Chapter Seventy-Four: Losing the Whole Heart
An Yuxi's lips moved but she couldn't say a word, she stared at Feng Xuanyu's cold side face, from the time she came in to the present, his gaze stayed on her for less than ten seconds, and he didn't even see her haggard face.
Feng Xuanyu, when will your gaze stay for me, is it only when you treat me as Ling Ruoxun?
Feng Xuanyu stood up suddenly, pushed a chair stiffly, the chair was hitting An Yuxi's knee, he saw her stumble for a moment, hesitated out of the corner of her eyes, and then walked towards the door without looking back.
An Yuxi didn't have time to care about the pain on his knees, walked forward quickly, and then raised his eyes, the shadow under his eyes crossed, and his hot gaze gathered on his back and said: "Feng Xuanyu, is there a place for me in your heart, even if it is inconspicuous." ”
Even now, she is still looking forward to his answer, and she is still unwilling to die, even if he has a trace of her place in his heart, she feels a little comforted, at least she is not just living in the shadow of others.
Feng Xuanyu was really stunned for a moment, and his steps to leave stopped, and the solemnity between his eyebrows was slightly lightened, but he was immediately replaced by coldness, "I said I wouldn't fall in love with you." ”
He didn't deny her question, because he really couldn't say it, he could say the answer without hesitation, but now the words were blocked in his throat and he didn't want to say it.
An Yuxi's body trembled when she heard this, and then a big smile pulled out from the corner of her mouth, her pale lips were so weak, she smiled so ugly, and she laughed heartbreakingly, "Heh.... I know. ”
She took a light step forward, then retracted her steps. She took out the photo and raised her hand, her hands trembled slightly, as if the photo weighed a thousand pounds, so heavy that she couldn't lift it, "I don't have status, but Ling Ruoxun does." ”
Feng Xuanyu immediately turned his head when he heard Ling Ruoxun's name, looked at An Yuxi with some incredulity, walked quickly in front of her, and snatched the photo from her hand in a panic.
The moment he saw the photo, the Sichuan character between his eyebrows was so obvious, and his cold eyes were low, "Who told you?"
He was only a few centimeters away from her, and his heavy breath hit her face, causing her to feel a tingling pain.
An Yuxi sneered, "touched" and pushed Feng Xuanyu, giving the two of them a sense of distance, and took out the wallet in his pocket.
opened the wallet, and sure enough, there was a photo lying there quietly, An Yuxi took out the photo with a wry smile, and threw the wallet on the ground weakly.
What Mo Ziyan said was not wrong. If they don't care, who would keep a photo in their wallet that doesn't care about themselves.
She put the photo in front of Feng Xuanyu's cold eyes, "Do you still need others to say it?" The facts are in front of me, no matter how stupid I am, I should be sober at this moment." ”
Feng Xuanyu just wanted to snatch the photo in her hand, An Yuxi held the photo in the palm of his hand and shook it hard, and the photo was clutched in front of his eyes.
An Yuxi raised her chin high, her slightly narrowed eyes concealed the sadness in her eyes, she would never let Feng Xuanyu see her embarrassment at this time, her self-esteem could not be trampled on by others again and again.
Feng Xuanyu's eyebrows were furrowed, a cold light appeared in his cold eyes, and he grabbed her wrist and said angrily, "Let go!"
An Yuxi bit his lip tightly, his wrist was already congested, and he knew how much force he had used when he looked at the green tendons that burst on his arm.
She endured the pain, her lips were almost bitten, she met Feng Xuanyu's cold eyes, showing her stubbornness, and bit out two words from the gap between her mouth, "Don't let go, if you have the ability, you will abolish my arm." ”
"Do you think I wouldn't dare?" he gurgled between his teeth, increasing the strength of his hands.
Cold sweat was already oozing from An Yuxi's forehead, and his originally haggard face was now bloodless.
Feng Xuanyu is so ruthless for a photo, the most ridiculous thing is that I have been by your side for so long is not as important as a yellowed photo.
"You dare, I still have this self-knowledge. ”
Feng Xuanyu met her stubborn eyes, the eyebrows eased for a moment, and then saw the corners of her mouth that were bitten a little, a trace of worry flashed on her face, and then let go of her wrist.
Looking down and seeing her red and swollen wrists, he was about to say something when he suddenly saw a figure passing by outside, he immediately withdrew his hand and turned his back.
The photo in her hand was already crumpled into a ball, and she won, but she lost her whole heart.
"Heh... You can't do it because I look too much like her? An Yuxi held her red and swollen wrist, and the pain intensified the bitterness in her heart.
"Yes, I do owe a debt of gratitude to her, my husband, for who I am, for who I am, for whom I am, and for whom I am in false love. If it weren't for her, where would I have come to live a peaceful life now? ”
"What's so bad about this, I can give you everything you want, and you just have to sell your face and enjoy life. Feng Xuanyu leaned down, lifted her chin, and stared at her face, as if looking for Ling Ruoxun's shadow through her face.
An Yuxi knocked his hand off, his empty eyes were covered with a layer of mist, and even his face looked blurry, "Betrayal?" haha...... But have you ever asked me for my opinion, I didn't want to be this stand-in at all, and now that I think about how fake my previous days were, everyone was looking through this shell at someone I didn't know about. ”
She still couldn't hold back in the end, tears flowed down uncontrollably, and in the blink of an eye, the kind of anger just now disappeared from her.
Feng Xuanyu simply tilted her head to the side, her tears were like ice picks piercing his heart, cold Shenren, "This is something you can't change." Don't pretend to be pitiful here, cry back and cry. ”
An Yuxi took a step forward and approached his back, and in an instant his taste poured into her mind, and then she shook her head with a wry smile, the man with his back to her was so strange now. She slowly flattened the photo in her hand, looked at the girl in the photo, closed her lips tightly, tears like beads with broken threads, falling between her lips and teeth, bitter and bitter.
"Poor? I was pitiful enough when I knew I was just a stand-in, I couldn't change my appearance, but I had the right to choose my own life, I didn't want a puppet life. ”
Feng Xuanyu turned his head violently when he heard this, grabbed her arm, pulled her closer, and stared at her with cold eyes, "It's not for you to call the shots." ”
Obviously wanted her to leave, but when he heard this sentence from her mouth, he felt an indescribable anger in his heart.
"I can't decide my marriage, can't I even choose what kind of life I have? I said that as long as our marriage lasts for a day, you will stay by my side cleanly, or I will not be rare. If you can't do it, why should I die by your side? ”
He lightly hooked the tears on her face, and his thin lips slowly opened a playful arc, "You are crying, An Yuxi, even if I let you go now, are you willing to do it?"
An Yuxi wiped the teardrops from the corners of his eyes with his hand, looked at the tear stains on his hands, and stiffly hooked the corners of his mouth, "Huh..... Yu less, you think too much. ”
A sentence of Yu Shao, a title completely opened the distance between the two people, An Yuxi took a few steps back, and said self-deprecatingly: "I cry because I am unwilling, unwilling to be a stand-in for so long, but I am reluctant, how is it possible, these three words are too heavy, I remember that you said never to fall in love with you, don't worry, I always remember." ”
The corners of Feng Xuanyu's eyes sank, and there was a cold air all over his body.
An Yuxi put the photo in front of him, tore it hard, the fragments fell to the ground, and the innocent face was instantly shattered. She watched as the debris fell to the ground, the corners of her mouth gently hooked, and tears in her red and swollen eyes flowed down her cheeks.
"Now it's all ruined, you can look at this pile of fragments and continue to love Ling Ruoxun, but don't force your care for others on me, I'm not anyone's stand-in, I'm An Yuxi, even if you abandon me like a stick, I'm willing to be the truest me in the corner." ”
After saying that, she pushed Feng Xuanyu away and ran out of the conference room like crazy, pressing the elevator to lock herself in the most enclosed space.
As soon as she entered the elevator, she squatted in the corner, her hands around her chest, and her head buried heavily between her knees. She really didn't have the strength anymore, and it was really too tired to pretend that she didn't care.
Tears continued to flow from the red and swollen eyes, like a flood that burst its banks, and it could not be stopped and dried.
She sobbed and closed her eyes tightly, when suddenly she looked up and screamed into the elevator, "Ahhhh Why... Why do you do this to me...."
I just want the most peaceful life, a home that I can covet, someone who can protect me, is it so difficult?
Your cold heart is warm, and I have been waiting. I'm afraid that after I show my heart to you, you will be disgusted with me, and I will keep it in my heart if I leave me.
"Haha.... The result..... At the end of the day, I didn't get anything..... Everything is nothing, ha... You can pour your heart into others, you can read Ling Ruoxun day and night, you can gently spoil Mo Ziyan, but what about me..."An Yuxi raised his head and laughed, tears all slid down the corners of his mouth into his mouth.
"When you and Mo Ziyan held hands in broad daylight to participate in the feast, did you ever think about my feelings, I was still waiting for you at home, hoping that you would come to pick me up. The magazine was exposed, and you have thought about how many people's ridicule I have to face alone. ”
"It used to be.... And still.... I've always been alone..... Even if I treat you well, you are perfunctory......"
This heart was constantly poked, smashed, and the pain was so painful that she was convulsed, and the pain made her breathless. The great soreness spread from the lower abdomen to the throat and eyes, full of soreness.
Feng Xuanyu, you should hate me, I destroyed the things you care about the most, if you hate it, hate it as much as you want.