"Quietly, quietly, get up quickly, breakfast is ready, the little lazy worm is up and eat quickly. ”

"Yeyang, is that you? You're back?" I looked at the person in front of me who was smiling and signing to me, reaching out to touch his face.

Just as I was about to touch him, someone suddenly grabbed my arm, only to feel that my body was pulled up by this person, and He Yiyang disappeared in an instant.

A headache followed, and I slowly opened my eyes to find that Yingying was pulling me up by the arm, and muttered while dragging me: "Get up quickly, the breakfast I called is cold, hurry up and eat and go to work." ”

I subconsciously looked around and realized that it was just a dream. I can't help but sneer at this time, I really don't want to dream of him.

"Jingjing, are you stupid to drink?, what are you doing so coldly this morning?" Ying Ying tilted her head to look at me worriedly.

I looked up at Yingying's frowning face, and in order to reassure her, I smiled at her again and said, "Yingying, it's early." ”

Ying Ying breathed a sigh of relief, wiped my forehead with her fingers, and said angrily: "What's early, look at what time it is, hurry up to eat, if you don't get up to work, you'll be late." ”

"What time is it?" I shook my heavy head, rubbed my temples, and turned around to find my phone.

"Don't look for it, your phone is outside, it's almost eight o'clock now, hurry up and wash your face and eat." "Yingying and my mother kept urging me.

I had to get up obediently, but I drank a little too much at night, and my head was very heavy, and I almost fell to the ground at once.

I only heard Yingying start chattering again: "You have a headache, you deserve it, tell you to drink again." ”

Yingying is right, I just deserve it, and I deserve to punish myself for other people's mistakes again and again, so I have nothing to refute, so I can only lower my head and hurry to wash and eat.

It is said that mourning is greater than the death of the heart, but if the heart does not die, is it more sad, I even tried to get a clue about He Yiyang from Director Li after work, but unfortunately I still got only disappointment.

My car has not moved since it stopped in front of He Yiyang's car that day, and I still hope that he can take the initiative to contact me every day, and I have not given up going to his house to wait for him after work every night.

As the days passed, I went from going to his house every day until ten o'clock, to only visiting outside the window every day, and finally I didn't have the courage to go downstairs to his house again, just standing at the door of the cultural park and looking at the room that never turned on again.

Half a month has passed, the candlelight in my heart has dimmed little by little, and the tears have disappeared little by little.

The weather is getting warmer day by day, but my heart is getting colder day by day.

It's another sunny weekend, and Yingying called me early in the morning to go to his house to celebrate Lao Qi's birthday in the evening.

In the afternoon, I finally gave up my obsession to block He Yiyang's car, drove my car full of dust and dirt from the cultural park, took it to take a good shower and went directly to Yingying's house.

I was not the only one who came to the birthday party, so alcohol was essential, but Ying Ying warned me in advance that I was not allowed to drink.

I asked her indignantly, "Why? You're so unfair." ”

Ying Ying reluctantly persuaded bitterly: "Miss, I don't let you drink for your own good." You don't even know how crazy you are when you're drunk, and I don't want you to mess around in front of so many people. ”

I'm going crazy when I'm drunk? What did I do that day, what did I do when I got drunk that day, so that Yingying would comment on me like this.

But I don't drink very much, and if it's like what Ying Ying said, I'd really have to not drink it.

Everyone was very happy at this birthday party, and I didn't want to be an alternative, so I tried to fit in as much as possible. At one o'clock in the morning, this birthday party was completely over.

I only drank some fruit beer this night according to Yingying, and Yingying didn't seem to drink much, but Lao Qi was different, and at the end of the day, he drank so much that his face became a monkey's buttocks, and he was drowsy on the sofa.

I can only help Yingying clean up this big pile, and after cleaning up for more than half an hour, I can finally sit on the sofa and rest for a while.

Suddenly, Lao Qi sat up all of a sudden, opened his mouth and asked me: "Xia Jing, where did you say Lao He went?

Originally, I really didn't think about He Yiyang this night, but Lao Qi suddenly mentioned He Yiyang, and I really didn't know how to react for a while.

At this moment, Ying Ying came over and pushed Lao Qi to lie on the sofa again, and said to Lao Qi angrily: "You drink your brain stupidly, right?

"Go abroad. I also thought about whether he would go abroad, so I had already asked my classmates who worked in the immigration center to help me keep an eye on He Yiyang to apply for visas and passports, but I haven't found any of his whereabouts so far. I didn't know what was wrong with me, so I couldn't help but answer Lao Qi's words.

"Jingjing, okay, okay, let's not mention that negative person, it's not too early, I'll clean up the room for you and go to rest early." ”

Ying Ying put her arms around my shoulders and comforted me.

Unexpectedly, Lao Qi suddenly sat up again, squinted his eyes and smiled in a daze, and said, "Tell you quietly, I have already helped Lao He and Xiao Feifei get their US visas and passports." ”

"What did you say?" I immediately looked at Lao Qi in surprise.

Ying Ying on the side also seemed to be very surprised, and hurriedly turned to look at Lao Qi and asked, "When did they complete the formalities, why don't I know?

"I don't know, last time they did say it would take a while, but on the third day they suddenly informed me that it was done. Because it was a busy day, I forgot to tell you about it. Lao Qi still laughed drunkenly.

As soon as Ying Ying heard Lao Qi say this, she pushed him down on the sofa again and said, "Die, you!"

The conversation between Yingying and Lao Qi suddenly made me feel a little confused.

"Yingying, did they plan to go to the United States a long time ago? Why didn't you tell me when you knew about it?"

Yingying seemed to have noticed that something was wrong, and immediately turned around and took my hand and explained, "Jingjing, it's not what you think." Here's the thing, next month there will be an international oil painting competition in Los Angeles, USA, and we are going to let He Yiyang participate, and then He Yiyang asked if he could let Feifei also go to see it for a long time.

We agreed because we didn't care, so we went through the formalities for the father and daughter to go to the United States. That's the way it is, we don't really know about him....... Wait a minute. Ying Ying seemed to suddenly think of something, "Jingjing, you said He Yiyang wouldn't really go to the United States, right? Could it be that he really planned it a long time ago? No?"

After hearing Ying Ying say this, the mood that I had calmed down a little just now surged again. I just felt that my chest was suddenly stuffy and I was about to lose my breath.

"Yingying, you guys should rest early, I'll go back first. With that, I automatically blocked Ying Ying's shouts behind me, staggered and left Ying Ying's house quickly.

The words of Yingying and Lao Qi kept echoing in my ears along the way, and my heart was also shaken so painfully, the street in the early morning was very quiet, and I couldn't even see a few cars, but my hands were shaking so that the steering wheel could not be controlled, and the cars were far away from me while honking to remind me, slowing down and letting and dodging.

In the end, I simply pulled over to the side of the road, leaned on the steering wheel and cried uncontrollably. Crying and crying and crying tired, I fell asleep in the car before I knew it.

So I spent the night on the side of the road, and it wasn't until the next morning that the sanitation workers knocked on the window of the car to wake me up. After a night of calming down, I slowly calmed down, and suddenly I figured out a lot of things.

I remember asking him who he would choose if he were asked to choose before me and his ex-wife and daughter. In fact, his hesitation at that time was already the best answer, but I was too stupid, and I always had illusions in my heart to let myself fall into such passivity today.

If I'm not awake now, I'm really hopeless. He Yiyang has already chosen someone else, even if he comes back, I'm afraid it's just an apology at most, so what am I still looking forward to, am I really still fantasizing that all this is just a misunderstanding?

"Xia Jing, it's time for you to wake up, it's time to let go, even if he can get lost like Zhao Qi, he is not worth your risk again. "I secretly said that I was guiding myself, and I was also admonishing myself.

In the following days, I didn't go to He Yiyang's house again, and I deleted everything about He Yiyang from my phone, and I sealed all the bags and bracelets he gave me and the paintings on the wall into the storage room, just waiting for the right time to donate them all.

After another half a month, I finally came back to life. It's just that God always likes to joke with me, and when I thought I had deleted all of He Yiyang's side from me, one night after eating out and coming back from the bag to open the door, suddenly a key fell out of my bag.

Seeing this key, my heart still skipped a beat, it was the key to He Yiyang's house, and it was put into my hands by He Yiyang himself, now that things are wrong, why do I keep it.

I wanted to throw it away, but I hesitated the moment I raised my hand. suddenly had the idea of going to He Yiyang's house again, so I thought that I would finally and completely break off my relationship.

When I came to the Cultural Park again with the key, I found that my heart was really flat, and I no longer had the same apprehension as before. He Yiyang's car was still parked in its original seat and had not been touched at all, but the soil on the car had covered the body.

Going upstairs and up the stairs again, I used the key to open the door that I had been eager to open so many times, and the room was still so quiet, I naturally raised my hand and pressed the switch to turn on the light, and everything in front of me did not change, it became just a thicker and thicker dust on everything.

I stood in the middle of the living room and took a good look at it again, then put the key in my hand on the tea machine and slowly turned around and walked out the door, finally looked at everything in the room, took a deep breath, and slowly closed the door.

Goodbye to the beauty of the past, goodbye to the desperation of the past, goodbye to He Yiyang.