Xiang Kui was alone when he walked into the ward, and An Zhike didn't see the man who gave Xiang Kui medicine, but this was expected by An Zhike.

"Xiaoke, you're awake, why are you in a daze. ”

Even if Xiang Kui pretended to be natural, An Zhike, who had a full view of the scene just now, still saw the slightest abnormality in her usual expression.

"It's okay, I'm feeling a little tired......" An Zhike tried to make his tone sound flat.

Even if she can't be perfect, she is afraid that Xiang Aoi will see her abnormality, but she can't suppress the complicated thoughts in her mind.

Fortunately, Xiang Aoi didn't feel it.

"I'll go pour you a glass of water. ”

An Zhike suddenly felt cold, and she even shivered.

"Okay...... even though she knew what Xiang Aoi was going to do, she agreed, because she wanted to see it, and she wanted the truth to tell her that it was all true.

An Zhike pretended to lie on his side and half-closed his eyes.

Xiang Kui walked to the other side of the table to pour water, with her back to An Zhike, she stopped for a moment after hearing the water poured out of the thermos, Xiang Kui moved quickly and only stayed for about a minute or two.

"Xiao Ke, drink some hot water. ”

An Zhike sat up, she looked at the cup of steaming water in Xiang Kui's hand, and silently took it.

She looked up at Xiang Kui, didn't speak, and didn't drink the water she handed over.

Xiang Kui was a little cramped, smiled reluctantly at An Zhike, pulled a chair and sat down.

Xiang Kui never smiled like that, from the day An Zhike met her, she knew that this girl was the most hearty and couldn't hide things in her heart.

An Zhike's heart suddenly softened, and she picked up the cup to drink water.

But just as the hot water was about to touch his lips, Xiang Kui still screamed.

"Xiao Ke!"

An Zhike put down the cup: "What's wrong?"

"This, this glass of water is too hot, I, I'll go and change it for you. ”

Xiang Kui snatched the quilt from An Zhike's hand, and hurriedly stood up to leave the ward, but before he could take two steps, his leg hit the railing at the foot of the bed.

Xiang Kui didn't even have time to rub his legs, and hurriedly took the cup and wanted to go out.

An Zhike saw her panicked appearance, and her heart became more and more emotional.

"Xiaokui, since the day I met you, you have been a very free and easy girl. An Zhike couldn't help but speak.

Xiang Kui stopped, stood in front of An Zhike's bed but did not turn back.

"I remember the first day you stood at the door of your apartment, with two big bags in your hands, and you walked in talking to yourself, and said you came to see me. Speaking of this, An Zhike smiled and continued.

"Xiaokui, in fact, you really don't know how to buy vegetables, I'm already very unfamiliar with cooking, but I can still see that the vegetables and fruits you buy from the supermarket are expensive and not fresh. ”

An Zhike was still smiling, but Xiang Kui still didn't turn around.

"Xiaokui, I've been hesitating to tell you just now, not for anything else, as a good friend, I'm very afraid that some things will hurt my feelings, and I don't want to hurt you. ”

"Because no matter what your purpose was at the beginning, I will never forget that when I was scolded by everyone for not working, it was your companionship during that time, giving me happiness and hope, and later you stood up to clarify for me, I will always remember your feelings. ”

"Xiao Ke, don't say it!" Xiang Kui didn't turn around, but there was a choked voice in his voice.

"Aoi-chan, I actually hesitated for a long, long time just now. Actually, I know a lot of things, and I really want to find a way not to hurt you or myself, but I haven't thought of you to do it. I didn't want to drink that glass of water, but at first I thought it would be good for me to find an excuse to prevaricate you, and at worst I said that I wasn't thirsty. ”

Xiang Kui finally turned around: "But you still picked up the cup." ”

"Yes, I picked up my glass anyway. Because you smiled at me as you sat down. Xiaokui, we have known each other for so long, you will never smile at me like that, I really, really see a lot from your laughter, at that moment I felt so distressed, so ......"

Xiang Kui couldn't hold back her crying anymore, she called An Zhike's name in her mouth, and went over to hug An Zhike.

"Xiao Ke, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all my fault!" Xiang Kui was ashamed and slapped himself.

"It's all my fault, I'm so hateful, I hurt you once and want to hurt you a second time. But I don't deserve you to forgive me, I don't deserve to see you. ”

"Xiaokui, you know, you are a good friend in my heart, I don't care about that. I guess I'm more concerned about you, I want to know what happened to you, if I can help you. ”

Xiang Aoi let go of An Zhike and shook his head.

"But you don't know, it's like I'm walking into a bottomless pit, there will never end, and my life will never change. I thought about it a long, long time ago, probably everyone is born with their own things to do, their own responsibilities and burdens, at first I broke down and thought about giving up, but in the end I still thought, I don't do these things, so who should do it. ”

"Xiaokui, I know that there are some things we have to do, but I am your good friend, and I think from your point of view. So can you tell me about you, all about you?"

Xiang Kui raised her head and looked directly at An Zhike, her eyes seemed to hide endless stories, with poignancy and unwillingness.

"Xiao Ke, in fact, I mentioned my matter to you when I was drunk, I didn't think that I would tell you or anyone one day, but I still said it. ”

"Xiaokui, I thought about what you said later, I think this is because you have been suppressed for too long, we are good friends, I really hope you can tell me anything, don't always hide it in your heart. ”

"Xiao Ke, do you remember, I told you when I was drunk before, I really grew up in an orphanage. ”

"Well, I remember. ”

"Actually, I still have a mother......"

"Mom?" An Zhike pretended to be surprised, but in fact, she knew very well in her heart, because the man in the corridor just now was Xiang Kui's mother on the hospital bed who threatened her.

An Zhike also felt puzzled at that time, because she remembered that Xiang Kui once said that she was an orphan, where did she come from her mother lying on the hospital bed.

Xiang Aoi's slightly hoarse voice interrupted An Zhike's thoughts.

"I remember it was the second year I was adopted into that wealthy family, and I accidentally learned that I still had relatives in this world. ”

"At that time, after only a year of getting along, her little master's condition began to improve, and his favorite thing was to play with me. Later, I found out that my family found me, but the rich and noble family did not want them to take me back, but only gave my family a sum of money, my mother was not sick at that time, but the family was still very poor and not rich, and the family that adopted me was famous in City A, and my small family naturally did not dare to disobey. Originally, I shouldn't have known about this, because they didn't intend to tell me, and made a decision for me to stay in their house and be a little servant. ”

"But then you found out?"

"Well, it took me a long time before I learned about it, and it was their young master who inadvertently said it. Because the adults in their family didn't know that their children already knew about my background, they didn't tell him that they weren't allowed to tell me. ”

"But after you found out, I stayed at the adoptive house. ”

"Yes, I was a kid and couldn't do much. When I heard the news, I begged everyone in my family to let me meet my parents, whom I had never met, and assured them that I just wanted to see them and would not go back with them, because I hated them and hated that they had abandoned me since I was a child. ”

An Zhike listened intently, but Xiang Kui smiled when he said this.

A mocking smile tugged at the corners of her mouth, and she lowered her head unwilling to look directly at An Zhike.

"Before I saw them, I really wondered why I was left behind, why didn't you want me because of a sum of money after they found me. I was full of resentment, thinking that I must ask them when I saw them, and I even wanted to scold, but all this thought disappeared after I saw my family. ”

"I still can't forget that scene, I remember remembering a word that came to mind – four generations in the same house. It was a very small room, only one room, very dimly lit, the corners were all black, and the walls were dark yellow. ”

Xiang Kui couldn't go on, and held his forehead with both hands.

"They said that they didn't sincerely abandon me at the beginning, and the family really couldn't afford to support me. Then I saw my mother lying in bed, my mother was sick at that time, and the burden of the whole family was on my father's shoulders alone. ”

"I watched my elderly parents live in such an environment, and they bowed to me and apologized to me, thinking that my little servant was really more like a little princess living in a castle, and the only difference between me and a real princess was that I had a stepmother. ”

"Later, I went back to that house, and I began to work hard to save money, save my own salary, and give me things that the young master and wife gave me to help the family. This went on for another five or six years, and then I joined A.M and started my own job. ”

"Xiao Ke, my life is probably something you have never experienced, and really, only those who have experienced it can understand my feelings. ”

Later, I thought that the sunny days had come, and I was no longer under the control of others.

I want to earn my own money and support my parents, more like doing what I want to do.

I'm afraid that in the end, even if I'm old, there are some things I can't do to really do what I want.

But it never occurred to me that the life I longed for had never really arrived, and I had never really been able to get out of control......