I didn't have any feelings for Coco before, because she was born to Chu Xinlan, so I never thought that she would be close to me.

But today, I can feel it, she likes me very much, and when she knows that I am not her mother, I can also feel it, and she is very disappointed.

I never imagined that one day, I would have a particularly complicated psychology for someone else's child.

It's not about compassion, I just feel like Coco needs a home.

I thought that after Chu Xinlan was imprisoned in a mental hospital, she stopped targeting me, and I could live a much more comfortable life, but when she really withdrew from my life, I realized that she left me with a problem that was even more difficult for me to solve.

Regarding Coco's whereabouts, in fact, Mo Yunqian and I both know each other.

Coco's current situation will definitely be arranged in a welfare home, if she is lucky, she may meet a pair of good fathers to adopt her in the future, but if she is unlucky, she may also meet people with ulterior motives and hurt her.

Her future was in jeopardy, and my heart couldn't help but throb at the thought that Coco's life could be turned upside down.

Chu Xinlan and I have not been friends since we met, but enemies.

She has done a lot of things against me and hurt me, such a woman, I should hate her, or maybe she has become the way she is, and she is completely her present life.

It's just that one thing I can't deny is that it was indeed her husband who saved Mo Yunqian, even if Mo Yunqian had other choices at the beginning, but he happened to choose him.

After I went back, I asked Mo Yunqian, "Do you really feel nothing when you see Coco?"

Mo Yunqian always showed his indifference and disdain for outsiders, even if he was a child.

It's just that after reading Coco today, his expression was a little moved.

When I asked this, Mo Yunqian pursed his lips tightly: "No." ”

I saw that he looked like he wanted to speak, so I asked again, "I don't want to listen to lies, I'm not prejudiced against Cocoa, so I don't want you to lie to me in order to take into account my feelings." ”

Hearing me say this, Mo Yunqian sighed heavily.

"Well, I'll admit, this kid Coco makes my heart ache. Mo Yunqian looked at me helplessly and said.

After all, this child also called Mo Yunqian's father when he was a child, and Mo Yunqian had no feelings for her in the past, after all, it was because Chu Xinlan was fine at that time, and he saw Coco once in a while, and his mind would not be on a child.

Later, because of me, Mo Yunqian deliberately alienated Chu Xinlan and Keke, let alone have any feelings.

After reading Coco today, I suddenly had a feeling that maybe this child is really destined for us, we are strangers to her, but she seems to be able to talk to us easily, as if she is very close to us.

This led me to think about something else.

I think I should go to the psychiatric hospital to see Chu Xinlan again.

Chen Yuhai has brought me an indelible shadow, but Chu Xinlan's spirit has been completely destroyed by him.

I had planned to go to the psychiatric hospital the next day to see her again, but in the middle of the night, when I was sleeping soundly, Mo Yunqian came.

"Wei Ran, wake up. His voice was soft, but it woke me up.

I opened my eyes, and my head was still a little foggy.

"What's the matter? It's not dawn yet. I said in a daze.

Mo Yunqian pursed his lips tightly, and said with a somewhat unpleasant expression: "The mental hospital called me just now, Chu Xinlan and her...... She committed suicide. ”

Like a thunderbolt in the sky, I sat up in shock.

Seeing that my reaction was so loud, Mo Yunqian's voice was a little low and said, "Clean up, let's go over and lie down together." ”

I hurriedly got dressed, and after a while, Mo Yunqian drove me to the mental hospital.

I didn't see the scene where Chu Xinlan was found after committing suicide, but I heard from the people inside that when she died, she had a plastic bag on her head, and her room was in a mess, and she suffocated herself to death.

This kind of death must be extremely painful, I almost didn't even dare to try, but she was able to do it without hesitation, maybe the harm Chen Yuhai brought her was more painful than the process of her slow death.

I regretted not seeing her for the last time before her death, but the nurse at the psychiatric hospital took a letter to me.

"Miss Wen, this was found under Miss Chu's pillow, and the letter is addressed to you. ”

I took the letter and opened it.

Just by looking at the beginning, my eyes turned red.

Her first sentence was: "I'm sorry Wen Ran, I shouldn't have let Chen Yuhai's demon target you." ”

I never thought that Chu Xinlan would recognize the mistakes she had made.

I never expected her to apologize to me, and before she decided to kill herself.

Her handwriting was neat and her handwriting was beautiful, and I think she must have been very sober when she wrote this letter.

She said that she was not afraid of death, but she was afraid that after she died, there would be no one to take care of Coco.

She also said that she had to die, that she no longer had the ability to take care of Coco, that she could not be cured, and that Coco would only be hurt if she followed.

Seeing these words she wrote, my heart was very sad and depressed.

I have seen Chu Xinlan go crazy, which is shocking and shocking.

"Wen Ran, except for Mo Yunqian in this world, I don't believe that anyone can be good to Coco, and I don't believe that anyone can treat her as good as her own daughter, when I committed suicide for the first time, you once told me, you said that if I die, you and Mo Yunqian will take Coco away, and you will be Coco's mother, at that time, I really hated you, hated you very much, and even I really wanted to kill you immediately. ”

"But now, I want to beg you, please help me take care of Coco, I'm not a good mother, I haven't taken good care of Coco since she was born, I've barely seen me in the past two years, Coco may not remember what her mother looks like for a long time. ”

"So I beg you, can you forgive me? I've paid with my life, can you please forgive me?"

"Wen Ran, Mo Yunqian loves you very much, maybe you don't know what he has done for you, you don't know, maybe he never told you that in the years when you disappeared inexplicably, he almost died in the Canadian snow resort in order to find you. You may not know that when he had a heart transplant, he almost died on the operating table, and when he was rescued, he smiled and said, he can't die yet, otherwise you will be sad."

"Wen Ran, you must be happy for the rest of your lives. ”

Chu Xinlan's funeral was jointly organized by Mo Yunqian and me.

She didn't have any friends or relatives, so the funeral was very simple.

Chu Xinlan's letter seemed to help me clear the fog.

She made me understand that if I can't get out of the shadow brought to me by Chen Yuhai, then the final outcome can only be death.

But I know that I can't, and I have many, many worries in this world.

My friends, my family, and Coco.

Therefore, after Mo Yunqian arranged a new psychiatrist for me, I have been actively treating, because of my attitude, the treatment is going well.

Of course, if Chu Xinlan hadn't told me, I wouldn't have known, I spent a few years recuperating in the United States due to an accident because of surgery many years ago, and I didn't give him any news about me in those years, and then my dad lied to him and said that I was dead, so he went to Canada and went to the ski resort where we used to go together, and he almost lost his life there.

He had been to countless places we had been together to look for me, and he had never told me about them.

And the accident in which he almost died on the operating table during surgery, he didn't tell me about it.

Later, I asked him why he didn't say it, and he said that he was afraid that I would be worried about him and that I would be sad.

I remember that on the day I read the letter that Chu Xinlan wrote to me, Mo Yunqian held me in his arms, and I cried for a long, long time, I didn't know what I was crying about, but I also seemed to know what I was crying about.

According to Chu Xinlan's wishes, Mo Yunqian and I adopted Cocoa, in fact, even without Chu Xinlan's letter, I think I already had the idea of adopting Coco before.

As for the fact that Mo Yunqian and I adopted Coco, I didn't expect that the happiest person would be Sihan.

No, the two children are having fun in the living room.

"Brother, brother, you can help me build a castle, but the little princess, the little princess lives in the castle. Keke took Sihan's hand and said innocently.

I was surprised that Sihan, who usually has a very cold temperament and doesn't like to laugh, can be led by Coco.

Coco wants to build a castle with building blocks, and Sihan helps her build a castle.

Coco wants to paint, and Sihan gives her the painting tools he usually uses for school.

Coco wants to listen to stories when she sleeps at night, and Sihan helps her tell stories.

……

Seeing that Sihan turned into a gentle little warm man for Cocoa, I even thought that Sihan's temperament was so cold before, probably because he didn't have children at home to play with him, so he developed such a temperament.

But outside, Sihan's temperament is still so cold, and he can only be so patient with Coco.

Seeing this warm picture, I couldn't help laughing, and I finally understood why Sihan hid from me to see Coco, maybe Sihan remembered Coco's sister since he was a child, because he knew whose child Coco was, and for me, he would pretend not to care about anything.

But in fact, I found that Sihan cherished his family very much, even if it was only a short period of time with him.

The doorbell rings.

Coco immediately put down the building blocks in his hand, and said with a smile as he ran towards the door: "Dad is back, I'll go open the door for Dad!"

As soon as the door opened, he saw Mo Yunqian carrying two large bags of paper bags in his hand, one was kitchen ingredients, and the other was snacks for Sihan and Cocoa.

"Dad!" Mo Yunqian could be seen and hugged his legs.

And Sihan also walked over, looked at Mo Yunqian and said with a smile: "Dad." ”

Keke is a sensible child, she opened the biscuit that Mo Yunqian bought for her, and she trotted the first biscuit to me.

"Mom eats a piece. Coco looked at me with an innocent and lovely look.

I smiled and took it in my hand: "Baby, you can eat it too!"

As if she had received a huge reward, she laughed and ran to get a snack to eat.

At night, Mo Yunqian and I were together and lay on the bed heartily.

Mo Yunqian suddenly asked me, "Wei Ran, do you like the life you have now?"

I kissed him and replied, "Yes." ”

I replied to him in my heart: "I don't like this life better." ”