"Xiaobai, I love you, is it okay to be with me? I don't want to be alone anymore. My hands tightened around his waist, and it felt like he was even a lot thinner.

Song Qingya is already with Ling Xi, I am no longer a third party, I can announce to the people of the world in a bright and open way-

I love Jin Yebai and I want to be with him!

Although I have been waiting for this day for less than a year, the waiting at that time was hopeless, the kind of waiting with no end and hope in sight, every second is a heartache, and every tear is condensed with despair.

If I hadn't been in the restaurant just now, in full view of everyone, I would have confessed to him at the time, but unfortunately I still have a reserve, so I brought him here, and I didn't say what I thought until this time.

This is not the first time I have said that I love him, the night he was pushed by me and crashed, I hugged him and said love, at that time he did not give me any response, and now, he is still silent.

"Didn't you also say that you loved me? Why don't you still have this attitude towards me now without Song Qingya, did you just lie to me about that confession?" I felt that I was tricked by him, and the rest was full of grievances in addition to the embarrassment of being amorous.

If he hadn't confessed to me, if he hadn't been too good to me, I wouldn't have said love to him so easily, and took the initiative to be together, as an ugly duckling, I was too inferior, afraid of being rejected by him, and no matter how much I loved him, I wouldn't have the courage to speak.

I opened my eyes suddenly, quickly withdrew my hands, and took a few steps back, until my back reached the door, and I couldn't retreat before I stopped, and the tears of grievance were about to fall.

Shu Menglu, why are you so cheap?

You are no longer a girl in the rainy season, you are all running for three, or a married woman, do you know what self-esteem is?

I scolded myself fiercely in my heart, ashamed of my abruptness, in my limited life, the confession just now is undoubtedly the most humiliating, because of inferiority, so I am sensitive and concerned!

Jin Yebai turned around and looked at me fixedly, his face was heavy, and he asked extremely seriously, "If I told you that you would regret loving me, would you still be so unhesitating?"

I looked at him firmly and replied very seriously, "Love, maybe you will regret it, but not love, it is a lifetime regret, so I would rather regret it in the future than leave regrets!"

"I'd rather regret than regret. Jin Yebai read it dreamily, his eyes became hot, he came over and took me into his arms, and muttered, "You are even more moving to me than Yang Buregret." ”

Yang Buregret is a character in Mr. Jin Yong's "Heaven and Dragon Slayer", although I haven't read the original book, but I have also glanced at TV a few times, and I am not unfamiliar with this character.

I used to envy the love between her mother Ji Xiaofu and Yang Xiao, and admired the name she chose, but I never expected that Jin Yebai would say such a sentence to me.

"Did you promise to stay with me?" I asked cautiously.

He nodded solemnly, "If you have no regrets, I have no regrets." Then he lowered his head and kissed my eyes, which were already full of tears, as if to kiss away my tears.

"Xiaobai, I love you......" I reached out and wrapped my arms around his neck and took the initiative to kiss his lips, and the smell of red wine seeped into my mouth.

With one heart and thousands of years of infatuation, keep the clouds open and see the moon.

From this moment on, I officially confirmed my relationship with Jin Yebai, and I became his rightful girlfriend, and I never had to worry about someone pointing at my nose and scolding me for being a shameless third party in the future.

I thought he would stay with me for the night, but he kissed me and sat down for a while before leaving, and I couldn't help but be a little disappointed, was I too anxious and asked too much?

There are still a lot of questions in my heart that he has not answered, facing him, I feel like watching a suspense movie, he is in a lot of fog, I try to clear the clouds, but in the end I get lost in it.

After he left, I went to take a shower, and while washing, I secretly thought to myself, is it because Jin Yebai didn't stay because there were no clothes for him here, and it was inconvenient for him to take a bath?

Thinking like this, I planned to go to the mall after work tomorrow to buy some men's necessities, and replace all the toiletries with a double daze, just like when I lived with Zhou Mingchuan before, so that it would be convenient whenever he came.

The next day at work, I was in a better mood than ever, grinning when I saw everyone, I had no heart and no lungs like a second fool, and Lu Zhenting was stunned for a moment.

He asked me, "Meng Lu, what did Yebai give you to eat last night? ”

I happily perfunctory with him, "It's nothing, I'm happy that he's back, what, aren't you happy? No, you're not only good friends, but also partners." ”

I don't want others to know that I'm with Jin Yebai for the time being, otherwise I will feel like I'm showing off, especially in front of Lu Zhenting, who can't be loved.

He and Li Sisi have been separated for more than eight months, and although he doesn't react much when he occasionally mentions her now, I can still see the sadness of loneliness in his eyes, so I don't want to irritate him with my affair with Jin Yebai.

"You're so happy when he comes back, I think you're a little impure, right?" Lu Zhenting smiled, "I heard that he didn't marry Song Qingya, so ...... between you" He glanced at me teasingly, and his words stopped abruptly.

Everyone understands people, and some things don't need to be said too clearly, just know it, but it's embarrassing to say it.

I laughed dryly, "It's okay for you to ask him yourself, and I'm not a reporter who provides you with gossip." Then he lowered his head and pretended to be very serious, and stopped paying attention to him.

As soon as I got off work in the afternoon, I rushed out alone, rushing to the mall to buy groceries, and as soon as I stepped out of the elevator, I saw a familiar figure sitting on the sofa in the lobby.

Jin Yebai is coming!

Did he come to pick me up on purpose?

I walked quickly towards him, and he got up to meet him.

He took my hand, led me out, and asked in a low voice, "Is it okay to cook for me at night?"

"Of course you can, but I'd like to go shopping first, let's go to the supermarket. My fingers moved slightly, interlocking with his.

In my opinion, the most beautiful appearance of love is the pair of fingers interlocking, and the best ending of marriage is that you can see his sleeping face as soon as you open your eyes every morning.

I hope that in the days to come, I can wash and cook for him every day, sleep with him at night, and then wake him up with a kiss in the morning, this is the happiness I want.

"Okay, where are you going to buy it? I'll send you there. He had a warm smile on his face, and a slight tug of the corner of his mouth made me smile.

He drove me to a nearby shopping mall, which was overcrowded, and I pushed the shopping cart and went straight to the grocery department, where I was going to buy him a full set of supplies according to yesterday's idea.

"What are you buying these for?" he looked at me with a slight surprise.

"I bought it for you, and it will be convenient for you to go to my side in the future. "I didn't think he'd live with me yet, so it's best to come and spend time with me.

"No need. He took out a bunch of keys from his pocket, "This is the key to my house, you will live with me in the future, I will send you to work in the morning and pick you up in the afternoon." ”

I've never been to where he lives, and since he said he's going to pick him up, it's probably farther away than where I live now, but that's not the point, the point is, does he want me to live with him?

"What's wrong? don't you want to?" his hand froze in the void, his face a little embarrassed, "I'm sorry, I'm too abrupt, I should have asked for your opinion first." ”

He withdrew his hand in a daze, but I had just recovered from the surprise, grabbed his hand that was being recovered, took the key from his palm, and hugged him directly.

This fool, I love him so much, how could I not want to?

I was so happy that I was about to scream, I couldn't even speak with him in my arms, the feeling of happiness surrounded me, and I wanted to stop at this moment and make this moment eternal.

It is said that it is easy to fall in love and difficult to get along, love is to be together, like Lu Zhenting and Li Sisi, they love each other but they are on their own side, each has their own world, how deep can the love be?

"Xiaobai, let's not be separated in the future, okay?" I didn't care about the eyes of other people around me, the little bird leaned on Jin Yebai's arms, although it seemed hypocritical, but I was happy.

"The future has not yet come, since we live in the present, it is better to cherish the present. Jin Yebai reached out and rubbed my head, without giving me any promises.

But I don't care, promise this kind of thing, if you can do it, you can do it without saying it, if you can't do it, then it's just a lie to say it, just like Zhou Mingchuan.

He had everything ready for me before he came to pick me up from work, and all I had to do was go back and pack up my clothes, so I had to take out what I had just thrown into my cart and put it back on the shelf.

Alas, if he had taken out the keys earlier, I wouldn't have had to rush to buy them.

Now that everything is bought, I don't have to stay in the mall anymore, so I pull him out and ask him to take me back to the apartment to pack my things, I have to move in with him tonight, and I want to cherish every second I am with him.

He drove me back to the apartment, helped me pack my things, carried the suitcase downstairs and stuffed it into the trunk, I thought I would have to cook for him in the evening, so I went to buy some food, and then went to his apartment.

The house is a two-bedroom apartment, very simple decoration, I carried the dishes to the kitchen, looked at the pots and pans, oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, and asked him, "You are also cooking?"

He leaned against the kitchen door frame and looked at me without speaking, just nodding.

I asked, "Did you do it or did you do it?"

In fact, I don't even know if he can cook, I haven't lived together, and I've never been to his house, so I definitely can't be as familiar with Li Muchi as I was at the beginning.

He chuckled, "She can only eat, her limbs are not diligent, and she does not divide the grains, I want to count on her to cook for me, I am afraid that I will starve to death by this time." ”

I smiled while washing the vegetables, "From then on, I will make it for you every day, to ensure that you will not starve to death, for fear that you will get tired of eating the same taste every day." ”

He suddenly walked over, wrapped his hands around my waist, hugged me from behind, rested his chin on the top of my head, and said softly, "Then I'd rather die of exhaustion." ”

"Go, go, what is not dead is not auspicious at all. "I couldn't help but think of Zhou Mingchuan, who had hugged me so intimately before, and was still in the kitchen.

Memories are good and bad, about his memories, no matter how beautiful they are, they all carry deep pain, and now thinking of him undoubtedly affects my good mood very much, so I won't say anything more.

Jin Yebai quickly let me go, but there was a slight sour taste in his words as soon as he spoke, "You should be busy here alone, you don't need me to help you like Li Muchi, right?"

I turned around and looked at him with a grin, and sure enough, he even had a look of jealousy in his eyes, and although it wasn't obvious, I could still tell it at a glance.

"Are you jealous?" I stood on tiptoe and pecked him in the face, "I haven't had anything to do with him, what kind of vinegar do you eat, and you were the one who tried to get me to be with him in the first place." ”

Regardless of men or women, they will only be jealous if they care, and when I saw Jin Yebai kissing Song Qingya in the hospital before, the sour water in my heart reached my throat.

He lowered his head and tapped lightly on my lips, avoiding the topic, "I'll go and put your clothes in the bedroom closet first, you don't need to make too many dishes, just fry two at random." ”

"Good. I watched him turn away and laugh happily, this kind of life actually made me feel like I was in a dream, so unreal, is it because it is too beautiful?

I only fried two dishes, one meat and one vegetable, and he was in charge of cooking, and after the food was served, we started the first night in this dinner world.

When he ate, he ate very little, and I was afraid that my own craftsmanship was not up to par, or that the taste was not right with him, so I took the opportunity to ask him, "What kind of food do you like to eat?" What kind of flavor do you want, light, spicy or sweet and sour?"

"Just like you, it's okay to be lighter. He sandwiched a chopstick dish for me, "You eat more, I haven't seen you for a few months, you have lost weight to Zhao Feiyan, what, you want to dance in my palm?"

"You're no better than me. I also served him vegetables, and said aggrievedly, "Where have you been in the past few months, you are so ruthless, you haven't even sent me a message, I thought I had forgotten me." ”

"Silly girl, even if I forget who I am, I will never forget you. His expression was solemn, and the tenderness in his eyes was removed, "Meng Lu, are you really sure you want to be with me like this?"

"Why, you regret it so quickly?" I looked at him in amazement, and my heart sank.

It's only been a day to confirm the relationship, what does he mean by this?

I am indeed married, and I am still married to a scumbag, I am not as good as Meng Shuwei in terms of appearance, and I am not as good as Song Qingya in terms of temperament, but now I want to be good to him with my heart and lungs, and he can't play tricks on me.

"No, you're thinking too much, I'm just afraid that this will wronged you. Jin Yebai lowered his head and silently picked up the food.

The atmosphere of the dinner was relaxed and cheerful at first, but because of these inexplicable words, it finally turned into an eerie silence, and after eating, I cleaned up the dishes without saying a word, and he took a rag and came to wipe the table.

These scenes are very familiar to me, whether it is with Zhou Mingchuan or Li Muchi, they have all happened, memory and reality, suddenly overlapped, so that I can't tell whether I am in a dream or not.

Perhaps, everything that happened in front of him was just a dream, and Jin Yebai hadn't come back at all.

After Jin Yebai wiped the table, he came to the kitchen, ran the dishes I had washed twice with clean water, and then carefully placed them in the cupboard.

I looked at him sideways as I brushed the plate, he seemed so real, it didn't look like he was in a dream at all, and if it was, when did I start dreaming?

Since he left a few months ago, I can't find him in my dreams, and the so-called thoughtful, night dreams have never happened to me at all.

I stared at him with wide eyes, trying to see if it was a dream or reality, and I forgot that I was still brushing the plate.

As soon as my hand slipped, there was a clang, and the plate fell to the ground and cracked into several pieces, which woke me up in an instant, and I hurriedly bent down to pick up the plate, and my fingers were scratched in my hurry.

The blood poured out as if I didn't want any money, but I didn't feel any pain at all.

"Why are you so careless?" Jin Yebai grabbed my hand and rinsed it under the faucet, his tone was reproachful, but his eyes were full of distress.

"Are you really back?" I asked, "Why do I always feel like I'm dreaming?" Xiaobai, tell me quickly, I'm not dreaming, you're really back." ”

Ignoring the bleeding wound, I grabbed his hand and became emotional, screaming like a madman from a mental hospital, "Tell me quickly, it's all true, it's true." ”

If it's just a dream, I'd rather never wake up!

As long as he can be with Jin Yebai, then even if he is drowning to death in a dream, why not? On the contrary, he woke up, faced the reality, and found that everything was just a dream of Nan Ke, and that was the real pain.

"Meng Lu, what's wrong with you?" A trace of panic flashed in Jin Yebai's eyes, "Don't scare me, I'm back, I'm really back, if you don't believe it, you can call and ask Zhenting now." ”

I plunged into his arms and whimpered, "I'm so scared that this is a dream, Xiaobai, I'm so scared, I'm really scared ......"

When reality and memories overlapped, everything I saw was as unreal as a dream, so I was afraid that when I woke up from a dream, what I thought I had received would disappear in an instant.

Some people say that the most precious thing in this world is what I can't get and what has been lost, before yesterday, Jin Yebai was the person I wanted but couldn't get, I don't want him to become the person I lost after tomorrow.

"Don't be afraid, I'm here, I'm here. He patted me gently on the back and whispered to me like a frightened child.

His breath surrounded me, and I could feel the temperature on him, proving that he really existed, and I stopped crying and looked up at him.

A familiar look.

Familiar taste.

He's still him.

"Okay, don't cry, let's take care of the wound on our finger first. He gently pushed me away and grabbed my hand again, the blood on his fingers was still flowing, and the ground was stained with a lot of red liquid.

He cleaned my wounds, then pulled me into the living room, found a band-aid in the drawer under the TV cabinet and put it on me, and told me, "You sit on the couch and take a rest, I'll go wash the dishes and come over with you." ”

I pestered him like a silk and said willfully, "No, I don't want to, I'm going to look at you." "I'm afraid that once he's out of my sight, I'll never find him again.

Now I have fallen into the devil's path for love and become an unreasonable woman, but even though I know it, I still refuse to let him leave my sight.

"Okay, then you can just stand by and watch. Jin Yebai smiled dotingly, but there was a kind of helplessness and pain in that smile that I could see, but I couldn't understand.

Following him into the kitchen again, I was literally standing on the sidelines, watching him wash the dishes and mop the floor, and then following him out again, watching him mop the floor of the living room as well.

After all this was done, he dragged me to the bedroom, quickly packed up the pajamas for both of them, and then walked into the bathroom together......

At night, I turned on the lamp on the bedside table, hugged him as I wished, enjoyed his warmth, smelled his body, bit my ear and asked him softly, "Do you really love me?"

Most women should ask this question when they are in love, right? and most men will be annoyed by asking questions, thinking that women are too hypocritical.

But this was the first time I asked, so I didn't feel pretentious at all, I just looked him in the eye, so that if he lied to me, I should be able to see it right away.

"Uh-huh......" he replied in a low voice, hugging me tightly.

"Will you marry me, then?" I asked, inching in.

"Today is our first day together, can you not ask this question yet?" Jin Yebai said and kissed my eyes, obviously avoiding my question.

I will not give up," Shakespeare, the great writer of the Hidden Kingdom, said: 'All love that is not aimed at marriage is a hooligan.' 'Grandpa Mao also quoted this when he was dealing with the marriage of young men and women, we are all old, do you think we still have time to be as chic as those young boys and girls?"

"Did I say that I didn't want to get married for the time being, so you wouldn't be with me?" Jin Yebai sighed and said helplessly, "Marriage is a major event in life, and I don't want you to be so impulsive." ”

"I'm not impulsive, I really want to live with you for the rest of my life, a couple for the rest of my life. I shrunk into his arms and said gently, "Xiaobai, I want to give you a baby." ”