095 Empathy, Touching & Love(1)

Time: Minshuo Chengdu concert

She didn't actually think about it, but she didn't understand why she was now-after everything had settled, a trace of regret ignited in her heart, this small flame was very dangerous, how to extinguish it was a choice she had to make.

Why is it that now, many memories are flooding back, these songs sound so strange and yet so familiar. Hideka felt as if she had a lot of memories that didn't belong to her, the nightmarish horror and the past she didn't want to mention, all of which were someone else's business, and since she went to college and came into contact with those bodies and internal organs, Hideka felt liberated to a certain extent. In that way, the sticky organs with blood, whether they are alive or have been alive, give people an unreal feeling, can life really be cut, divided, repaired, and stitched up like this? Maybe I should study Chinese medicine. In that way, you don't know anything, you just become a pawn or a grain of sand in the chaotic world, drowning in the ocean of academics, but you never want to break the ice.

Xiuxiang felt that her chest was very hot and heavy, and she didn't dare to think about the feeling of suffocation anymore. Xiuxiang clenched her hand, and found that her fingertips were cold, "I can't think about it anymore" She closed her memories, and then took a deep breath, once, twice, three times, her heartbeat was not so intense, she felt that she saw the sun again.

No one is looking at her, Caiyue is not, Yang Mian is not either, no one, everyone is looking at Min Suk on stage, he is still rapping, she doesn't understand those rap songs very well, because she can't hear the lyrics clearly, but she seems to be able to feel that emotion, maybe one day she will understand, but not now.

Caiyue turned her head in the moment she realized that Hideka was going to look at her immediately, and she was sure that Hideka didn't see herself staring at her.

"It's weird. Cai Yue couldn't help but think that this picture was too familiar to her, and she felt strange from the heart, she hadn't seen Xiuxiang like this for many years, she didn't do this after she came back from the college sports test, she didn't do this when she participated in an international English competition in college, and she didn't confess to the boy she liked in college and was rejected, and although she was a child, she also participated, because she was the kind of person who could study anywhere for money.

Choosing to go to Xiuxiang's school to study is child's play. Caiyue thought that what her father said back then was right, but she really had an obligation to protect Xiuxiang. In a way, Caiyue is not lying, she is not the kind of person who can create stories out of her imagination, she is always able to give full play to her existing cognition, and then become more like the protagonist or supporting character of the story than anyone else. A story that I don't even believe in, I don't know why others can believe it. This is really amazing, and so is the camera brother just now, so easy to believe in himself, all why. Xiuxiang once said that Cai Yue has the ability to breathe people's hearts, and Cai Yue scoffs at it. She doesn't want to be simplified, conceptualized, defined, even demonized or immortalized, she likes to see both sides of things.

It is conceivable that Caiyue grew up under pressure from the environment, and she was told by others since she was a child that her family had money, and she had to do more when she was a child, so that others felt that it was fair, and others would let her go. Even if there is something that everyone raises together to initiate and do, she also has to take more things and spend more money, everyone takes it for granted, and she herself is used to it, although at first she didn't understand why she had more money than others, and the money was not her own, it was all her parents', why did her parents have to contribute more?

"It's as if it's wrong if you don't contribute too much", but she is powerless to question everyone's decision, she just knows that the power of everyone is great, and it is impossible to reverse those forces, even if it is difficult to do it with money. However, the fear caused by such thoughts is a secret in Caiyue's own heart that Xiuxiang, Caiyue's best friend, doesn't know.

Only Xiuxiang didn't do that. She's so different from everyone else. I went to eat ice cream with Xiuxiang, and Xiuxiang wanted to buy her own share, and she never had to invite her. Going out with Xiuxiang and buying movie tickets is also buying your own. When I go to eat with Xiuxiang, it's all AA system, or I invite one person once. Every time she gives Xiuxiang a small gift, Xiuxiang will also give her something after a while.

In fact, Caiyue likes Xiuxiang from the bottom of her heart and wants to help her, but every time she is rejected like this, she has never been unhappy, she feels that she is treated fairly. This is because she feels that Xiuxiang is free, just as she is free.

No one can restrain them, just as no one can change them. Cai Yue feels that Xiu Xiang is another version of herself, if she is also in the position of Xiu Xiang, then Cai Yue can live very well, and even in a certain corner of her heart, Cai Yue feels that she is too ordinary because she is rich. Cai Yue felt that that kind of refusal did not hurt people because Cai Yue's feeling was: Xiu Xiang felt in her heart that she could and did not need the help of others.