It was another beautiful morning, I woke up from a sweet dream, the sun shining on my face through the screen, warm, it was really comfortable.

I sat up, stretched, looked at the time, it was not yet time for my alarm clock, and looked at Xiaoxue, who was still sleeping next to me.

I enjoyed this blissful little moment, smiled contentedly, then gently turned off the alarm clock and got out of bed lightly.

When I came to the living room, I sat down on the sofa, poured a glass of cold boiled water and drank it, feeling refreshed and not at all like I had just gotten up.

It's seven and three in the morning, Xiaoxue is going to school at half past eight, I'm going to work at nine o'clock, so it's still very early, Liu Xixi should still be asleep at this time, although it's boring to sit alone, but I can't bear to disturb her rest.

I don't know why I wake up so early these days, I'm the kind of person who can't sleep after waking up, so usually as soon as I wake up, I will get up immediately without delaying for a minute.

If you think about it, it seems that this habit was developed after the light snow.

I remember that at that time, I was pregnant with Xiaoxue, and I couldn't leave that place because I was being watched, and I was the only one living there, and occasionally a nanny would come over to clean up, so I was very lonely and depressed.

And for the first few months of my pregnancy, I had severe morning sickness.

So I was in a bad mood during that time, the nanny came once a day, and every time she came, she would give me nutritious supplements and fruits, I couldn't eat those things, I just felt like I wanted to eat sour.

The nanny told me that I like to eat sour during pregnancy, which means that the baby inside is a boy, as the saying goes, "sour and spicy girl", because I have never given birth to a baby, so I don't know anything about this, and I believe what the nanny says.

In fact, I personally have no special requirements and expectations for the gender of the baby, but for a rich and powerful family, it is better to have a boy.

Thinking of this, I can't help but think of the baby's future fate, just like in the TV series, because his mother was born poor, so his status in the family is very low, and he is looked down upon by other brothers and sisters, and then his childhood was unhappy, and he was bullied and scolded......

For this reason, I have been depressed for a long time, and every day as long as I wake up, I will feel sad for him, and I have always been strong, and from time to time I will cry about it, because there is no one around me to dissuade me and interrupt my thoughts, so I have been depressed.

During that time, I thought I had depression, but I thought that the Internet didn't say that depression would only occur after giving birth to a baby, and I was still pregnant at that time, so I shouldn't have this disease.

After thinking about it, I may have been too lonely, living alone in that empty house, and not allowed to contact the outside world, if it weren't for the fact that the person promised me at that time that she would let Lin Momo go as long as I gave birth to a child, I might not have been able to hold on for a long time.

At that time, the most I did every day was to lie on the bed and talk to the child in my belly, and although I knew that he would definitely not understand, I insisted on telling her.

I told the baby in my belly that she must be obedient and grow up healthy, and when he comes out, I will take her out to eat delicious food and have fun.

Haha, now that I think about it, I feel so naïve, the newborn baby doesn't even have teeth, and he can't walk, how to go out to eat, play fun, maybe it's too boring.

Slowly, the baby in my belly gradually learned to kick me, and I remember the first time he kicked me, I was so excited that I couldn't sleep, like a poor man who had won five million.

At that time, I thought to myself, I finally have someone to accompany me, and although he has been in there all the time, this is the first time I have really felt his presence.

Later, the little guy in my stomach kicked me more and more often, and instead of feeling pain and trouble, I felt happier and happier.

The little one seems to have a heart, and every time I talk to her when I'm bored, he always responds to me.

Gradually, I forgot about the unpleasant things before, thinking that everyone has their own destiny, my child must not be an ordinary person, and his fate is destined to be extraordinary.

Later, when the pregnancy months were finally enough and the baby was about to be born, I was taken to the hospital three days before my due date.

In the hospital, all the doctors and nurses took good care of me, for fear that I would miss anything.

Everyone around me values the child in my belly, but only the child in my belly.

Finally, I came to the day of delivery, it was one morning, I felt something wrong with my stomach, at first I thought it was just him in the tantrum, so I still caressed his stomach in bed to soothe him.

What I didn't expect was that the little guy wasn't angry at all, but had been in it enough to come out!

I called the doctor and nurse nervously and excitedly, and when the doctor saw me, he immediately concluded that I was about to give birth, so I was sent to the delivery room under the expectant eyes of everyone.

Later, Xiaoxue was born, and then I lived alone with Xiaoxue for so many years.

Over the years of taking care of Xiaoxue, I have also been growing, I have changed from an ignorant, lazy and comfortable female man, to a gentle and virtuous mother.

At the beginning, I didn't know how to change diapers, and then I looked for things on the Internet to learn slowly, because I was not skilled at first, and I was afraid of hurting Xiaoxue, so I took a rag doll every day to practice, because the rag doll would not hurt or scream, and I didn't know if I was doing well.

Later, slowly, I began to carefully implement my learning results on Xiaoxue, because the child is so fragile, and the meat on his body is as soft as a tofu block, which can be broken by blowing, so I have been very careful and careful.

Eventually, after a week of study, and then carefully implementing it a few times, I found that I was already proficient in changing Xiaoxue's diaper.

At this point, I feel like I'm awesome, I'm excited, it's my first little growth for Xiaoxue.

Later, I learned how to bathe her again, in order to avoid her choking, because I was not skilled at the beginning and did not find the trick, so I could only be very careful and careful, and the result can be imagined, it took me two hours to help Xiaoxue take a bath.

Because Xiaoxue was born in the summer, the weather after birth is getting hotter and hotter, so the little one needs to take a bath every day.

In the beginning, I had to face this problem every day, but then slowly, I found the trick and slowly became proficient.

Okay, the diaper change and shower were done, and I thought nothing would stump me, because at that point I thought I had successfully evolved into a universal mommy.

Actually, I thought too much, taking a child is far from being as simple as I thought, in addition to changing diapers and bathing, I have to wipe her ass every day, and then wash her soiled clothes and pants.

Don't look at Xiaoxue is very sensible and cute now, she didn't worry at all when she was a child, she would vomit out every time she drank milk, and then her clothes would be very dirty, and her clothes needed to be changed and cleaned at this time.

Then when it's convenient for the little guy, sometimes pulling the stinky will get on the pants, although not a lot, but it looks disgusting, and I can't stand it, so every time the pants get dirty, I will change it.

So in this way, I need to wash a lot of the little guy's clothes every day.

To be honest, when I think back to that time, I feel great, and I feel that every woman who is a mother is great, because they work really hard.

Although I was not short of money at that time, I was not worried about handing over Xiaoxue to outsiders, so I decided to bring her up by myself.

It's really not easy to pull a child, especially as a "single mother".

Later, Xiaoxue gradually grew up, she learned to speak, learned to walk, and learned to make friends with other children, because the child did not have a father by her side, so her personality will inevitably become a little sensitive and inferior.

I still remember one time, Xiaoxue came back from outside, and she told me before she went out to play at a friend's house, because she has always been well-behaved, so I have always been at ease.

She said to go to a friend's house to play, and I agreed without hesitation, just told her to pay attention to safety on the road, and then go home early, and call me if there is something.

After about two hours, I heard Xiaoxue coming back, but not as excited as usual, cheerfully greeting me and telling me what she had seen and heard.

Instead, he sat on the couch without saying a word when he entered the door, looking at me super innocently with big round eyes.

I thought something had happened, so I ran over to comfort her and asked why.

As a result, she told me that one of the children's fathers bought candy for them today, and then many children talked about their fathers, but Xiaoxue was the only one who didn't speak, because she had never met her father.

Later, when the children asked her, she didn't know how to answer, and then she came back on her own.

Xiaoxue, who returned home, didn't come over to ask me about her father for the first time, but just sat on the sofa without saying a word, which made me feel a little inexplicably distressed.

I walked over and hugged Xiaoxue, gently stroked her little head, and told her, "You have a dad, your dad is a very brave man, he is a superhero, he has his own things to do now, so he has no time to take care of you and accompany you, but you have to know that your dad loves you very much!"

After listening to me, Xiaoxue raised her head and looked at me excitedly, her eyes were full of longing and expectation, the kind of longing and anticipation that I couldn't refuse.

To be honest, I've always been worried about lying to her because I've never lied to her, and that was the first time.

Because Xiaoxue has always believed in my words, she never bothered about anything I told her, but just chose to believe it.

At that time, I didn't even know who her father was, and I was sad about it for a long time.

Later, Xiaoxue returned to her usual lively and cute, although she has a sensitive personality, but most of the time she is happy, because she is content with what she has and never fantasizes about some nothing.

She was not very happy to see me, so she changed the way to coax me to be happy every day, I saw her simple and lovely appearance, where can I still worry, so I gradually forgot about those unpleasant and sad pasts, and Xiaoxue lived a calm and happy "two-person world".

The little girl is quirky, and she asks some very strange questions every day, and sometimes it often confuses me.

Watching Xiaoxue grow up, I also realized that I need to be more mature to deal with the little girls every day.

Later, I learned to tell a lot of stories, such as Hans Christian Andersen's fairy tales, Grimm's fairy tales, One Thousand and One Nights, The Wizard of Oz, Wanderings of the Bitter Child, etc., and I still remember the general plot of the story.

Later, I learned to cook, although the taste was not very delicious, but every time Xiaoxue would encourage me, of course, she found that blind encouragement did not promote my cooking skills, so occasionally she would complain.