Although Chu Yunji is not really depressed, he has a depressed mood, which is already very bad.

Without help, he could develop depression in minutes.

Not to mention, he had already seen hallucinations.

In fact, due to the existence of the notebook, Shen Xiao was not quite sure whether what Chu Yunji saw was an illusion or the "reality" that the notebook created for him.

Generally speaking, people who are only depressed and do not develop severe depression will not see hallucinations.

Only people who are severely depressed will have physiological lesions, see hallucinations, and hear voices that do not exist in reality.

But Chu Yunji's situation is very contradictory, he is obviously not severely depressed, he is just anxious, plus he is depressed, and the aura of the whole person is very low, but he does not suffer from real depression.

He can move, he has a lot of energy, and he doesn't have self-harm or self-destructive tendencies, all of which shows that he is not depressed.

However, he saw the ghost of his sister.

This is fundamentally contradictory.

Therefore, Shen Xiao was extremely suspicious: his sister's ghost was a reality made by the notebook for Chu Yunji.

No one else will experience such a reality, except for Chu Yunji.

If this is the case, then what Chu Yunji sees is not an illusion, but a real soul.

Oh, my God...... That sounds so weird.

Shen Xiao didn't know what he was thinking, but this was the most logical inference.

She felt that she should find a time when Chu Yunji was not so nervous, and discuss the matter of her sister's dead soul with him, and see if this "dead soul" was Chu Yunji's hallucination or the reality created by the notebook.

But now, what Shen Xiao has to do is not to entangle the soul of the dead, but to quickly sort out his mood and patiently comfort Chu Yun once again.

Shen Xiao has to do this kind of thing many times every day.

Chu Yun's precarious state of mind was barely maintained in a delicate balance under Shen Xiao's perseverance in maintenance and repair.

For Shen Xiao, this is also a project that consumes a lot of mental energy.

No one can patiently comfort another person 24 hours a day.

No one can do it.

This is overdrawing one's own spirit, and this is dragging oneself into the abyss of depression.

This is sacrificing one's own mental health in exchange for the other person's psychological balance.

This is drinking to quench thirst.

But Shen Xiao had no other choice.

She could only hope that she could be a little stronger, a little stronger...... I hope that I can solve Chu Yunji's psychological problems before being dragged down.

These days, she's constantly wondering how she's going to get the perfect solution.

But there really doesn't seem to be any happy ending in the world, and the happy endings that recur in film and television works and literary works are almost non-existent in reality.

All the solutions that Shen Xiao can think of, not to mention whether there is the possibility of realistic implementation, but the most important thing is that no matter which plan, some things need to be sacrificed.

...... in this world There is no success that can be reaped without sacrificing anything.

Even if it's peace...... Peace can only exist if it is based on the premise of war and deterrence.

This is the real world, this is the cruel world.

Shen Xiao hadn't had time to discuss the solutions she had come up with with Chu Yunji, because the current Chu Yunji didn't have the ability to discuss these things with her.

Chu Yunji's spirit is as fragile as a piece of paper, and any choice will poke a hole in this piece of paper.

Shen Xiao couldn't let him go through these devastation again.

Therefore, those choices can only be made by her for him.

——

Shen Xiao didn't know if he was right or wrong to think so.

But it has come to this, this is the only choice she has at the moment, the only way she can go.

Carrying another person's life is so heavy that it seems to be trekking in a swamp, and every step will exhaust the strength of the whole body.

But Shen Xiao carried it without complaint.

Because she loves him.

She loved this man who was so kind that he didn't know how to live for himself.

If he is selfish, he will not be able to let go of his sister's death for so many years, he will not make this notebook in order to calm the guilt in his heart, he will not escape from the Chu family, he will not establish a secret base to take in homeless children, and he will not be involved with so many people.

He is selfish......

He's just too kind.

And Shen Xiao fell in love with him, a shining soul without dirt.

If Chu Yun admonished Danfan to be a little selfish......

Shen Xiao won't fall in love with him.

This is really a paradox.

Life is so unreasonable.

——

night

Under Shen Xiao's gentle persuasion, Chu Yunji spent more than two hours and finally fell asleep.

After he fell asleep, Shen Xiao sat at the head of the bed and pondered for a long time.

Then she rolled over and got out of bed and quietly left Chu Yunji's bedroom.

She walked back to her room, turned on her computer, and sent an email to an email address she had only contacted once.

——

After Chu Junhuai finished a busy day's official duties, he finally returned home, and after taking a shower, he sat at the head of the bed and picked up a tablet to read foreign news and current affairs.

And at this time, a small window suddenly popped up at the top of the screen:

"You received a new message"

Chu Junhuai was stunned.

The email address logged in on this tablet is his private email address.

Few people know his private email address.

And those people should know not to send an email at such a late hour to disturb his rest.

In other words, if one of these people sends an e-mail to his private mailbox late at night, it proves that the matter is urgent.

Chu Junhuai immediately clicked on the window.

The interface of the mailbox pops up, showing that the sender's name is-

Shen Xiao

Chu Junhuai's eyes widened slightly.

He didn't expect it to be an email from Shen Xiao.

Since this email address was given to Shen Xiao, Shen Xiao has only sent him an email, which is the answer to the homework on "Why does Chu Yun hate himself".

Chu Junhuai thought that from now on, Shen Xiao would not send anything to this mailbox again.

Because Shen Xiao's attitude towards him and the Chu family is four words: respect and stay away.

Or, there's nothing wrong with switching to "avoidance".

But tonight, Shen Xiao actually sent him an email at two o'clock in the morning.

Chu Junhuai couldn't help but be curious: what did she write.

Clicking on the email, Chu Junhuai read it carefully.

The more he read, the more frightened he became, the more he couldn't believe his eyes, and finally, when he read "Yun Zhi's mental state is precarious, we need your help - if you are still willing to help Yun Zhi, please reply to me." At that time, Chu Junhuai's fingertips couldn't help but tremble violently.