Maybe it's because of the chill that came up, but the state pastor, who had no clue about my own leg disability in the past, made a new discovery after suppressing the chill for me. ”
"The Governor said that there was a force hidden in me, and at first it was very peaceful, but it only blocked the meridians in my feet, so I was born unable to walk. But when I was ten years old, that power changed, and he became more powerful and restless, spreading from under his body to all around his body, and that was the strange disease. Although Lord Governor helped me suppress the raging chill for the time being, it was only temporary, and if I continued like this, at most eighteen years old, I would be swallowed by that force. ”
"Huh?" Wei Lai's face changed when he heard this, this was the first time he had heard of such a thing, and he had never heard anyone mention it before.
"We haven't seen each other since we were nine years old, and it's not surprising that you don't know, but my father kept it secret, and he didn't even know about it for the rest of his life. Of course, Xu Yue saw Wei Lai's surprise, and she whispered at that time: "I remember you once said that you were born weak in the inner mansion and did not live to be sixteen years old, but I was born with a powerful and incomparable strength, so I could not live to be eighteen years old, don't you think that in this way, it is indeed a match made in heaven?"
Wei Lai's brows tightened, and he didn't have the heart to respond to Xu Yue's teasing, he asked in a deep voice: "If I remember correctly, Nian Yue'er should be eighteen years old this year, right?"
"Hmm. Xu Yue nodded. "I think you should be able to understand how you feel when you know when you're dying......"
Wei Lai replied in a muffled voice: "Unwilling." ”
"That's right, it's just unwilling, it's just not resigned. Xu Yue said slowly, "So I flipped through any book I could read, looking for every way that might save my life and make me live past the age of eighteen." ”
"You found it?" Wei Lai asked.
Xu Yue paused obviously at that time, stopped talking for a while, and then said again: "I found Meng Hangju." ”
These words made Wei Lai stunned, and Xu Yue's words were very strange.
Who is Meng Hangju? One of the seven palaces of Guiyuan Palace, the palace master of the Dust Slashing Divine Palace. Not to mention the lofty status of Meng Hangju, Guiyuan Palace alone is tens of thousands of miles away from Ningzhou. Xu Yue is only eighteen years old now and her feet are inconvenient, how did she find Meng Hangju on her own back then? Wei Lai didn't know if this was her slip of the tongue or if there was another reason, but he faintly sensed that there were still some hidden secrets that Xu Yue didn't want to talk about.
"She took me as an apprentice, promised to save me, and gave me hope to live. Xu Yue said again.
Wei Lai took over the conversation in a deep voice: "But the price is to practice "Cutting Red Dust" ......"
"At least I'm still alive......," Xu Yue said.
"Can that kind of life be considered alive? Do you know what it means to cut dust?" Wei Lai remembered the account he had read in the book about cutting red dust, and his voice suddenly became a little louder, so he asked in a loud voice.
"Of course I do. Xu Yue responded with a smile. "It's actually very good, even if it means death, but since we don't remember each other anymore, then no one will grieve for anyone, neither worry nor be cared for. ”
Saying that, Xu Yue held Wei Lai's hand a little harder: "Two months." ”
"It's actually a lot longer than you think, and you can do many, many things. ”
"Instead of thinking about these things that we can't fight, worrying about him, worrying about him, worrying about him, it is better to grasp the present ......"
"Cherish the ...... now"
"I cherish my ...... now"