Chapter 5: I'm Sorry, I Love You
He pursed his dry lips, and his voice was a little hoarse, "Are you kidding? Today is April Fool's Day, isn't it? Chenchen, how can you make such a joke? I'm going to be angry if you make this kind of joke again, don't make this kind of joke again!"
may have been frightened by Gong Qingchen's firm and serious gaze, Ji Yunyang seemed a little unavoidable, and the words he said became incompatible. In the end, he hugged the little woman who seemed to be about to fly away. Teardrops, which never appear easily, flowed in his eyes.
He had a feeling that if he let go of his hand this time, he might never see her again.
The warmth, which seemed to have not been felt for a long time, once again melted the ice wall built in Gong Qingchen's heart.
It seemed that the wasted hands began to return to normal, and they slowly lifted up, trying to hold the fragile man as tightly as a child. However, after shaking a few times, finally reason returned to the cage.
Ruthlessly, Gong Qingchen used all the strength of his body to push the person he wanted to protect the most away from him.
"Don't be like this, let's get together and disperse. Pulling and pulling makes people see the joke. A far-fetched smile tugged at the corner of his mouth, and Gong Qingchen slowed down his speech.
The body was unstable, and Gong Qingchen fell on Gu Ruiwen, who was quick to use her eyes.
"No, I don't agree. I'm not afraid of other people's jokes, I just can't do without you, I won't let go. Ji Yunyang yelled hysterically, completely ignoring the strange eyes of others.
The corners of her mouth bent down uncontrollably, and the mist in her eyes had condensed into small droplets, which seriously affected her eyesight, and she couldn't see the face of the man in front of her clearly.
"You're so naïve! I like mature and steady men. I want to find a man who is introverted and steady, who is very rich, who has a lot of money for me to squander, and who allows me to live the life of a noble lady. Instead of being a crush girl with you. I'd rather cry in a BMW than laugh on a bike, because being with you is a joke!"
Numbly carrying the words that he thought he would never remember, Gong Qingchen's hidden little hand twisted fiercely on his slender waist. pulled Gu Ruiwen on the side and hugged him tightly. Gu Ruiwen lowered his head, his eyes full of tenderness.
The hands held the silk, until the green tendons appeared, I didn't know. Bite your teeth hard without leaving a gap, as if you only need to open a mouth, it will turn into pieces and be blown away by the wind. She didn't even believe that such vitriolic and vicious words could come from her mouth. As long as it can make him die, that's fine.
Gong Qingchen, hold back, you must hold back! Otherwise...... It's going to fall short!
"You tell me that everything you say is false. You tell me that what you say is false, not true. Ji Yunyang looked at her in a panic and gasped for breath, "Early in the morning, do you have anything unspeakable?" can tell me, I will definitely help you, you tell me!"
Ji Yunyang dragged the girl who was in close contact with his friend, grabbed her shoulders with both hands and shook her, her fingers almost sinking into the flesh.
He seemed to feel that the sky was falling......
Hearing that Ji Yunyang still believed in her so much, Gong Qingchen almost burst into tears. Even the pain in her body could not reduce the pain in her heart.
"I've made it clear, let me go. Holding back the tears that shouldn't have been, Gong Qingchen slapped Ji Yunyang's chest desperately, but he still couldn't get back a trace of looseness.
Gong Qingchen suddenly stopped the movements in his hand, with a pitiful voice, "It hurts so much that you caught me, it hurt me to death." After Ji Yunyang heard this, he became a little calmer from the initial madness and loosened his fingers. This action was caught by Gong Qingchen and pushed him away.
With all the willpower in his body, he controlled himself to turn around and ran out. The tears could no longer be controlled and flowed out. After only a few steps, I didn't have the strength to continue, and I could only repeat the mechanical action of lifting and lowering under my feet, walking, walking, walking......
"Don't go, I beg you not to go!" he shouted at her back, his empty eyes reflecting her as she didn't stop.
"If I had money, would you regret it at that time, would you still want me? If I could do everything you say, would you still want me? If I became what you thought I was, would you still want me?" he yelled hysterically.
Gong Qingchen felt that he had used up all the strength, courage, and willpower in his body, and wanted to stop and rest.
The water eyes, which had long been filled with mist, kept spraying a thin spring that never stopped. It drips wet the clothes on his body, and it also drips on the fragile heart.
Obey the voice in your heart, listen to it the most. This is the last time you will see each other in this life. Listen to it one last time, and remember his voice firmly, so that it can be used as a motivation on the road of solitude in the future.
"Gong Qingchen, listen, no matter how many reasons you have. It doesn't matter if it's one or a hundred, even if it's a thousand or ten thousand reasons to reject me, I will try to change, find out a thousand and one, ten thousand and one shortcomings to change, and make myself more perfect. Even if you have other reasons, I will change so that you never have the opportunity to refuse me again. Did you hear it, did you hear it!"
I couldn't suppress the emotion and pain in my heart anymore, I lowered my head, wept bitterly, and kept shaking my shoulders. However, his mouth seemed to be dumb, and he could no longer say anything.
"For your sake, I decided to give up being myself and just be the one you think you are. As long as you are willing to come back to me. "The boy doesn't flick when he has tears, but he hasn't reached the sad place.
"But it's not you. He muttered to himself in a low voice, but said the one that Gong Qingchen really liked in his heart. Unstoppable tears flowed endlessly.
"Today's breakup is just the time you gave me to improve my shortcomings. It's the time you wait for happiness to come. When we meet again, I'll be the person you think I am. Since then, no difficulties have bothered us. Even if love is just a chemical reaction of hormones between a man and a woman, even if its maximum duration can only last 18 months. I will also use all my time to give you gentle and considerate care, and endless surprises of the most romantic surprises, to preserve it, so that you will never lose the feeling of love. Gong Qingchen, believe that we will be together forever!"
Listening to the hoarse shouts, Gong Qingchen didn't know what to do. Like a lifeless puppet, he only knows how to cry loudly, cry out in pain.
Yunyang, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......
"Yunyang...... I'm sorry...... I love you......"
Ji Yunyang whispered to himself: "If I'm sorry and useful, then what is the pain of all these years? I won't forgive you, never!"