The last month, the last few days of the update, is really getting more and more distracted, I have summarized the external reasons and internal reasons myself.

External reasons, or excuses I make outside of myself:

1. From the beginning of the new contract incident in May to the end of the dust of the contract incident later, the author of the street during this period was inevitably affected by some influences, but at that time I tried my best to stabilize myself, although the quality was low, but the things that should be said should actually be barely clear.

So, the impact is actually not very big.

2. Family reasons. If you want to do this full-time, there will always be some pressure on your family before the grades come up.

Naturally, this had some effect on me, but in the end, it was my own communication skills that didn't soothe my parents.

This is caused by the fact that I have not cultivated my personality well since I was a child, and I have always been relatively passive, both because of my original family and because of my own reasons.

From junior high school to university, I really tried to change my personality, but when I thought I had changed a lot, it was just that I was already familiar with the new environment.

My personality still hasn't changed much.

But it's not a passive, introverted person, probably don't understand this very well, so I'll simply draw a conclusion, opinions within the family can't be unified, and my parents and I are responsible, but I chose to write this path, so the responsibility for not writing well is still on me.

3. As I said before, there are some things at home this month, and they come in a row, which is either a bad thing, or relatives moving wine and some other things, so it interrupts the rhythm of the update.

I'd like to try to save some manuscripts, but unfortunately I haven't been able to write them, and I've always been quite uncomfortable with that.

The above three points are external factors that lead to the decline in the quantity and quality of my updates, and the impact on my updates should be between 20%~30%.

Internal causes, which are entirely the cause of my own problems:

1. I have been writing for a long time, which makes me feel a little tired, but I don't really want to break the change, and the words I write are inevitably a little perfunctory.

Second, I didn't prepare the manuscript and didn't arrange the external time, which caused the time to think alone this month to get shorter and shorter, and I gradually lost my ideas.

3. Addiction and inextricability.

Fourth, addicted to games and unable to extricate themselves.

If you make a fan-shaped chart, the last two points affect me more than 60%, and my self-discipline is really too poor.

Obviously, I have updated 200,000 words a month, more than half of the authors, and I have been playing games for no more than three hours a day for several months, so why did I suddenly become addicted to it this month?

I'm ...... Studied but cannot comprehend......

All of the above factors combined to make it harder and harder for me to keep up this month, and the updates became more and more perfunctory, and eventually I couldn't write anymore.

In the end, I even wrote a bullshit ending, just to end this book that basically lost its train of thought and didn't want to think about it anymore.

To be honest, writing 780,000 words, which has broken through my previous ceiling, but it is far from the lower limit of 1 million I set before, and even made such an ending.

I really have to cover my face......

But

However, even though the ending is written like this, I still want to try to keep writing.

I may still not be able to write a good story, but after analyzing my personality, I think it's the best path for me.

80% chance of earning one or two thousand;

20% chance of earning three or four thousand;

After all, I don't dare to take the latter path, for uncertain things, I prefer to participate in the interview in the job training first, otherwise my interview will hardly be sent.

But it is impossible for all professions to give a chance to work first, so slowly grind in this line, although I am sorry for my parents, but I must always be worthy of myself before I can be worthy of others.

That's the end of the gossip.

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