Chapter 034: I'm Just a Bastard
Entering the ward, the nurse made a silent motion, Qi Wenxuan nodded clearly, and the nurse went out.
Qi Wenxuan looked back at Luo Haochen, he had become much more honest now.
"Xue'er has been asleep for a while, you better be calm and don't do anything excessive, otherwise you will ......"
In the same way, Qi Wenxuan had repeatedly threatened Luo Haochen several times, even if there were all kinds of unhappiness in his heart, Luo Haochen tried his best to hold back his emotions and nodded to signal that he would not act abruptly again.
"Five minutes, only five minutes at most, you have to get out of here. ”
Qi Wenxuan once again issued a warning of unease, and Luo Haochen also agreed one by one, what else can he do if there is a compromise at this time? Five minutes is five minutes, it is much better than not seeing each other.
Qi Wenxuan wanted to say something more, but his mouth moved slightly, but he didn't make a sound. glanced at Yun Mengxue, who had her eyes closed on the hospital bed, and felt that there was no need to say anything, so she waved her hand and turned around and walked out.
Only Luo Haochen and Yun Mengxue, who were asleep, were left in the ward, and the sudden solitude made Luo Haochen feel a little nervous. Now is not the time for him to insist on what to do, but he is afraid that Yun Mengxue will wake up and become emotional again to drive him away.
Walking gently to the side of the bed, Luo Haochen sat on the chair next to the bed, staring at Yun Mengxue. It's good that Yun Mengxue is asleep, at least she can look at her like this, this is a much calmer face than the last meeting full of resentment.
"Cher's ......"
Luo Haochen slowly stretched out a hand, wanting to stroke Yun Mengxue's hair and touch her slightly pale face.
But when his hand was about to touch Yun Mengxue, Luo Haochen stopped his movements again.
Although he has always been very impatient and wants to find Yun Mengxue again, when he really faces such a Yun Mengxue, he is really flustered and scared in his heart, and Luo Haochen has no chance of winning at all.
He sighed softly and slowly withdrew his hand.
"I had a lot of things I wanted to say to you, but I just ...... I really don't know where to start. It's all my fault in the past, and losing our children hurts you. Cher, I know you won't forgive me, I just want to ...... I just want to fight you again ......"
Luo Haochen didn't have that self-confidence.
When all the realistic things were in front of him, Luo Haochen felt that even though he could call for wind and rain and act domineeringly, Yun Mengxue now no longer had the arrogant capital of the past.
Recalling Yun Mengxue's bitter pleading and her current situation, Luo Haochen wanted to scream and beat himself, he didn't want Qi Wenxuan's fist to greet him, because he admitted that everything was the punishment he deserved.
If accepting the punishment can restore Yun Mengxue's body, then Luo Haochen is willing to exchange this life for it.
"There are good and bad memories, and some memories make people dare not go far to recall, but we still can't do without memories. It is precisely because of the memories that I remember that there was such a person......
Luo Haochen's face was full of pain, and his guilty heart was eating him, so depressed that he couldn't breathe.
"Cher, you've always been ...... Silently loving me, and I actually ...... What a bastard I'm in!"
The clenched fist slammed on his head, Luo Haochen's emotions were choking, and a tear quietly slipped down his face.
How can the word "bastard" alone fully represent his excessive actions in the past, and how can he make up for the injuries suffered by Yun Mengxue.
In the past two years, Luo Haochen has been carrying deep self-blame and guilt, and has tirelessly sketched Yun Mengxue's curves over and over again in his heart, outlining her figure and appearance bit by bit.
But whenever he opened his eyes, Luo Haochen would sadly find that it was just his abnormal dream, and he really regretted why he didn't go to learn painting with Luo Haoning?
If that's the case, at least you can paint a picture to see things and people, but it is very sad that Luo Haochen was born without that artistic cell, and all he has is the brain of a company manager.
Draw?
Luo Haochen's eyes lit up, those two sketches that Luo Haoning drew at Yun Mengxue's request were still with him, did he want to show Yun Mengxue?
Self-deprecating and wryly laughing, Luo Haochen is not sure, he can't be sure of anything now, but this can be tried at all.
……
Five minutes is a short time, and for Luo Haochen, who has been thinking about Yun Mengxue and seeing him again, it is simply a blink of an eye.
However, he did not violate Qi Wenxuan's rules, and after five minutes, he left the ward with all kinds of nostalgia in his eyes, gently closed the door, and glanced deeply through the door and window.
"Go back. ”
Qi Wenxuan's voice interrupted Luo Haochen's thoughts, he slowly turned to look at Qi Wenxuan, his face was not good-looking.
"When will Cher be discharged from the hospital?"
"What are you going to do?"
Qi Wenxuan frowned, staring at Luo Haochen with a dark face.
"You should know what I'm going to do, don't you?"
Luo Haochen's words made Qi Wenxuan's fists clench hard, although he knew Luo Haochen's thoughts, he didn't want to admit it directly.
"Luo Haochen, you've gone too far, don't play with Xue'er anymore, okay? You'd better stay away from her, don't get close to Xue'er again, and don't want to get her heart again, because you're not worthy!
Luo Haochen nodded slightly.
"Well, I know, I know that. I really don't deserve it, and I'm not qualified to fight for Cher back. But Qi Wenxuan, you also have to know one thing, even if we can't be possible anymore, Xue'er will not choose you who she has always regarded as her brother. ”
"Luo Haochen! you ......"
This kind of words greatly stimulated Qi Wenxuan, it was a hidden pain in his heart, and even if he knew it, he didn't want to admit it.
"No matter what, I will do my best to get Cher back, because ......"
Luo Haochen frowned, he didn't say anything more, but turned around and walked in the direction of the elevator. The elevator door slowly closed, and Luo Haochen leaned against the wall with his forehead in pain.
"We are still husband and wife, Cher, no matter how much you don't admit it, I don't want to accept it, we are still a legal husband and wife. According to the law, if a husband and wife have been separated for more than two years due to emotional discord, they shall be divorced after mediation without effect. But ......"
Luo Haochen slowly put down his hand, looked at his colorful face from the mirror in the elevator wall, shook his head and sighed heavily.
"If you really don't want to accept me anymore, why didn't you file for divorce......? Can you think so? In fact, you have never completely forgotten me?"
Luo Haochen knew that this was the most perfect explanation he had found for himself to soothe his heart, no matter whether Yun Mengxue forgot or really thought like that, as long as he could have a subtle mouth, he would definitely do everything he could to strive for a breakthrough.
"Even if I don't, I'll drill a hole! Cher, I won't let go! I won't let you go again!"
……
Luo Haochen...... Luo Haochen......"
Yun Mengxue, who was asleep, kept chanting Luo Haochen's name, and Qi Wenxuan, who was sitting next to her bed, listened to it very clearly.
In the final analysis, Yun Mengxue's love-hate entanglement with Luo Haochen has always been "love" for the majority, if there is not such deep love, how can there be such a big resentment?
"Xue'er, at least I can ensure that Luo Haochen's mind has not changed, so that I can rest assured...... I'll give you to him again......"
How painful it was to say this, only Qi Wenxuan himself knew, those angry and tentative words, he said them on purpose.
"Luo Haochen!"
Yun Mengxue woke up from her dream suddenly, she sat up suddenly, her head was covered in cold sweat, her hair was wet with sweat and stuck to her forehead, and her breathing became very short.
"Cher, did you have a nightmare?"
Qi Wenxuan hurriedly picked up the soft towel on the table and wiped the sweat from his forehead for Yun Mengxue, who was wheezing.
"Brother Xuan, I'...... I'm fine. ”
Qi Wenxuan put down the towel and looked at Yun Mengxue with a concerned expression, he knew that it was not a nightmare, but because he saw Luo Haochen who could not be forgotten in the dream, his heart became like this.
Or maybe it was because Yun Mengxue sensed that Luo Haochen was here, right? This is Qi Wenxuan's inner guess.
Yun Mengxue frowned slightly, slowly raised her right hand and put it in front of her eyes, and a drop of undried water on the back of her hand made her heart flutter fiercely.
"It's ......"
The words that she wanted to say were swallowed back, and Yun Mengxue shook her head gently.
It's just that I saw Luo Haochen in a dream, so why should I care so much about a drop of water in my hand.
"Brother Xuan, why is the light so dim, and when can I be discharged from the hospital?"
Qi Wenxuan was a little evasive to being directly seen by Yun Mengxue, he deliberately dimmed the lights.
"I still have a meeting during the day tomorrow, and I don't have time to go through the discharge procedures, so Xue'er will be wronged for another day, okay? I will definitely take you out of here early in the morning after tomorrow."
Later, the color on his face was basically gone, Qi Wenxuan thought so.
Yun Mengxue nodded, she didn't embarrass Qi Wenxuan too much, but if she waited one more day, she could bear it.
……
Walking in the downtown area at night, the lights and the bustling crowd reminded Luo Haochen that it was almost the Spring Festival.
"No wonder there are so many people, it's natural to have the Spring Festival...... It couldn't be more normal......"
Muttering to himself, Luo Haochen showed a sad smile, those excitement had nothing to do with him, and he was not even a cold-eyed spectator, because seeing it would pierce the pain in his heart.
There is a touching love song playing in the stereo of the commercial street, which is "What's wrong with us" in Fandy Su's "Actually Very Lonely" album, the catchy lyrics and melody brought Luo Haochen a more heart-wrenching feeling.
"Is love too heavy, or is it difficult to control yourself? When I close my eyes, my heart is still aching. Can anyone tell me what's wrong with us? Love, cry, cry, love. Is it until you are cruel and painful that you say that the hurt is an impulse?"
"Give everything, no one can hide from the tricks, is the mentality is difficult to understand, love is too easy to prostration? Can anyone tell me what's wrong with us? crying in pain, crying in pain. Is it until it is out of control and heartbroken, that they will embrace the long-lost tenderness? Tears are flickering, hands are a little trembling, love can't withstand torture. ”
This song expresses the creator's deepest voice very well, whether it is his love life, career and expectations, reality and dreams, they are all presented calmly.
However, every word in the song seems to be sung for Luo Haochen, a song and a heart, and at this moment, it completely releases those throbbing and feelings buried deep in my heart.
Say that if love is gone, let go and let the other party be free, in fact, in the final analysis, everyone has no way to escape, and they can't let go easily.
This feeling is very familiar to Luo Haochen, he used to be so entangled in the past with Chu Mengyao's childhood sweetheart, knowing that Chu Mengyao only loves Luo Haoning in his heart, and he can't look at it so persistently.