Chapter 151: Post-Traumatic After-Traumatic Disorder
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"Brian, thank you" After returning to the villa, Chi Xiaoqing said thank you to Brian with a serious face
She not only thanked him for herself, but also thanked him for Qian San and Xiao Lengyou, she didn't dare to imagine what would have happened to him if Brian hadn't taken care of Xiao Lengyou in the past few days since her accident
Brian just smiled and shook his head, and then led her to her room, and to him, it was what he was supposed to do, and he didn't think he was doing well, otherwise she wouldn't have done that
Thinking of this, Brian's heart hurt again, but his face still had that gentle look He knew that he had to learn to downplay this matter, and if even he couldn't let go, then Chi Xiaoqing would be even more unable to come out of the shadow of this matter
"Are you satisfied, this room is relatively large, and the crib will be moved directly to this room, and the room is full of light, and you can see the garden behind when you open the window, people say that smelling more flowers and shining more sunlight will make people's mood better," Brian introduced to Chi Xiaoqing with a smile
This room was chosen by him a long time ago In order to make Chi Xiaoqing live more comfortably, he also asked people to rearrange this place, but in the end, it depends on Chi Xiaoqing's meaning, if she doesn't like this room, then he will choose another one for her Anyway, in addition to the maid, there is only Brian himself in this villa, and there are many empty rooms that no one lives in
"Well, that's it," Chi Xiaoqing nodded, indicating that she was very satisfied with Brian's arrangement
In fact, she was content to have a place to stay, and she could tell that Brian had really put a lot of effort into the room, and even the crib was ready for her
Seeing Chi Xiaoqing nodding, Brian also smiled with some satisfaction, although he had put a lot of thought into decorating this room, but he still felt that it was not good enough, but he didn't know what else to do In his heart, there was only one thought, and that was to give her the best
In this way, Chi Xiaoqing lived in Brian's villa, and the time passed day by day
But about Qian San and the rebirth that day, she still kept silent, Brian once tried to take her to a psychiatrist, but she refused, and when he only said to take her out for a walk, she directly interrupted him, and then said that she didn't want to go out
Moreover, Brian also found that although Ji Xiaoqing looked a lot calmer, she still gave people a sense of lifelessness, and only when facing Xiao Lengyou would she show a hint of humanity
Before, Brian was worried that Chi Xiaoqing would not be able to take care of Xiao Lengyou, so he invited someone to help her take care of Xiao Lengyou, and on the other hand, he was also worried that Chi Xiaoqing would be tired because of this, but now it seems that his worries are completely unnecessary
On this day, Chi Xiaoqing saw that the weather was good, so she hugged Xiao Lengyou to play in the garden downstairs, she put Xiao Lengyou on the ground covered with a blanket, and let him crawl slowly
But every time he just let go of his hand, Xiao Lengyou immediately crawled towards her, but he didn't even look at the toys around him, and when he crawled to her side, Xiao Lengyou stretched out his little hand, grabbed her clothes tightly, stared at a pair of big watery eyes, and looked at her motionlessly
This is true once and twice Seeing Xiao Lengyou so attached to herself Chi Xiaoqing only felt that her heart was full of happiness But as long as she thought of the events of that day, she felt disgusted She felt that she was dirty and unworthy of being Xiao Lengyou's mother anymore
"Baby, mom is no longer the mom she used to be, do you still want mom," Chi Xiaoqing picked up Xiao Lengyou from the ground and put it on her lap, a look of pain flashed in her eyes
Xiao Lengyou didn't speak, he just looked at her quietly, of course, he couldn't speak yet, but he waved his little hand and asked her to hug her, as if he understood Chi Xiaoqing's words
"Baby" Seeing Xiao Lengyou's actions, Chi Xiaoqing hugged him in her arms, and she couldn't suppress herself anymore, and immediately cried
When Brian saw this scene, he couldn't help but sigh in his heart, and then silently walked to Chi Xiaoqing's side and sat down, holding her in his arms
It's just that when Xiao Lengyou saw Chi Xiaoqing crying, he also cried without knowing why
As soon as she heard that Xiao Lengyou was also crying, Chi Xiaoqing immediately panicked and quickly stopped crying Coaxed Xiao Lengyou to look at Chi Xiaoqing's tear-stained face and her busy appearance Brian suddenly laughed
"Isn't it funny" Ji Xiaoqing glared at Brian, not knowing what he was laughing at
"No, it's not funny," Brian was stunned for a moment, and suddenly remembered the purpose of his coming to find Ji Xiaoqing, and couldn't help but feel a little bitter
"How can it be" When Chi Xiaoqing coaxed Xiao Lengyou well, she noticed that Brian's expression was not very good, and she couldn't help frowning
"Qian San...... His funeral What are you going to do "After a moment's hesitation, Brian cautiously said this
Qian San's body has been parked in the hospital morgue It's been so many days, and it's time to hold a funeral for him, but this matter still has to let Chi Xiaoqing make an idea
"He can't be buried here, Xiao Jia is still waiting for him in the country" Thinking of Qian San, who died because of saving himself, Chi Xiaoqing, who had just stopped crying, couldn't help crying again
She always felt guilty about Qian San, she always felt that she had killed Qian San, and if it wasn't for saving her, Qian San wouldn't have died
"Otherwise, let's send him to be cremated first, and when you return home, we'll go back with his ashes," thought for a moment, and Brian proposed his own solution
And for Chi Xiaoqing, who was still shedding tears, he didn't comfort her, let her cry by herself, although her appearance made him feel very distressed, but he felt that it was better to cry like this than to hold it in his heart
After getting Chi Xiaoqing's consent, Brian began to deal with Qian San's aftermath, and during this period, Chi Xiaoqing still never stepped out of the villa, and even on the day Qian San was sent to be cremated, she did not go to see him off
She felt that she was very ruthless, Qian San died because of herself, but she didn't even look at him, but she really couldn't face him, she felt that she didn't have the face to see him again
When Brian took care of Qian San's affairs, he didn't take his ashes back to the villa directly, but stored them in the cemetery, he was afraid that bringing them back for Chi Xiaoqing to see would remind her of those unpleasant memories
Although the doctor told him not to deliberately mention the incident, and not to deliberately avoid it, which would make the victim have bad thoughts in his heart, but he just couldn't let go of it, not because he minded that Chi Xiaoqing was defiled, but because he was afraid that she would not be able to get out of this shadow
"It's all done," when Brian got home, Chi Xiaoqing was already waiting there, and although she didn't go to the scene, her heart was always there
"Well, what are you going to do next?" Brian nodded, helping Chi Xiaoqing to sit down on the side
In fact, he wanted to ask her if she wanted to inform Leng Haoxuan, but after thinking about it, it seemed that they had separated, and he suddenly decided not to mention Leng Haoxuan, and he also had a little selfishness of his own, he wanted to keep her by his side, he wanted to take care of her, protect her, and he didn't want her to be hurt a little more
"I want to go to Feiyu" Ji Xiaoqing sighed and said what she thought, hoping that he was still there and didn't leave
"Are you here to find him in Italy?" was silent for a while, and Brian asked Chi Xiaoqing again, a look of loss flashed in his eyes
"Hmm" Chi Xiaoqing nodded, looking at her toes a little distractedly, not knowing what she was thinking
"Chi, do you think of me as your friend," Brian looked at Chi Xiaoqing lightly, full of sadness
"What's wrong" Chi Xiaoqing came back to her senses and looked at Brian with some confusion
"I told you that I would be there for you whenever you needed it, and I would be there to help you, but you wouldn't tell me anything, and you didn't even come to me, and you wouldn't even call me, and in your heart, I'm so untrustworthy?"
He looked at her with a sad look on his face, sad and sad at the same time, but he also felt a little distressed, and he didn't understand why she was forced to go to work in the casino, and still refused to come to him
"It's not like that...... I'm sorry Brian Seeing Brian's hurt expression, Chi Xiaoqing's heart also felt a little uncomfortable
She wanted to explain it to him, but she suddenly felt that she had nothing to say, as if all the words had turned pale at this moment, and in the end, all she could say was sorry
"No need to apologize, you didn't feel sorry for me, I just feel sorry for you," Brian shook his head a little bitterly, stopping Chi Xiaoqing from continuing
He knew that even if Chi Xiaoqing really just treated him as an inconsequential person, he couldn't just leave her alone because of this, he couldn't do it
"Feiyu's whereabouts, do you know " In order not to make Chi Xiaoqing also sad with him, Brian quickly turned the topic back to Ye Feiyu
Brian thought to herself, if Ye Feiyu was also found, she might be able to come out of the shadow of that incident faster
Although she seems to be getting better day by day, Brian knows that this is just an illusion on the surface, and it is not, because he found that in addition to being a little resistant to the outside world, Chi Xiaoqing is also becoming more and more resistant to the opposite sex
Except for Leng You and Brian herself, as soon as any other man approached her, she immediately felt uneasy and wanted to escape from that environment