Chu Yunji listened to Shen Xiao's words quietly, and couldn't help but think of the countless setbacks and failures he had experienced in his notebook.

He was the same.

At first, they will feel bitter and blamed for not being able to really change the deaths of these children, but slowly they will ...... After a lot of times, it starts to become numb.

The heart still hurts.

It's still sad to think about.

But I have been able to control it, and I have learned to put these pains behind me and stop looking at them.

So he understands, he understands what Shen Xiao said, because he has also experienced it.

"So, don't blame yourself. ”

Shen Xiao said suddenly.

Chu Yunji, who was in deep thought, suddenly raised his head and looked at Shen Xiao in surprise: "...... What do you say?"

"I said, don't blame yourself. Shen Xiao looked at him gently: "Don't be sad because you can't save those children...... You are not the one who killed them, and you are not the one who will keep them alive...... You've done the best you can, and no one can blame you...... Including yourself. ”

Chu Yunji looked at Shen Xiao in a daze.

After a long while, he looked away and reluctantly pulled the corners of his mouth: "What are you talking about...... I've been fine for a long time. I can still think of this little thing. ”

"Don't cry. Shen Xiao said softly.

"Who's crying!"

Chu Yunji stood up abruptly, turned his back violently, and no longer looked at Shen Xiao.

Shen Xiao turned his head sideways, looked at his tall back, and said softly: "You have done a good job, really, it is impossible to do better than you if you change someone......"

Chu Yunji found it difficult to control the expression on his face.

His nose was sore, his eye sockets were hot, and his vision gradually blurred.

It's so embarrassing to cry so easily......

Damn it...... This woman is poisonous!

Chu Yunjian wiped away his tears fiercely, trembled and took a few deep breaths before he slowly spoke: "You don't have to talk nonsense just to comfort me. I know how many pounds and taels I have......"

"When did I talk nonsense? What did I say wrong?"

Looking at Chu Yun's stubborn back, Shen Xiao was surprisingly gentle, but his tone was still calm, he was not provoked at all, and he didn't take the opportunity to scold him.

“…… If it were you, you would have been able to do better than me...... If it were you, you would be able to get them all back...... But because it's me, because it's me, the people who are there are me, so none of them can ......."

Chu Yunji suddenly stopped when he said this.

Immediately after, Shen Xiao heard a choked sobs overflowing from his throat.

The ward was filled with unbearable sadness, which was the weight of many lives on Chu Yunji's body, not only did it not decrease with the passage of time, but it became heavier and heavier because of the increase in the number of crossings.

He had long been overwhelmed by self-blame, guilt, pain, and despair.

But for the sake of those who have not yet been able to be saved, he chooses to carry these things silently and carry them on his back.

Every step of the way, I went deep into the quagmire, and it was difficult to extricate myself.

He has come to this point on his own.

For Shen Xiao, Chu Yunji's perseverance and spiritual strength are simply against the sky.

If anyone else had suffered the same thing as him, he would have been unable to survive for a long time.

They will suffer from seeing the people they have saved still die, they will despair because they have not been able to turn the tide many times, and eventually, they will choose to end their lives because they feel that they are not only small but also powerless in the face of fate.

But after experiencing all this, Chu Yunji still chose to continue to save people.

Shen Xiao almost suspected that the man in front of him might not be an earthling.

He may be an alien.

Otherwise, there is no way to explain why he has such great mental power.

Even Shen Xiao himself didn't dare to say that he could bear the same weight as him.

And after experiencing these things, he was able to cry with such restraint, and this self-control was beyond the reach of others.

Shen Xiao admired Chu Yunzhi from the bottom of her heart: in terms of spiritual power, she really admired it so much.

But admiration is admiration, and what should be enlightened is still enlightened.

Although he is not crazy now, no one can guarantee that if he continues to suppress the pain in his heart like this, it will erupt one day.

At that point, the consequences will be unimaginable.

To regulate people's psychological state, it is necessary to repair the river and dredge and divert the river at ordinary times, otherwise when the flood breaks out, no matter how high the embankment is, it will not be able to stop it, and all the living creatures downstream will have to be served in one pot.

"Yun Ji, you come to me. Shen Xiao called his name gently.

Chu Yunji shook his head: "What are you doing, if you have something to say, just say it." ”

Shen Xiao: "......"

This guy is fighting with her at this time!

"You come over first, I have a question for you......"

"It's not like I can't hear that. ”

Chu Yun refused to go over.

He was crying with tears all over his face now, like a water dog that had been beaten and howled, where did he dare to let Shen Xiao see his face.

"Okay...... Shen Xiao sighed and asked, "When did you start traveling back?"

“…… When I was 17 years old. ”

"I'm the same age as you, do you know that when I was 17 years old, I wasn't what I am now?"

Shen Xiao said calmly.

Chu Yunji's back froze.

"When I was 17 years old, I was sensitive, fragile, suspicious and full of anger, and I couldn't save anyone, because I couldn't save myself. So, Yunji, you've really done a great job. It's not your fault that you didn't get them back, they were already dead, and you didn't kill them, even if you were a real doctor, you couldn't save someone who was already dead, and no one could blame you. ”

"But you're ...... now"

"Yes, I have that now, so I'm in front of you. Yun Ji, you haven't missed any opportunities, our current encounter is the best time, so from this moment on, let's join forces to save the rest of the people, okay?"

Chu Yunji: "......"

What Shen Xiao said had no logic at all.

But she did it on purpose.

In this matter that Chu Yunzhi was entangled, there was no reason to talk about it at all. He knows the logic better than anyone else, but he just can't jump out of that self-blame and guilt. So Shen Xiao wants to replace his self-blame with a new emotion, which is called "hope".

"The Shawshank Redemption" has mentioned that hope is a good thing, maybe the best thing in the world.

Shen Xiao thought so.

Those who have fallen into the abyss do not need others to reason with them more than others.

Instead, he was told: hope is above.

Climb up and you will be saved.

"Yun Zhi, the deceased is gone, let's not disturb them, let them rest in peace. But the rest of the people, with me with you, we will definitely be able to rescue them all, we will definitely be able to. Shen Xiao said softly but firmly.