Falling into darkness for a short time in front of him, Wen Yan held his breath and waited patiently, and after a long time, his vision finally returned to clarity, and when he opened his eyes, the thick ink under the man's eyes was almost overflowing.

"I'm asleep, I'm sorry. ”

Wen Yan opened her mouth to explain, swallowing the blood in her mouth, not wanting Yin Xi to see her abnormality.

"You've been sleeping more and more lately. ”

Yin Xi whispered that the last time he took Wen Yan out shopping, this woman actually fell asleep in the fitting room!

When Yin Xi said this, she didn't think much else, her eyes lowered gently, and she suppressed the coolness under her eyes, yes, she was sleeping longer and longer.

On the other hand, the time of wakefulness is getting shorter and shorter, and the drugs promised to be given are not as effective as before.

What this means, Wen Yan knows very well, but she can't do anything about it.

Yin Xi got out of the car, went around the front of the car to open the door, and bent down to unbuckle her seat belt. Then pick her up.

Wen Yan did not refuse, and obediently hugged his neck.

Her hand was very cold, and it was only attached to the back of Yin Xi's neck, and it was also found to be abnormal.

Yin Xi took off her coat and wrapped her up before carrying her out of the car.

It's already March, the sun is shining on the body, the bright colors look very comfortable, Wen Yan closed his eyes lazily, and the man's gentle voice sounded: "Tell me directly next time it's cold." ”

She is not cold, with her current physical condition, even after soaking in hot water, her hands and feet are cold.

But she didn't say it, only obediently responded: "Okay." ”

After entering the elevator, Yin Xi still didn't put her down, but hugged her and turned upside down: "It's light again." He said in an affirmative tone.

Her recent appetite has been getting smaller and smaller, light is certain, but not so light that she can feel it when he hugs her.

"It's just your psychological effect. ”

She opened her mouth and replied casually, the man looked down at her, his eyes were deep, and just when she thought that this person had seen everything, the man looked away and asked helplessly, "Is it that the food I made is too unpalatable?"

If it weren't for the fact that the tip of her tongue really hurt, Wen Yan would have thought that she was hallucinating, and this man who wanted to sit down would talk to her in such a tone!

The woman's eyes in her arms were a little confused. The red lips are slightly open, innocent like a little white rabbit, but the cheeks are so thin that the cheekbones are a little prominent.

His throat rolled up and down, but he finally couldn't hold back, and lowered his head to press the seductive red.

The gentle and delicate kiss consumed all his restraint and patience to not eat the person.

This is the woman who caused him to turn Cloud City upside down and didn't find it, and it is also a woman who didn't sleep well for three years and couldn't be interested in other women.

He had been looking for her for three years and had been thinking about her for three years.

From the first time he saw her again, he wanted to hold her under him like and that, so that this woman would know what would happen if he angered him, and he would never dare to run away in the future.

can look at her thin body. Thinking of her despair like a trapped beast three years ago, his heart suddenly cut like a knife.

She didn't live well without him, and all her bad came from him.

It was he who changed her from a girl to a woman, and it was he who indirectly caused her to lose her qualifications as a child and a mother.

Three years ago, she said: Yin Xi, between us, there is no reunion, only death and separation.

When she spoke, her voice was calm and soft, but it was a determination not to look back.

This time, he thought. He really hurt her deeply, otherwise she would not have said such heartless words with such a gentle temperament.

His thoughts stopped abruptly here, and Wen Yan turned his head to avoid his gentle kiss, and there was no particular disgust, but his expression was faint: "I'm tired." ”

All the charm was cut off by these three simple words, and her body was still clamoring for her, but her reason had already returned, and the elevator was opened.

Back in the house, Yin Xi put Wen Yan on the sofa, did not go to the kitchen to cook as before, but took out her mobile phone to order takeout, and listened to the names of several dishes he announced, which turned out to be what she liked to eat before.

In the middle of the call, the man suddenly looked down at her: "What else do you want to eat?"

Unbeknownst to him, her sense of taste had ceased to exist a year earlier, and her body would not allow her to eat the food.

But looking at this man's serious eyes, she still replied: "I want a cabbage soup." ”

The takeaway was delivered quickly, and it was put on the table, and it was still steaming hot, and it was indeed much better than what this man usually did.

I picked up the chopsticks and took a bite, and the food was chewed in my mouth, but my tongue still couldn't taste anything.

The taste is the same as chewing wax, which is about how it feels.

sighed in his heart and continued to eat, the man didn't eat with the bowl, he kept looking at her, and he would help her pick up two more chopsticks for any dish she had two more chopsticks.

Yin Xi ordered a total of six dishes, one soup, Wen Yan tasted all the dishes, and drank another mouthful of soup to be full, but he still reluctantly ate two mouthfuls of rice, just two bites, and his stomach began to swell faintly.

The man put a bowl of soup in front of her, and the tender yellow cabbage leaves floated on it, the color was very beautiful, but Wen Yan twisted his eyebrows: "I can't eat it." ”

The man did not obey her as before, and released a bit of displeasure: "Eat more." ”

There was no malice in this coercion, nor was it obvious, but it still touched a certain nerve in her brain in an instant, and before she could react to her senses, her hand had already swept off a table of food.

The sound of the dishes and chopsticks shattering on the ground was like a key, opening the violence that had been controlled by the drug.

"I said I can't eat it, what do you want!? Do you have to force me to eat? I can't eat it, I can't eat it, I can't eat it! If I eat it more, my stomach will burst! And these things don't taste at all! Why should I eat ......?"

Wen Yan heard himself screaming, loud enough to penetrate his eardrums, he was too emotional, his chest was full of nausea, and he turned his head and ran into the toilet and vomited in the dark.

The little thing he had just eaten, before he had time to digest it, poured it out again, and at the end of the vomit, Wen Yan felt that his stomach juice was spit out, and there was still no taste in his mouth.

Sitting limply on the ground, the man took a hot towel to help her wipe her face and hands. Put hot water in the bathtub, help her take a shower and carry her to bed.

As soon as she touched the bed, she wanted to curl up in a ball, and only this position made her feel better.

However, Yin Xi didn't let her succeed, and fished her back and pressed her firmly under him: "What did you mean by what you just said?"

There was nothing to hide at this time, and she replied calmly: "I have no sense of taste." ”

The man's hand around her tightened violently, making her gasp a little, but her stomach felt better.

"How long?"

"A year. ”

How desperate it feels to not be able to eat the taste of foodYin Xi has not experienced it, but he has experienced how long a year is.

In the three years that he couldn't find this woman, every day was a torment for him.

Wen Yan came back and behaved normally, so normal that he almost forgot that she had been a person with major depression.

She has no sense of taste and can't eat anything. So no matter whether his food is salty or light, she can eat it without changing her face.

She eats very little, so small that not as much as a kitten eats.

What happened in the three years that she had been gone?

These questions came flooding in, and Yin Xi felt a deep sense of powerlessness, and the warm reaction just now made him dare not easily ask questions to stimulate her again.

After taking a moment to calm down, the strength in Yin Xi's hand was a little less: "I'll take you to the hospital." ”

"No, it's an old problem, it's nauseous if you eat too much, I'll just take some stomach medicine. ”

"What kind of medicine, I'll buy it for you. ”

"No, I don't. It's in a drawer under the bedside table. ”

Yin Xi squatted down, opened the drawer, there was only a medicine bottle inside, white, without any trademarks and instructions, unscrewed the lid, there was only a small half bottle of medicine left, Yin Xi took a general look, and it was only a dozen pills.

"Where did you buy the medicine?"

"The doctor prescribed it, it was a course of treatment, and it was fine after eating. ”

Yin Xi didn't believe all of Wen Yan's statement, but just turned around and poured a glass of boiling water and came in.

"How many pills at a time?"

"Two grains. ”

Yin Xi poured two pills for her, and waited for her to eat and lie down to sleep before going to the bathroom to take a bath.

Yin Xi entered the house while wiping her hair with a dry towel, and wanted to say a few words to Wen Yan, but she actually fell asleep.

After falling asleep, Wen Yan's expression was very quiet, she was lying on her side, only half of her face was exposed, and some of it was covered by her loose hair.

The hand brushed away the slightly messy hair as if it had a consciousness of its own, and the woman's upturned nose and beautiful pink lips were completely displayed in front of her.

During this time, she slept in front of him unguardedly, and he was like an addiction, like staring at her sleeping face all night, reluctant to close his eyes, and reluctant to disappear in front of him like this.

After rubbing his fingertips on his soft skin for a while, Yin Xi's eyes fell on the medicine bottle on the bedside table, and he got up softly and came to the study to dial the promised phone.

The phone was answered after a while, and the man's sleepy voice rang: "Hello, I'm promised, what's the matter?"

"What kind of medicine did you prescribe to her? ”

“……”

There was no sound on the other end of the phone, so I should have heard who he was.

"Last time you told me that she had recovered and was in good health, how could she have no sense of taste, couldn't eat, and was getting thinner and thinner?"

Yin Xi's voice was very cold, he was questioning, and he was also angry, he knew that he was the culprit, so he didn't even have the courage to ask her face-to-face.

"She can't eat because she doesn't have a sense of taste. ”

Promising to answer, Yin Xi was stunned, and his anger suddenly turned into a sharp knife into his chest, and at the same time, there was a coldness that could freeze the blood.

What's the reason for that?

These six words lingered on his lips for a long time, but he couldn't ask them after all.

The hand holding the phone was very hard. Yin Xi felt that his heartbeat was skipping a beat, he was afraid, afraid of the truth that could be found by poking open the window paper.

There was a deathly silence on both ends of the phone, and I don't know how long it took, Yin Xi finally spoke, his voice hoarse as if he had swallowed a cactus.

"What's wrong with her?"

"The drugs were to suppress a disease that was scientifically called Benri. ”

"What is the symptom of this disease?"

"The senses gradually deteriorate until death. ”

The voice of the promise was as gentle as ever, but it sounded like the most ruthless judge in Yin Xi's ears.

What does it mean that the senses gradually degenerate until death?

"There are only three such cases in the world, and the first two patients have already died in the institute, and the patients will gradually lose their sense of smell, taste, touch, and finally sight and hearing. I met her three years ago, two and a half years ago she lost her sense of smell, two years ago she lost her sense of touch, a year ago she lost her sense of taste and now she ......"

Yin Xi hung up the phone suddenly, as if there was a trapped beast roaring in his chest, roaring to tear his heart to pieces, along with his body.

He didn't dare to think about how far Wen Yan's senses had degraded now. I can't imagine what the world is like without smelling and feeling!

He hadn't heard of Benri's messy illness, he didn't know how those two patients had spent their last few days, and he wouldn't let Wen Yan go down that path.

He had been looking for this woman for three years, and he wouldn't let her leave so easily.

This woman could only escape from him once, and in the future, she could not leave him without his permission!

rushed back to the bedroom and saw the woman's quiet sleeping face, but the heartache was worse than just now.

It wasn't until he sat on the edge of the bed and held Wen Yan's hand that Yin Xi felt a little relieved, but the hand held in the palm of his hand was cold, if it weren't for the woman's chest still rising and falling regularly, Yin Xi would have thought that the person on the bed would not be able to fall asleep like this.

In the past three years, he thought more than once that maybe this woman would regain her former brightness after leaving him, and she would laugh happily, make trouble, and breathe freely.

Maybe she has a grudge against him, but at least she will live a little happier without him.

But now, reality slapped him in the face.

She's not having a good time, it's not good.

The hand unconsciously tightened and forced, until it was caught by the woman's emaciated hand bones, Yin Xi reacted, and raised his head nervously, but the woman on the bed did not react, and still slept soundly.

She won't wake up because she's ...... There is no feeling.

This realization made Yin Xi feel a sense of suffocation, and panic welled up in his heart, he urgently needed to do something to make himself feel at ease, this woman would not leave him, and would walk around healthily under his nose.

Sticking a thin kiss on his pink lips, Yin Xi heard his frantic heartbeat, as if it was about to shatter his eardrums.

That kitten-like girl, the girl who will be bullied and cry under him, the girl who will hold his waist and be spoiled......

The past scenes floated through my mind, and my head seemed to explode, but the person on the bed was still unconscious and asleep.

"You woman, how can you really do what you say?"

When the words fell, I felt a little moist under my lips, and when I lifted my eyes, my warm face was still asleep.

It's him......

Yin Xi raised his hand and wiped it on his face, his fingertips were shining with water.

A man who is nearly thirty years old, he can't remember the last time he cried when he was old, but now he is crying because of a woman.

If someone had told him that he had done it, he might have beaten that person up, but now, he just wanted someone to beat him up.

What did he do before, and how did he force Wen Yan to get to where he is now?

What was he doing when she loved him with all her heart?

Oh, he was proud of the spring breeze at that time, and he felt that people were not romantic teenagers, lingering among the flowers, hugging left and right, and even disgusted her for not being very obedient.

In his past education, money is everything, everything can be solved with money, and anyone who has no money should surrender before him, especially women.

To him, Wen Yan was a wild and untamable cat, she caught his attention, pulled his emotions, he fell in love with her unconsciously, but his heart wanted to tame her.

So he deliberately laughed with other women in front of her, wanting her to learn to be an obedient girl, he liked her youth in bed, and wanted to take her completely into his own hands, like a well-behaved pet.

So, he cut off all her claws and sharpened all her edges and corners.

It wasn't until the end that he found out that this was not what he wanted, and he tortured the girl he loved beyond recognition.

When he saw her despair, saw her stubbornness, and his heart throbbed violently, he suddenly realized that money is not everything.

When Wen Yan woke up the next day. Yin Xi sat on the edge of the bed, looking at her with a wrong eye.

The man's eyes were bloodshot, and under his eye sockets was the blue and black that had stayed up all night.

He didn't sleep all night?

Wen Yan was a little surprised, and didn't ask him if he went to work, waited for the sleepiness to completely subside before he sat up, lifted the quilt and prepared to get up, and the man carried her directly into the bathroom.

After seeing that the man was showing signs of brushing her teeth, Wen Yan spoke: "I can do it myself." ”

However, when he reached for the toothbrush, he suddenly fell into darkness in front of him, which has been happening more and more frequently recently, and Wen Yan did not panic. Stand there waiting for vision to recover.

"What's wrong?"

Yin Xi asked in a low voice, stuffing the toothbrush into Wen Yan's hand.

Wen Yan didn't speak, she stood quietly, but her hand holding the toothbrush became harder and harder, Yin Xi's hand covered hers, and after a long time, Wen Yan suddenly smiled and said, "I seem to be ...... It's out of sight. ”

Yin Xi froze, promising that the words he had said on the phone last night kept echoing in his ears: finally sight and hearing.

Now, her vision is gone.

Yin Xi grabbed Wen Yan and pressed her into his arms, hugging her tightly, eager to embed her into his own blood.

Wen Yan's reaction was very flat, she could guess from the man's movements that he must have used a lot of strength to hug herself, but she couldn't feel it anymore.

Nothing, I can't feel anything.

"You know, I have Benri, there are only three cases of this disease in the world so far, and for the past three years, I have been in that secret research institute for the past three years, taking a lot of medicine every day, and undergoing various machine examinations, I am like a test subject, and anything that may be useful will be tried on me. But in the end, they told me there was nothing they could do. ”

Why is there nothing that can be done?

She has obviously cooperated like this, she obviously wants to live well, why let her leave this world in such a sad way?

Tears slipped from the corners of her eyes uncontrollably, and Wen Yan heard her own howling voice.

She still has a lot of scenery that she hasn't had time to see, there are still a lot of things she hasn't had time to do, and there are so many regrets, why did fate choose her?

Wen Yan cried and knelt on the ground, Yin Xi hugged her and knelt with her.

Hot tears wet his clothes like a basin of hot oil on his heart. Make a sizzling sound.

"I'll take you to the most authoritative doctor, there must be a way, you are my person, no one can take you away from me without my permission. ”

"I won't go to the hospital!" Wen Yan replied firmly, touched Yin Xi's shoulder and bit hard through his clothes: "Yin Xi, I have been studied as a monster in the research institute for three years, I have had enough of those days, if you still have a little mercy to me, let me spend the rest of my time quietly, this is what you owe me." ”

This is what he owes her, so in the last moments, she came to ask him for it.

Therefore, even if she leaves in the end, he doesn't have to regret and be sad, she has already got everything she wants.

This is also her last letting go of him.

"Good. ”

The word came out of his throat, scraping like a barb, and his throat was sore and bloody.

Ten days later, on the stage of a university auditorium in Yuncheng, Wen Yan stood under the light in a snow-white bandeau wedding dress. The audience was packed, and many fans who heard the news rushed to hear the news, holding homemade fluorescent signs in their hands and shouting her name.

Wen Yan stood quietly on it, and didn't raise the microphone until the music started, the first song was the one she didn't have time to release.

At the end of the prelude, a warm and ethereal and clean voice sounded, her red lips opened slightly, and the lyrics were clearly spit out from her mouth.

I wanted to go to the skies

I also wanted to go to the bottom of the sea

The sky was blue

The sun is warm

I love the sun on a winter afternoon

I also like the golden color of the fallen leaves after autumn

I tiptoed forward step by step

Why don't you see hope?

I was still a child

Children who haven't grown up

Please give me a beam of light

So that I can continue to sail away

……

When she sings, she has a childlike smile on her face. However, after the interlude in the middle ended, and after the second piece of music played, Wen Yan did not continue to sing on the beat.

She stood on the stage, standing quietly, still with a quiet smile on her face, like a cute doll.

It wasn't until Yin Xi rushed up from the stage to hug her that the smile on her face turned blank.

Originally......

She couldn't hear it.

She couldn't smell the familiar smell of a man, she couldn't feel his powerful heartbeat, she couldn't see his face, she couldn't hear his shouts, everything he had, she had completely lost it.

Eighteen-year-old Wen Yan, when he met Yin Xi at twenty-four, he trampled on her dreams and ruined her love.

Twenty-four-year-old Wen Yan, reunited with thirty-year-old Yin Xi, he treated her like a treasure, and tried his best to make up for all her love.

Yin Xi didn't know if she was talking to herself, she only had one thing she wanted to say to him.

Yin Xi, if I was eighteen years old, how good it would be to meet you now!

That way, none of those injuries will happen, and we will have a very sweet child, maybe more than one, and we will be fine until we are old......

You are the miss of my painful realization after being bruised all over my body.

Between us, there is no reunion, only death.

Mr. Yin, long time no see.

Mr. Yin, never to see ...... again