Chapter 62: All Thoughts Are Lost
My parents-in-law didn't stop me, they just said, "Okay, slow down on the road," my mother-in-law said lazily, and my father-in-law didn't stand up to see me off, he just sat there with a hint of disdain in his eyes.
These are my parents-in-law, and I thought of them as my hope.
I thought that they could call the shots for me and give me justice, really, my heart was discouraged.
I stumbled back often, and the streets were very lively, and people were dressed in new clothes, and everything was renewed to welcome the arrival of the new year.
New Year's Eve, I am not happy, they are lively, only I am the only one who is empty and terrible in my heart, because I find that the world is against me, and there is no one to help me at all.
The betrayal of my relatives, the betrayal of love, the slander of my family, I felt that I had no way to escape, and these pressed me like a mountain and made me breathless.
I didn't know what to do, I was discouraged, although it was already the Spring Festival, but the street was still very cold, the cold wind was bleak, I was walking on the street in a thin coat, feeling helpless like a boat.
Where do I go now? I asked myself, I can't go anywhere.
I can't go back to my mother's house, and my in-laws' house kicked me out again, and Ma Tengyu's place is my nightmare.
I can only go back to the unit, back to the unit, I am afraid of meeting the iceberg, because we live in the same dormitory, I am afraid of the iceberg, her face.
I suddenly remembered that during that time, the iceberg always avoided me intentionally, and it turned out that she was already with Ma Tengyu at that time.
At that time, we had only been married for a few days, and Bingshan and Ma Tengyu were mixed up. Oh my God, this world is horrible.
Thinking that Bingshan persuaded me at the beginning, I should talk to Jiang Feng and live a good life.
Now that the iceberg has become an interferant in my marriage, I don't want to see that face again, that hypocritical face, how good everyone is at acting, and how hypocritical they are, I sneered.
This world is so absurd, anything can happen, even more bizarre and terrifying.
I walked and walked back to the unit, there was no way, I had to come here.
The school is empty, there is no laughter of children, the teachers have gone home for the New Year, and no one lives here.
You must know that the school environment is very ordinary, and it is very cold here in winter, so I had to turn on the electric mattress and get into the bed, and I decided to spend it in the bed.
The bed is warm, but I can't sleep, I want to sleep deeply, forget the horror of this world and the warmth and coldness of people, but I can't sleep, I really can't sleep.
Because, it's all so terrible, I don't dare to think about it, I don't want to face that world, I just want to immerse myself in my own world, really forever.
I turned on my phone and started listening to the recordings inside, I wanted to divert my attention, forget it, don't think about these things, the next step is to divorce, maybe divorce is my way out.
I was so confused that I didn't know when, I fell asleep in a daze, and I had a terrible dream.
Ma Tengyu in the dream he beat me with a whip, I ran desperately, there was no end in front of me, I didn't know where I ran, finally, Ma Tengyu he gave up chasing me.
At this time, I saw Ma Tengyu with that woman, this woman turned out to be my primary school classmate, this elementary school classmate, we haven't been in touch for a long time, she was very beautiful when she was young, so she dropped out of school early, this is her now in my dream again, I am very strange, I just watched Zhanpeng with him, they were intimate together, my heart was dripping blood, suddenly, I woke up.
When I woke up, I realized that I had a nightmare, I wiped the cold sweat on my head, I really didn't expect that the iceberg would appear in the dormitory.
"Lan Lan, are you there too?" Iceberg saw me.
"Hmm," I said.
My voice was cold, I didn't want to pay attention to the iceberg, but I didn't want her to see it.
"By the way, Lan Lan, why didn't you go home?" Iceberg asked me.
"I don't want to go home," I said lazily.
Bingshan didn't say anything more, "I'll get something and leave later, Gao Lanlan, I need help, you say," she greeted warmly.
This iceberg is really good at pretending, obviously a junior, destroying my family, and now pretending to be a good person.
I snorted angrily, "It's okay, I don't need you to worry about it." ”
These words were weird, and it was estimated that the iceberg could also hear it, she paused, did not reply, and walked out.
Get out, I shouted fiercely in my heart, these demons are far away from me, there is no good thing, I have to divorce next, but what should I do.
Afterwards, my mother-in-law's phone call came, and I wondered in my heart, didn't she just teach me a hard lesson? Why did you call again now? Couldn't it be a trap? I muttered to myself.
answered the phone, "Oh, Lan Lan, come and stay at my house at night, I want to have a good talk with you with your father-in-law." The mother-in-law whispered there, and the judgment at noon was like two people.
"I'm not going. "I resisted,
"Where are you now?" asked my mother-in-law.
"I'm in the unit," I said.
"Lan Lan, come and live at home, don't think too much, I'll have a good chat with your dad with you. ”
What is there to talk about? I secretly thought in my heart, the attitude towards me at noon, and now I have to talk about it, I didn't answer again, but said to my mother-in-law: "I'm a little tired, I don't want to go over, we have something to do, let's call us." With that, I hung up the phone.
My mother-in-law didn't say anything anymore, and I guess my mother-in-law hung up the phone on me, and she must have been extremely angry.
Because soon, the dorm mates rang, bang, bang, and someone was knocking desperately on the door outside, because the door was locked by me.
I looked at it from the cat's eyes, it was Ma Tengyu, his face was unusually angry, and when I saw him, I thought of the last time, Ma Tengyu took me home.
I was afraid that Ma Tengyu would tie me up like last time and beat me again.
Behind Ma Tengyu, I saw my mother-in-law again, they all came, and the two of them came to deal with me together, it was really terrifying.
I thought to myself, I didn't dare open the door.
Mother-in-law's voice rang out, "Gao Lanlan, I'm your mother, I'll pick you up." ”
"Hurry up and open the door," Ma Tengyu also slammed, "Slut, get out of here, don't toast and don't eat, eat and drink." Ma Tengyu shouted at me viciously.
The mother-in-law seemed to move him, and Ma Tengyu stopped talking.
Mother-in-law's voice came through: "Lan Lan, it's okay, go home, I'll talk about it when I go home, I'll call the shots with your father, Ma Tengyu won't dare to bully you anymore." The mother-in-law said.
I secretly thought in my heart, what is in charge of me, you are all in a gang, you will only bully me, see me as a woman, is it easy to bully?
"I'm afraid to open the door," I finally spoke.
Ma Tengyu shouted, "Hmph, you Gao Lanlan is so capable, you don't dare to open the door, wait for me to open the door!"
Ma Tengyu knocked on the door, the door that was not strong in the first place, seeing that it was about to be knocked through, I was a little worried in my heart, and secretly thought, there is no way to hide this, forget it, let's talk, let's talk.
Thinking that his in-laws were present, Ma Tengyu shouldn't he do anything to me again, right? After all, he still has some taboos, even if he beats me to death, what good can he do to his family?
Thinking so in my heart, I opened the door, and Ma Tengyu rushed in, his face flushed, his fist clenched, and when he saw me, it seemed that he was going to pounce and tear me apart.
Mother-in-law dragged Ma Tengyu, he stopped, he really listened to his mother's words, I thought secretly in my heart.
My mother-in-law came up to me and said, "Gao Lanlan, let's go home, let's talk about it when we go home." ”
"Mom, I'm not going back, I don't dare to go home, I'm afraid he'll beat me, I'm afraid of him," I shouted.
My mother-in-law looked at me and said, "It's okay, I'm here with your father, if he dares to do it, we will definitely not let Ma Tengyu go." ”
"Mom, look at the wounds on my body," I rolled up my sleeves, the bruises on the back of my hands, and I took off my scarf again to show my mother-in-law the scars on my neck.
To be honest, I don't dare to go out to meet people, these are all Ma Tengyu beating me, I'm really afraid of him.
When my mother-in-law saw me like this, my mother-in-law patted Ma Tengyu's body, "You turtle son, how can you beat your wife like this, she is a person, are you a little measured?"
Looking at her mother-in-law's itching through her boots, to be honest, she really deserves to be her own son, how can she be willing to fight?
Ma Tengyu said: "Mom, Gao Lanlan, this woman, you don't know that her family went to Zhao Yang Manman. Ma Tengyu said viciously.
My mother-in-law looked at me: "You Zhao Yang Manman." What's the matter, that's his ex-wife, what do you have to get in touch with?" my mother-in-law looked at me dissatisfied.
"Mom, it's nothing, I'm just slowly getting along with Yang, she's my high school classmate," I said.
The mother-in-law didn't say anything more, but said, "Gao Lanlan, let's go home, don't live here, look how cold it is here." “
Then my mother-in-law looked at my room with great disgust, yes, the school dormitory was very dilapidated, there was a big hole in the window, no one made up for it, I pasted several layers of newspapers, it was dark everywhere, the table was discarded by students, so the oil on it was covered by my layers of newspapers, and then there were a few books scattered around, because I didn't use this dormitory much, it was covered with dust.