Chapter 37: Goodbye, Silence
"Murmo. I emphatically said to the police: "The 'Mo' of 'Mozi', the 'Mo' of 'Silence', I was born in Honghe Prefecture, Yunnan Province in '95...... I have been working in Kunming for four years, and I have been roommates with the deceased Lin Yifei, and we haven't known each other for long......"
I told everything from the time I knew Lin Yifei to why she committed suicide, and two hours passed unconsciously, and in these two hours, the police contributed his pack of cigarettes to me, and brought me a bottle of mineral water, and when I said why Lin Yifei is a dog, I choked up several times and couldn't go on, and the female policeman who made the transcript also burst into tears. I don't want to say how sensational, but it's all true!
The policewoman, who had been making a record without asking questions, took the finished transcript to me, choked up and said to me, "Let's see, if there is no problem...... Right here...... Let's sign it now. ”
I didn't look carefully at what she recorded, I wrote my name below, and then I looked at the police and said: "It was the official account of '**Local Affairs' that forced Lin Yifei to death, and the operator of this official account has an unshirkable responsibility, please ...... Please give her back a clean slate. ”
The policewoman nodded, then took out her mobile phone and handed it to me, and said to me: "The original copy of this suicide note can't be given to you for the time being, I can only take a photo of it and show it to you." ”
I took the policewoman's mobile phone and saw a letter on the screen, which was Lin Yifei's masterpiece before jumping off the building:
I'm tired silently, I think I'd better go, I feel sorry for you and you will have to face so many gossips next, and I can't stand by your side and bear this with you. I don't regret what I did, if I was given another chance, I would still be willing to help Niuniu find her parents, and I would still be willing to bear these malicious slanders, I was just too tired and wanted to take a break.
Some people say that a person's life is a practice, or a redemption, redeeming our own soul and guiding him and her to the light, and the sins we endure in this life are all the causes planted in our previous lives, I think...... I must have been a wicked person in my previous life, otherwise why would fate be so unfair to me? Do you remember what I told you? I was tired, I wanted to go home, I wanted to go back to my mother's arms, and I told you that my mother's arms are the warmest place in the world.
In the days after leaving Kunming, I really wanted to go home to enjoy this kind of hug, and after enduring so many grievances outside, I could find a harbor where I could feel at ease, but I couldn't do anything.
When I was sixteen years old, my father had an affair and abandoned the family, my mother couldn't think of jumping off a building and left this world, my father sent me to school for boarding school, and from then on, I could no longer find my mother's arms, I was a homeless child.
I was wronged, I could only find a corner where there was no one, crying secretly, and my eyes were red and I didn't dare to come out to meet people. I have lived in a deep inferiority complex since I was a child, I don't like to make friends, and I don't know how to cater to people and please others, I have always been a lonely person. I always feel that people in this world are so hypocritical and terrible. I think everyone is selfish, until I met you, you told me the story of Niu Niu, and I told Niu Niu to give you a flower, and I saw the good side of your heart from these details.
Do you know what I thought at the time? I was very happy at that time, because under your description, I could feel that Niuniu was a very cute girl, and when I saw Niuniu and her grandmother, I actually felt a sense of sympathy for each other. So when you apologize and say that you shouldn't have told me about Niuniu, there wouldn't have been so much trouble, I don't blame you! Not at all, if I were given another chance, I would still be willing to help Niuniu find her parents, and I would still be willing to bear these malicious slanders, I was just too tired and wanted to take a break.
I'm gone, I'm a little tired, I don't want to explain right and wrong to anyone anymore, my mother is watching me from the sky, she knows that I am not a big liar who borrowed Niu Niu and my grandmother to cheat money, she knows that I am her good daughter, I miss her, I miss her arms.
Silently, I'm leaving, there are more than 20,000 yuan on the bank card in my wallet, which I have saved money since I went to college, and the password of the bank card is my birthday 199749, you take out the money on the card and give it to Niuniu and her grandmother, I don't know when she will be able to find her parents, first use the money to find a kindergarten to study. If only I had more money, I could open a small homestay by Fuxian Lake, and I could let Niuniu's grandmother live in it, help clean and pay her salary, and she wouldn't have to work so hard.
Also, the stray dog named "Bubu" is my best friend, but unfortunately I can't take it upstairs to raise, the landlord doesn't allow it, if I have my own house, I can live with "Bubu", and it doesn't have to wander around like me, if it doesn't wander, it will feel that this world is a little better.
Okay, silently, I'm tired, I don't want to write anymore, thank you for appearing in my life, I'm tired, I want to go to another world to find my mother, where there is her warm embrace, I don't have to wander in this homeless world anymore......
Goodbye - this world
Goodbye - silently
After reading the last word, I couldn't stop crying, lying on the table and crying bitterly, and I didn't know that the mobile phone in my hand fell to the ground.
The policewoman bent down to pick up her mobile phone, comforted me and said, "Don't worry, I will help you find out who the operators of those two official accounts are, and give her justice." ”
"Justice?" I yelled, "What's the point of you fucking telling me justice at this time? Why do you say justice when people are dead? Where are you all dead? I have a fucking reply on Weibo on Weibo Aite Evening News, Aite Times, and Aite Police and Civil Service Weibo? Even I called the evening newspaper and told me to pay for advertising, is this what the fuck you civil servants do?"
"Don't get excited. The policeman who gave me a cigarette said: "We understand that you are angry now, but please also control your emotions, after all, this is not the result of one of us, your friend failed to withstand the pressure and committed suicide and jumped off the building, I sympathize, but you ......"
"Uncle Liu is fine...... the policewoman interrupted the male policeman and said, "Let him vent." After that, she said to me, "I'm sorry, it's our dereliction of duty, I apologize to you......"
I realized my gaffe, I didn't want to say anything, there was a knock on the door outside the office, and a policeman stuck his head in and said to the policeman who recorded the confession: "Director Liu, there are a lot of reporters outside who want to know the situation, what should I do?"