Chapter 042: It's Not Enough to Be Afraid I'll Hurt
was misinterpreted by Yun Mengxue, and Luo Haochen's heart was about to suffocate.
"Cher, I didn't mean that. ”
"I don't want to check whether it's right or wrong, it has nothing to do with me!"
Yun Mengxue pushed Luo Haochen away hard, turned around and turned towards the small intersection on the other side, she was in a very messy mood, her feet slipped and she almost fell, but fortunately, Luo Haochen who came with her helped her.
"Cher, are you alright?"
Luo Haochen asked Yun Mengxue with a nervous face, his look of concern pierced Yun Mengxue's heart, and he shook off Luo Haochen with a cold face.
"You don't always do this, can't you? It's fun to do this on purpose to make my heart shake and then hurt me, right?"
"Not ......"
Luo Haochen shook his head, he felt that the topic of the two people had returned to the source.
"What else do you say besides shaking your head and saying no?!"
"I ......"
Luo Haochen's throat seemed to be choked with a fish bone, he really didn't know what else to say, because the things that he wanted to say and could say had already been said to Yun Mengxue, but the problem was that she refused to accept them.
"Cher's ......"
"Don't call me!"
Yun Mengxue was very irritable, she couldn't control her emotions anymore, she raised her foot and kicked at Luo Haochen, stretched out her hand to beat Luo Haochen, and kept scolding him in her mouth.
"Luo Haochen! Listen to me! Even if you gouge out your heart with the knife now, I will be disgusted and unwilling to step on it with my feet, and I will directly ask people to throw it away to feed the pigs and dogs! Because people like you deserve this kind of treatment!"
Yun Mengxue scolded Luo Haochen, but he didn't have any angry reaction, and that kind of "I recognize" attitude made Yun Mengxue even more angry.
"Feeding pigs and dogs is regarded as lifting you up, giving them your heart to eat, it is simply an insult to pigs and dogs! Calling you a beast, even a beast will be unhappy!"
I really couldn't find more vicious words to scold Luo Haochen, Yun Mengxue trembled and cried, she hated her own incompetence, why didn't she want to cry, the more she cried in front of Luo Haochen?
"Cher, you don't want this. ”
Luo Haochen went to hold Yun Mengxue's hand distressedly, wanting to wipe the tears that fell for her, Yun Mengxue twisted her wrist and wanted to break free, but the more this happened, the tighter Luo Haochen clenched.
"I don't want to let go! Cher, I can't live without you! The days of losing you are simply dark, and I spend every day in deep self-blame and remorse! Cher, I love you, I ...... I don't know what to say to make you believe me...... Ahh
Without waiting for Luo Haochen to confess his sincere words, he was bitten by Yun Mengxue on the side of his hand, the bite of her teeth was very hard and hard, but there was also an irrepressible trembling.
Even so, Luo Haochen refused to let go, the more annoyed and distressed she felt in her heart, the more Yun Mengxue tried her best to bite Luo Haochen, until a trace of blood broke into her mouth, her eyes lit up, and bright red blood flowed down the corners of her mouth.
Yun Mengxue was stunned, the teeth embedded in the flesh were finally slowly loosened, and two rows of clear tooth marks were deeply imprinted on Luo Haochen's hands.
"You ......"
Before she finished her sentence, Yun Mengxue's tears poured down the river like a river bursting its embankment.
"Luo Haochen, are you used to trampling on my soul, are you afraid that you won't hurt me deep enough like this?
Yun Mengxue cried so much that she admitted that her heart felt heart-wrenching pain for Luo Haochen for a moment, and she was angry with Luo Haochen why she treated her again and again?
"I'll tell you the truth, I used to ...... I have so much tenderness and love for you, but ...... You always have too many reasons and excuses to push me away from you over and over again. Do you know what kind of pain it is? Do you know how lonely and pitiful it is to be forced to let go?"
Luo Haochen looked at Yun Mengxue in pain, those words were like extremely sharp blades, piercing his heart one after another, what was the pain in his hands? Compared to the injuries suffered by Yun Mengxue, Luo Haochen felt that this was not enough to make up for it.
Speaking the words in her heart, Yun Mengxue's figure swayed slightly and took two steps back, and Luo Haochen just wanted to reach out to help, but she dodged away.
"You refuse to accept my heart and break my love, and after I cry until my heart is broken, you want to use this method to redeem me, to piece together the perfect beginning of your self-conceived love! Luo Haochen, why do you treat me like this? Why do you repeatedly hurt a person who loves you?
Yun Mengxue squatted on the ground in pain, holding her arms with her hands and looking helpless. At this moment, how she wished that a pair of warm hands would take her into her arms, and gentle words would comfort the wounded soul.
That's right, there is indeed such a person in front of her-Luo Haochen, but Yun Mengxue's heart can't be eradicated, she can't convince herself to forgive and accept Luo Haochen, absolutely not!
"Cher, I admit I'm ...... Although you say that the word 'beast' is an insult to the beast, I can't find any words to use to describe myself. I am the most despicable existence, I hurt you, make you sad and sad, make you wronged, it's all my fault, it's my garbage!"
The tooth marks on Luo Haochen's hands were slowly bleeding, and drop by drop of bright red fell on the snow-covered ground, dyed with dazzling red.
He really didn't want to make Yun Mengxue sad, but his original intention was to torture and hurt Yun Mengxue, even if he knew that he couldn't let go of falling in love with her, he didn't want to break up, he really wanted to keep this hard-won love, and finally gave up and buried it with his own hands.
"I really want to forgive you this time, but I feel embarrassed to say it. But I want to tell you that no matter how far away you are from me, my heart is always thinking of you and thinking of you. ”
Yun Mengxue's breath stagnated, she looked up at Luo Haochen with wide eyes, tears sliding down her cheeks, stinging Luo Haochen's eyes.
"For two years, I have been searching for your whereabouts, I love you......! It really feels so empty. I really want to find you again, love you well, and don't want you to leave again. ”
A sincere confession of longing, Yun Mengxue's heart trembled uncontrollably at what Luo Haochen said.
"No...... Don't say it, I'...... I don't want to listen! I beg you to stop talking!"
Yun Mengxue covered her ears with her hands and shook her head desperately, she didn't want to hear those words that affected her mood, although she had become no longer firm now, she still didn't want to let her willpower collapse so quickly under Luo Haochen's influence.
"I'm going to say!Cher, let me finish it?!"
Luo Haochen took a step forward and dragged Yun Mengxue, who was squatting on the ground, and held her shoulders with both hands, preventing Yun Mengxue from leaving.
"Now, I can finally see the face you made my heart miss again, I ...... I ......can't hold back my emotions, I can't help but go crazy, and I will do something out of the ordinary that makes you disgusted!
Luo Haochen felt that he had become so stupid, like a hairy cucumber boy, a little helpless in the face of the woman he loved, and he was so flustered that it was ridiculous.
"Cher, I admit that my heart is messy at the moment, really...... I don't know how to express my heart......! I just want to say...... I love you, I love you, my heart will never change, my heart will never change!"
"Shut up!"
With a "pop", the crisp slap shattered Luo Haochen's words of confession of love, and also broke the quiet atmosphere of falling snow.
Yun Mengxue's red hand was numb and painful, she couldn't tell whether it was because she hit Luo Haochen, or because it hurt because it had been freezing outside for a long time on a snowy day, in short, her fingers were connected to her heart, and the pain was so painful that she couldn't wait to chop it off to get rid of the pain.
Red finger prints soon appeared on Luo Haochen's cheeks, and his words were stopped, but the intention he wanted to express was also passed on to Yun Mengxue, but it was still not accepted by the other party.
"Luo Haochen, don't think that a few words of your rhetoric can make me forget the past and forget the harm you have given!"
Yun Mengxue was ruthless, trying her best not to have feelings for Luo Haochen, whether it was distressed for love, or purely because she felt pitiful for him, none of them were allowed.
"I ...... I see, today...... So be it for now. At least...... Today, I won't bother you anymore, Cher......"
Luo Haochen's expression became extremely lonely, his eyes were full of sadness, he silently lowered his head, turned around and walked in the opposite direction.
Looking at the back of Luo Haochen leaving, and his sudden change of attitude of no longer chasing each other, Yun Mengxue felt as if she was being caught by a big bird and flew up to the clouds just now, but in a flash, she was thrown into the bottomless valley at once.
The extremely strong psychological gap in the middle made her a little uncomfortable, and the thoughts in her heart also made Yun Mengxue resentful of herself.
"Yun Mengxue, what's wrong with you? Haven't you always been disgusted with Luo Haochen for doing this? But...... But why, on earth, the moment I saw him turn away, why was there a ......? A sense of loss spreading?"
Why did it become like this? Why did she have such a feeling in her heart? Yun Mengxue cried and asked herself over and over again in her heart, in fact, she knew the answer, she just didn't want to admit it.
The sadness in her heart was indescribable, Yun Mengxue wanted to stand up, but found that she had been squatting for a long time, and her feet had already been numb and had no direct effect, and the feeling after the sudden blood was indescribably uncomfortable, and there were bursts of unbearable tingling.
"Uh...... Ah......h
The body shook, Yun Mengxue couldn't help but let out a cry of pain, seeing a girl across the road almost slipping, being held by her boyfriend next to her and snuggling together with a sweet smile, Yun Mengxue's heart seemed to be being twisted by a knife.
Just now, didn't she also experience the same action, but Luo Haochen's concern was ruthlessly rejected by him.
"Do you know? Actually...... I really miss that feeling and miss it...... Just like that, I was hugged and comforted by you...... However, Yun Mengxue can't do that!"
You can't do that! You can't let your heart waver! Luo Haochen is not worthy of forgiveness! You can't be deceived by his appearance! You can't be soft-hearted!
Screaming over and over again in her heart, there was a pain in her lower abdomen, Yun Mengxue frowned and arched her body slightly, and her hands were secretly pressed against her lower abdomen.
"Heh, right, I know that I can't forgive Luo Haochen, and I can't have a crush on him. If...... If it really shakes up...... Accepted, I'...... I can......'t forgive myself for losing my child! No, absolutely not!"