It was a nice weather. The sun was shining brightly and there was a soft spring breeze. The branches and grass are all blooming with fresh and tender green colors, is this the beautiful scenery described in the book?

It's a pity that the mood doesn't change because of the weather. I'm willing to admit that I'm in a bad mood, and my heart is just a flash of lightning and thunder at the moment.

It's just that on my face, I did my best, still with a sweet smile. With my textbook in hand, I walked to the school gate.

I've known for a long time that no matter how uncomfortable I feel, I still have to smile on my face. Laughter is the best weapon against most schadenfreude or suspicion.

There was the sound of hurried footsteps behind him. I sighed inwardly. Who else could have walked out of such a hurry? After hiding for a week, he was finally caught.

"Nan Chu!" the man's clear voice called me from behind me.

When I saw Fu Zekai for the first time, I felt a little rippling in my heart, such a good-looking boy, with stretched brows, eyes like cold stars, but when he smiled at you, a warm smile flashed in his eyes.

Alas, the sweet ecstasy of the past! Now looking back, I can't believe that I once had such a youthful mood and a faint sweetness.

"Nan Chu!" The voice behind him was getting closer and closer. I couldn't avoid it, so I paused and looked away: "Looking for me?"

"Let's go to the side and talk. Fu Zifeng grabbed me and forced me to walk with him under the roadside bench.

A wave of irritability rose in my heart. It's also a little melancholy and sad.

He didn't think that before he sat down on the stool, he couldn't wait to ask me: "Nan Chu, how long will you have to make trouble with Zekai?"

I don't look away.

"Nan Chu!" Fu Zifeng circled around and circled in front of me again. "Don't play with the eldest lady's temper, okay? You and Ze Kai are in such a stalemate, be careful of other people's profits. ”

I bit my lip. It's weird that the smile is still on my face, and I feel a little sore in my cheek muscles.

"Fu Zifeng, if you want me to tell you a few times, I have broken up with Fu Zekai!" Speaking of the topic I didn't want to mention the most, I tried my best to make my voice seem gentle, but I still leaked a trace of impatience. But it doesn't matter, Fu Zifeng has basketball in his head all his day, stupid big man, he can't hear the impatience in my words.

"Oh, Nan Chu, what kind of temper are you playing!" Fu Zifeng stomped his feet angrily. "Do you know how close Yuan Shuhua from the Department of Enterprise Management has been to Zekai these days......?

"Bless them for me. I cut off Fu Zifeng's words, trying my best to ignore the tingling feeling in my heart.

"I still have something to do, I'm not with you. "Standing in front of the bench without sitting down all the time already shows that I have no intention of having a deep conversation with Fu Zifeng. But now it seems that my hint was unsuccessful, and I had to clearly express my desire to leave.

Turning around, I walked away quickly.

The stupid big man is really not interesting, and he still follows me in the footsteps. "Jiang Nanchu—" The elongated voice began to call me by my name, indicating that the stupid big man was also displeased, "You are too willful!" he criticized me.

I froze, turned my head to glare at him. Taken aback, he jumped back, and then looked at me with two points of fear. Instead, I amused his reaction, and the corners of my lips curled up again.

This time, the smile was more heartfelt. Fu Zifeng was annoyed. "Nan Chu, I'm for the good of you both. God knows what I'm doing all day long like this to be a peacemaker? No one appreciates it, and they all face me in the autumn wind. ”

I still laugh, but my eyes felt a little hot. I have always been very grateful for the sincere feelings of others.

I patted Fu Zifeng on the shoulder. It was a bit of a struggle, because he was a head taller than me, but it wasn't enough to show my gratitude.

"Thank you. I said, "But Fu Zekai and I, yes, did say that we had broken up, and this time we are not playing tricks or playing the Cold War, so you don't have to worry about us anymore." ”

Just like several times before, Fu Zifeng still couldn't accept my words. He said: "Nonsense, I've told you countless times, no matter how much you have a dispute or quarrel, don't say break up at every turn, it's very hurtful." ”

I glanced deeply at Fu Zifeng. "You have to be fair, it's Fu Zekai who broke up this time, not me!"

"What about you, you agreed?" Fu Zifeng's expression was very distressed. "You've said you've broken up a few times before, haven't you? The name of this thorn is the word breakup. ”

If it weren't for the stalk in my mouth, I would have almost laughed. Fu Zifeng, he taught me so much, like a love mentor. But in fact, he has not yet had a single love experience.

He is still continuing to teach us: "Both of them have such strong personalities, and love also needs to be tolerant, Nan Chu, can't you clean up your eldest lady's temperament?"

I sank my face. "Clean, how to tidy up? That's the kind of person I am. Since falling in love with Fu Zekai, I've changed a lot, Fu Zifeng, don't you think?"

Fu Zifeng was stunned, and then, "Hmm...... Yes, you are changing a lot and just need to ...... again At the beginning of Nan, it is also a happy thing to change for the people you love. ”

I sneered. "That's what you men think, I wasn't born to sacrifice for anyone. ”

In fact, Jiang Nanchu ...... I smiled bitterly, I can't protect myself, where do I have the ability to sacrifice for my boyfriend?

Fu Zifeng frowned. "Is it that serious?"

"Yes, that's right!" I said aloud, raising my voice so high that there was a hint of trilling in my words. "Do you know what it's like to take care of a man's self-esteem at all times? Do you know what it's like to even say something unintentionally about someone or something around you that will cause an excessive backlash from the other person? Do you know what it's like to have to pretend to be happy and intoxicated when eating a street stall? And ......?"

"Can you not mix so many vulgar questions in love?" Fu Zifeng frowned. He looked at me as if he were looking at someone who was a complete stranger.

I finally fully understood that a man and a woman can never think from the same perspective. I lowered my voice tiredly: "Fu Zifeng, you be fair, it's not that I want to add these vulgar questions to it, but Fu Zekai, he can't accept my environment." ”

Fu Zifeng sighed. He said: "But Nan Chu, it is undeniable that your family background does put Zekai under a lot of pressure. ”

I sneered inwardly. "I've already said it, it's not my fault. ”

Besides, my family background ...... I smiled bitterly in my heart and mourned. If I am with Fu Zekai again, he completely understands my family background and environment that day, I am afraid that he will dislike me more completely.

Fu Zifeng was full of rhetoric and made my unkind words choke in my mouth. After half a sound, he sighed: "But Nan Chu, you have to be considerate of Fu Zekai, his environment is indeed a knot in his heart that is difficult to untie......"

"I understand him, who understands me?" I sneered this time. "If you can't deal with your own knots, don't fall in love, mislead others and yourself. "That's what I mean from the heart. I don't have a knot of my own.

"Do you have the sincerity to solve the problem?" Fu Zifeng was impatient.

"Nope. I bit my lip. "I already said it early in the morning, I broke up with him!"

Fu Zifeng stomped his feet. He grabbed my hand and pulled me forward.

"What are you doing?" I stumbled and let him pull forward, while paying attention to the book in his hand, so as not to fall out, so as not to be embarrassed.

"Go see Zekai. Fu Zifeng just pulled me forward and threw over the four words of hard erection.

"Crazy? I don't want to go. "I struggled. But Fu Zifeng's hand was so tight.

Surprised eyes were already coming at me. I finally gave up resistance and obediently followed Fu Zifeng forward. I'm not a showy person, and I hope that today's little accident won't cause a new scandal tomorrow.

Finally came to the ground. Fu Zifeng and I stood outside a row of hedges.

"See for yourself!" Fu Zifeng pushed me forward and asked me to look ahead.

I sighed softly.

The first sight, of course, was to see Fu Zekai. He is so outstanding, handsome appearance, and chic expression, he is also the focus of attention among many people. The slender and straight figure simply does not need to be decorated with gorgeous clothes. A pullover sweater and a pair of white-washed jeans can't hide his abundance.

Such a person, on campus, is like a ray of sunshine, and his every move can intoxicate many young girls. School is one of the places where people can hide their identity and class the most, who would have thought that this seemingly arrogant person would come from such an embarrassing background?

"See, as soon as you let go, someone will come and take advantage of it. Fu Zifeng whispered in my ear, with a bit of a lesson.

Oh, I forgot to describe what was happening in front of me. Because this time, as many times before, I always saw Fu Zekai at the first glance in my eyes, and then, I didn't tolerate anyone else. That's why it's only at this moment that I turn what I see into information and put it into my mind.

Standing beside Fu Zekai at this moment, the short-haired girl with a round face and big eyes was talking to Fu Zekai with a light smile. This girl, I know. She is also a member of Fu Zekai's business management department, and it is said that she is also a highly talented student.

She is what Fu Zifeng just said, Yuan Shuhua, who has been very close to Fu Zekai in the past two days. It seems that it is indeed not groundless.

"What are you hesitating about?" Fu Zifeng stabbed me. "Not out yet. You know, as long as you go and be coquettish, everything will be clear. Zekai ...... It's just a death to save face, you want you to go to him, and it's too late for him to be happy. ”

I didn't move. Fu Zifeng was anxious. "Go," he pushed me again, "Are you really going to give Zekai to someone else?" he stamped his foot anxiously, not believing that I would endure it like that.

No wonder he didn't believe it. The first time I had an awkward relationship with Fu Zekai, I was in front of him, from forcibly calm to crying bitterly. And he has been playing the role of peace ambassador since that time, and he understands my feelings for Fu Zekai.

But this time, I refused to move. Fu Zifeng was in a hurry, so he lifted me again.

The strength was so strong that I couldn't stand up and staggered onto the hedge.

Naturally, Fu Zekai and Yuan Shuhua were alarmed, and they looked in the direction of the sound in amazement.

"Zekai, Nan Chu is coming to you. Fu Zifeng pushed my shoulder and dragged me out half-forcedly.

I saw a hint of surprise flash in Fu Zekai's eyes, and quickly turned indifferent. And Yuan Shuhua beside him had a much more complicated expression, a little stunned, a little embarrassed, but a look of challenge flashed in his eyes.

"Are you here?" Fu Zekai asked coldly.

He has always been like this, since he became his girlfriend, in front of his classmates, he always has to put on a look of ignoring me. The vanity of a ridiculous big boy.

But this time I am not going to accommodate his vanity. I also said coldly: "It's okay, Zifeng pulled me over." ”

I saw Fu Zekai's eyes, and his eyes began to turn cold. "Zifeng pulled you over, you came over? ”

I bit my lip, and then I smiled, trying to show the sweetest smile I could.

"I'm clueless, and your comments are very pertinent. I whispered, "I hope that after leaving you, I can become more intelligent." ”

Fu Zifeng was so anxious that he jumped to his feet beside him. And I coldly added: "In addition, congratulations to the two of you." I'm sorry to bother, so I'll take my leave right away. ”

In my heart, there is a fire of anger burning, is this the person I once thought could take care of and cherish my life? But I was angry, and I still had a sweet smile on my face.

Turning around, I was ready to leave, looking forward to the most perfect and dignified curtain call. At the same time, we must prevent Fu Zifeng from rushing over to arrest people, this indiscriminate good person is now so anxious that his face has changed color.

"Jiang Nanchu, you stop me. Behind him was Fu Zekai's shouting, losing his usual calm, bringing out a hint of anger.

I stood on my feet and turned around. The stubborn still kept a smile on his face, looking at the person who stopped me.

He sneered. "Disturb us, just send us away with a word of embarrassment? As he spoke, he stretched out his hand to hold Yuan Shuhua, and his eyes were cold and shot at me.

I sighed inwardly. Fu Zekai and I are really two fighting hedgehogs. At the moment he was already enraged, and I ...... I asked coldly, "Then what do you say?"

Fu Zekai made me stunned when I asked. After a while, he said stupidly: "You should apologize to me and Shu Hua, you shouldn't sneak around like a mouse and peep, this is very rude." ”

"Zekai!" Fu Zifeng jumped beside him.

And I, I calmed down my ups and downs, and recounted coldly: "I'm sorry, Mr. Fu Zekai, Miss Yuan Shuhua, I shouldn't be like a mouse sneaking aside to peep at you, this is very rude." I know it's wrong, I'm sorry. ”

Perhaps this sentence had a good deterrent effect, and I saw that all the people present, except for me, stood on the ground one by one in a daze.

I don't think so. Fu Zekai just wanted to humiliate me, for a person like him who has a great self-esteem, it is not easy to say these words, but for me, saying a few words that hurt me in exchange for purifying my ears is what I used to do.

Besides, as soon as such words are spoken, Fu Zekai and I are bound to have no way to turn around, but I'm afraid that in the future, Fu Zifeng won't be able to pull me to be his peacemaker, right?

I looked at Fu Zekai. His expression was both surprised and a little remorseful. I feel a trace of happiness in my heart, which can make Fu Zekai uncomfortable, it's really good. Even if I want to say something depraving, I am willing to say it in exchange for such a result.

I asked coldly, "The apology has already been said, what objections do you have? ”

I think my eyes must be cold at the moment. Fu Zekai opened his mouth, but said nothing.

"If there is no objection, I will accept it as if you were it. "I really admire myself for being able to speak in such a brisk tone. His eyes stared at Fu Zekai and grabbed Yuan Shuhua's hand, it was the most dazzling scene at present. Then, I turned around and walked out of the arena with my back straight.

I used this position until after the turn, and then I relaxed and collapsed. How could it be...... How could you see that Fu Zekai was still shocked? Obviously...... I obviously said I broke up, didn't I?

The eyes are a little sour. I tried my best to hold back the tears. It's still a school, and there are so many people, how can I cry? How can I let irrelevant people see that I'm sad and sad? I take a deep breath.

The hurried footsteps sounded behind themselves. Then a voice with concern: "Nan Chu...... Nan Chu ......"

It's Fu Zifeng.

I cleared my throat and asked, "What's the matter?" and tried to speak as calmly as I could. Now don't cry or be weak even in front of him, he is Fu Zekai's sworn friend, since I want to break up with Fu Zekai at this moment, don't let anyone think that I want to break up with Fu Zekai.

Fu Zifeng was asking, "Nan Chu, are you okay?"

"It's okay, how can I be okay?" I tried to put on a casual pretense as if nothing had happened. "But you, why are you in such a hurry? Do you feel embarrassed to be a light bulb?"

"You ......," Fu Zifeng sighed beside me in distress. "I messed things up...... Nan Chu, I didn't expect you to be so jealous, and I went crazy when I saw Zekai with other women. ”

"Crazy?" I was very dissatisfied with the word, "Do I behave like a jealous woman?" Zifeng, I beg you, don't force your subjective assumptions on me, how can I look crazy?"

"But you're always jealous, aren't you?"

"My old toys, don't play with them anymore, and my mother gives them to other children, I still get angry, is this kind of emotion jealous?" I replied lightly.

Fu Zifeng couldn't cry or laugh beside me. "You girls......" After a pause, he changed the topic and unyieldingly wanted to pull Fu Zekai: "Zekai is also very angry today, I have never seen him speak like this." ”

I've seen it many times. I thought to myself. When there is a misunderstanding, we all compete to hurt each other with the most powerful words...... Me and him are really not the right people to be together.

"Zekai also cares about you, so he is so angry. Why are you provoking him," Fu Zifeng continued to babble beside me, "but I don't blame you, you're jealous...... I thought that if you saw this scene, you would bravely snatch Zekai back, but I didn't expect that the stimulation for you was too great, and you became angry......"

I began to hear Fu Zifeng blame me for not provoking Fu Zekai, and I was almost about to have a seizure, but when I heard his words, I turned into self-pity again, and I couldn't help but laugh.

"Forget Zifeng, don't help this kind of bad favor in the future. I waved my hand, "I'm leaving, you go and practice your ball, did you delay training again today?" ”

"I'll take you on the bus. "Sometimes, stupid big men are also a bit of a gentleman.

"No, I'll call a taxi. "I stood still on the side of the street and my eyes began to strafe the vehicles coming in front of me.

"You call a taxi?" Fu Zifeng repeated beside him. "Nan Chu, why do you have to call a taxi, isn't it good to take the bus?"

I understood exactly what he was thinking. "I've broken up with Fu Zekai now, you don't need me to pretend to be simple anymore, right? Now I won't stimulate some people when I fight, anyway, I have nothing to do with him. ”

It's true, when I was with Fu Zekai before, I said that I would call a taxi, and he was not pleased. He said: "Nan Chu, you are so wasteful, how can I afford to support your wife in the future?"

So he changed himself, took the simple route, and let him get on the bus every day.

Most people may be used to riding the bus, but I am really not used to it, and I feel that the smell in the car is strange in the winter, let alone in the summer, and the bus ride is like purgatory.

Maybe I don't know the suffering of the world, but I wasn't born to suffer. If I can't avoid suffering in other ways, then at least I don't have to crowd the bus.

Every time I watched carefully after getting on the bus, as long as the bus drove away from Fu Zekai's sight, and I couldn't see a familiar face on the bus, I immediately jumped off the bus and called a taxi.

I feel that it has been very hard, and it has changed a lot. But Fu Zekai was still not satisfied. In the end, it was a sin that I had money, and in his words, my "glitter"—the gloss of money—forced him to have little place to stand.

Thinking of this, it's not that I'm not embarrassed. I used to think that love has nothing to do with class, wealth, status, etc., and even once felt that love that can put aside money and status is true love. But it wasn't until I experienced it myself that I found out that there were still two parties involved, and they really didn't care about things like class, wealth, and status.

I don't know if I do it or not. But I can be sure that Fu Zekai cares.

I used to think that it was a good thing for a person to have backbone. Now I know that when your lover is a poor but too backbone person, it is a tragic thing that makes you cry and can't cry.

"What are you thinking about?" Fu Zifeng touched me. "It's like this. If you're sad, just say it, I'll go and talk to Zekai, you guys get back together, don't be like this, one has a rigid face, and the other looks like a trance. ”

"Not necessarily. I saw an empty car approaching and hurriedly beckoned to stop. "I'm gone, Zifeng, 88. "I got into the car as if fleeing.

"Sunset Road. I told the driver, looking at Fu Zifeng in my sight, and gradually retreated.

While driving, the driver asked me, "Miss, where is Luoyang Road?" Miss...... Miss, why are you crying?"

I touched my face with my hand, and tears welled up in my face. "I ...... Crying?" I muttered to myself.

The driver was terrified. "Miss, are you sick and uncomfortable, or are you out of love? When you are sick, I will send you to the clinic instead, right?"

I guess he was probably afraid I would faint in his car. Looking in the mirror in front of me, my face was horribly pale.

"No, I'm not sick. I whispered, "Please take me to 19 Sunset Road." After that, I covered my face with my hands again. Cover it very hard.

Tears quickly seeped out of the fingers, cool, and flowed along. It turns out that breaking up, no matter how much psychological preparation you have in advance, it is not enough, you will still have heartburn, and you will still be sad and tearful.

It's so stuffy, it seems to be breathless. Despair flashed in my mind Fu Zekai's eyes that looked at me just now, with a cold expression.

In fact, it was up to you to give up on him. Although, it was he who said that the breakup. Both of them were so calm that day. I even wish him happiness in the future.

I have thought a thousand times about the reason why two people can't be together. Love each other, but you can't get along well, so you have to end this relationship before you become a resentful couple. In his heart, there are too many inferiority complexes and self-esteem, which squeezes love to a foothold. And I, my heart is just as heavy.

I know that I am not a person who dares to give his feelings at all costs. So, in the face of setbacks, I thought about backing down. Of course, Fu Zekai did not give me confidence in this letter. And myself, the idea that is ingrained in my heart, love...... It's just an extremely unreliable relationship, and it's really not a crime to go to the trouble for love.

Look, what a selfish woman I am. How can two people rely on each other? Reason tells me that such an end is the best way.

But at this moment, the feelings are out of control again.

It turns out that love is just - you, in love with someone. It doesn't matter who you fall in love with, whether it's suitable or not. The object of our love is an accident beyond our control.

However, to maintain love, at least mutual tolerance is required. I didn't manage to do it. Fu Zekai didn't do it either.

It turns out that the love that I lost was because he and I were too selfish and didn't know how to love others.