The rainy season is coming, and the drizzle keeps falling, which reminds people of an ancient poem: "During the Qingming Festival, it rains a lot, and the pedestrians on the road want to break their souls." ”

In this soul-wrenching rainy season, Yinglong and Shiwei haven't walked together for a long time because of the pouring rain for almost half a month.

Shi Wei leaned in front of the window, looking out the window at the dense rain that connected the heavens and the earth, like an overwhelming net, covering the buildings in the distance in a hazy way, looking as if separated by a piece of translucent glass, with only a vague outline at a glance.

In the rainy season, Shiwei's mood is always a little melancholy, to be honest, she doesn't like rain, and she doesn't like the rainy season like Yinglong.

As long as it is raining in the rainy season, Shiwei likes to stay indoors and watch the borrowed novel alone to relieve her boredom, and feel the twists and turns of the protagonist of the story from the ups and downs of the plot of the novel.

In Zhang Ailing's "Half Life", the tragic encounter of the heroine Man Zhen touched her deeply.

When Shiwei was reading this novel, she thought to herself, whether she would have such a tortuous fate in the future, of course, she didn't want to be like Man Zhen in the story, otherwise it would be too tragic.

But she believes that she will also be as strong as Manzhen, and even more stoic than her.

Although Shiwei feels that she is just a weak woman, in the current environment, Shiwei believes that her experience will not be so bumpy, which is almost certain.

Shiwei thought of Yinglong, whether Yinglong would be like Shijun, Shijun is an introverted man, very reserved, even when pursuing Manzhen.

But after careful comparison, although Yinglong is also very introverted, his personality is much more cheerful than Shijun.

Although Yinglong is introverted, perhaps because of the environmental impact of his life, he is much more open than Shijun in the novel. If you think about it, it seems that Yinglong still has something hidden in his heart, but he doesn't want to confide in Shiwei.

The reason for this is not clear to Shiwei, and even Yinglong is reluctant to reveal too many details.

Perhaps the reason why Chinese men are more reserved, they are often reluctant to express their inner thoughts too much to the opposite sex.

In this way, Shiwei is always guessing Yinglong's true thoughts, and she also wants to know more about Yinglong's heart and want to know everything about him.

But Yinglong is reluctant to tell her more about the past, so although Shiwei is often with Yinglong, she only knows a little about what Yinglong doesn't want to show.

Shiwei cares about Yinglong very much, to be honest, Yinglong is her first boyfriend, and like her, Shiwei is also Yinglong's first girlfriend, and they care about everything about each other.

The novel "Half Life" made Shiwei think of "fate".

Speaking of fate, most people may believe that people's lives are more or less related to "fate".

On the road of life, relatives and friends who have known each other in the past may have more or less connections with "fate".

Deeper speaking, lovers and husbands and wives, parents and family members don't get together because of the word "fate"?

"A hundred years of repair can be crossed in the same boat, and a thousand years of repair can be slept together. ”

This lyric is the best illustration of this.

People are just a speck of dust in the universe, and they meet each other by chance. want

Become a family or a close lover, the probability of meeting and matching in the middle is how small it is in the vast sea of people, so it is probably the most appropriate to explain it with the word "fate".

When Shiwei finished reading this novel, she sighed: "Things in the world are so complicated, even if it is because of an accidental mistake or a small misunderstanding, or an incorrect decision, he can miss out on his sweetheart who worries about him day and night, and even leave a lifelong regret." ”

Shiwei thought so, looking at the pouring rain outside the window, her mood was up and down.

She didn't want to worry about herself and Yinglong and the characters in the novel anymore.

After all, a story is a story, and although the plot of the novel is so complex and changeable, when you read it, it is as if it is displayed in front of your eyes, which is very real and anxiety-making, but in the end it is just a novel.

However, the Ying Long in front of him is a real existence.

Although Yinglong is a rough man, he is also warm, and he is indeed sincere to Shiwei.

To be honest, for Shiwei, even if it doesn't matter what the future will be, he doesn't want this fate to be interrupted with graduation.

Yinglong stayed in the dormitory, very worried, because the rainy season was coming, he could hardly ask Shiwei to go for a walk on the tree-lined path.

He hated the rainy season, and the clothes he changed out of in the rain could barely be dried, and he always wore them damply, giving off an unpleasant sour smell.

This made him feel uncomfortable, and he was worried that Shiwei would smell the bad smell and keep her distance from him

Leave. He doesn't care what others say when they smell it, but if Shiwei smells it, he will be very worried.

So in order to maintain hygiene, Yinglong always washes his clothes with soap and laundry detergent when washing clothes, bringing a fresh smell.

This is also to keep him clean and fresh in front of the girls he likes.

Although some guys don't pay much attention to their image, Young-ryong has realized this problem since he met Shiwei, and he doesn't want to alienate Shiwei because of his poor appearance and make Shiwei think that he is a "sloppy ghost".

Yinglong found that although Shiwei was a little weird, she always looked a little pitiful in front of him, so Yinglong couldn't help but want to hug her and comfort her.

Shiwei looks very fresh and refined, giving him a very cute feeling, and at the same time, Yinglong also found Shiwei's sunny side, that is, Shiwei loves to laugh, and always has a warm smile when she sees him.

So whenever he sees Shiwei, his heart is always warm, and he wonders if this is the feeling that love gives to men.

As long as he saw Shiwei standing in front of him, he always felt very happy, and Shiwei didn't like to give him problems and play a little temper in front of him, which made him feel at ease.

The rain kept falling, swishing, and there was no sign of stopping.

Every day in class, Yinglong always wears a broken umbrella.

Although he was holding an umbrella, the rain still fell on his body from the small edge of the umbrella, wetting not only his clothes, but also his shoes and trouser legs, which made him feel annoying.

Yinglong was helpless, after all, this was in the south.

When I was a child, the weather in the Northeast was not like this, the sky was always clear, and there was hardly a long rainy season like in the south.

So Yinglong likes sunny days the most, and the sun is almost his idol.

Like Apollo, the sun god, can rule the sun's haunting, because without sunlight, the dragon will become gloomy and lost.

And when the sun shines brightly from the east, the golden light gives him infinite power, and immediately frees him from the gloomy dark clouds and ushers in a sunny day full of passion.

In the long rainy season, Yinglong misses the days of walking with Shiwei even more.

The last time he learned that Shiwei was reading a novel, in fact, he had already read "Half Life", but he used to read reprinted books, which was still in middle school, and he borrowed it from his classmates during the holidays.

He also knew that Man Zhen was a weak woman, and he was very sympathetic to her plight.

He also knew Shijun and felt sorry for Shijun for not being able to combine with Man Zhen.

Originally, God should have let lovers eventually become married.

However, in the novel, Shijun and Man Zhen finally missed their lives.

Yinglong looked at the title of the book, and felt that God was playing tricks.

could have achieved a lifetime marriage, but it only became a half-life marriage.

Fate is really unpredictable, not to mention that the two have no fate in the end.

This kind of result is not what Yinglong wants.

He just wants to meet Shiwei and hold hands, and feels that he should walk hand in hand with her, which is what he wants to achieve.

Yinglong does not believe in fate, he believes that fate should be grasped by himself, and instead of choking the throat of fate, it is better to grasp the direction of fate by himself and let fate evolve in his hands.

He believes that man is the master of fate, and unless it is affected by force majeure, then he should be responsible for himself.

Yinglong believes that every important decision in a person's life will lead to different outcomes in the future. Although everyone is working hard for the future, under the influence of certain factors, people are sparse

Carelessness or wrong decisions will lead to the loss of something important in the future, or incorrect decisions will cause you to deviate from course.

However, Yinglong also found that when he made a decision, he was not sure what the outcome would be, or even what kind of accident would happen. Although he is rational, there are times when he is impulsive and naïve, so that others think that he is not very mature now.

Yinglong believes that it was fate that made him know Shiwei, so he is worried that he will lose Shiwei like Shijun.

So when he was getting along with Shiwei, he always wanted to spoil Shiwei and couldn't bear to hurt her.

He was like looking at a new thing, full of curiosity about Shiwei, for fear that something would make Shiwei angry.

In the final analysis, Shiwei is like a star in the sky, bathing him with starlight and making him feel the vitality of life.

He longs for his life to go on like this, until he is able to take on the burden of life and make the important choice to live with Shiwei.

But while he was thinking about this, he was completely unaware of what happened later.

Although they left each other's addresses, Shiwei's family did not have a phone, so Yinglong did not have her contact method.

And Yinglong left Shiwei his phone number, but when Shiwei graduated, she accidentally lost the contact book with Yinglong's phone number.

Later, Shiwei's family moved elsewhere, and Yinglong's family was not easy to find, so the two lost contact.

Besides, neither of them has ever seen each other's parents or been to each other's homes, so they have regrets.