Chapter 331: Complex Emotions

Gu Yuanshan knelt on the edge of the cliff and cried and laughed, and after a long time, he got up, and his whole body seemed to be emptied, empty and fluttering.

At this moment, Gu Yuanshan felt as if he was a lonely ghost, wandering in the air, he saw his grandmother, who had passed away for many years, staring at him coldly in the gloomy air, and his grandmother's voice lingered in his ears: "Distant mountains-the bitter sea is endless, and turning back is the shore-"

"Grandma-" Gu Yuanshan sat in the car, calling grandma, sobbing sadly.

After crying enough, Gu Yuanshan started the engine and drove the car home in a trance.

After entering the house, Gu Yuanshan threw all the things used by Lao Xiuxian and Huang Guangxuan into a huge woven bag. The plates, dishes and chopsticks they had used were all smashed and broken by him, and thrown into woven bags.

After Huang Jipeng led Lao Xiuxian and Huang Guangxuan out of the house in Gu Yuanshan, he secretly went downstairs to eat, returned upstairs, and hid in the house. At this moment, he heard the movement, and he didn't come out.

What happened in the past few days was too terrible for a teenager, Huang Jipeng couldn't bear it at all, he could only hide and protect himself.

After Gu Yuanshan cleaned up the things at home, he dragged the woven bag into the yard, threw it in the car, and drove out again. After throwing the woven bag into the wilderness, he returned home exhausted, fell asleep, and soon fell asleep.

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Li Fenglan was lying on the bed in the hospital, and the dinner was brought by the nurse, and it was placed on the bedside table without moving. She was like ashes, thinking to herself, Gu Yuanshan must not want her anymore, otherwise, why would he leave her here.

Staring at the ceiling with wide eyes, Li Fenglan's heart was full of guilt, and tears couldn't stop flowing. She thought to herself: Things have come to this point, I can't complain about Gu Yuanshan, what man allows his own woman to be unclear with other men, and even make trouble at home? Is Shi Xuanwei a crazy person, is it because his life in the city is unsatisfactory, stupid - what are you pestering me all day long? Shi Xuanwei, you wait, when I am discharged from the hospital, I will definitely find you to find out, this matter has not passed so easily!

"Li Fenglan, are you crazy, you can't hide, you still have to go to Shi Xuanwei? You still don't make enough trouble!" Li Fenglan then overturned her thoughts, feeling that she shouldn't have anything to do with Shi Xuanwei anymore, no matter what she suffered, she could only break her teeth and swallow it in her belly.

Li Fenglan's heart was full of contradictions, thinking about the east for a while, and thinking about the west for a while, and her brain was about to explode.

Speaking of 1,000 to 10,000, Li Fenglan's heart is most concerned about Gu Yuanshan, she can't deny that she loves him, if she can start all over again, she will still treat him wholeheartedly.

On the other hand, Li Fenglan also knew that after going through so many things, there was no way for her and Gu Yuanshan to go back to the past.

Li Fenglan couldn't sleep, from time to time she had delusions, she felt that the door was ringing, and wondered if it would be Gu Yuanshan who came, struggling to look up, but it was empty.

Li Fenglan tortured herself for three days and three nights, the whole person lost weight, her face was haggard, and on the fourth day, the doctor told her that she could be discharged from the hospital, and said with concern: "Mrs. Gu, Secretary Gu may be too busy with work, why don't I send someone to send you back?"

"No need. Thank you, I can go back by myself!" Li Fenglan rejected the doctor's kindness, looked at the doctor's back as he left, and sat on the edge of the bed.

Her heart was full of mixed feelings, and she didn't know if she should return to the home that filled her with happy and painful memories.

"What do you want? Hurry up, after sending you home, I still have to rush to a meeting!" Gu Yuanshan appeared in front of Li Fenglan.

Li Fenglan raised her eyes and looked at Gu Yuanshan in a daze, unable to believe that all this was true.

"What are you staring at me, stupid in the hospital?" Gu Yuanshan looked at Li Fenglan with soft eyes.

"Yuanshan-I-" Li Fenglan choked out Gu Yuanshan's name, tears welling up.

Gu Yuanshan walked over, hugged Li Fenglan in his arms, and comforted: "Okay, it's all over, don't think about it anymore!

Li Fenglan's long-suppressed emotions were like a flood that opened the floodgates, all pouring out, she hugged Gu Yuanshan's waist tightly, crying bitterly.

"Don't delay, hurry up!" Gu Yuanshan helped Li Fenglan get up and walked towards the door, along the way, Li Fenglan couldn't control her emotions.

The more Gu Yuanshan treated Li Fenglan, the more guilty she felt in her heart.

When he arrived at the door, Gu Yuanshan handed the key to Li Fenglan and said, "You go in by yourself, Jipeng is waiting for you at home, I'll go to the meeting first!"

"You drive slower on the road!" Li Fenglan said the first sentence on the way back, Gu Yuanshan smiled at her, that smile was full of tenderness, which made her heart tremble.

Seeing Gu Yuanshan drive away, Li Fenglan burst into tears, this man had already occupied her entire heart, and there was not the slightest gap to accommodate other things.

Li Fenglan turned around with tears on her face, Huang Jipeng had already opened the door, looked at her happily, and shouted, "Godmother, you're finally back!"

Li Fenglan touched Huang Jipeng's head and entered the house. Look around the room, familiar and unfamiliar. The sofa cover was gone, revealing shiny leather, and the furnishings of the room had changed a little.

Li Fenglan asked suspiciously, "Jipeng, where is your grandmother and uncle?"

"That day, after the godfather sent you to the hospital and came back, he sent them away, and he also threw away all the things they used, saying that he couldn't see the injuries-" Huang Jipeng helped Li Fenglan sit on the sofa and said, "Godmother, I'll pour water for you!"

"No need. Jipeng, you sit, godmother has something to ask you. Li Fenglan pulled Huang Jipeng to sit beside her, Huang Jipeng looked at her and said, "Godmother, you ask!"

"Is your godfather okay these days?" Li Fenglan couldn't help but get nervous when she asked this sentence.

"When I came back that night, my godfather slept until noon the next day, and then left after getting up, looking at him, he seemed to be quite tired! Godmother-is the baby in your belly okay?" Huang Jipeng had a reminiscent expression, and at the end, he looked at Li Fenglan with concern.

Li Fenglan snorted and said sadly: "The baby is gone-"

Huang Jipeng stared at Li Fenglan in shock, and after a while, he comforted: "Godmother, don't be sad, Jipeng will honor you well!"

"Jipeng is so good!" Li Fenglan hugged Huang Jipeng's shoulder, tears in her eyes.

Back at home, Li Fenglan's heart became more and more unsettled, she always felt that things were wrong, and every corner was full of sadness. Things can be thrown away, but those painful memories are not something that can be thrown away.

Originally, after a few months, this huge room would be filled with the cry of a baby, and after that, the child would be seen running and playing everywhere, and his laughter would be heard.

But all this, before it could appear, was gone, and it could never come back. Thinking about it, Li Fenglan hid her face and cried, and Huang Jipeng patted her back sensibly to comfort her.

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After the meeting, Gu Yuanshan didn't go home immediately, and sat alone in the office in a daze.

Today is the first seven days of the earthquake victims, and the entire Jindu is immersed in mournful remembrance.

Thinking back on all the things that happened in just seven days, Gu Yuanshan's mood was difficult to calm down. He can deceive himself and tell himself that Lao Xiuxian and Huang Guangxuan were killed by the earthquake and have nothing to do with him, but he can't bear the fact that the child is gone.

Gu Yuanshan felt that his endurance was too strong, and after ending the lives of Lao Xiuxian and Huang Guangxuan with his own hands, he actually slept peacefully, and he didn't even have a nightmare. This state made him feel frightened, could it be that he had invisibly become a murderous executioner, and no longer had flesh and blood?

Thinking of the lost child and Li Fenglan, Gu Yuanshan's heart ached faintly, which made him feel that he was still a mortal with flesh and blood and emotions.

When Gu Yuanshan was most resentful, he thought about breaking off with Li Fenglan, and from then on, the well water would not interfere with the river water, and there would be no more anything to do with it, but he finally found that he couldn't do it at all.

Although Li Fenglan was left alone in the hospital with a ruthless heart, Gu Yuanshan's heart was not comfortable. He was worried about her all the time, and when he thought of her, his heart ached.

Gu Yuanshan couldn't tell clearly whether he loved or hated Li Fenglan, and after repeatedly verifying it, it was confirmed that he loved her, even if he didn't have a baby in his life and no one to inherit him, he was reluctant to want her.

On the same day, when Gu Yuanshan left the hospital, he made a special trip to ask the doctor to take care of Li Fenglan, and left him a phone number, asking him to contact him if he had anything.

The doctor called Gu Yuanshan and told him that Li Fenglan could be discharged from the hospital, but he didn't think about it, so he asked the doctor to send someone to send her home on the grounds that he was busy with work.

After hanging up the phone, Gu Yuanshan sat at the desk dejectedly, lit a cigarette, took two puffs in distraught, quickly extinguished the cigarette, and drove slowly towards the hospital.

Along the way, Gu Yuanshan was worried about not rushing, but fortunately, he still saw Li Fenglan before she left the hospital, and personally sent her home.

Seeing Li Fenglan crying bitterly, Gu Yuanshan's heart was annoyed and painful - he could hide his inner feelings and speak softly to her, but he couldn't act as if everything hadn't happened.

Gu Yuanshan wasn't sure how long his patience with Li Fenglan would last, and when he would be unbearable and completely burst out.

Gu Yuanshan remembered that in order to save the entire Jindu City, he swore a poisonous oath to God - if he did something that hurt heaven and reason, he would not die a good death!

In an instant, Gu Yuanshan violated his oath, not only did something hurtful to heaven and reason, but also killed his brother and his mother with his own hands.

Regarding the deaths of Lao Xiuxian and Huang Guangxuan, Gu Yuanshan only knelt on the edge of the cliff and cried bitterly, and had a brief repentance, and then, his heart was still filled with deep hatred for them.

Gu Yuanshan felt that the reason why Lao Xiuxian and Huang Guangxuan had today's fate was completely because they took it upon themselves and couldn't blame him. The only thing he was deeply disturbed by was his grandmother's cold gaze, which was always shaking and lingering in front of his eyes.

Every time he calmed down, his grandmother's gaze followed him like a shadow, invading every nerve in Gu Yuanshan, no matter how he drove it, it couldn't be erased, it was like being deeply implanted in his brain and carved into his pupils, making him shudder-

For the first time, Gu Yuanshan felt that his grandmother no longer loved him, this feeling made him feel panicked, and he longed for his grandmother to be considerate of him and forgive him all the time-

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(Nine-headed Bird Academy)