A lifelong appointment, forever married, the piano is in the palace, the years are quiet. This is Xia Xiran's description and expectation of this feeling.

Although he was born in a family of Zhong Ming Dingshi, Xia Xiran rarely felt the warmth of family affection. Her mother's heart only has her sick sister and her younger brother who are waiting to be fed, and her father is busy with work and has little time to care for her.

Whenever his heart was depressed, Xia Xiran would go to Gu Niancheng's house, play with Gu Niancheng and Gu Qingyun, and then look at the happy appearance of their family of four, so that he could feel a little relieved.

Xia Xiran has also been fantasizing about the warmth of her family, but she stubbornly believes that she is not worthy. She told herself more than once that her sister was taken care of by her mother because she was weak. That thoughtfulness and care are not worthy of envy, and you should not covet them.

But since the death of her sister, Xia Xiran was surprised to find that her mother actually "cared" about herself, but the way she showed it was not what she expected.

Xia's mother turned her longing for Xia Xixi into resentment towards Xia Xiran, and this heavy feeling also made Xia Xiran suffer.

Since then, Xia Xiran has learned to disguise herself with a mask, and she looks well-behaved and sensible in front of everyone, as if she has become a girl who doesn't know what to think about.

She did so well that she never showed her flaws in front of others, so much so that she wondered if she still had true feelings.

It was also at that time that Xia Xiran found that he was moved by Cheng Siqi. Love is like a silent spring rain for Xia Xi, between her eyebrows and in her heart.

Although there were twists and turns, Xia Xiran knew very well in her heart that her heart for Cheng Siqi had never changed. She wants to be with him, have a baby, and build a warm and loving home.

As soon as she thought of this, Xia Xiran's tears couldn't be stopped any longer, and this was the first time she cried bitterly in front of Cheng Siqi.

"This family business belongs to my parents and has nothing to do with me. I would be sad if you were trapped in my parents' accomplishments and were too timid to want to stay away from me. ”

Xia Xiran was out of breath crying, and these few short words were fragmented by her.

Cheng Siqi looked very distressed, he just sighed at the difference between the two families, and felt that he had treated Xia Xiran badly before, and he felt guilty, but unexpectedly made her burst into tears.

"Baby, don't cry!

Xia Xiran's eyes were red from crying, she didn't want to look at the camera and face her haggardness. He only lowered his head, sat still, and did not speak.

"I am reluctant to leave my baby! It's just that I'm worried that my uncle and aunt won't allow you to associate with me, and then I keep thinking about how hard I can make your family feel at ease and boldly hand you over to me. ”

Xia Xiran raised his little head, and a trace of disdain flashed on his face. She tactfully told Cheng Siqi that her parents did not have a deep family opinion, so he didn't have to worry about it.

But in Xia Xiran's heart, she really couldn't deceive herself. She clearly knew that her mother didn't care about Cheng Siqi's family background because she didn't like her, and it didn't match words such as open-mindedness and wisdom at all.

"Uncle and aunt don't care, but I can't relax. Xixi, you once told me to improve the quality of life, don't grieve yourself, and you can be a little bourgeoisie, I think it makes a lot of sense. ”

"But now I want to say that if you lower your standard of living because you're with me, I'm going to be very upset. I can't bear to make such a sacrifice for me. To that end, I can only work tirelessly to close the gap. Hee-hee, do you know what I mean?"

Xia Xiran was in a trance, and Cheng Siqi's words were like ink dripping into clear water, blurring in her mind. She looked at Cheng Siqi on the screen, and tears came out of her eyes again.

"What's the matter, why are you crying again! Don't cry! As soon as you cry, my heart is in turmoil. ”

Cheng Siqi hurriedly took out the headphones and put them on, the sound insulation effect at home is not so good, he doesn't want his parents to hear any movement.

"I'm fine, I'm just happy. I didn't expect you to say that. I, actually, they don't care about me, so they ......"

Xia Xiran's crying became heavier and heavier, and her voice became more and more blurred, and Cheng Siqi couldn't hear her words at all.

Since she was a child, she has been passively accepting many things, most of which are small things that have never been cared about by her parents, but they have been accumulated in Xia Xiran's heart, suppurating, sores, scabs, and healing. The cycle went on and on, and she thought she would never cry again.

Xia Xiran's brain was buzzing, and the past was vivid, she thought she had forgotten it a long time ago.

Seeing Xia Xiran's crying pear blossoms with rain, Cheng Siqi couldn't hold back any longer. Although he is thousands of miles away, his pity can't nourish Xia Xiran's heart through the screen. But it was impossible to keep him indifferent.

While comforting her carefully, he silently made up his mind in his heart to use his life to cherish this girl who seemed to be strong, but her heart was weak.

"My mom and dad didn't love me, but they were very kind, and I didn't resent them. I just want to be with you right now and study well. Graduate, get a job, and get married. ”

Without you before, the rest of my life will be you.

Xia Xiran really couldn't say this sentence, so he could only recite it silently in his heart.

"Siqi, you know! Because of you, my life has accumulated a little color. I'm weak, I've been strong. ”

Cheng Siqi looked at the tears flashing in the corners of her eyes, but she still had to be reckless, and felt very cute. He also wanted to say that he was not!

In the past, when the love was not opened, he was also a second-year teenager who was not afraid of heaven and earth. And now, when my girlfriend cries, my heart is broken, and when my girlfriend makes a fuss, my heart is messed up.

"Yes, my baby is strong. But in the future, you're going to hide behind me and cry!"

When Cheng Siqi looked at the figures he gave on Xia Xiran's desktop, the resentment in his heart quietly disappeared.

He recalled his feelings when he chose the gift, the excitement, those careful thoughts, were his truest emotions, his most precious things.

"Instead of blindly comparing absolute values, staring at the chasm that is difficult to cross in a short period of time, and sacrificing oneself for this. It's better to do what you can and give her the best things you have. In the dialectical unity of the absolute and the relative, maximize one's love. ”

As soon as Cheng Siqi thought about this, the shackles in his heart disappeared all of a sudden, and the whole person was not so heavy.

"What are you smirking at there! People are crying, you are still laughing, you have no conscience!"

Xia Xiran rubbed his eyes and muttered quietly. Cheng Siqi's heart itched to listen to this soft and glutinous voice, but it was so sweet.