Xiaoxue looked at me and said, "Is the poplar you are talking about the same poplar that sent me to the hospital that day?"

"Yes, it's that Uncle Yangshu!" didn't expect Xiaoxue to be in a daze at the time, and she knew who sent her to the hospital.

Xiaoxue continued: "Mom, I'm not happy at Aunt Lin Momo's house. ”

"I know, Xiaoxue, you are in Lin Momo's house, has Lin Momo bullied you?"

"Xiaoxue said that Lin Momo usually gives the best things to the other two people, only nothing is given to me, only Uncle Li Gang is good to me!"

Isn't Li Gang what she said to be Shenyang, I'm not talking anymore, it looks like I've been wronged a lot, I really want to take Xiaoxue out for a walk, but the child's body has not fully recovered, but the weather is so good, it's not a way for us to stay at home every day.

I brought Xiaoxue to our market, and when I went to the market, I suddenly noticed a strange thing, I noticed that Xiaoxue had been looking at something, "What is Xiaoxue looking at? Let's go look elsewhere?"

"Mom, look there. ”

I looked in the direction that Xiaoxue pointed, and actually saw Lin Momo holding Xiaoxia and Zhiyong, why did they come here?

Lin Momo saw me and walked past me as if he didn't know me.

Xiaoxue saw Lin Momo but said Aunt Lin Momo, Aunt Yu was very surprised when she saw Xiaoxue and said, "Who are you? I'm not a human at all!"

Oh my God, what the hell is going on? Why is it so weird, isn't she always going to follow us? Isn't she still trying to kidnap me? Why does he look like he doesn't know me at all? What the hell is he going to do?

When I got home at night, I wondered what was going on? Xiaoxue was really strange, Lin Momo was really strange! She wasn't like this, she was usually very arrogant and strong, and she was very unreasonable.

Today is completely different, what is going on in between?

I'm really worried now, I think back to when I was a kid.

When I was a child, I was also a frail and sickly person, and my mother took care of me at that time.

My parents were very busy at that time, and I remember one time when I was three years old, I must have been sick at that time.

It was just a fever, a fever in a daze, I was picked up by my mother in my sleep, and at that time I didn't know why my father was not at home, my mother picked me up, and then gave me all kinds of alcohol rubbed on me.

I should say that I was very sick, I didn't feel anything, I just felt cold, and my mother rubbed me with alcohol, but I still had a high fever.

I remember that my mother carried me a far, far away at that time, and my mother was a woman, and she carried me with great difficulty, because the children were all young, and the eldest brother went to school again, so my mother was alone.

I remembered my mother, who sent me to the hospital with great strength at that time, and in the hospital, the doctor gave me a hanging injection.

I forgot whether my feet hurt at that time, but I remember that I kept crying, crying, and then outside the hospital, my mother bought me a bowl of Lantern Festival to eat.

At that time, I couldn't eat anything, I guess I hadn't eaten for a few days, but if I didn't eat, how could my body stand it!

Without a little nutrition, the body will collapse, my mother asked me to eat a rice ball, I don't know if the rice ball is rolling and hot, or what, I vomited anyway, and I cried again, vomited a lot of things, and my mother was very sad.

I remember that at that time, my mother never cried in front of me, but sometimes she quarreled with my father or was bullied, she would cry, she really experienced everything, a lot of suffering.

Is it a woman who must go through so much suffering?

I think of Xiaobai, Xiaobai is now experiencing the pain of giving birth, and I am experiencing the pain of raising a child, it is really true that sometimes a woman hopes to find a man to shield her from the wind and waves, but I didn't expect that all the winds and waves are given by men.

I remembered, I read a story whose name is that you will be unfortunate because you are a woman!

Is it really so hard to be a woman? When I was young, I thought I could dominate the crowd, and men followed behind my ass, chasing and shouting about myself, all kinds of pursuits, all kinds of flowers.

At that time, I thought I was the whole world, I thought I could do anything, but what was the result?

No man likes it, and you can't get married if you become an old girl, but if you can't get married, you will be pointed at by others, especially in today's society, what way out do you have if you don't get married? Especially when outsiders look at you, it's as if you're a monster, and if you get married, you will have children immediately.

But now there are so many diseases, whether it is a man's or a woman's, Xiaobai's appearance is obviously a man's disease, not a woman's fault, but it is a woman who suffers so much.

I searched on the Internet, and if a man is azoospermia, the offspring he wants is only for women to do IVF, and generally women are not in good health, so IVF is done.

What kind of price is this? All kinds of pills, injections, ovulation injections, destroying one's own endocrine.

Usually there is only one egg in my body, but a woman's body is good, and she can not suffer from these things!

Why? Why? Thinking of this, my heart laughed again.

Xiaobai treated me like that at that time, but she didn't deserve such a price, this punishment, especially when the time comes, she has to take all kinds of ovulation injections, and then take all kinds of medicines, the process of injections is very painful, if it is serious, there will be ascites, hydropleura and other sequelae.

There is no way, because this is overstimulation, destroying the balance of the body, what if there is no life, I just want to care about Xiaobai, I want to tell her to be cautious.

This kind of thing, although I really want a child, I want a future generation, and I believe in the current technology, but I can't inexplicably use my own life as a price! What is this in exchange?

I really can't accept it now, I just think, this is said up to the morning, fortunately I have a child now, I don't have to worry about it now, so I have everything.

I don't believe in love anymore, is this really love, love is a ghost in this world, no one has ever seen it.

Forget it, I'll follow the address that Yang Shu told me, go there to be a teacher, and live my own life!

Xiaoxue's condition was stable, so I took her away, I had already made up my mind, yes, I was going to go to the place I was going to, even if the salary there was not high, and there was not much money, but it was enough.

As long as there is a stable life, over the years, I have longed for stability too much, and I have lived a life of hiding in Tibet, being hunted down, imprisoned, and kidnapped several times.

It's really unimaginable, many people say that this is like a movie, but in fact, life is more cruel than movies, these are the things staged in movies, you know?

Because any strange thing in life, any terrible thing will emerge, just like a lot of news we see, they are like this, life is really cruel!

Life in a big city is no longer suitable for me, especially during this time, the environment is so polluted, everywhere I go is smog, and all I breathe in my lungs is haze, which is worse than second-hand smoke.

I really don't understand why everyone has to go to the big city, what's so good about the big city?

The big city is just a world of sin, all that's left is this drunken gold, anything can happen, and you see those wage earners, do they earn a lot of money? They earn hard money, but what is enough?

Far away from home, away from relatives, away from children, even if a family member is sick, can they afford it? Are many of the people in the hospital now from rural areas?

They are desperately working in other places and in big cities, but there are now many left-behind children and left-behind elderly people in rural areas, what kind of life do left-behind children live?

I think back to when I used to be a teacher, it was true, the life of left-behind children was very miserable, because they had no parental care, and the elderly were old, and they had to work in the fields, and many children had no one to take care of.

In fact, it is very clear that these children, they are either unscrupulous or timid and obscene, because without the love of their parents, they just grow up like mud monkeys.

Or if you go to school with some older children, it will become bad, and if you don't care for a long time, your young mind will become deformed, which is what is now left-behind children.

What kind of sin is it, I don't know why people run desperately to the big city, and as a result, they get nothing and nothing, in addition to their injured bodies, there is also a lot of pressure, especially women can't be stressed, if there is pressure, the physical condition will be worse.

The body is the capital of the revolution, although I am only in my thirties, I am still young, but I will definitely take care of myself, really.