Xia Yinxuan slipped off the sofa and knelt in front of Zhuoer, who hugged her tightly.

"I'm sorry. Drow. I'm sorry. The hoarse voice was thick nasal, as if it had come from a distant place through thousands of obstacles. But they were so close. Close enough that she could clearly feel his every ebb and fall.

"Let me forget about her. Let me forget about her...... Drow ...... "He seemed to be muttering a pleading. This is the first time she has seen Xia Yinxuan, and her heart is also flustered. She could only hug him tightly, her hand gently brushing his hair.

"It's going to be fine. It's going to be fine...... It's going to get better......" she muttered softly, as if comforting a child who had fallen, hoping that such tenderness would soothe all his pain.

Nan Chu, do you know what cruel things you have done? She thought silently in her heart, and finally turned into a sigh.

"Actually, when I was younger, I was very afraid of the dark. Mom was always busy, and she had a hard time trying to support me. When I was very young, I used to sleep in other people's houses, only to wake up and find myself in my own bed. When I was in elementary school, my mother was always too busy to pick me up, so I went home alone. Every night, before my mother came home, I would be scared, I was afraid that something would be snooping on me in those dark corners. So when I'm home alone, I turn on all the lights in the house, thinking that then there will be no place to hide from those things, and I'll be safe. ”

"Are you still afraid of the dark now? Will I get an amazing electricity bill when I come back?"

"I've been afraid of the dark for a long time. One time I was home alone and there was a power outage, and it was pitch black inside and out. I curled myself up tightly, my head buried, my eyes tightly closed. It's naïve, but I really thought that if I closed my eyes and didn't look, I wouldn't be afraid. In fact, even if you open your eyes, you can't see anything black. ”

Then a strong wind blew, and the rain soon began to crackle. I clutched it tightly with both hands, but the sound of the raindrops hitting the glass window was still so clear. The wind whined over the treetops, whining much like the howls of demons in old TV dramas. Lightning always came suddenly, and even though I kept my eyes on it, I could still feel the light streak in front of me, followed by a roar of thunder. In fact, I have always been very timid and afraid of thunderstorms. In the end, I felt too frightened, so I ran into my mother's room, covered myself with the quilt, and screamed as hard as I could when the thunder fell, as if nothing could hurt me, so that I could overshadow the fear in my heart. ”

"Later, I may be tired, and before I know it, I fell asleep. When I woke up, I was already in my mother's arms, she gently stroked my hair, and muttered in her mouth: 'Nan Chu, don't be afraid, don't be afraid. You're a brave kid. I don't know if it was my mother's spell or the string called fear in my heart that was broken, and I was no longer afraid of the dark from now on. It's a pity that he is always afraid of thunder. It's ridiculous, although I clearly understand in my heart that there is actually no thunder and lightning mother, and there is no terrible demon hiding behind that voice, but I still feel terrible. ”

"No, it won't. Everyone has an indelible fear in their hearts, even if they are no longer children. It's just that adults are better at hiding, and some fears in their hearts don't diminish with age. I also have a lot of things to be afraid of. “

"Hey, really, and what are you afraid of?"

"Well, this, this, I'm afraid of bugs, the green-green and soft kind. There is also the kind of flowery and fluffy, no, I get goosebumps when I think about it. It was as scary as a monster to me. ”

"Really, fake. Hehe, it's a shame that you're so tall. ”

"Wow, you're making fun of me. I really shouldn't have told you, it really damaged my good image, alas. ”

"It's too late to regret it now. ”

"Nan Chu. ”

"Huh?"

"Why were you crying when you first answered my phone?

"No, you're too careful. ”

“…… Nan Chu, rest early, good night. ”

"Good night. ”

Why did you say this to him, why? The sigh sounded so loud in the cold night, like a muffled thunder rolling across the sky.

"I don't have any impression of my father, it seems that he has been the one in the frame since I was sensible. Whether we cried or laughed, he smiled softly in the frame, silently watching everything that happened. Mom should love him very much, when he was young, he woke up in the middle of the night and saw his mother staring at the photo in a daze for a long time. She turned her back to me, her fingertips gently caressing the frame over and over again. It was actually dark at night, and she didn't turn on the lights, as if her figure was about to melt into the night. At this time, I was always very afraid, afraid that my mother would gradually dissolve with the darkness and leave me like this. So I ran up and grabbed the corner of her coat and cried, crying and begging her not to leave me alone, not to leave me. As she has always done, she always gently wipes away my tears when I cry. Then he said to me gently but resolutely: 'Don't cry, Nan Chu. Let's not cry. If you cry, you lose. I didn't quite understand what it was to lose when I lost, and although I didn't understand it, I gradually stopped crying. ”

"Nan Chu, don't you remember anything about your father?

"Sometimes, I have dreams like this. Little me was holding a red balloon and riding on the body of a tall man. It's always hazy in my dreams, and I can't see what he looks like clearly. But I always heard him ask me in a warm voice: 'Nan Chu, are you happy?' The big hand was on my calf, and the touch of the palm was warm and real. He must be my dad, I thought. It's just that every time I want to call him, the dream wakes up. That's the only thing I remember about him, after all, I was just an ignorant kid when he left. ”

"He's a good father. ”

"Speak as if you knew him. So sure?"

“…… Good fathers like to let their children ride on their bodies. It's called giving up dignity for the sake of the child. ”

"Is riding it detrimental to your dignity? Hehe, you're obviously a crooked reason. ”

"Crooked reasoning is also reasonable. Unreasonableness is still a kind of reasoning. ”

"Hahaha, since then, I have often talked about unreasonable truths. ”

"What about tongue twisters, go to sleep, it's getting late over there. ”

"Good night, Fu Zekai"

"Good night. ”

She remembered a fairy tale about a king who had the ears of a donkey, and his barber was very depressed in order to keep it a secret, and at last he found a hole in a tree and finally confided in his heart what he had buried in his heart that even his wife did not dare to tell.

Maybe Fu Zekai is her tree hole.

Yes, he's just a tree hole. She thought faintly.

"Have I ever told me the story of my parents? Because I thought it was romantic, I used to pester my mother to tell me. Back then, she was an ordinary fisherwoman on the shore of Erhai Lake. Every day, I take the osprey and rock the boat to fish. Erhai Lake is not actually a sea, just a big lake. However, most of the people who live there have never seen the real sea for generations, so any larger lake is called the sea. That's how Erhai came about. My father had come alone on a tour, carrying a big bag and getting on her boat with exhaustion and smoke. She sang him the folk songs of the Bai tribe, and his eyes kept looking at her brightly, until he saw that her face was red. ”

Later, my father stayed on the shore of Erhai Lake for a long time, and almost every night, my mother would take him out to sea in a small boat. At that time, she sang him one graceful love song after another. Later, she gave up the sparkling Erhai Lake, the hometown where she grew up, her family and friends, and followed him to see the real sea without hesitation. It would be nice if life really was a fairy tale, and the story should end with this sentence: The prince and princess lived happily and happily ever after. It's a pity that time has never stayed for happiness, the prince was called by God to go to heaven, leaving the princess alone with **, all over the vicissitudes of the world. ”

"Nan Chu, do you know? In fact, time has never stopped for sadness. Some happiness will dim, and some pain will pass away. ”

"Fu Zekai, it turns out that you are so literary. ”

"Hey, you're making fun of me, you're so serious. ”

"No, no, I'm complimenting you. That's a good point. ”

"Are you deaf to me? You're clearly laughing secretly. You cunning fox. ”

“……”

"What's wrong, Nan Chu?"

"It's all right, Shakespeare is hungry, I'm going to get her something to eat. Goodbye"

"Hey, Nan Chu, I ......"

With a crisp snap, she hung up the phone, took a deep breath, and calmed the panic in her heart. Shakespeare meowed at his feet, as if to express his displeasure at being used as an excuse

"My mother used to say that before I was born, she had a beautiful dream. In her dream, many cherubs flew around her, and their white feathers fell from their wings as soft as snowflakes. After all, I'm just a feather without wings, not an angel. If it were an angel, maybe I could watch over her happiness and the happiness of all those I love. Unfortunately, I am just a feather that has left the angel's wings, and I will eventually fall helplessly to the earth. So I could only watch the person I love, gradually moving away, and there was nothing I could do. ”

"My mom kept it a story from me at the beginning of her illness, when I was in high school, met Zall and had friends. When I was a kid, I used to change schools because my mother's job was always changing. She was hard, and after my father died, we had nothing to rely on. It is really not easy for a fisherwoman from a small place to come out of a small place without much education, and it is really not easy to struggle to live in a huge city with young children. Little by little, she struggled from the bottom to provide for me to go to school, take charge of my life, and save money to buy a small house. The hard life corroded her health. By the time I found out she was sick and forced her to the hospital, it was too late. I couldn't do anything but watch her grow a little haggard, and watch her smile squeeze out from the pain. Although I prayed to Heaven for a miracle countless times, God did not hear me, and my mother left me, and my once beautiful mother was left with only dry bones and reluctance in her eyes. It's good that I'm older and able to take care of myself. She can also be reunited with her father, whom she has always loved. So she left. I didn't cry, not a single tear remained, she didn't like me to cry, and I didn't want to cry, and it was a good thing that the princess and the prince were happy ever after. ”

"Nan Chu ......"

"Fu Zekai, if there are only 7 months left in your life, then how will you live?"

"Then I'll wander. Go where you want to go, meet the people you want to see the most, and do what you want to do the most. Do whatever you want to be chic once, and it is not in vain to come to the world. ”

"You're a thinker. ”

"It's an established fact that you can't think about it, and it's better to think about it if you can't reverse it. ”

"You're right. By the way, can I use the computer in your study?"

"It's my pleasure to use whatever you want. ”

"You're poor-mouthed. ”

"Men have all their mouths. Not poor, not called a real man"

"Hehe, nonsense again, don't mess with you, I'm sleeping. Good night. ”

"Good night, Nan Chu. ”

She walked into his study and turned on the computer. The faint blue indicator light flickered and flickered, accompanied by the gentle hum of the machine, and she suddenly wondered if she was a little self-deceived, whether it was because the night always made people feel particularly lonely, or because the connection between them was just a thin telephone line, so she unconsciously confided in many things that she had never said to anyone before. Why just listened to the even breathing on the phone, and she continued to talk like this......