At this time, my mind was in a mess, and I hurriedly went upstairs to change a set of clothes and came down, Yang Shu was waiting for me downstairs, "Don't worry, it's okay, it's just a cold and a little fever, maybe I had a cold last night, I have just called the doctor, I have made an appointment, we can go over immediately and give Xiaoxue an injection and medicine." ”

I was in a trance, listening to Yang Shu's words, I finally felt a little more comfortable, we hurriedly got in the car and drove straight to the nearest hospital. Later, he said good things to reassure me, but I didn't listen to a word.

The car drove very fast, and after less than ten minutes, we arrived at the hospital, and Yang Shu knew that I was in a hurry, so he was concentrating on driving all the way.

After getting out of the car, Yang Shu walked straight into the reserved child care specialist's office with Xiaoxue in his arms, and soon doctors and nurses came around.

Yang Shu and I retreated to the outside of the ward, because Xiaoxue had a somewhat severe fever, so the doctor recommended that the fever be reduced by injections first.

I was in a confused mood so Poplar took me to wait outside the ward, during which he kept holding my hand, constantly comforting me and reassuring me, to be honest I don't know why I was so nervous this time, this feeling of worry seems to have not appeared for many years.

Xiaoxue is usually in good health and rarely gets sick, even if she occasionally has a cold, it is just a cough and a low-grade fever, and it is the first time that the whole person is in a trance like today, and it is because I didn't carry her to bed to sleep last night, which caused her to have a fever today, so I always feel very uncomfortable.

I felt that I was not a qualified mother, I didn't take good care of Xiaoxue, I felt ashamed in my heart, it was the first time I realized that my power was so small, and it was also the first time that I felt really irresponsible.

Every minute of waiting was difficult, not to mention that the person in the ward was still my dearest and most beloved, so I was inevitably restless, I kept comforting myself, but it didn't seem to be useful, I bit my lower lip desperately, and I could hardly feel the pain.

After a while, the doctor came out with the nurses, and I hurriedly hugged him and asked, "How is the doctor?

"Miss, don't worry, I have just given the child a fever injection, I believe that I will wake up soon, wait for the nurse to come back and deliver the medicine, and then follow the instructions to finish the medicine and there will be no problem, it's just a small cold, don't panic too much." Seeing that I was so anxious, the doctor was also a little unbearable, so he hurriedly comforted me.

I was relieved to hear the news, and the tense cells and muscles in my whole body relaxed, I admit that it was an exaggeration, but when my own daughter was in the hospital room, I couldn't express the feeling of helplessness in my heart.

"Thank you, doctor. I was finally relieved, and I was stunned for a while before I remembered that I hadn't thanked him, but by this time the doctor had already gone away.

Yang Shu has been standing behind me, he saw me I finally put my mind at ease, quickly raised his hand, touched my face and said, "It's okay, it's okay, look at yourself, your lips are about to bite." ”

That's when I felt a little pain in my lips, okay, I admit I was overnervous, but that's because I had a nightmare in my heart all the time......

Yang Shu led me into Xiaoxue's room together, and when I saw the little girl lying on the hospital bed, looking haggard, I couldn't help but feel distressed again, because I didn't take good care of her for my own reasons, and I was very ashamed in my heart.

Poplar followed behind me, and he brought the chair next to me, placed it next to the bed, and helped me to sit down.

He sat at the end of Xiaoxue's hospital bed, looking at me with a distressed expression.

"Many years ago, it was when I was very young, because I lived in the countryside, and the countryside at that time was not like now, there was not even a decent road, all of them were dirt roads, and it was precisely because of this that many medical resources could not enter, and if the people who lived in it were sick, they had to walk a long way to go out to see a doctor.

In order not to delay the farm work at home, basically the sick people go by themselves, usually without family accompaniment, and walk more than ten kilometers to the clinic in the town alone.

One year, we had a young man there, who was overworked from farm work, and then accidentally contracted a cold, which is now a cold, and it was not as good as it is now, and there were hospitals and pharmacies everywhere, and then the young man fell ill and died on the way to see a doctor.

This incident caused a great sensation at the time, because usually people there almost don't care much about some small colds or minor diseases, and minor illnesses are generally delayed, and major illnesses cannot be cured without money.

The young man's family situation is more complicated, his father died early, his mother suffered from dementia, and there is a young brother at home, waiting to be fed, he can be said to be the backbone of the whole family, but fate is so cruel, but it took away the only pillar of this fragmented family.

Later, his mother died of illness not long after, and his younger brother was also starved to death, not because the villagers were unwilling to lend a hand to help them, but because everyone was in difficulty at that time, and basically every family could not even solve their own food and clothing, let alone take care of others. ”

Poplar has been listening carefully to my story of this sad story, I was also shocked by the sadness and helplessness of this, this incident happened to me, that family was my childhood neighbors, and then after the young man died of illness, that family gradually left, and that home no longer exists.

"That's why you're so nervous today?" Poplar asked suddenly, he was also shocked by the sad and painful story.

"Well, because there is such a shadow in our hearts, the shadow left by our childhood will always inadvertently affect our lives, isn't it?" I know that Yang Shu is also a person with a story, and his childhood experience is not very happy, although he was born in a wealthy family, he has never experienced father's love and mother's love.

"Uh-huh, I know I know, but you can't torture yourself like this, you look at your current appearance, your lips are bitten by yourself, and you are in a trance, I can't help but feel distressed when I see it, you can rest assured, I will guarantee the happiness and life of your mother and son in the future, I will take good care of you and not let you be hurt and wronged a little. ”

Poplar said, touching my head distressedly, and his slender fingers brushed my hair, making me feel that I had endless courage in this moment.

When Yang Shu said me, I subconsciously touched my own mouth and found that there was indeed a feeling of pain, it seemed that I was really nervous just now, I forgot about the pain, and I was so nervous that I didn't realize that I was doing something to hurt myself.

People are probably like this, when they are most nervous and helpless, they will always choose to do irrational things, such as hurting themselves in exchange for staying awake.

I smiled at myself, and while I was moved by Poplar's words, I felt that I should be the happiest person in the world.

Yang Shu touched my head and said, "This is the Gao Lanlan I know, calm, atmospheric, and strong." You're the most attractive woman I've ever met. ”

In the face of poplar's sudden praise, I was a little caught off guard, but also a little flattered, calm, atmospheric, strong, I never knew that one day I would be associated with these words.

I was very satisfied with the evaluation that Poplar gave me, and he said that I said that he had the most attractive woman he had ever seen...... Wow, that's a high rating, hehe, I like him who hasn't seen the world, haha.

I bowed my head and smiled shyly, feeling a sense of relief, it turns out that there are really people in this world who are willing to accompany you to bear all the misfortunes, and such a person is destined to be a person who will join hands for a lifetime.

"You finally smiled, do you know that the way you look in the morning really scared me, I never found out that you love to cry so much, it turns out that you cry really ......"

Poplar said, pausing suddenly, which aroused my curiosity, and I wondered what words he would use to describe the way I cried.

"It's not pretty, hehe. I looked at him with wide eyes, expectant and innocent, but I didn't expect him to just save me no face at all, and said that I didn't look good when I cried.

No, this style of painting has changed too quickly, right, I haven't even reacted from the praise and praise just now, is this guy suddenly starting to belittle me?

I glanced at him in disappointment, and then lowered my head to help Xiaoxue tuck the cups around me, but I didn't expect the voice of the poplar tree to suddenly come from the top of my head, "So I won't let you shed a tear in the future!"

As soon as I looked up, I saw the affectionate gaze in the poplar's eyes, and his eyes were full of tenderness, and I was almost intoxicated when I saw it.

Unconsciously, the corners of my eyes began to moisten again, today I seem to be out of control, I thought I wouldn't cry, and I thought that the experience of these years had made me strong enough, I thought that in the face of the ups and downs in the future, I could not be shocked by the ups and downs, joys and sorrows, but I didn't expect that today, I was expressed in my bones at a glance.

Just when I felt the truest self in my bones, Xiaoxue, who had been sleeping for a long time, woke up slowly, and she opened her eyes to see me and Poplar sitting on the edge of her bed.

I didn't realize that I was still immersed in my own world on the side, but Xiaoxue called me first, "Mommy~"

When I looked up, I saw the little girl looking at us with wide eyes, a pair of round eyes, clear and clear, as if they were the cleanest and purest thing in the world.

I was a little excited, and hurriedly asked, "Xiaoxue, do you feel better?" are there any other places where you are uncomfortable, and if there is, you must tell Mommy." ”

I stretched out my hand to probe Xiaoxue's forehead, and sure enough, a fever needle went down, and my body temperature dropped a lot, I compared the temperature on my forehead, and found that Xiaoxue still has a little low-grade fever.

"Mommy, don't worry, it's okay, I'm much better. The little girl comforted me sensibly, she knew that I must be worried.

"It's okay, it's okay, baby, do you know, if you have something, I won't forgive myself, I'm sorry, I didn't take care of you, I'm sorry. "Hearing Xiaoxue say this, I feel much more comfortable, but I really don't want to experience this feeling of fear again.

"It's okay Mommy, it's not your fault, I accidentally kicked the quilt, that's why I caught a cold, don't blame yourself like this, I feel distressed. The little girl sat up, and I hurriedly helped her.

"Uh-huh, uh-huh. Hearing Xiaoxue say this, I was moved in addition to being moved, the little girl did it, and then hugged me, and gently patted my back with her little hand to appease my grievances.

I was moved by the little girl's well-behaved and sensible, I hugged Xiaoxue, the tears in my eyes could no longer be suppressed, and the poplar stood aside and watched, both moved and distressed.

I hugged Xiaoxue and patted her on the back, and this moment of such a quiet and peaceful feeling, I felt like I was embracing the whole world.