After dinner, the family was in the living room. Uncle Qiao was reading the newspaper, and Su Yue and her mother were watching TV. This is an idol romance drama that has been very popular recently. The TV is reaching its climax.

The male protagonist and the heroine quarreled because of a misunderstanding, and then rushed out of the door, borrowing alcohol to kill their sorrows in the bar and getting crumbling, at this time the female number two appeared, confessed to him affectionately that she had loved him for many years, and said that even if he didn't love herself, it didn't matter, she would continue to love him silently.

The actor's mood at this time was depressed and chaotic, and his vanity rose when he was made by this confession, and hugged the female No. 2, and the female No. 2 took the opportunity to kiss him, so he was dry and burning, and was rolled by the waves, and he was out of control. Then the heroine appeared and stared at them blankly......

This is a completely unsolvable problem, Su Yue thought. She really couldn't think of anything else that could happen to reunite this broken mirror! Su's mother also sighed, repeatedly, "What can I do? What can I do?"

The update of this TV series is very slow, Su Yue heard her mother say that she chased this TV series very hard when she called a few times ago, but she couldn't stop!

Su Yue was about to say a few words, the mobile phone rang, and when she saw that it was actually a phone in the factory, she hurriedly walked out and picked it up.

Fortunately, nothing happened, Su Yue thought when she hung up the phone.

She put away her phone and walked into the living room, and saw that her mother had changed positions and came to the table, and she was holding Qiao Jing's hands with both hands and teaching her to cut pineapples—she was very fond of eating these sour things recently, so Uncle Qiao bought a lot of them, and bought six pineapples alone. She seemed very loving, and taught her very carefully that she must first cut off the head and tail, cut it in half, and then cut it along the skin, and cut it into pieces. Su Yue suddenly didn't want to stay here anymore and went back to her room.

Compared to the pleasant and harmonious atmosphere of the living room, the room is very deserted. Su Yue turned on the computer and ordered a few songs to listen to.

But these songs, which usually sound good and make her feel better, are invalid tonight, and her mood is even more irritable. Eventually, she found the old Jane Eyre, with a soft, broken cover, from the shelves. This is a book she has loved since middle school. He stayed with her until high school and college.

She held the book and looked at it from the first page, and gradually became absorbed in it, and her mood gradually calmed down. I don't know how long I watched it, but suddenly there was a loud noise outside the window, and a group of fireworks flew into the sky, bursting out of brilliant colors. Su Yue was frightened, she didn't pay attention to the one in her hand, pushed the book to the ground, and the book flipped on its side and closed it.

Su Yue picked up the book, patted it, and was about to find the page he had just read, when the page with a homemade bookmark caught his eye first. It was the night of the storm, and a conversation between Jane Eyre and Mr. Rochester was released at the opening of the city, which is very classic. Su Yue used to mark it with a red pen when she used to look at it.

It reads like this:

"Do you think that because I am poor, lowly, short, and not beautiful, I have no soul and no heart? You are wrong! My soul is the same as yours, and my heart is exactly the same as yours. It is my heart that speaks to your heart, as if the two of us have passed through the grave and stood at the feet of God, and we are equal. Because we are equal!"

This passage was originally written about Jane Eyre's courage to fight and pursue equality, but after Su Yue read it several times that night, she read it differently, and her eyes were even more focused on one sentence, and she couldn't take it off for a long time. It seemed to touch a button deep inside her, making her mood agitated and almost crazy.

"Am I without a soul or a heart?"

"Am I without a soul or a heart?"

……

In the end, she rushed into the bathroom, soaked her face in cold water, and for I don't know how long, until she shivered all over her body before she calmed down.

She went back and put the book away, brought a stool and put it at the top of the shelf, the deepest part, and sat at her desk again and quietly watched the dazzling fireworks bloom in the sky for a while, until they became less and less, and finally it was over.

She looked at the time, and after 10 o'clock, she found a clean change of clothes and went to the bathroom.

Su's mother saw that Su Yue went out to make a call, so she didn't come back again, so she went to look for her. As a result, she was seen reading quietly in her room outside the door, she thought about it again and again, and finally couldn't bear to disturb it, and brought back the cut fruit in her hand.

But it wasn't until she washed up and went to bed and lay down that she couldn't sleep. She touched her belly, which was still not pregnant, thought about it for a long time, and finally made a decision.

"Where are you going?" Qiao Zhen, who was about to fall asleep next to her, felt empty in his arms and immediately woke up.

"Woke you up. Su's mother glanced at him apologetically, saw that one of his feet was exposed, and pulled the quilt to help him cover it, "I'll go talk to Su Yue." "It can't be delayed any longer.

Qiao Zhen frowned: "It's so late, let's talk about it tomorrow!" As he spoke, he sat up and wanted to pull her to bed.

Su's mother shook her head and avoided him: "No, I'm not steady, and I won't be able to sleep tonight." ”

Qiao Zhen sighed: "It's late now, I'm afraid she's asleep." Tomorrow!"

Su's mother opened the corner of the curtain and looked at Su Yue's room diagonally opposite, the light was still on, "She hasn't slept yet, I'll go over." ”

Qiao Zhen knew that he couldn't talk about her, so he got out of bed, took her down jacket and put it on her, seeing that her feet were white and shiny, and wanted to find socks for her to wear, Su's mother saw him looking for socks in the underwear drawer, and she didn't care, pushed open the door and walked out.

When Su Yue took a shower and walked out, she saw Su's mother covered with a quilt and nestled on her bed. She was stunned for a moment, and then asked, "Mom, you haven't slept yet?"

Su's mother nodded and beckoned her over. The two lay side by side on the bed.

Su's mother saw that Su Yue's facial features were delicate and amazingly beautiful, so she sighed that time passed too fast, and the children had grown so big. Seeing that she slept for half an afternoon and still had sunken eyes, serious dark circles, and a lack of sleep, she felt distressed: "Yueyue, why are you so tired?

The title "Yueyue" was given to Su Yue by her father when she was a child, and later her mother also called her so, but it was many years ago.

Su Yue's heart softened when she heard this, and her eyes warmed up. But how dare she tell her mother what happened to her? She didn't dare to say that since then she has been waking up almost every night with nightmares.

"It's just that I'm a little busy at work, and there's nothing to do. In the end, Su Yue could only say this to her mother.

"Well, that's good!" Su's mother seemed relieved and nodded,

She thought about it for a while, and then said it: "Su Yue, my mother is looking for you to tell you something." ”

Su Yue probably guessed something, and she heard herself say, "Well, Mom, you say it." ”

Su's mother turned around, and she looked at Su Yue's eyes: "Su Yue, my mother is pregnant." It's been more than two months. ”

Su Yue thought about it, that is the child in September this year. She tried her best to squeeze out the joy from her heart and congratulated her mother: "That's a good thing! Mom, congratulations! Uncle Qiao is very happy, right?"

Su's mother nodded: "He is very happy." But, Su Yue, are you happy?"

Su Yue didn't expect her to ask like this, so she didn't speak for a while.

Su's mother nodded and said, "You're not happy, but Mom doesn't blame you." Your father and I only have one child, and when I was young, he loved you very much and loved you. It's just later," she paused, and continued, "Then he was like that, I was busy working, making money, supporting my family, I was very tired every day, I didn't have an air stop for you, you were very hard, and I was always alone. Su Yue, my mother knows that you have not been very happy all these years. ”

Su Yue's eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of mist. She didn't expect these mothers to know.

Su's mother's eyes were also a little moist: "I always wanted to give you a younger brother or sister before, but my stomach is not angry." Watching you grow up day by day, getting more and more beautiful, but being so simple and kind, I am worried and scared, what are you going to do?

"But then I realized that I was too worried. Over the years, my mother has done a lot of work and met a lot of different people, both good and bad. Some people look fierce but don't necessarily hurt people, some people laugh every day and maybe they will stab you in the back when they want, and some people look cold and don't want to pay attention to you but treat you silently...... Mom doesn't blame everyone because she gets hurt, and she doesn't hide and ignore anyone because she's afraid of being hurt. Because life is bitter and tiring and mysterious, it is waiting for people to explore it, and there are many exam papers like those when you were studying, and once you pass the exam, it will reward you a lot. Mom didn't dare to say that she had a perfect score in the exam, but at least she passed, so Mom will meet you, Uncle Qiao, live a happy life now, and will conceive this child. After speaking, Su's mother gently stroked her stomach and looked at her with a gentle smile, "Su Yue, do you understand?"

Su Yue nodded, she was already in tears, she hugged her mother and cried bitterly, crying out the fear, hatred, entanglement, pain, confusion, and anxiety that were pressed in her heart.

The next day was a sunny day, and Su Yue slept all night without dreams until she woke up naturally. When she got up, she opened the curtains and opened the door, and she saw that the bright sun was shining all over her room, like a layer of glittering gold. She covered her eyes with her hands and smiled happily.

The reunion dinner is still eaten at the grandparents' house. Or so many people. Relatives praised Su Yue for getting more and more beautiful. She smiled faintly, and said lightly, "No", there was a taste of scenery and moonlight.

Everyone said she had changed. But I can't say what has changed.

As in previous years, the grandparents were crowded with other grandchildren, and there was no place for Su Yue. Of course, the feelings accumulated by getting along day and night are not comparable to her coming over for a Chinese New Year's Eve dinner a year.

She didn't care, she looked around, and when she saw that there was a vacant seat next to her father, she walked over and sat down.

Dad is not the dad he used to be. Like he said on the phone that time, he's really old. His hair was gray, his body was rickety, and his face was crisscrossed with wrinkles. He's no longer the sassy 30-year-old man he was when he left home.

Su Yue's heart was swollen, full of indescribable sour emotions. She took a deep breath, took a piece of fish, shaved all the bones, and handed it to her father's bowl: "Dad, you taste it, this fish is well done!"

She saw something sparkling in her father's eyes, and he took the piece of fish in his mouth, chewed it, and smiled at her.