Chapter 112: Self-Doubt and Murderous Intent
"Meiyuan, Kazuko Hirota went to Yanagi Sang-kun's office, what was the result?" Sitting in the office of the president of the Sword Heroes Association, Sasaki Mahei reversed his usual smiling appearance, and his face was gloomy and could drip water.
"Chief Sasaki, it seems that Master Yagyu should have agreed, and although Miss Hirota came out with sadness, she also had a faint relieved and relaxed expression. β
"It's a shame that I'm too old to avenge this girl Hoshino with my own hands. Mei Yuanzi, in the name of the Sword Heroes Association, release a revenge mission, the task reward is one hundred points, and you hang fifty points in my personal name, so that Liu Shengjun can understand my attitude!"
"Hey, I'll hang up the mission to avenge Master Hoshino. But, Master, is Yanagi-kun really sure to kill Angel in the ring?"
"As long as he makes up his mind to make a move, Angel will never get out of the ring alive!"
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"Motohe, what's wrong with you, you don't seem to be happy today?" In the evening, when Yanagi Motowa returned home, his mother Masako Nanda saw at first glance that his mood was a little low.
"It's nothing, Mom, someone I know is in some trouble, Mom, don't worry, I'll be in a good mood soon. β
Liu Shengyuan lowered his head and took a few mouthfuls of food, and said vaguely.
"If you need help from your family, you don't have to keep everything in your heart. "Nantian Masako had already asked Sakura Kobayashi, knowing that her son had something to do in the afternoon and went to the Sword Heroes Club, so she didn't care about it, in her mind, the matter of the Sword Heroes Club should be solved by those Sword Heroes, and it has little to do with her son.
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In the middle of the night, Liu Shengyuan and he sat cross-legged in his bedroom, and behind him was the wall painted with the Taiji diagram.
Today was the first time he had seen the death of an acquaintance, and of course Hoshino Yuaki was not too familiar with him. However, after all, this is a colleague who was alive a few days ago, and he greeted and talked to him.
She died in the ring of the martial soul duel like this, which had a great impact on Liu Shengyuanhe's psyche, although Liu Shengyuanhe had already killed many people with his own hands, but to be honest, when Liu Shengyuan and killed people, he did not regard those objects as 'people' in his heart, but more of a feeling of cleaning up some 'scum' and contributing to society.
Judging from the video brought by Kazuko Hirota, in fact, in terms of kendo, Hoshino Yuaki is not much worse than her opponent, even if there is a little gap, in the case that both sides are wearing armor, the probability of dying in battle is not large, but Master Hoshino Yuaki finally died in the ring.
Yanagi had to admit that when he saw Master Hoshino Yumei sitting cross-legged, blood gradually flowing down the long sword inserted into his throat, a feeling called 'fear' actually grew in his heart.
Although, as the opponent of Hoshino Yuaki, Angel Ruiz's two hits do not seem to be anything to Yanagi Yuanhe, and it can even be said that he does not pose any threat to him at all.
But what if your opponent in the ring is an opponent who is evenly matched with you, or even more than one?
That day, he accompanied Sakura Kobayashi to visit the martial arts finals area, and the blonde girl he met on the way to the competition area made Yanagi feel a huge pressure for the first time in his life.
Whenever Liu Shengyuan and walked in the crowd, the crowd was almost transparent to him, within two meters and five meters around his body, not to mention breathing steps, even if someone's stomach gurgled and the blood and qi flowed a little faster, he could clearly sense that this feeling of being close at hand and having everything in his hands made Liu Shengyuan feel that he was so powerful and high.
And farther away from him, for Yanagi Yuanhe, as long as he concentrated, even the slightest noise that occurred thirty or forty meters away could not hide his perception.
Even, even if others just glanced at him deliberately, Yanagi Yuanhe could know what kind of position the person who was looking at him was in, and whether he had malicious intentions towards him.
He may have never shown a sense of superiority in front of others, but his strong power naturally gave Yanagi Motokazu a strong self-confidence and a sense of superiority.
Because of this, once Yanagi Motokazu confirmed that the Nishikawa Gang was a bunch of scum, he naturally decided to kill them all, just so that he could buy himself some time to escape justice.
Liu Shengyuanhe unconsciously put himself in a position higher than ordinary people, he subconsciously thought that his life was a hundred times more precious than these scumbags, so as long as he could do half a benefit to himself, he would not hesitate to kill all these scumbags.
And on that day, the moment he met the blonde girl with Sakura Kobayashi, he knew that he was not the only monster in the world.
Around the blonde girl's body, there was a five-meter radius, as if there was an invisible cover.
If it is said that ordinary people are completely transparent to Yanagi Yuanhe, the swordsmen are in a state of opacity in their bodies, but through the air flow around the swordsmen's bodies, they can still be easily grasped by Yanagi Yuanhe's perception, even the old man Sasaki Jinhei can only be a few inches around his body, so that his perception can't penetrate.
And the blonde girl I saw at that time, she stood in the crowd, but she was like an ant heap, standing a behemoth, and it was like in the sea, there was a behemoth, although it had not yet surfaced from the sea, but its shadow had shrouded all directions.
In Yanagi Yuanhe's perception, the figure of the blonde girl was so huge and submerged, that in a radius of five meters around the blonde girl, even Yanagi Yuanhe's perception was completely rejected, and he could only feel that there was a terrible life standing there. This kind of terrible, not to be vicious, just like a wild elephant no matter how gentle and herbivorous it is, but people standing next to it still have a sense of insecurity.
At that time, he was so shocked that he almost couldn't control it on the spot, which caused the power in his body to show a trace.
It is self-evident what it means to meet such a person in the place where the martial soul duel is held.
If you meet that girl in the ring of the martial soul duel, will you be able to survive?
If you are not sure to face this girl, do you want to continue to participate in the martial soul duel?
If you die in the ring like Hoshino Yuaki, what will your family do? Aren't you seeking immortality? Why take such a risk?
Liu Shengyuan and sat on the futon with a calm face, but his heart was like turning over the river and the sea, and all kinds of thoughts came one after another.
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The eyes look at the nose, the nose looks at the mouth, and the mouth asks the heart.
Yanagi gradually gave up thinking and sank into a state of ignorance and unawareness.
Today, the obsession he brings into the state of concentration is not the fear of aging and death, but a questionβwhat is he pursuing? After abandoning all distractions, he wants to question his own heart, hoping to get an answer from his heart.
What I am looking for is longevity? Yes, but it's not right!
Immortality is not a goal in itself, but a means, no one lives just to live, that is not their own goal, they should have other goals.
Why did you pursue immortality and long-term vision? By the way, it was because of Zhang Ming's obsession in his previous life.
In Zhang Ming's last days, his hands and feet gradually stiffened, his mind gradually became chaotic, and even personal hygiene problems had to be solved through medical means, and this fear of the passage of vitality bit by bit has been carried to the subconscious of this life.
This makes the young Yanagi and subconsciously keep working hard, trying to get rid of this terrible ending in the distant future.
Therefore, the reason why the current Yanagi Yuanhe, at such a young age, can even be said to be a young age, gave up everything and pursued the goal of immortality, which seemed so incredible and beyond his strength.
This is not because Yanagi Motokazu is ambitious at all, on the contrary, it is because he is afraid, fearful.
Because subconsciously, Zhang Ming in his previous life had already tasted the taste of gradually watching himself step into death, but he couldn't do anything, this kind of motivation from fear was so powerful, even if it only existed in Yanagi Yuanhe's subconscious, he still kept spurring him to work forward, and he didn't dare to slack off half a step.
Immortality itself is not the ultimate goal of Yanagi Yuanhe, it is to get rid of the fear of aging and death, so that there is no longer a sword of Damocles hovering over your head, telling you at any time that you will grow old and die.
This sense of fear of death and aging plagues Yanagi Yuanhe all the time, like a big stone, pressing on Yanagi Yuanhe's heart, so that Yanagi Yuanhe can't live according to his own heart, it hints and reminds Yanagi Yuanhe at any time - you will eventually grow old and die and lose everything.
This feeling that is suppressed in my heart all the time makes Yanagi Motokazu's soul shackled and not free.
Let Yanagi Yuanhe work hard like he is dying at every moment, to make a way out for his life that will end one day,
Therefore, the reason why Yanagi Yuanhe pursues immortality is just to get rid of this fear and get rid of the enslavement of the soul by this fear.
Yes, the ultimate goal of Yanagi and Changsheng is actually just to live happily, so that there is nothing in the soul that can suppress and fear themselves, and they will no longer be threatened by anything!
As the first step to complete one's soul, since the blonde girl has become the source of his fear, then he must face his fear, confront her head-on, defeat her head-on, and kill her head-on!
At this moment, Yanagi Yuanhe finally washed away the dirt in his heart and understood the origin of the depression in his heart. It turned out that the moment he saw that girl, he had been afraid, afraid that in the ring of the martial soul duel, he would meet this opponent who was enough to kill him. And only by overcoming one's own fears can one face the more incredible challenges of the future with a more complete heart.
Perhaps, what Megumi Oshima said, since he made up his mind to embark on the path of the Sword Master, there are no more impurities in his soul, is this kind of feeling, right?
Then, in order to have a more difficult challenge in the future, he needs to complete one thing in the ring of this martial soul duel, that is, to kill the blonde girl!
After making this decision in his heart and facing the weakness and fear of his heart, Huo Ran had a nameless joy that filled his heart, and this joy was not the joy of encountering any happy event that brought cause and effect, but a feeling of relief and fulfillment that came from nowhere, and seemed to be just a feeling of relaxation and fulfillment brought by the soul letting go of some burden.
As if his internal strength was a little more vivid, under the reflection of the empty mind, not only the internal strength, but also the wisps of sword qi jumped lively.
Not only in Yanagi Yuanhe's body, but even in the 'white rainbow' in front of his knees, he could feel the vibration and joy of the sword qi, and the 'white rainbow' visualized in his heart and the 'white rainbow' horizontally in front of his knees were so consistent and agile at this moment.
This made Liu Shengyuanhe have an illusion, as if the projection of the 'white rainbow' in front of his knees entered his heart, or rather, it was his own mental projection into the 'white rainbow' in front of his knees, at this moment, his heart was like a sword, and the sword was like a heart, cutting off all hesitation and fear in his heart.
What the sword points to, what the heart points to! The heart knows what the sword points to!
The white rainbow runs through the sun, straight forward!
'Zheng Zheng-'
The 'white rainbow' in front of the knee was windless and automatic, and in the quiet room, there was a clear sound.
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"Yuanhe, did you sleep well last night?" Nantian Masako asked happily when she saw her son refreshed after a night.
"Well, I slept well last night. "Since Liu Shengyuanhe has made a decision, there is no more trouble in his heart, all that remains is to prepare for the game with peace of mind, for him, the current martial soul duel is no longer an ordinary ring competition, but an opportunity to cut off the nameless in his heart.
"Yuanhe, when is your next match?"
"Well, probably next Thursday, but I haven't been notified yet, so I'm not entirely sure. β
"Alas, mom can't go to the scene to cheer you on, you must be careful!" The last time she watched the game, Masako Nanda screamed, so she could bury her son, every time she recalled that scene, Masako Nanda was afraid, so she had already made up her mind not to go to the scene to watch her son's game again.
"Don't worry, Mom, my son is very strong!" Liu Shengyuanhe patted his chest and promised.
"Then be careful!" Masako Nanda glared at her son dissatisfied--don't you have to be careful if you're strong?
"Uh-huh, I'll be careful mom. β
"Ah, Mom, has your beauty shop been renovated, when will it open?" Liu Shengyuan changed the topic bluntly, he didn't want to discuss anything with his mother anymore.
"It's almost over, the renovation will be over next week, and I don't know what the business will be? It's really worrying!" Speaking of her beauty shop, Masako Minamida's attention immediately diverted.
"By the way, Mom, it's not too early, I'm going to go to the Aoki Pavilion to have a look, after all, my son is now receiving 60 million annuities every year, and he always has to go to see it once a week. Taking advantage of his mother's distraction, Liu Shengyuan said hello and quickly slipped out of the house.
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"Ah, teacher, are you here so early today?" When Yanagi Yuanhe arrived at the Aoki Pavilion, Aoki Ryoji was practicing the 'Living Sword' alone, and on weekdays, he organized his brothers to practice at night, after all, there are still a few of these fellow students who are still young, and they have classes to take during the day.
Of course, everyone has finished the final exam during this time, but since it has formed a habit, there is no need for everyone to break it, so now in the morning, only Aoki Ryoji is alone, working overtime here to practice.
Aoki Ryoji also saw that Chang Yuanming had awakened the martial spirit, and as the chief disciple, he felt that the pressure on his body was a little bigger out of thin air, so he would take the initiative to seize the time and practice hard.
"Come on, let me see how you're doing?" "Now that you're here, Yanagi Yuanhe is also going to do a little bit of master's appearance, looking at Aoki Ryoji's longing gaze, Yanagi Motokazu beckoned him to his side, reached out and pressed it on Aoki Ryoji's vest, and let him use the 'Living Sword' to take a look.
Aoki Ryoji hesitated for a moment, after all, in the 'Living Sword', some swordsmanship is around the body, and the master pressed it on his vest like this, and was hit by his own backhand sword, which is called a joke.
"Ha, it's okay, you just practice yours!" Yanagi Yuanhe saw Aoki Ryoji hesitantly stand still, and after thinking about it, he knew what he was worried about, but if he could be hit by normal practice, then don't mention the matter of the disciple.
"Hey!"
With the unfolding move of Aoki Ryoji's sword, inside his body, the flow of qi and blood is gradually accelerating according to a stable turnover order, and Yanagi Yuanhe's invisible internal strength is mixed in it, and he is quietly experiencing the laws and differences of qi and blood circulation under different human body conditions.
Perhaps this difference in the flow of qi and blood is not of much use to Liu Shengyuan for the time being, but with the increase in the amount of information collected, he will one day be able to calculate the most suitable way of qi and blood flow for each person according to each person's physical condition.
At that time, it was the time when Liu Shengyuan and the Fourth Transformation Taishang Dragon Sutra were perfected.