"Xiaotu on the stage is so serious, why is Xiaotu on the stage so cute!" The big boy pinched the immature face of the young Xiao Tu and grinned.

The big boy in his memory always has a faint scent of blue wind chimes, he loves to laugh, and when he laughs, he always shows a row of big white teeth, like a beam of sunshine without impurities shining on the young Xiao Tu without reservation, in that environment where there are no peers, only the big boy will take the initiative to talk to him, make him happy, and help him analyze the reasons when he is annoyed because he can't play well.

It was this big boy who taught Xiao Tu how to behave, do things, and act, so that Xiao Tu's childish face gradually had the smile that a child of his age should have, Xiao Tu thought to himself, he would also be a person like the big brother in the future, and heal the people around him with a smile.

"I heard that Xiao Tu took the first place in the class at the end of the semester, why is Xiao Tu so powerful, is it okay for my brother to take Xiao Tu to a big dinner after the performance?"

"Brother Chen, I'm fifteen years old, not a child anymore. The young Xiao Tu looked at the big brother who had been taking care of him in the troupe with some helplessness.

The big boy leaned his head against the wall with his hands on his pillow: "Fifteen years old, what a good time, I believe that Xiaotu will definitely become a super powerful drama actor in the future, and become an old actor in human arts, when the time comes, Xiaotu will get a ticket for my brother and me, okay?"

Young Xiao Tu's eyes flashed: "Okay." ”

"Then what is Xiao Tu's wish now?" the big boy asked Xiao Tu with a grin.

"Wish?" The young man Xiao Tu touched his chin, "I hope my mother can approve of my performance......"

The eldest boy sat up straight: "Ah, your mother, that's a famous drama actor! He is known for his high requirements and high vision, but your performance is also very good, brother believes that your wish will definitely come true!"

Renyi, the abbreviation of Beijing People's Art Theater, the top palace in the hearts of all drama actors, Xiao Tu at that time firmly believed that he would step into it one day, and has been working hard for this goal......

On the drama stage, everything was being rehearsed in an orderly manner, and the young Xiao Tu finished reading the lines, and he was very depressed at the moment according to the needs of the plot, so he squatted on the ground while burying his head very low.

He quietly breathed a sigh of relief, and then it was time for Brother Chen to appear, in the play he played his brother, and after smelling the familiar fragrance of blue wind chimes, the young Xiao Tu felt inexplicably relieved.

"Hiccup - Hiccup ......"

The young man Xiao Tu noticed that the shadow at his feet was shaking, and in an instant, the shadow suddenly became larger.

"Xiaotu!" The eardrums roared, and the young Xiao Tu only felt that he was pushed away by a force, and before he could react, he only heard a loud noise, and looked up to see the black spotlight falling from the sky like the devil's claws, and at the same time, the big brother who had just called out loudly to himself fell, followed by the exclamations of the people around him......

Blood spilled from the big brother's head and ran down his cheeks, and the big boy who always had a big smile on his face was dead.

Since then, Xiao Tu has never seen such an unreserved pure smile again......

"I'm going to the hospital to see Brother Chen!" Xiao Tu wanted to chase him out, but was stopped by his mother.

"You can't go, it's going to start soon!" his mother scolded him loudly.

"Mom, something happened to Brother Chen!" the boy pleaded as he looked at his mother with tears on his face.

The staff of the troupe all knew that the relationship between this young man and Lin Hanchen was very good, they saw that the young man was crying miserably, knowing that he was young and stimulated, and they couldn't bear to dissuade him, but Xiao Tu's mother blocked his way.

The mother had a cold face: "The hospital will try its best to treat him, even if you go now, it won't change anything, his role has a substitute actor, but your role does not." In two hours, all the audience will come to the theater, and they have paid for it with anticipation, just to see the show. You're young, but it's not a pass you can get out of the way. Since the day you joined the troupe, you have been a drama actor, you should have the consciousness of being a drama actor, and you should abide by professional ethics.

The young man Xiao Tu looked at his mother in a daze, unable to say a word, and at that moment he saw his mother's figure getting higher and higher, and the voice became farther and farther away, until only the buzzing sound was left in his ears.

"Xiaotu, if you want to become an excellent drama actor, you must continue to act in this scene, no matter how painful it is, you have to continue to act, otherwise you are not worthy of being my son......"

The theater of thousands of people opened as scheduled, the young Xiao Tu changed into his performance costume and followed the actors on the stage, everything went on as scheduled, as if nothing had happened, and the stuntman was also very good, it should have been seamless!

The young man Xiao Tu squatted down, his head buried very low.

In the play, the brother appeared, the familiar scent of blue wind chimes did not appear, the young Xiao Tu looked at the shadow under his feet under the spotlight, it was originally a smooth curve, but it suddenly distorted, and expanded to the surroundings, the ground under his feet began to shake, and his body seemed to be unable to withstand such shaking, and he sat on the ground.

Is the spotlight going to fall again? Xiao Tu thought in his heart, he raised his head in despair, the spotlight stabbed him so that he couldn't open his eyes, this time no one pushed him away, he wanted to shout "Brother Chen, run!" but his throat and eyes were really blocked, he opened his mouth, and he couldn't make a sound at all.

"Xiao Tu! Xiao Tu!" The substitute actor approached Xiao Tu and gently touched him with his foot, it was time for him to play, but the young Xiao Tu was still motionless, he looked at the audience with a dull gaze, the spotlight was too bright, and the audience of thousands of people was covered with a layer of blurred white light, he couldn't see anything, he could only vaguely see a person in the front row standing up, he tried to identify it for a long time, it turned out to be his mother, her eyes gradually became cold, but his body was still uncontrollable, and he couldn't move at all......

Xiao Tu struggled to stand up and regain control of his limbs, and just as he was about to do so, he saw his mother's disappointed expression, and then turned his back and strode out of the theater resolutely......

Only the young Xiao Tu was left alone on the theater stage, and there was no one in the empty audience, the difference was that the young Xiao Tu grew up, and he was still sitting alone on the stage, desperate and helpless.

"Teacher Xiao, Teacher Xiao!" a familiar voice seemed to come from far away.

"Who is it?heather?nannan?" a name blurted out.

A warm orange lamp lit up in the audience, and Xiao Tu saw the girl sitting alone at the bottom of the stage.

The girl's voice grew nearer and closer, so close that it seemed to be in his ears, ethereal and clear, calling his name over and over again. Xiao Tu saw the girl smiling at him, and that smile was like a lamp, illuminating the path under his feet.

The body gradually regained consciousness, the eyes gradually focused, the phantom just now disappeared, and everything finally returned to reality.

The girl who appeared in front of Xiao Tu's eyes had a small face wrinkled because of worry and nervousness at this time, and was calling his name over and over again, and sure enough, she was calling herself all the time just now.

Xiao Tu's heart seemed to be injected with a warm current, he showed a faint smile, and after a long pause, he laboriously stretched out his hand and pressed Shi Nan's head towards him.

Shi Nan was stunned, she had just been sitting in the lounge with Xiao Tu, looking at Xiao Tu's painful expression, she was also anxious, when she saw Xiao Tu suddenly laughing, she thought that he was crazy, she thought of the martial arts master in martial arts, so she screamed louder, trying to recall Xiao Tu's mind.

Therefore, when the back of Shi Nan's head felt the warmth of Xiao Tu's palm, she lost her mind.

"Xiao, Teacher Xiao, are you okay?" Shi Nan's head slammed into Xiao Tu's shoulder socket, and he stumbled as he spoke.

"Shouting so loudly, don't let your voice go?" Xiao Tu laughed and teased Shi Nan, and his voice trembled slightly.

Shi Nan immediately reached out and hugged Xiao Tu back, with a cry in his voice: "Teacher Xiao, you are scared to death ...... me"

Xiao Tu was stunned, patted Shi Nan's back with his big hand, seemed to sigh and seemed to be a little aggrieved: "Nan Nan, I thought you wouldn't want to pay attention to me anymore......" said but hugged Shi Nan tighter, this sense of satisfaction and steadfastness gradually filled his empty heart, and he didn't want to let go of his hand anymore.

After a long time, Shi Nan poured a cup of hot water and handed it to Xiao Tu, confirming again: "Teacher Xiao, are you really okay? ”

Xiao Tu had tenderness in his eyes and said with a smile: "It's really okay, what am I doing to hide from you?"

Shi Nan pursed her mouth and muttered, "Are you hiding less from me......"

Xiao Tu knew that he was at a loss, so he awkwardly picked up the cup and took a sip of water, and after being silent for a while, he seemed to have made up his mind and finally opened his mouth.

"Nan Nan, I am a coward living in the shadows of the past, I can't overcome my demons, so I had to leave the drama stage and choose to go to the university to become a teacher to continue my dream. I also entered the online distribution circle because Yiming pulled me into the studio and opened a studio, and 'Mr. Rabbit' is just a virtual identity I use to escape reality, and I can only stand in the spotlight again by hiding in a doll with a rabbit head. As I told you before, all of this you see is the result of my carelessness. Nan Nan, the reason why I don't want to tell you this is because I don't even look down on myself like this......"

Xiao Tu looked very serious when he said these words, this was the first time he showed his true self in front of Shi Nan, even if Shi Nan would be disappointed in himself because of this, Xiao Tu would not regret it, he had prepared for the worst for himself.

"Teacher Xiao, please don't be so arrogant!"

Who knew that Shi Nan suddenly stood up and said loudly, which surprised Xiao Tu, who was originally immersed in sadness.