Now I'm really sad, I have all kinds of mistakes, I think of Komatsu, but he was a soldier in Tibet, and he didn't know the fact that I was married.

I put the light snow in that big city, and I came back to this small city as if nothing had happened to me.

I'm an unmarried woman in her thirties, and every time I come back, no one can see the change in me.

They all think that I have become rich after all these years of wandering outside, but they don't know how many setbacks I have experienced, and I miss my daughter all the time.

I'm hiding all this now, just afraid that people will know about my past, and I want to start from scratch.

But will he really give me such a chance in reality? I think Komatsu is a very good candidate, especially after so many years of setbacks, he is my hair boy, she should know me very well, and he is still very good character, very good to me, very concerned about me, very good for me, so that I feel that I can rely on the candidate.

Well, let's choose him, fortunately, he has been a soldier in Tibet for the past two years, and there is no suitable person around him.

We live in the city now, because, since I left home, every time I send money to the family, the family's financial situation is getting better and better, and then my parents have also lived in the city, so now the family is no longer a burden on me, and I take care of myself now.

It's just that I often feel a little uneasy in my heart, because I left my daughter there and became a mother, is it a little immoral, but I can't care about so much, I must pursue my happiness.

In any case, no one will want a divorced person with a daughter, and besides, if I marry another person of bad character, I am really afraid that he will do something to my daughter, and I will try to find out the one who really loves me.

One day I saw the phone ringing, "Hey, Komatsu, why do you have time to call me?"

Komatsu said to me on the other end of the phone, "Rest today, by the way, how is the blind date of the person you introduced?"

"Not good, the man is picky and stingy. ”

"Isn't he the son of the director? he should be very rich, and he shouldn't be so picky and be a man," Komatsu said indignantly on the other end of the phone.

"I can't help it, I don't even know what's going on," I told him.

Xiao Song continued to smile and said, "Oh, Gao Lanlan, I think you don't want to go on a blind date anymore, or I will marry you, anyway, I am a soldier here in Tibet, and no one has introduced me to me, besides, I am also old, in my thirties, I am really worried!"

"Oh, you're so good, I'm afraid you won't be able to find a match," I said teasingly.

Komatsu continued, "You said that we have known each other for so many years, how am I doing to you? I am still very good to you, you know my character, and I can accept it no matter what your situation is." ”

He knows that I have a daughter, does he know that I was divorced? No, no one should tell him.

Even if I married Jiang Peng back then, I didn't inform the people in my hometown, how did he know, I thought I had changed places, and the previous things had nothing to do with me, so I thought so.

Xiao Song continued, "Gao Lanlan, I don't think this kind of thing should be too anxious, no matter what age you are, don't choose someone to marry because of your age, in fact, the key is that this person is good to you, okay, I'm in class, I won't tell you first." ”

hung up the phone, these days, I have been eating and drinking at home every day, in addition to being a tutor, to earn that meager salary, and I have not met the right person, I am really depressed.

At this time, the friend who took care of Xiaoxue for me suddenly called me, "Gao Lanlan, you come back quickly and take a look, Xiaoxue has been in good condition recently." ”

"Yes, Xiaoxue, what's wrong with her?" I asked eagerly.

A friend told me, "Gao Lanlan, Xiaoxue may miss you too much, she shouts for her mother every day, and I can't help it, and besides, let's talk about her body, she always has a cold during this time, and the last time I checked it, it turned out to be a myopic child." ”

"No, Gao Lanlan will be a myopic child when she is only six years old, my God, I am most afraid of myopia, myopia is irreversible, especially for a child, sometimes walking on the road and looking at those children with glasses, I feel inexplicably uncomfortable, do you have to wear glasses in elementary school?

No matter how much it was, I quickly asked the principal for leave and went back to the big city, I wanted to see my daughter, I wanted to see what was wrong with her.

When I came to my friend's house, my friend said to me, "Gao Lanlan, I'm sorry, I didn't take good care of my daughter for you during this time. ”

"Thank you, you really helped me do so much, I will call you the money. ”

This friend who takes care of Xiaoxue for me, we have a very good relationship, we met when we were anchors before, and I don't have high requirements for her, as long as she sends food to Xiaoxue, and then picks Xiaoxue up from school every day.

She is a very righteous friend, and she likes children very much, she has no children herself, so she treats Xiaoxue like her own daughter, but after all, her daughter can't replace her mother.

Xiaoxue must be thinking about me, I also think about it, I'm so selfish, leaving Xiaoxue here alone for my own happiness, I feel like I'm so selfish, for my own happiness, I don't care about anything.

Xiaoxue has suffered a lot of grievances with me, either she was sick at school, or now her eyes are also short-sighted, and I haven't had a good day with me, and I feel guilty in my heart.

Blaming herself, Xiaoxue opened her eyes and saw that my name was "Mom." ”

"Xiaoxue, what's wrong with you?" I asked with concern.

Xiaoxue looked at me, reluctantly, smiled and said, "Mom, these days, why don't you come to see me, it's been more than a year, you don't want me anymore, just like last time, leave me at Aunt Lin Momo's house, don't ask me." ”

"Xiaoxue didn't, mom, mom went to earn money for you, well, mom went to earn you some money in order to let you live a better life, mom loves your Xiaoxue, you have to believe me. ”

The elementary school continued, "Mom doesn't love me, Mom's deception, Mom has been lying to me, saying that she has never found me Dad for me, and now she is leaving me here alone, do you think I'm a burden and dislike me?"

Xiaoxue cried sadly after speaking, and my heart was sad.

Xiaoxue's words are indeed the same, I do be a mother, very unqualified, and I am indeed so selfish, leaving the child here alone, to find my own happiness, but the result is not found, and I am frustrated.

A woman in her thirties, how can she be so easy to find a partner, and it should be difficult.

Now that there are so many little girls, who will like you, and even if I hide my identity, there is no way.

Looking at my daughter's painful appearance, I hugged Xiaoxue, "My child, my mother will love you, you must believe this, but now you are forced by life, your mother can't provide you with a good life, sometimes it's far away from you, but you have to believe that your mother loves you, you are a relative of this mother, live well with your mother, okay?"

Elementary School was in my arms and said to me, "Mom, I only have one request, that is, you don't leave me again, okay?"

Okay, I thought about it for a long time, nodded and said, "Xiaoxue, don't worry, your mother will not leave you, no matter how busy your mother is at work, she will take you with her." ”

Yes, I really owe Xiaoxue too much, this year, I am not with the child, I don't know what kind of life I lived, for one, a colleague, I don't distrust him, but, can he have me so sad for his daughter? Besides, looking at the painful appearance of the little student, I really can't bear it, so let me live alone, I will, with Xiaoxue, no matter what my happiness is, my daughter I can't abandon.

I quickly sent a resignation report to my school, which is also a private school, so it is very easy to resign, just write a resignation letter, and my salary for the remaining month will be deducted from me, but it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter.

As long as I'm with my daughter, I'm really ridiculous before, I don't even know what I'm doing, I'm pretending to be a woman who hasn't been married yet, so I go on all kinds of blind dates, and then I meet scumbags, and then I meet stingy men.

I just hate myself now, I feel like I'm really stupid, I still think I'm young, but I'm just an object of being played with.

Yes, I'll clean up now, I look very young, but I'm actually in my thirties, and I still have a daughter, so I don't care about it, I hide my situation.

In fact, I really got a boyfriend, and it's also a kind of deception to others, and I'm so ashamed to think of this, yes, I don't know what I'm doing now!

I called Xiaodong, "Komatsu, thank you for taking care of me, I'm back in that big city again, you should be a soldier over there, don't think about anything." ”

Xiao Song pondered for a long time and said to me, "I know, Gao Lanlan, I know that you have a problem now, and I know that you still have a daughter, right?"

"How do you know?" I asked, surprised.

"Gao Lanlan, don't forget, we are children, our family lives so close, don't I know what happened to you? And I know that your past is indeed very painful for you, but don't worry, I am with you, I will definitely protect you, I know that you are a woman who has been injured, I also understand your preciousness, I know how to cherish you. ”

Komatsu just blindly said this, this guy is good, after all, he knows the roots, if we live together, I have a father in elementary school, and I can take care of us, it's very good!

Besides, I don't have to look for it anymore, I'm so tired, I really don't want to know those men anymore, it's too tiring to understand a person, I can't even live well with myself, and I still have to get to know others, but Xiao Song is so far away in Tibet, the world is far away, thousands of kilometers away from us, when will he go home?

"Komatsu, we're too far away, distance is a problem," I said.

Xiao Song said to me, "Gao Lanlan, you really don't have to think so much, I will definitely protect you well, besides, I will be demobilized and go home in five years, I can find a job, I can return to you, don't you think about it so much, besides, feelings can transcend everything? Is distance a problem?"

Komatsu said over there, but my heart is chilling, can I wait for him for five years? Besides, he said that he will come back, but will he really come back? When will he come back? This is five years, what kind of concept is it?

I had to say to Xiao Song, "Xiao Song, okay, let this matter go for a while, I can think about it, I hope you work hard now, can you be a good soldier?"

Xiao Song stubbornly asked on the other end of the phone, "Gao Lanlan, did you promise me?"

"Komatsu let me think about it, right?"

Xiao Song said: "Okay, then I hope you think about it for Xiaoxue's happiness, I must be a good father," Xiao Song hung up the phone after speaking, and my heart couldn't calm down for a long time.

Komatsu is what I said is small, I know him very well, we will live a good life together, but he is so far away from me, and he is in Tibet, too far away, he can't take care of me and my daughter at all.

I'm selfish, I just need someone who can take care of me now, Xiaoxue has a father, a complete family, Komatsu, so far, it's not realistic at all, I said to myself secretly in my heart.

In order to give Xiaoxue a father and have a happy family, I registered with the marriage agency.

My conditions are not bad, and I am still so beautiful in my photos, I am thirty years old, and my job is not bad, I work as a clerk, and I still have my own house in this city, yes, my current conditions are really good, you must know that this house was left to me by Shen Xuanhan, although my life is also glamorous.

Today I introduced me, received a call from Aunt Wang from the marriage agency, she cared about me very much, and continued to introduce me to various objects during this time, she said that the conditions were very good, and she introduced me to a good one, and finally got her news.