I slammed into my bed.

What caught his eye on the side was Lu Shaofan's worried eyes, as well as that complicated gaze.

He knew, he knew it all.

He knew that I was unbearable, and that I had done something that he shouldn't have forgiven.

"Wei Ran...... You lie down and rest for a while, don't move around......"

He told me to lie down and rest, but at this time, how can I lie down and rest?

I brushed his hand away and hurried out of bed!

This is the hospital room, and I ran into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, and my eyes widened.

My neck, my chest, and my whole body were covered with bruises, all of which showed that what happened to me and Mo Yunqian was not a dream, it was real!

"No...... Not ......"

I looked at myself in the mirror and burst into tears.

"Why is this happening?"

At this moment, I felt that my body was very dirty, very dirty.

Lu Shaofan walked in, and he hugged me in his arms.

"Wei Ran, you don't want to be like this, it's not your fault!"

When I heard him say that, I cried even harder.

"No...... It's my fault, why I can't control myself, why can't I say no......"

Even though I was drugged, I still remember how debauched and disgusting I was in bed.

But that's not what I wanted!

I don't want to be like that!

Lu Shaofan hugged me tightly.

"Wei Ran, don't be so excited, that medicine is too fierce, it can't be controlled by ordinary people, and if you don't do that, your heart will be difficult to withstand the effect of that drug, and your life will be in danger!"

In my ears was Lu Shaofan's voice to dissuade me, but even if my life was in danger, I still couldn't bear such a result.

"Shaofan, I'm sorry...... I'm sorry! I had them call you, I have!"

As I spoke, I let the tears run freely.

Seeing my crazy look, Lu Shaofan tightly encircled me in his arms.

"I know, I know! He said it, he told me, but if I knew, I would have chosen to do it, because nothing is more important than your life!"

Hearing Lu Shaofan say this, my heart is still uncomfortable.

In the mirror, I seemed so broken.

Even though I have such a person in my heart, I know exactly what I should do and what I should not do!

I am Lu Shaofan's wife, and we are a family, but I have done such a thing, how will I face Lu Shaofan again in the future? Even Sihan I can't face it.

"Shaofan, I'm dirty, I'm dirty......"

I kept saying such things in my mouth, but Lu Shaofan kept comforting me.

"Wei Ran, don't say it again, I don't blame you, I just hate, hate why I didn't think that someone would drug you! I hate, Wen Ya kept looking for someone to chat with me in order to keep me from discovering you, and even worse, she even postponed the music of the dance, just didn't let me go to you when I was about to dance!"

It's gentleness, it's the medicine of gentleness.

But, Wen Ya, she is my sister!

I don't know what to do, I know that even if my body is washed, what happened with Mo Yunqian doesn't mean that it didn't happen.

I looked at Lu Shaofan, my face was pale, and my voice was hoarse.

"Shaofan, if you feel uncomfortable, you have disliked it, you can divorce me, it's okay, I don't want anything from you, Sihan I will take it away, we won't ask for a penny from you, it's me who did something wrong, everything is my fault!"

When I say this, I speak incoherently, to be exact, I don't even know what I'm talking about.

However, when Lu Shaofan heard what I said, there was too much distress on his face.

"I'm sorry Wei Ran, I'm sorry! I don't dislike you, I don't want to divorce you! And have you forgotten? Sihan is our child, I have never regarded him as an outsider, I just want us to live together as a family of three!"

Listening to what he said, I was speechless.

Because I found out that I really didn't deserve Lu Shaofan.

Not only my body, but also my heart is not worthy.

In this moment, I knew that I didn't love him, I didn't even love him!

I'm with him just because I'm used to it, just because I want to find someone to rely on, and just because I don't want to live that lonely life anymore.

But at that time, I was just pregnant, and I was afraid that the child would be born without a father, and I was afraid that I would not be able to take care of my child alone.

So Lu Shaofan gave me everything I needed, he gave me a home, gave me a stable life, and even raised my children as his children.

The guilt in my heart was so overwhelming that I could barely breathe.

I couldn't even find an outlet to vent to.

Even if I have a relationship with Mo Yunqian, I only hate myself, but I don't hate Mo Yunqian.

I know that my psychology is becoming more and more abnormal, but in this abnormality, I can't get out.

Every day and every night, I had nightmares, I began to be afraid of the light, of everything that was bright, even Sihan.

"Wei Ran, let's eat, come, I'll feed you!"

It was Lu Shaofan's voice, and he said that he fed me.

I looked up at him.

It was him, the man who gave me a home.

However, I did something sorry for him, I cheated, my body no longer belonged to him, and my heart didn't love him.

What am I going to do? How can I make it up to him?

What the hell does he want from me?

I opened my mouth and ate everything from the spoon he handed me one bite at a time.

After seeing that I had eaten it all, Lu Shaofan smiled and kissed my forehead.

"What a good day!"

He praised me and kissed me.

At night, we slept in the same bed, and Lu Shaofan hugged my body tightly.

He didn't seem quite right today, he kissed me on the lips, so he wanted my body?

I responded to his kiss and began to help him with his desire to be reasonable.

Perhaps, as he said, he doesn't dislike me, whether it's my body or I don't love him.

So I took the initiative to give him my body, but at the critical moment, Lu Shaofan stopped me.

"Wei Ran, be sober, do you know what we're doing now?"

I looked at him with a somewhat vacant gaze.

"Didn't you say you didn't dislike me, but why don't you like my body, why do you want to stop?"

Looking at Lu Shaofan, my tears had already broken the embankment.

Chapter 260: You Kneel for Me

Seeing me crying, Lu Shaofan reached out in a panic and reached out to help me wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes.

"Wei Ran, I didn't dislike you, I didn't want to stop, I was just afraid that you would be unhappy!"

He was helping me wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes as he explained to me.

But he clearly disliked me.

I hardly knew that it had been a few days, I only knew that in the past few days, Lu Shaofan had not touched me once.

"I'm not upset, I just want to give myself to you, I just want to know that you don't dislike me!"

I cried and said, but I didn't expect Lu Shaofan's intimacy in my heart.

I didn't look forward to it at all, but I was afraid that he wouldn't want my body.

Seeing me like this, Lu Shaofan looked at me sadly and said: "Wei Ran, if you really want to give yourself to me, you won't be so eager, I said that I didn't dislike you, I'm just afraid that after I want your body, it will only hurt you more!"

Does it hurt me more?

But I am husband and wife with him, shouldn't there be no harm between husband and wife?

Facing Lu Shaofan's sad eyes, I also began to panic.

What I am going to do is right, it is not right to accept him desperately, or to reject him.

Lu Shaofan helped me cover the quilt and kissed me on the forehead again.

"Don't think too much, you just need to sleep peacefully, your life has been a little depressed these days, I'll make an appointment with a doctor for you tomorrow to help you enlighten your mood!"

Originally, under his kiss, I was ready to sleep, and I had even closed my eyes.

But when I heard him say that he was going to find me a doctor, my eyes widened again.

"No, I'm not sick, why should I see a doctor? Shaofan, I'm not sick!"

I grabbed Lu Shaofan's arm tightly, and I wanted to tell him that I was normal.

When I heard that he was going to make an appointment with a doctor, I felt a sense of extreme rebellion.

However, seeing my reaction, Lu Shaofan gently stroked my hair, lowered his head and kissed my forehead, and pressed me.

"I didn't say you were sick, but you see, you didn't want to see Sihan for several days, Sihan misses you very much, but if you don't see a doctor, you may never want to see Sihan!

Suddenly, when I heard Lu Shaofan talk about Sihan, my heart trembled fiercely.

Yes, I don't want to see Sihan, it's not that I don't want him, it's just that I don't dare to see him.

It seems that when I see Sihan, I will remember whose son he is, and as if when I see him, I will recall everything I have experienced.

No, I can't see Sihan, even if I love him as much as I live!

"I love Sihan, Shaofan, he is a child I gave birth to with great difficulty, how can I not love him? But Shaofan, I don't have the face to see Sihan now, I'm not a good mother, I'm dirty...... I'm dirty......"

I began to speak incoherently.

Those memories are like rolling and churning waves, constantly beating on my heart.

I really wanted to forget, but I couldn't.

"Wei Ran, Wei Ran......"

In my ears was Lu Shaofan's voice constantly calling my name, and it was his voice that pulled me back again.

I immediately buried my face in Lu Shaofan's chest, feeling his heartbeat, feeling the temperature of my chest, and I felt a sense of security.

"Shaofan, you are so good to me, you are so good......"

I kept muttering, and in a short time I fell into a deep sleep.

However, at this moment, Lu Shaofan was lying quietly on the bed, his face was full of pain.

"Wei Ran, if you really can't bear this kind of pain, I'm willing to let go, I'm willing to let you find your true happiness......! But Mo Yunqian him, if he can have a healthy body......"

He muttered to himself, but when he said this, his expression darkened.

"But even if I set you free, he can't give you happiness, so Wei Ran, we must persevere, I will definitely let you come out of such pain!"

At the same time, the gentle home.

It had been several days since the incident, and Wen Yuanming only learned the news.

Originally, Wen Ya was sitting on the sofa, watching the news, but the door of the house rang.

Soon, Wen Yuanming pressed a string of passwords and walked in.

Wen Ya stood up puzzled, looked at Wen Yuanming and said, "Dad, why do you have time to come to me today?"

Hearing this, Wen Yuanming walked in front of Wen Ya with a cold face.

"I'm here to ask you, on the day of the reception, Su Weiran was drugged, did you do it?"

Hearing this, Wen Ya's expression froze, and then her eyes flickered: "Dad, what do you say, how could I do that?"

Wen Ya is denying.

But Wen Yuanming stared at her and said, "You did that thing, but you didn't admit it?"

Hearing Wen Yuanming ask, Wen Ya said impatiently: "Dad, what's wrong with you today, you don't care what I did before, I just gave your old lover's daughter some aphrodisiac, what's wrong, you have to blame me?"

Hearing Wen Ya admit it, Wen Yuanming immediately said angrily: "Bastard, you kneel down for me!"

As soon as he finished speaking, Wen Yuanming coughed violently in anger.

But Wen Ya didn't understand that her father would have such a big temper with Su Weiran.

"Dad, I am your daughter, I have been spoiled by you since I was a child, but today you are so fierce to me for the daughter of your old lover, do you know that I am sad?"

However, listening to Wen Ya's words, Wen Yuanming's face turned blue with anger.

"I just spoil you too much to make you make such a big mistake!

Wen Yuanming's indomitable attitude made Wen Ya very annoyed.

"Don't kneel! I'm such a big person, I don't want to kneel!"

However, looking at his spoiled daughter, looking arrogant and willful in front of him, Wen Yuanming's heart was painful.

Because at this moment, his other daughter is suffering mentally because of that incident.

When he received a call from Lu Shaofan and heard what Lu Shaofan said, Wen Yuanming was really angry and was about to go crazy!

He regretted it, regretted not recognizing that daughter at all costs, he regretted not telling Wen Ya earlier that that person was her own sister.

"You bastard!"

Only once, Wen Yuanming picked up the cane in his hand and knocked it on Wen Ya's leg with a force.

Immediately, Wen Ya's legs ached, and she knelt down subconsciously!

"Dad, how can you hit me?"

At the same time, she yelled at Wen Yuanming in disbelief.