Mo Qingyou got off the car, looked at the train station in Beijing, and then looked at the prosperous world behind him with a reluctant face. Mo Qingyou said: "You go back, Shengshi, I'm leaving." ”

Sheng Shi still looked at her, standing in place and not wanting to leave at all.

He said, "You go in, I'll see you for a while, remember to take care of yourself when you go back, don't forget to call me when you're in a bad mood, or when you have nothing to do, I'll wait." ”

Mo Qingyou smiled at him, that kind of smile was sweet, and he hadn't seen it on her face for a long time.

Mo Qingyou waved at him and melted into the flow of people entering the station, Sheng Shi watched her walk into the ticket gate and disappear.

After Mo Qingyou left, Sheng Shi felt that his heart was empty, and there was a gap in one place, and nothing could be filled. He seemed to have retreated to the lonely days, even though Le Cuicui was still inseparable from him. always hugged him and told him gently: "Shengshi, I love you." ”

However, Sheng Shi still felt that he was alone and fell into a bottomless well. He knew that Mo Qingyou was gone, and no one could soothe the pain in his heart.

Mo Qingyou never called him, Sheng Shi couldn't help but call her, but as he expected, Mo Qingyou's phone was unanswered.

That weekend, Sheng Shi and Gu Licheng, as well as Lin Wan and Le Cuicui, the two of them went to Wangfujing Snack Street for a stroll, and on this antique snack street, the four of them ate happily.

Later, they all burped with satisfaction, Le Cuicui and Lin Wan were invited to go shopping in Wangfujing Department Store, Sheng Shi and Gu Licheng didn't like to go shopping, so the two had to take a taxi back to school. Sheng Shi said: "Gu Licheng, you can accompany me to sit down." ”

Gu Licheng saw that his face was full of worries, as if he had something to say to him, so he could only accompany him to the bubble tea shop to sit down.

They entered the store and found a window seat as usual.

Gu Licheng asked him, "What's wrong with you?" ”

Sheng Shi said: "I'm very unhappy these days, really, I don't know what's wrong with myself, I feel empty in my heart, quite lonely, and very boring." ”

Gu Licheng smiled and said, "That's your family Cuicui snubbing you." ”

Sheng Shi shook his head, his face a little gloomy.

"No, it's Mo Qingyou's problem, Gu Licheng, it's Mo Qingyou. ”

The smile on Gu Licheng's face faded and gradually turned into a serious expression.

Gu Licheng said: "I know that Mo Qingyou came to Beijing to see you a few days ago, Sheng Shi, are you still thinking about her now?"

Sheng Shi nodded, he knew his feelings for Mo Qingyou more clearly than ever.

Gu Licheng continued: "That's not right, your current girlfriend is Le Cuicui, I told you that I have also had such an experience, the girl who didn't catch up is more attractive, I fell in love with Lin Wan for a while, and then it slowly faded away, so I will also think about how good the girl who didn't catch up with me before, but you also think about how good it is if you catch up with Mo Qingyou, then it will be annoying for a while, it's all like this." ”

Sheng Shi said: "No, my feelings for Mo Qingyou are not like this, different from other girls, I have known her for so many years, and I don't understand, but I just know that I am different from her and any girl, I don't know how to deal with my feelings." ”

Gu Licheng said in a tone from a passer-by: "I understand, I understand, but you also have to think about it, will you be with Mo Qingyou in the future?" You haven't confessed to her, and now that she has a boyfriend in Harbin, even if you confess to her, Mo Qingyou may not agree, at most she will be moved for a while. You better forget her, be with Le Cuicui, and Lin Wan and I will be waiting to drink your wedding wine in the future. ”

Sheng Shi said: "I don't want to think about getting married, and I don't want to do it at all. I also want to forget Mo Qingyou, but I can't forget, Gu Licheng, it's very difficult for me. ”

Gu Licheng said: "It's okay, after a long time, you will forget." ”

Sheng Shi has known this sentence for a long time, and it will dilute everything after a long time, and he understands.

He suddenly felt that although Gu Licheng had a lot of emotional experience and seemed to understand everything about the girl, Gu Licheng actually didn't understand Sheng Shi's feelings for Mo Qingyou, and even Sheng Shi himself didn't understand, how could he understand.

In those days, Sheng Shi tried to forget Mo Qingyou, this was the first time he had the idea of forgetting Mo Qingyou, never before, even if Mo Qingyou and Lin Zhou were in love, and Lu Shen was together, and finally found out that she loved Song Jinang, these times, at any time, Sheng Shi never wanted to forget her. But now, Sheng Shi knew it was time to forget her.

When did you like Mo Qingyou?

Anyway, it's not elementary school, Sheng Shi thinks it's probably junior high school, he began to enter adolescence, and began to gradually understand the truth that opposites attract. In this way, he has silently liked Mo Qingyou for almost seven years, seven years is really too long, so long as two universities.

In order to forget Mo Qingyou, Sheng Shi and Le Cuicui stick together all day long, they eat together, sit at a table together in class, walk together after school, and occasionally go to a hotel outside to open a room without doing anything, the two of them are crammed into a bed, watching TV and laughing, just like a newlywed couple who have just gotten married.

The passion of Sheng Shi and Le Cuicui when they were in love just now slowly faded, and it became the kind of family-like relationship that Gu Licheng said.

Then the summer vacation came, and the whole first year of college ended in these seemingly dull but sad days. On the day Le Cuicui left, Sheng Shi stayed in the hotel with her for one night, and the next morning he sent Le Cuicui off, and he had to take the afternoon train back to Taichuan.

That night, Le Cuicui snuggled in his arms, and Le Cuicui asked him: "Shengshi, are you tired of me?"

Sheng Shi looked at her in surprise and said, "Who said that?

Le Cuicui lowered her head embarrassedly, she blushed and said: "Because I don't let you touch me, you must think I'm not interesting, and my feelings for me will fade, I can see that you don't love me as much as before." ”

Sheng Shi was amused by her words, he said: "What kind of stupid things are you saying, why don't let me touch you, I'm bored with you, what you say is so stupid." I'm telling you, boys aren't what you think, and if you let me touch them, we'll probably split early, because that's when you're really lost my freshness to me. ”

After Sheng Shi finished speaking, Le Cuicui raised her head and glanced at him, becoming even more unhappy: "You mean, if I let you touch me, you will break up with me?"

Sheng Shi smiled and said, "Are you really stupid or pretending to be stupid? I'm just talking about what ordinary men think, I won't, you know I won't do this." ”

Of course, Le Cuicui knew that he was not this kind of person, but she was still faintly uneasy in her heart,

Sheng Shi doesn't like to force things, and he won't force Le Cuicui to do anything for himself.

The two of them discussed what they had and what they didn't do, and they gradually fell asleep.

Early the next morning, Sheng Shi sent Le Cuicui away, just like usual, they kissed and hugged in the train station, and then reluctantly said goodbye to each other, but the only difference is that Sheng Shi's heart is not as reluctant as before, maybe Le Cuicui is right, he doesn't love her as much as before.

He sat on the train from Beijing to Taichuan, because it was the peak period of the holiday, the car was crowded with people, most of them were students from other places who returned to their hometowns, Sheng Shi looked at the scenery outside the window from one city to another, from another city to another, the scenery outside the window was constantly changing, as if his wavering heart.

He missed Mo Qingyou, maybe he didn't love Le Cuicui at all, and he chose to confess to her, maybe it was just because he wanted to experience love, or because he had a good impression of her. But good feelings are short-lived, only feelings, true love is eternal. But after his affection for Le Cuicui gradually faded, he was able to understand what his feelings were more than ever.

He wanted to see Mo Qingyou, and he decided to tell her that he had loved her for many years.

This time he had to say it, tell her everything, tell her everything before she decided to marry the man, before she got married. Sheng Shi thought that Mo Qingyou would be very surprised, how surprised would she be, she would stutter speechless, looking at him blankly, how could she know that she grew up with him, and she called her "Bamboo Horse", and she liked her silently for so long.

When Sheng Shi returned home, it happened to be the morning of the next day, he walked out of the old train station in Taichuan, and took a taxi back to the house alone, the family was still the same, seeing him come back, his mother and father greeted him happily, and made a table of delicious dishes in order to catch him up.

During dinner, his mother said, "Sheng Shi, have you found a girlfriend in college?"

In the past, Sheng Shi's mother never talked about the love between men and women, and never asked him, but when she came back this time, she suddenly asked this kind of question, which made Sheng Shi feel unexpected.

He said, "Why are you asking this, Mom?" ”

His mother said, "I'm just asking if my son has found a partner, you see that you are almost twenty years old, you can fall in love, is there a good relationship?"

Sheng Shi glanced at his mother and nodded silently.

His mother said, "What kind of girl is it, how does she look, how tall is she, what is the situation at home?"

Sheng Shi said impatiently: "What do you care about so much, we are just in love and not planning to get married or anything, don't worry." ”

His mother saw that he was not happy, and did not speak.

Summer vacation is boring for Sheng Shi, he began to find a job for his future, where to settle down to make plans, in his free time, he bought books to read, he bought a lot of books, piled them on his desk, nothing to look through, what foreign masterpieces, detective novels, ghost stories, all kinds of books he bought and read, after reading, sometimes he also wrote some small things.

spent most of the summer vacation like this, and when school was about to start, Song Jinang made a phone call to him.

Sheng Shi was watching "Hitchcock Suspense Novel Series" at the time, and the mobile phone next to him rang, and he was inevitably a little surprised when he saw that it was Song Jinang calling, and quickly answered the phone excitedly.