Yu Xin was very distressed in my arms and asked, "How did you find this place alone?" I didn't tell anyone that I came here. ”

"I felt that you were here, and then I came, the moment I saw your car last night, I was moved by my own persistence, why did a person run here quietly?"

"Let's go and rest first. Yuxin whispered in my arms: "You slept in the car for a few hours, you must not have rested well, go to the room to sleep." ”

It doesn't matter if I sleep or not, I really want to take a shower right now.

The afternoon sun is a little lazy sprinkled on the sea surface of Erhai Lake, outside the floor-to-ceiling window, Yuxin and An Ran are sitting on the terrace drinking tea together, accompanied by the wind of Erhai Lake, and this quiet afternoon.

I walked out of the room wrapped in a bathrobe, and An Ran saw me and smiled and said, "You wake up, come over for tea, and I will arrange for the aunt in the kitchen to cook a bowl of noodles for you." ”

"Thank you. "I walked under the umbrella and sat down in another chair.

An Ran got up and said, "You guys talk first, I'll go down." ”

Yu Xin and I watched An Ran go downstairs, and after An Ran left, Yu Xin poured me a cup of tea, looked at me with a smile and asked, "How is it?

"Very good. I took a sip of tea and asked, "Why did you come here alone?"

Yu Xin did not answer my question directly, but asked rhetorically: "Don't you think it's very comfortable here in Anran? In the past few days here, I have never turned on my mobile phone in my bag, I haven't read WeChat, I have bid farewell to the circle of friends, and every day is to quietly read books, drink tea, and it is easy to forget the time here, just like now, such an afternoon is really comfortable." ”

There is a piano piece echoing in my ears, which seems to be "kiss the" by Korean composer Lee Yeum-min

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The soothing melody echoed in my ears, watching the Erhai Lake in the distance gradually fall into my mind, this is indeed an afternoon that is easy to forget the time.

I put down the cup in my hand, looked at Lu Yuxin, who was sitting opposite, and said softly: "Jing Yao used her family's connections to make Cheng Jia sentenced very lightly, she will return to France in six days, and she should have completely emigrated." I know that you have suffered a lot of grievances recently, and I want to say something to apologize, but I feel that we shouldn't be like this, as if we said something 'sorry' or something, but it made our relationship more strange, and invisibly alienated our intimacy. When I was with Jing Yao before, she also minded that we were dealing with each other, and she always felt that I had paid more to you than to her. Now why am I not doing the same thing as before? Jing Yao suddenly returned to China, and I was busy following her, and I have to admit that I really ignored you these days. Lao Zhou and Qin Mu have taught me more than once, so let me not ignore your feelings. Actually, I know that I shouldn't ignore you like this, I really didn't do a good enough job. There are some things that I can't escape, such as Jing Yao's return to China to deal with Cheng Jia and Gao Xu's affairs, do you know what reason she said? She said that she was helping me atone for my sins, so that when I recall it many years later, I won't have such deep self-blame, I believe she didn't say this for the sake of pretentiousness, this is her nature, when she returned to China to handle immigration, she met me who was still delivering food and working as a security guard, she felt sorry for me living at the bottom, and resolutely gave up the bright future of France, and chose to return to China to drive something' The purpose of Jinnian is to give me a decent job, but I don't understand her good intentions. Gao Xu's mother is now supporting a dilapidated home, and Jing Yao has sent a sum of money, in fact, she has no need for this at all, and she has no obligation to do this, but she did it! Many people don't understand Jing Yao, but I do. ”

Yuxin has been looking at me quietly, her eyes are very warm, in this afternoon, bathed in the spring sunshine, forgetting the time.

I continued in her gentle gaze: "I'm not ignorant, and I'm not trying to make any excuses for myself, when I know that you are leaving alone, there is a disturbance in my heart that I have never felt before, as if I have lost the whole world. Jing Yao brought me my coat to you that day, I can guess that you must be jealous, I lied to you the night before and said that I forgot my clothes at home, I didn't say that I put my clothes on Jing Yao because I was afraid that you would think too much, but it backfired. The only thing I'm proud of now is that I've never done anything sorry for you since I said I love you. Helping Jing Yao do these things is more about helping each other between friends!" Speaking of this, I paused, returned a tone and continued: "Indeed, I admit that I still have a little unfinished feelings for Jing Yao, the night before leaving, we walked to the parking lot of the ancient town at the bar in Laozhou, on the way you asked me about Jing Yao, and when you got home in the elevator, you shed tears, at that time I didn't dare to admit the true emotions in my heart, now that I think about it, it's nothing, after all, I have to face it." We are all mortals, we all have our own inner feelings, when I dare not face it, choose to escape in disguise, that is the sadness of the trap, really see it, dare to admit this feeling, dare to face it, have a very clear idea in the mind to face this feeling, and also know to classify this feeling in the category of friendship. ”

After saying so much in one breath, I felt more relaxed than I had ever been, and it happened that An Ran brought a bowl of noodles to me at this time, and said with a smile: "I'm hungry, you didn't eat anything in the morning and went to sleep, hurry up and eat the noodles while they're hot." ”

"Thank you. I got up and took it, and I put it on the small table in front of me and was about to eat it.

Lu Yuxin got up and walked to the stairs on the side of the rooftop without a sound, leaving me with a lonely back, seeing her get up and leave, I suddenly had a feeling of despair, why did she leave?

Maybe a person is sad and desperate to a certain extent, and he can ignore everything.

Yuxin's personality is more introverted, she can act like it very calmly, and she can also suppress sadness and despair in her heart, not quarreling, not blaming is the last gentleness she left me?

The chopsticks in her hand weigh a thousand pounds, as if it was difficult to pick up a noodle in the bowl, but An Ran was next to it, whether this bowl of noodles was cooked by her or not, at least it was a heart, if I didn't eat a bite, it would be a little unreasonable.

So I can only endure my heart, pretend to be casual, pick up a big lump of noodles with chopsticks, and stuff my mouth full, so that it seems that there is no facial expression, right?