Thinking of the way she spent money in the store that time, I also echoed, "Yes, I haven't seen the real Bai Fumei, but for a small citizen like me who is struggling at the bottom of the society, she is my Bai Fumei." ”

"Wow, I'm going to take a look at it even more. Li Sisi's eyes lit up, and then he looked at me with sympathy, "Now I know, you are not jealous at noon, but jealous, you are inferior in front of Bai Fumei!"

I am indeed inferior, no matter my appearance, family background, or work, or education, I am not as good as Song Qingya, can I still be arrogant if I am not inferior?

I'm not a narcissist!

"Actually, she's not Bai Fumei, right?" Lu Zhenting pinched his chin and said, "But then again, I really don't know what Bai Fumei's standard is." ”

Li Sisi made a long speech as soon as he pulled his sleeves when he heard this, "Netizens think that in China's first-tier cities, if a woman's monthly income reaches more than 20,000 yuan, she can meet the standard of Bai Fumei with good looks, good temperament, good figure, and good skin, has the person you said have reached it?"

"Except for the monthly income, I don't know, everything else should have been reached. "I really still have low self-esteem, I haven't met any conditions, I just look forward to being promoted to manager, and I barely crossed the threshold of monthly income.

"Are we off topic? Why are we discussing others if we have nothing to do?" Lu Zhenting suddenly came back to his senses, "What, Meng Lu, how is the matter between you and your husband now, do you really want to leave?"

It turns out that in their eyes, the so-called main topic is my divorce, and they really care about me.

"This marriage is inseparable, and heaven is intolerable!" Before I could speak, Li Sisi had already grabbed the words, "You don't know, how cheap those dog men and women are, I feel disgusting when I think about it." ”

Li Sisi has always liked to exaggerate when he speaks, and Lu Zhenting must have known it after being with her for so long, so he didn't answer, but just looked at me inquiringly.

"Divorce is inevitable, I can't go on with him, instead of looking at each other every day, it's better to end this relationship as soon as possible and start a new life for each other. I said lightly.

Now when I talk about Zhou Mingchuan, I don't have any emotions at all, it's like talking about a stranger who has nothing to do with me, and even the once unforgettable hatred has faded.

It's just that dilution doesn't mean no, I still hate him!

As the saying goes, love is deep, hate is deep, I don't hate him so much, maybe it's because my love for him has long been struck by his hurt and no longer exists.

"Then I wish you a better and better new life. Lu Zhenting raised his goblet and smiled at me.

The staple food came up after a short time, obviously Lu Zhenting was cutting steak for Li Sisi on the side, but she still pestered me, really, I don't want to put a ready-made boyfriend teacher, I want to revolve around me.

Later, I asked her while I was in the bathroom, but she was very embarrassed and said: "I'm afraid that he thinks I'm stupid, it's okay to be embarrassed in front of you, anyway, when I first joined the company, I was not less laughed at by you, but he is different, so I don't want to be looked down upon by him." ”

"You care so much about him, do you know it?" I washed my hands and looked at myself in the mirror, and in the blink of an eye, I was about to run for three, and my youth had abandoned me.

Li Sisi was stunned for a moment when he heard this, and it took a while to react, and he stretched out his hand to greet me, pretending to be angry and said, "Why are you even laughing at me? ”

"Okay, okay, I'm just reminding you that it's easy to find a man, it's not easy to keep a man, love and cherish it, and take advantage of your happiness. I dried my hand and pulled her out of the bathroom.

When he returned to his seat, Lu Zhenting was talking on the phone in a low voice, and he hung up immediately when he saw us coming.

Seeing this, Li Sisi became suspicious, and no matter what the occasion was, he immediately looked at him with apricot eyes, "Who are you talking to on the phone, and you want to avoid me, is there a ghost in your heart?"

Lu Zhenting has a very good temper, even I think Li Sisi is making trouble unreasonably, but he still explains with a smile, "I don't have a ghost in my heart, only you! The red flag at home does not fall, and no matter how many colored flags there are, it is someone else's, I will only take a look at it at most, and I will never enjoy any glamorous blessings, so you can put ten thousand hearts." ”

My heart was shocked, when he fell in love with Zhou Mingchuan, he also swore that he said similar things, and even promised me that he would never fail me in this life when he got married at the Civil Affairs Bureau, but what was the result?

Li Sisi pulled Lu Zhenting's ears in front of everyone, looked like a standard woman, and asked him in the tone of interrogating a prisoner, "Since there is no ghost in your heart, then you recruited from the truth, who did you call just now?"

"Yebai, you all know each other. Lu Zhenting was not only interrogated by her, but also answered honestly, it seems that he was subdued by Li Sisi.

Li Sisi didn't give up, "Nonsense, you spend at least half of the day together, and now it's only been a few minutes since you left the company, you have to call if you have anything important, and you have to go to the company tomorrow to say no? Even if you want to find a reason, you have to find someone who can deceive me." ”

"I have nothing to do to lie to you, it's really Yebai. Lu Zhenting was afraid that Li Sisi would misunderstand him, so he continued to explain, "He is sick and hospitalized, I haven't seen him for several days, and he happened to have a customer with him recently, and he placed an order today, isn't this a notification to contact the factory to stock up?"

Li Sisi looked at me suspiciously, "Is what he said true? You should know Jin Yebai's situation very well, right?"

I nodded, "He didn't lie to you, you don't have to doubt randomly, no one wants their lover to doubt themselves casually, trust is the most solid foundation of love." ”

Only then did Li Sisi let go of his hand, took away the suspicion in his eyes and the anger on his face, and apologized to Lu Zhenting with a dog-legged appearance, "Dear, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I shouldn't doubt you, if you forgive me, I promise that I will never doubt you casually in the future." ”

Lu Zhenting smiled dotingly, "How can I be angry? You suspect that I also care about me, this is a sign of love." ”

Li Sisi chirped and put a saliva mark on Lu Zhenting's face, "I knew you were the best." Then he looked at me, "What, Lulu, should we go to the hospital to see Jin Yebai after eating, we are also friends, of course, I am definitely not counting it now." ”

"Count, why don't you count, when you marry me, he will have to call you sister-in-law. Lu Zhenting hurriedly answered.

Li Sisi was directly stunned, "You...... What are you talking about? Who said I was going to marry you? You're still under observation, and you don't even have a boyfriend if you don't behave well, huh!"

"I know I know, after the observation period, I will directly sentence a wife to prison. Lu Zhenting was hinting at Li Sisi openly and secretly that he wanted to marry her.

"I'll talk about this later, let's eat first, and let's go see Jin Yebai after eating. Liss avoided the topic, sat back in his chair and began to cut the steak peacefully.

I sat on the side and watched them laughing, I couldn't help but be a little envious, once upon a time I was so happy with Zhou Mingchuan, but unfortunately the past has long become a dry memory, and I can't get it back.

After eating, Lu Zhenting drove us to the hospital, and while he went to the parking lot, I went with Li Sisi to buy fruits and flowers, and when he came, we went to the inpatient department together.

I've always disliked hospitals, because I hated the smell of disinfectant in the air, because there were too many places like this, and because I was timid and afraid of dead bodies, especially in morgues.

followed Lu Zhenting to Jin Yebai's ward, and before he even entered, he heard Song Qingya's voice, "What do you want to do, when have you not been able to put down your work, do you still want to bring money into the coffin?"

"I'm fine, you want me to lie here like a piece of waste. Jin Yebai replied dissatisfiedly, "I'm very cooperative with you, can't you cooperate with me a little?"

Lu Zhenting was about to push the door in, Jin Yebai's voice rang out again, "The market has been sluggish recently, Zhenting has been worried that the company will not be able to operate, this time I finally received a big order, how can I miss it because of me?"

Hearing this, Li Sisi looked at Lu Zhenting, his eyes were full of doubts, and he asked in a low voice, "There is a problem with your company's operation?"

Lu Zhenting nodded, "Last time, there was a problem with the quality of the batch and it was returned, the loss was very large, the capital turnover was not effective, Yebai has been busy recently, and this sudden illness is estimated to be exhausted by this matter." ”

I have known Jin Yebai for more than ten years, and I have never cared about anything except urging him to find a girlfriend, and this time such a big thing happened in his company, I have never even heard of a word.

How can a selfish person like me claim to be his friend?

"Okay, the company is important, the friends are important, it doesn't matter to you, I am kind enough to treat it as a donkey's liver and lungs, don't rely on me if you die!" Song Qingya was so angry by Jin Yebai that the footsteps were gradually approaching this side.

Originally, we had no intention of eavesdropping on their conversation, but in order to avoid being bumped into by Song Qingya, Lu Zhenting hurriedly pulled Li Sisi away.

I followed and left quickly, and after walking a few steps, I turned around, pretending to have just come in from outside, just in time to see Song Qingya open the door and come out.

She was wearing a white coat and a work card on her chest, and her face was not good, but when she saw me, her expression was even worse, and she asked me coldly, "Are you here to see my husband?"

"It's not just her, it's us. Li Sisi pulled Lu Zhenting to walk to me, staring at Song Qingya with two eyes, "You are Jin Yebai's girlfriend?"

"Yes, he's in there, go see him, but don't stay too long, he needs to rest. Song Qingya glanced at me coldly and walked forward, her posture a little arrogant.

When she passed by Lu Zhenting, she suddenly paused again, "Please help me persuade him, don't think about the company in your head, and occasionally think about himself and his family." ”

Lu Zhenting's face was filled with guilt when he heard the conversation inside, and when he heard Song Qingya say this at this time, his apology became even stronger, and he quickly nodded in response, "Okay, I'll persuade him later." ”

Song Qingya didn't speak again, just looked at me again inexplicably, and then left without looking back, leaving us with a lonely and arrogant back.

"Sure enough, it's Bai Fumei!" I was worried about Jin Yebai, but Li Sisi was still thinking about Song Qingya, "I just looked at her work card, she is the attending physician of neurosurgery, and she is definitely good at this point of income, not to mention her appearance, temperament and figure." ”

I knew that Song Qingya was a doctor and a master's degree in medicine after returning from studying abroad, but what I didn't expect was that she would work in the largest and best hospital in the city.

Li Sisi pulled Lu Zhenting and looked at me sympathetically as he walked, "Lulu, you have been blown up, she is the lady of the main room when she stands next to Jin Yebai, what about you, at best, you are just a maid who serves you closely." ”

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Lu Zhenting gently tugged at Li Sisi, "It's not too early, let's hurry in." As he spoke, he walked to the door, knocked on the door, and dragged Liss inside.

I followed behind them, and as soon as I entered, I saw Jin Yebai sitting on the bed, with a pillow behind him, and a notebook on his lap, crackling with his head down.

"Yebai, why don't you have a good rest when you're sick, hurry up and put away the computer!" Lu Zhenting shouted and put the fruit on the bedside table.

"Zhenting, you're here. Jin Yebai raised his head, his complexion was not too good, but at least he was more energetic than yesterday.

When I saw that there was no vase in the ward, I put the flower I had been holding in my hand on his computer, deliberately not allowing him to continue working, "Let's rest for a while, work every day." ”

"Lulu, you're here too. He smiled reluctantly, "Aren't I idle, and it's too boring to stay here and do nothing." He closed his notebook and set the flowers aside.

There was no one in the hospital bed next door, so Lu Zhenting pulled Li Sisi to sit down, and began to persuade Jin Yebai not to work for the time being, and everything would be said when he was sick.

I took the apple I had just bought, and without saying a word, I took out the fruit knife I bought by the way and began to peel the apple, which he had done for me many times, but I had never done it for him.

"How much capital turnover do you need?" I will give people work, but let me take care of a company by myself, I must not know anything, I heard Lu Zhenting talk about the poor capital turnover, so I asked casually.

"Naturally, the more the better. Lu Zhenting looked at me with a smile on his face, "What, you want to help us?" By the way, I remember, it seems that your family also has a running company. ”

In fact, I really just asked casually, but I didn't expect Lu Zhenting to be so excited, seeing me was like seeing a savior, which made me a little embarrassed.

In the past, maybe I could have borrowed some money from my dad, but now I not only have a problem with them, but I also heard that his company has a problem, and I really can't do it.

Fortunately, Jin Yebai knew that I was now related to my family, so he hurriedly gave me a round, "You think too much, how can she have so much money? Don't worry about the funds, I'll contact another bank tomorrow to try." ”

"You?" Lu Zhenting's eyes widened, "I just asked you to give me a good recuperation, and you forgot about it so quickly? The company is not about to go out of business, and the bank is not going to close tomorrow, why are you in a hurry?

"Yes, yes, you should take yourself on a vacation, and your girlfriend is in this hospital, so it's good to spend more time with her. Li Sisi and Lu Zhentingfu sang with their wives.

I was also very distressed to see Jin Yebai working so hard, and handed him the peeled apple, "The body is the capital of the revolution, if you want to run the company well, you must first take care of your body." ”

He was a little flattered when he took the apple, and jokingly said, "I didn't expect you to peel apples, I always thought you would only eat apples." ”

I smiled reluctantly, "Not only do I eat apples, but I also eat, and when I have time to come to my house for dinner one day, I will cook you a few good dishes." ”

"Okay, okay, I want to eat spicy chicken, chopped pepper fish head, sweet and sour pork ribs, Dongpo elbow ......" Li Sisi was excited and began to order, just open his mouth and come, not caring about whether I made it or not.

When she ordered a large list of dishes that I had heard and forgotten, Jin Yebai said lightly: "Originally, I wanted to wait for you to finish the lawsuit, and everyone went out to have a meal together to celebrate, since you are so good at cooking, let's go to your house." ”

"Okay, as long as it's not unpalatable at that time, the intestines of regret are all green. I smiled.

It was an agreement between us, but at this time I had no idea what would happen when that day came, and it would change my fate after that.

Song Qingya came after staying in the ward for almost an hour, she had told us not to stay too long, and when she came, she naturally thought that she was urging us to leave, so she got up and said goodbye very interestingly.

Lu Zhenting drove me back to the apartment, and then drove Li Sisi away, and I climbed up to the fifth floor alone, back to the empty room without a trace of popularity.

Since I graduated, I have never lived alone except for Zhou Mingchuan on a business trip or going back to my hometown alone, and two people in my family will not seem too lonely.

But now and even in the future, I have to stay alone in the empty room, enjoying the so-called loneliness, emptiness and coldness, but at this moment, what I think of is no longer Zhou Mingchuan, but Jin Yebai.

I may be really a girl, I finally ate something good tonight, my stomach has been uncomfortable, and I just sat in the car for so long, and soon after I got home, I was holding the toilet and vomiting over the river.

If it was in the past, at least one Zhou Mingchuan came over at this time to ask me what was wrong, and then poured me a glass of water, but now no one cares, and the water has to be poured by himself.

In ancient times, women were not allowed to go out and show their faces, so they had to find a man to support themselves, but now that men and women are equal, women can support themselves, so why do women still have to find men to marry?

I think it may be because both men and women are just ordinary people, and eating whole grains will inevitably cause illness, and they will also be empty and lonely, and they need the care and companionship of another person at this time.

But I don't want to love anyone again in my life!