Chapter 093: I Didn't Want to Hurt You
Hearing about those pasts, Yun Mengxue was extremely surprised!
She turned her head to look at Luo Haoning in a daze, but what surprised her even more was that after Luo Haoning heard these things, she didn't react much, and her face was still calm.
"Brother Haoning......"
Yun Mengxue looked at Luo Haoning with some worried eyes, often behind this calm, there were hidden winds and waves.
At the same time, Yun Mengxue also began to resent herself, she didn't expect that what she was going to talk about was the two brothers of the Luo family and Chu Mengyao, and finally involved the love entanglement between Xu Yeli and Luo Jingtian.
"Haoning, you ......"
Seeing that her son had not reacted, Xu Yeli couldn't help but worry, she came to Luo Haoning, gently took Luo Haoning's hand, and looked at Luo Haoning's calm face with concern.
"Haoning, if you have any discomfort in your heart, just tell your mother, don't be silent like this, your mother is ...... I actually...... I regret that the original decision caused you so much pain and became the root cause of the harm to you, but ...... But I couldn't say it anymore......"
Xu Yeli's emotions were a little choked, she had been entangled in self-blame for so many years, and today she finally said what she was thinking, but she felt uncomfortable while being relaxed in her heart.
"Mom, I'm fine. ”
Luo Haoning finally spoke, with a shallow smile on his face, very shallow and faint, as if he was coping with a reluctant smile, if you don't pay attention to it, it's really hard to find.
"How could it be okay. ”
Xu Yeli raised her hand and stroked Luo Haoning's head, just like when he was a child, her eyes revealed not only love, but also boundless guilt.
"I've thought more than once that I'm going to tell you all about it, but your dad ...... Sedum has always been against me doing this. He said...... I don't want you to know what happened at the beginning, I don't want you to feel sad in your heart because you are a child abandoned by the family, and I don't want you to know that you are not his son and have a grudge against this family. ”
Xu Yeli said, tears couldn't stop flowing, although she was trying her best to control her emotions and couldn't lose control in front of Luo Haoning and Yun Mengxue, she still couldn't do the same as a saint.
"Auntie, I'm sorry. ”
Yun Mengxue hurriedly took out a handkerchief and handed it to Xu Yeli, today's incident was caused by her, and now I really don't know how to end it.
"Mom, don't be like this, I'm really fine. ”
Luo Haoning wiped his tears for Xu Yeli, hearing those things, his heart was actually very uncomfortable, but in the face of Xu Yeli, a mother who had been depressed and wronged for a long time, what could he say?
"If that's the case, why don't you tell Luo Haochen?"
Yun Mengxue couldn't help but speak on the side, and Xu Yeli was slightly stunned.
"Say...... Tell him about it? but...... Sedum there ......"
Xu Yeli shook her head, she couldn't say it, because Luo Jingtian once said, don't say these words even if they are rotten in your stomach.
"Auntie. ”
Yun Mengxue didn't know much about what Xu Yeli was worried about, and in her opinion, those seemed unnecessary.
"Have you ever thought that if that kind of thing had been said openly and honestly a long time ago, the relationship between Brother Haoning and Luo Haochen might not have been as stiff as it is now. Although it may cause some unnecessary trouble now, there is no impermeable wall in the world, and he will know sooner or later. At that time, the hurt and pain have been experienced, and they still have to be resented, isn't it too wronged?"
Saying this, Yun Mengxue felt that she was actually quite gossipy, but she had to say that she really couldn't see that this family was entangled with each other for such a thing, but she always held back some words that were obviously just open to her heart, masochistic and then abused each other.
"I ...... Think again......"
Xu Yeli's brows were furrowed very tightly, without Luo's signal today, she didn't dare to say anything in front of Luo Haochen easily.
"Auntie......"
"Dream snow. ”
Luo Haoning interrupted Yun Mengxue's persuasion, Yun Mengxue was stunned, and when she saw Luo Haoning's eyes, she nodded slightly and did not force Xu Yeli again.
"Mom, I'll take these words to heart for the time being, I know Dad's concerns, but he thinks too much. Since I have been Luo Jingtian's son for nearly 30 years, I will not abandon my former nurturing kindness just because I know my true background. Luo Haoning has always been Luo Haoning, he will not be the kind of ungrateful person, and he will not leave his father who has always regarded me as his own. ”
Luo Haoning's words seemed to be a reassuring pill in Xu Yeli's unstable heart.
"Haoning, Mom knows your intentions and knows that you are not that kind of person. I...... Everything that needs to be said has been said, and the rest of the time is ...... I'll leave those things to you to solve, and I'll go back first. ”
The things they solved by themselves were nothing more than these entanglements between Luo Haochen and Yun Mengxue, Luo Haoning and Chu Mengyao.
After Xu Yeli finished speaking, she looked at Yun Mengxue with a solemn look in her eyes, and then left the studio, and only Yun Mengxue and Luo Haoning were left in the huge space.
"Auntie is really pitiful, why does God not open his eyes like this? Always let good people go through so many tribulations, like this...... It's too unfair. ”
Yun Mengxue's mood was a little low, because her relationship dug up Xu Yeli's secret, which made Luo Haoning's mood different from the past, although he didn't act much, but as long as you think about it, you will know how uncomfortable it is.
"Mengxue, don't worry about any burden in your heart, things are just like you said, sooner or later there will be a day when they will be known. In that case, what does it matter if you know sooner or later?"
After Luo Haoning finished speaking, he shook his wheelchair and turned back to the front of the painting, and then Yun Mengxue was surprised to find that Luo Haochen's picture at this time was no longer Chu Mengyao, but a landscape painting.
"Brother Haoning, Chu Mengyao, she ......"
Realizing that her mouth was about to go, Yun Mengxue hurriedly covered her mouth with one hand to stop the words behind her.
"If you draw too many pictures of the same picture, you need to change your style and adjust your heart. ”
Luo Haoning said lightly, skillfully outlining the picture in his heart on the canvas-
The hazy night is shrouded in clouds and mist, the half-moon looms in the sky, and the green bamboo under the moon is thin and straight.
The simple lines are simple and clear, the pen is silent and simple but childish, and the depth of the pen has left traces, as if Luo Haoning's calm and elegant personality, even if he falls, he will not fall down, and he still stands proudly in the world with such a strong attitude.
Yun Mengxue never thought that such a thick brush as an oil painting could be painted like a quintessential landscape with a light brush, showing a clear and chic aesthetic conception.
Luo Haoning's painting completely envelops Yun Mengxue, she can feel how unknown desolation and sadness are behind the beauty, and the moonlight looming in those clouds seems to be a turning point after dusk, and a dazzling bright line suddenly appears.
Although Luo Haoning said that he changed his style for adjustment, Yun Mengxue could see different feelings from this beautiful picture.
If it weren't for the fact that Luo Haoning was still thinking about Chu Mengyao in his heart, how could he be so difficult for himself?
"If you have not loved, then the heart ...... Doesn't it hurt like this?"
Yun Mengxue muttered to herself in a low voice, she was hurt for Luo Haoning's love, hurt for Luo Haochen's persistence, sighed Luo Haoning's inability to walk, and resented the different fates, why must she deprive such a kind and gentle person of the right to move freely?
Under these emotional pains, Yun Mengxue is also lamenting and feeling self-pity for herself.
She unconsciously began to sympathize with Luo Haochen, and there was an indescribable feeling rippling in her heart, and she even felt distressed for Luo Haochen.
People say that emotional men are worthy of entrusting for life, but Luo Haochen is not the one who belongs to her.
"To love is to love, there is no if, life will become gorgeous because of those times. Although there are differences and pains, but in the end, who can escape and leave in the end?"
Luo Haoning's words made Yun Mengxue slightly stunned.
"This ...... Yes, that's right, we can't escape that day after all. ”
Hearing Yun Mengxue's answer, Luo Haoning curled the corner of his mouth and smiled lightly.
"So, it's just a matter of time, there's no need to dwell too much on anything, just take it as an experience in life. People are not plants and trees, who can be ruthless, we have experienced pain and cried, which shows that this heart is still beating alive. ”
Yun Mengxue frowned slightly, felt a cold itch on her cheeks, raised her hand to wipe it lightly, and tears like ice crystals wet her fingertips.
"That being said, that's true, but Brother Haoning's words are too direct and too calm, and it makes people feel very uncomfortable when they hear it, I ...... There is no way to be so detached, and there is no need for Brother Hao Ning to be so. ”
Yun Mengxue walked up to Luo Haoning, squatted next to her wheelchair and grabbed Luo Haoning's wrist holding the paintbrush.
Luo Haoning's expression was slightly stunned, and he lowered his gaze to look at the hand holding him, because of the abrupt move, Yun Mengxue's hand still trembled with a trace of uncontrollable trembling.
"When you vent your sadness and express it, you say that you will cry when you are in pain, why do you have to suppress yourself so much? Brother Haoning is the one who pretends to be the most painful in his heart, why do you have to endure Luo Haochen's accusations and treatment every time, but he doesn't explain himself? Are you responsible for Chu Mengyao by doing this?"
Yun Mengxue's words became more and more excited, and at this time, even if she had the heart to close her mouth and stop saying anything, she was unable to close the two thin lips that had been opened, and the words poured out like water from the open gates.
"If there is a spirit underneath her that learns that you are doing this, she will definitely cry sadly! Brother Haoning, do you really want to be such a person? Do you really want Chu Mengyao to worry about you and cry for you even in that world?"
Luo Haoning's eyes froze, Yun Mengxue dragged Chu Mengyao out so directly to talk about things, undoubtedly using a heavy hammer to hit his long-locked heart hard, the closed door was smashed out of cracks, and the bright red was oozing out and spreading little by little.
Seeing that her words worked, Yun Mengxue immediately took the opportunity to catch up.
"Brother Haoning, just admit that you really feel in your heart, you don't have to be misunderstood and treated like Luo Haochen all the time, it will be better to vent it like him!"
"Smack!"
Luo Haoning's fingers were slightly loose, the brush fell on the marble floor, the pen bounced twice, and the dark oil paint stained the ground.
"Why...... You...... Why do you have to tell me this?"
Luo Haoning slowly turned his head to look at Yun Mengxue, his eyes full of pain.
Why? Yun Mengxue couldn't help but be stunned.
"I ...... Just want to ...... Makes you ......"
Seeing Luo Haoning open to his emotions as he wished, Yun Mengxue's lips trembled slightly, and she didn't know how to speak.
Do you want to tell Luo Haoning directly that the reason why he helped him open the heart of the blockade was so that another woman could walk in?