39. Juvenile feelings

A lonely girl standing on a high place and being isolated from the group stumbles upon a boy's name in a library book, and she vaguely feels that this boy is similar to her, so she begins to look for and confirm it from some clues. They didn't have to wait long, they met, hazy feelings grew in their hearts, and the boy went to Italy in order to become a violinist.

The girl began to miss, every movement he made when he made the violin, and after a long time, the boy returned, and in the early morning, in the light white sky, he stood under the girl's building, knocked on the window with a stone to wake the girl, and rode the girl on his bicycle to see the sunrise.

At the end of the film, the boy rides the girl up a very steep slope, and the girl resolutely jumps out of the car to help the boy push the cart, and the girl says, "I don't want to be a burden to the Holy Division, but I want to work hard with the Holy Division to finish the road!"

Fu Zekai was shocked, and the screen began to show for the second time......

Nan's first eyelashes are wet. "It's so good to be a teenager!"

The music played, the film started again, Fu Zekai's hand reached to the side and pulled her into his arms, the first time, he wiped her tears so gently. The youth continues to be staged on the screen, and the warm hugs are under the screen......

Fu Zekai listened to her sobbing silently, why is this film so familiar, so familiar that it seems that someone has looked for him like that, suddenly, a vague figure flashed in his mind, and it disappeared before he had time to capture it......

Nan Chu stopped sobbing and nestled in his arms like a cat, once, after she found him, she also wanted to say that to him, but before she really met, before she could say it, she was already ......

She grabbed his clothes, and fortunately, after all these years, she finally broke free and returned home to find him!

"Zekai!"

"Huh?"

"I want to work with you to finish the road!"

Silence, long, long time......

"Good!"

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In the deep blue sky, the bright moon was covered by layers of floating clouds, and the moonlight broke through the barrier and covered the ground with a layer of pale white light, and the cicadas chirped poignantly. There are no lights on in the bedroom, only the silver light of the pale white moonlight in front of the bed.

The man and the woman lay quietly on the bed, the ten fingers of one big and one small hand outside the quilt were clasped together, the five fingers of the big hand were bent and grasped, but the five fingers of the small hand were only slightly bent weakly,......

"Xiao Nanchu, you said it, we have to work together to finish the road!"

But you have become a burden to me, a burden to my heart! a burden that I can never let go!

A lonely girl standing on a high place and being isolated from the group stumbles upon a boy's name in a library book, and she vaguely feels that this boy is similar to her, so she begins to look for and confirm it from some clues. They didn't have to wait long, they met, hazy feelings grew in their hearts, and the boy went to Italy in order to become a violinist.

The girl began to miss, every movement he made when he made the violin, and after a long time, the boy returned, and in the early morning, in the light white sky, he stood under the girl's building, knocked on the window with a stone to wake the girl, and rode the girl on his bicycle to see the sunrise.

At the end of the film, the boy rides the girl up a very steep slope, and the girl resolutely jumps out of the car to help the boy push the cart, and the girl says, "I don't want to be a burden to the Holy Division, but I want to work hard with the Holy Division to finish the road!"

Fu Zekai was shocked, and the screen began to show for the second time......

Nan's first eyelashes are wet. "It's so good to be a teenager!"

The music played, the film started again, Fu Zekai's hand reached to the side and pulled her into his arms, the first time, he wiped her tears so gently. The youth continues to be staged on the screen, and the warm hugs are under the screen......

Fu Zekai listened to her sobbing silently, why is this film so familiar, so familiar that it seems that someone has looked for him like that, suddenly, a vague figure flashed in his mind, and it disappeared before he had time to capture it......

Nan Chu stopped sobbing and nestled in his arms like a cat, once, after she found him, she also wanted to say that to him, but before she really met, before she could say it, she was already ......

She grabbed his clothes, and fortunately, after all these years, she finally broke free and returned home to find him!

"Zekai!"

"Huh?"

"I want to work with you to finish the road!"

Silence, long, long time......

"Good!"

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In the deep blue sky, the bright moon was covered by layers of floating clouds, and the moonlight broke through the barrier and covered the ground with a layer of pale white light, and the cicadas chirped poignantly. The bedroom without lights was lit up, only the silver light of the pale white moonlight in front of the bed.

"Xiao Nanchu, you said it, we have to work together to finish the road!"

But you have become a burden to me, a burden to my heart! a burden that I can never let go!

The morning was no different than usual, the valley in the distance was covered with white mist, the rays of sunlight pierced through the glass like sharp swords, and the person in the bed slept as usual, sleeping in her own world.

The man in front of the mirror walked to the side of the bed after wearing a tie, and watched distressedly as the special nurse gave the person on the bed an injection, and the blood flowed backwards into the needle, and then was washed back into the blood vessel by the nutrient solution......

He squeezed her hand, brushed her hair, and whispered in her ear, "I'm going to work, I'll be with you at night!"

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On the weekend, the sound of rain outside the window was dripping, and the breeze brought in the cool curtains, waking up the sleeping people on the bed, Fu Zekai gently moved Jiang Nanchu's head to the pillow, and kneaded the arm that had been paralyzed by the pillow all night with his right hand.

Get up, wash up...... Ordinary husband and wife life, sleeping together until dawn, one person gets up first, one person lies in bed, Fu Zekai feels fulfilled in this rainy morning.

The drizzle was swaying, he remembered that it was also raining on the day his adoptive father left, on the way back to the bachelor's dormitory from the hospital, countless times, the blue lightning struck straight above his head, the immature body had no fear, no evasion, his face was repeatedly washed by the cold rain, he couldn't shed tears, he looked straight up at the red flash of the sky, desperately waiting for it to destroy the world and ruin him......

A pair of thin hands wrapped around him from behind, Fu Zekai looked up in surprise, only to find that a tear rolled down from the person in the mirror at some point, and he collected his emotions. "Woke up?"

"Well, woke up. Nan Chu's face was pressed against his back, and his voice was soft and soft.

Fu Zekai turned around and pressed her head to her chest. "I'll go back to the dorm to clean up later. ”

"I'll go with you!" Nan Chu tilted his head. "I will do the housework!"

He thought for a moment and answered, "Okay!"

In a room of about ten square meters, there is only a bed with peeling red paint, a combined wardrobe, an old TV set on the desk, and a black and white photo hanging on the wall.

"He was only 26 years old when he died, but he had an 8-year-old son!" Fu Zekai sat on the bed, hugging Nan Chu, his chin resting lightly on her shoulder. "When I was 3 years old, I was taken to the police station, and he was 23 years old and had just started working. After bringing me home, my relatives never came to claim me, and I stayed in this house!"

"He's such a good person!" Nan Chu looked at the remains, if it weren't for him, what would Fu Zekai become?

"At first, I believed that my mother had just lost me, and that one day she would find me back, because he kept telling me that, so I looked forward to him coming back from work every day to tell me that someone was looking for me, day after day, only disappointed again and again, the day he completed the enrollment procedures for me, I understood that from now on there will be no mother, and from now on, he is my only relative!"

"One day when I came back here after school, he was clumsily chopping vegetables in the little kitchen built on the balcony, and I waited hungry for two hours before he finished the meal, and I asked him why he didn't go to the cafeteria to eat, and he said, 'You can't eat in the cafeteria every day!'

"I rarely think of my mother who cruelly threw me away, because I was very happy at that time, but I didn't expect that after only three years of such days, I was still abandoned, sometimes I thought that it would be better if he felt that I was a burden and abandoned me, but in fact, he abandoned me so cruelly, a person who took me to run and exercise every day, cooked for me, and took me to and from school, just disappeared from my life like that, and I will never be seen again......" He rubbed his sitting body hard, and his voice trembled slightly.

"I didn't go on the day of the burial, I sat on this bed, and I always felt that when the time came, he would open the door and enter the house, and then he would say to me, 'Son, let's stew ribs at night?' It was dark, and for the first time, I was the only one who slept on this bed, and I woke up many times, and every time I seemed to hear the door open, and the door didn't open until dawn...... His colleague offered to adopt me, but I refused, I didn't want to move out of this house with many happy memories!"

"Fu Zekai......" Nan Chu turned around and hugged his neck tightly, tears rolling into his neck in strings.

His arms tightened and kissed her. "Nan Chu, you are very similar to him, you are so good to me for no reason, so I can't refuse, sinking into a sweet dream, but the heartbreak of many years ago makes me panic, I want to alienate you, I want to get out, but you get closer and closer, you said we have to work together to finish the road, what if you give up halfway?"

"I won't give up, Fu Zekai, even if you don't want me, I will accompany you for the rest of my life!" Nan Chu let go of her hand and looked at Fu Zekai with a sad face with tears in her eyes, she repeated. "I'm not going to give up!"

"Nan Chu, remember what you said!" his voice was hoarse. "If you give up, I'll hate you!" he kissed her.

She may be deceiving him, but he is not deceiving himself, deceiving himself that what she said is true.

A dimly lit room, where sunlight shines through small windows, fine dust flies in the light, and a drama series is playing on the TV on the desk......

"Jiang Nanchu, I'll say it again, you sit next to me for me!" Fu Zekai's eyebrows were twisted into knots, and Jiang Nanchu was holding a mop and slamming it into the bucket, and the sewage splashed out and spilled onto the sheets.