"Is it fragile? After being abandoned by you, my heart has long been hard and invulnerable. Qi also disagreed.

Qi Yi's tone made Yan Yun feel that the idea he had just now seemed to be really superfluous.

I haven't seen her for four years, and Qi Yi is definitely not the original Qi Yi anymore, just like she is no longer the original Yan Yun.

"To be honest, I really didn't think you would confess to me, when I was a freshman in high school, to be exact, from the second day after entering the school in my first year of high school, I stared at you every day, nothing to do with love, just to survive. Yan Yun's words were amazing.

"Survival?" Qi also had no way of believing Yan Yun's words.

Stare at him to survive? Is he bread, or is it milk?

But Qi Yi looked at Yan Yun's expression when he spoke, and he didn't seem to be joking.

"When we were together, I should often tell you that from elementary school to junior high school, I was very unpopular. No matter what I say or do, I am always targeted, and I often can't find the reason for it. Yan Yun continued to speak, but still did not give an answer to the question just now.

"Well, then what?" Qi Yi was curious.

"Then, I went to high school. When Yan Yun spoke, there was a sudden pause.

"And then, can you finish the sentence at once?" Qi Yi asked helplessly, always preferring to pause in key places, when he shouldn't pause.

"I went into our high school with the lowest grade, and that's a position that is naturally targeted. In my experience as a child, the first and the last are both targeted.

However, on the first day of high school, your popularity is surprisingly good, you are like a light, illuminating every corner you have visited, no matter where you stand, someone will take the initiative to come up to talk to you.

Not only the students in our class, but also the classmates in other classes who you may have known since junior high school.

On the first day of high school, I was afraid of becoming the target of public criticism again, so I didn't come forward to talk to you like other classmates, I hid in the most inconspicuous corner, looking at this light in the classroom.

The next day, everyone in the class chose you as class president, and it is no exaggeration to say that you shine brightly in my eyes.

Before Mr. Ge deliberately changed our seats to the front and back rows, I sat in the far corner of the class, and the most important thing I did every day was to stare at your light.

I wonder how I can be so outstanding, so special, and yet not targeted.

Unlike me, from childhood to adulthood, I will be targeted if I study well, I will be targeted if I don't study well, and I will be targeted if I choose to go to work or not.

I have no reason to shy away from the occasional time when you find me looking at you, and it seems to me that the way you look at people is definitely part of your good popularity, which is something I particularly want to figure out.

When the eyes meet, you look at me in the eyes, there is no targeting, no disgust, which makes me grateful enough, so I will naturally smile at you and express gratitude.

For a person like you, who is sought after by everyone, there is probably no way to understand how grateful a person who has been targeted since childhood can see a look that has no purpose.

You're radiant, and I'm just a moth fighting for survival.

At that time, the only thing I wanted was a normal, ordinary, and untargeted high school life.

This is probably the real reason why you think that the way I look at you is different from other people who like you. Yan Yun obediently finished all his words at once.

After Qi Yi listened, he didn't answer.

Therefore, at the beginning of love, it was actually Qi Yi who misunderstood that Yan Yun liked him.

If it was Qi Yi in high school, he would know the truth of this matter, he would definitely be ashamed and indignant.

But now Qi Yi feels that this must be the most beautiful misunderstanding.

"You stare at me all the time, but you don't like me at all?" Qi Yi once used a somewhat self-deprecating tone.

"Well, that's a difficult question. But what you just said exposes another problem, if you don't look at me all the time, how can you know that I look at you all the time?" Yan Yun felt that Qi Yi, who would laugh at himself, was more three-dimensional than Qi Yi in high school.

"My soul has been hooked away by your eyes, what's so strange about you?" Qi Yi didn't care about the fact that Yan Yun knew that he was also staring at her, what he cared about was whether Yan Yun really didn't like him at all when he first started.

"Thank you, Qi Yi. Yan Yun suddenly changed his particularly sensational tone and expression.

"Thank me for what?" Qi Yi was instantly infected by the tone in which Yan Yun had just spoken.

"Thank you for falling in love with me in your sophomore year of high school.

My classmates all said, I am with you, and the biggest gain is the improvement of my grades.

In fact, they will not know that your love has brought me self-confidence and a new life.

I think it's because of you that my high school classmates think I'm not that annoying.

You make me feel that I'm not an outlier in the crowd, that I wasn't born to be targeted.

Most importantly, the confidence that your love brings to me makes me no longer hate myself.

I've come to believe that being targeted may not be entirely my fault.

With this self-confidence, when I was a freshman, when I was targeted again, I had no timidity, no self-blame, and no deep guilt.

My junior high school classmates have always felt that I am a withdrawn person who is particularly difficult to get along with.

Actually, I was just being targeted too much to have a cautious personality that didn't fit my age.

Your love has allowed me to find that naturally cheerful self.

Although the good year was short, it made me the person I am now.

So, thank you. ”

Yan Yun carried out the instruction that Qi Yi had just asked her to "finish the words at once".

I don't know why, Qi Yi felt as if something was rolling in his eyes, which was a scene that had not happened when they broke up at that time.

Qi Yi didn't know what he should say in response to Yan Yun's "thank you", but he didn't plan to avoid Yan Yun's eyes looking at him.

"Okay, I seem to be a little too sensational, I can answer the question you just asked, that is, when I am staring at you all the time, do I like you a little bit.

If you asked me this question in my freshman year of high school, I would say no.

At that time, I felt in my heart that my feelings for you were only admiration, appreciation, and admiration.

At that time, I was still struggling for 'survival', and I didn't dare to like you at all.

I don't know my feelings at all. Yan Yun began to seriously answer the question that Qi Yi was most concerned about.