When I was in school, I was bullied by my male classmates.

Especially in the front row of me, at one point he would turn his face to me and say, "Gao Lanlan, you are a toad." ”

The boy pointed to my tablemate Xiaolan and said, "Xiaolan is a white swan," and he grimaced.

At that moment, I didn't know what to say, and Xiaolan was a little embarrassed.

"You're a toad," I fought back, my face flushing.

It's not the first time I've been insulted like this.

Another time, the boy in front of me, Wang Xiaobei, stole my notebook.

After PE class, I found my notebook on the floor, which was my most private notebook, with a few shoe prints on it.

The page I opened was really embarrassing.

It was a diary entry in which I told about a crush I had on him, who was recognized as a tall and handsome man in our class, and who had excellent grades.

No wonder, when I walked into the classroom today, everyone was frowning at me, not expecting my secret to be discovered by them.

What is written on it, love or something, and some of my thoughts, are circled with a red pen, how embarrassing!

Those words were, but those words were really unbearable, and I wrote on them, I hope, Bancao is handsome and handsome, and I also dreamed at night that he pulled me and went for a walk together, and suddenly he began to kiss me, and some such words.

I didn't expect it to be seen by everyone.

I quickly picked up the notebook and stuffed it into the drawer like a thief, and Wang Xiaobei, who was in the front row, began to turn his head and winked at me, "The toad wants to eat swan meat," he said in a weird manner.

"It's your business," I was furious.

"You, you don't look at what you look like," he rolled his head away.

I couldn't bear it anymore, and when I got out of class, I realized that this notebook was not only seen by Wang Xiaobei.

It is estimated that it has been circulated in the class, because there is a writing on the back of the blackboard in the classroom, Gao Lanlan wants to eat swan meat, draws a toad, and then drools.

I was very angry because the name on the toad was written on it, and I really wanted to cry, so I rushed over and wiped off the blackboard.

"Who drew this?" I shouted.

No one answered, only a few boys grimacing at me.

And I like the object of my crush, Gao Shuai Shuai also ignored me, he looked at me with strange eyes, and I was hairy in my heart, what does this mean? Is it also a mockery?

Gao Shuai Shuai glanced at me a few times with disdain, and his gaze made me feel like I was on pins and needles.

Yes, I have a good impression of Gao Shuai Shuai because of his excellence.

But my obscurity will definitely make him laugh.

I was very sad that day, and I felt that everyone was judging me, judging me, and the whole world was working against me.

When I was in physics class, I was distracted, and our physics teacher asked me to answer the question, "Stand up, Gao Lanlan!"

I stood up, my legs shaking, and I stammered.

The physics teacher glared at me, the woman in her forties, with a dark face and sharp-beaked monkey cheeks, looking unusually mean.

The teacher said to me fiercely, "You, if you keep being like this, you will definitely be finished," she emphasized above the finish, "At your level, the school next door to us will not want you." “

The school next door!

You must know that it is a vocational school, the learning style is very poor, almost close down, all the students will not go there to go to school, because they feel ashamed.

And the physics teacher said this about me, exhausting all kinds of insults.

I just buried my head deeply, yes, it was humiliating.

When the physics teacher rolled his eyes and said mean things just now, my heart felt like I had fallen into an abyss.

Yes, I have now been abandoned by the whole world.

On Sunday afternoon, I returned home.

The house is smoky again, and mahjong is lively.

Mom and Dad are also involved, Mom is in charge of boiling water, Dad is in charge of playing cards, and that's what they are.

There is a card table and a wine table at home every day, and every time it is like this.

When I got home, every time I ate, I was out and I never ate a full meal.

"Mom, I'm back," I said.

My mother came and looked at me, "Oh, it's over the woods," and she didn't pay any attention to me.

Zhang Xiaowei, who was next to him, saw me and said with a hippie smile: "Gao Lanlan is back, how are you doing at school?"

Zhang Xiaowei I am ten years old, according to my generation, I should call him uncle, and he can be regarded as a distant relative.

But Zhang Xiaowei has always shown more care to me than family affection.

Every time he came to my house to play cards, he would bring me some delicious food, and secretly give it to me, what I like to eat, plum, and chocolate, he gave it to me.

Once, Zhang Xiaowei gave me one of my favorite rubber bands, which is my favorite hairpin, and I found this headgear for several days.

Today I ignored Zhang Xiaowei.

I fell asleep in a groggy state, and when I woke up, it was already Lin Liu's afternoon.

Every time I lived, I was given intermittently for living expenses, so that I was only hungry and full at school.

I'm really disillusioned now, there is no smoke miasma at home, and I have a miserable life at school.

And I'm now at a sentimental age, and all this makes me feel suicidal.

Yes, I wanted to commit suicide, but I didn't have the courage, every time I stood on the fifth floor of my school building, I was so scared that I would jump, that kind of involuntarily.

During this time, I had a problem.

I thought wildly, looking at the sun in the sky, although it was winter, but the sun was still warm, shining on the earth, a withered, just like my mood.

At this time, Zhang Xiaowei came over and said to me, "Gao Lanlan, take you to a special place." ”

"Special?" I said, confused.

Zhang Xiaowei took my hand, to be honest, it would be very embarrassing to see people holding hands in the village like this.

I'm going to pull it out hard.

Zhang Xiaowei said: "Oh, don't be shy!"

I followed Zhang Xiaowei.

Because, first, I trusted this neighbor very much, and second, I was too innocent at that time to know what he would do to me?

Unexpectedly, the place he was talking about was nothing more than a small dance hall.

This small dance hall is full of lights every night, and there are all kinds of people.

I just wait and see from Yu Zimei every time, and I shouldn't be allowed to go in at my age, but today I followed Zhang Xiaowei in with a big grin.

I'm curious about what's here, too.

Mr. Zhang went to a small private room and said, "Have a cup of coffee," he said to the waiter.

There is even coffee, and in my concept, being able to drink coffee is a very foreign thing.

Soon, coffee came up and I took a sip.

"Oh, that's bitter," I said with a grin.

Zhang Xiaowei came to my side and said to me: "This bitterness is bitter and sweet, you can taste it first." ”

Zhang Xiaowei was saying when he suddenly held my hand: "There is something on Gao Lanlan's eyes, I'll wipe it off for you." ”

I closed my eyes, but I felt something wet, dangling on my eyes, what the hell was it?

It felt itchy and crispy, and I opened my eyes curiously, only to see Zhang Xiaowei licking my eyes with his long tongue.

It's disgusting, "What are you doing here?" I asked curiously.

To be honest, when I was younger, I didn't have any awareness of this, I just felt a little strange and didn't think about anything else.

Zhang Xiaowei showed an obscene look in his eyes and said, "Your skin is so white." ”

Where is this?

"Did the thing fall off?" I said.

"It's off, Gao Lanlan, Gao Lanlan is honest, you take off your clothes," Zhang Xiaowei said to me solemnly.

"Why are you undressed?" I said strangely.

"It's a little hot, I guess there's heating, but I don't want to take off my clothes. ”

"It's okay, take off your clothes," Zhang Xiaowei asked me again.

Thinking that he invited me to coffee, and usually gave me good food, he was so good to me, and it was nothing to take off his clothes.

Thinking like this, I took off the thick clothes on my body, revealing only my tight autumn coat and autumn coat.

Convex and backward figure.

Zhang Xiaowei stared at my chest and swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and said, "Gao Lanlan, I didn't expect that although you are not good-looking, you have such a good figure." ”

"Really, I don't have that concept yet, it doesn't matter if I'm in shape or not, I just want to do well in my studies," I muttered.

"I can help you with this," Zhang Xiaowei suddenly looked at me.

"How can you help me, do you want to help me tutor?" I smiled and said, "You must know that you are the first to last in our village's famous academic performance, and now you don't do anything at home, I know you best." I joked.

Zhang Xiaowei was not annoyed at all, and continued: "I can help you Gao Lanlan, as long as you take off another layer of clothes." ”

Usually in front of my parents, I don't have such a ** naked.