"You can't do this, the divine realm doesn't allow it, and it's not fair to you......" I slowly stood up, "I want to find a place to be quiet, don't follow me, don't worry, nothing will happen to me, I really just want to go and be quiet." ”

I put on my shoes and coat, glanced at my wallet, and walked out of the room.

"Li Ran!" Guan Ying immediately wanted to follow me, but was stopped by everyone.

"Guan Ying, let Li Ran go quietly, let's leave him alone, we and Qingxuan are just sisters, but Qingxuan, but the one who has been with Li Ran from the beginning. Zhong Xuan looked at my back as I left and said.

"Yes, even if I was the first to know Li Ran, I didn't stay with him for the longest time, although I was a little jealous to say this, but Li Ran was really good to Qingxuan. Yin Mo sighed, and his eyes were a little red again, "But Qingxuan just left, I always felt as if something suddenly happened in my life." ”

"Miao Jing, you stay here, I'll follow Li Ran. Biwei turned and walked out of the ward, immediately trying to keep up with me, but when she walked out of the room, there was no sign of me, "Are you gone?"

Ivan hesitated, then ran out of the room.

"Ivan!" Guan Ying and a few people immediately chased after him, "Where are you going, Ivan?"

"Ivan has to go and accompany Xiao Ranran, Sister Guan Ying, you can stay here, I can find where Xiao Ranran is, don't worry, I won't be fine." ”

I'm walking alone on the street, I don't know how I'm going to live my life in the future, maybe time will paralyze me, but right now, every second is a torture for me.

The autumn wind was a little cool, brushing my cheeks, blowing my tears, and there was a tingling sensation.

I opened the mobile phone left by Qingxuan, opened the album, pulled to the bottom, and started from the first photo of Qingxuan, the first photo is Qingxuan's hand-drawn appearance of me pouting on the hospital bed.

Look at the scene, this action is really funny, I laughed twice, but unconsciously tears also flowed down, one by one, the photos are all memories left by Qingxuan little by little, but these have become memories that will only be these forever.

Where should I go? What should I do? Maybe I should live well, but why is this heartache?

I looked up and looked at the high-rise buildings around me who didn't know how much taller than me, people were too small after all, whether it was in front of cars, in front of buildings, in front of nature, in front of the world.

I bought a dozen beers, maybe borrowing alcohol to kill my worries is the best way, I threw down a hundred dollars, told the cashier not to look for it, the cashier did not want to return the money to me, the first reaction was to put the money in the money detector to check the authenticity, after confirming that it was true, I also showed a reassuring expression, and then put the money into the cash register, and took out the change that should be found and put it in my clothes.

I climbed to the top of a building, which was the best building in the neighborhood, and I climbed on that building, and I could see the night view of the capital, which was really beautiful, and I could see Tiananmen Square in the distance, which was still very beautiful at night.

I opened a can of beer, there was a loud sound of gas, and a puff of white smoke came out, the smoke quickly dissipated into the air, I took a soft sip of beer, the alcohol seemed to touch my emotional nerves, and the tears that I had just stopped flowed out at once.

The rooftop of this building seems to have become a small universe that belongs only to me, where I can cry to my heart's content, and no one will see my weakness.

"Qingxuan, do you see the night view of the capital beautiful?" I imagined a Qingxuan, Qingxuan was also sitting on the edge of the rooftop like me at this time, leaning on my shoulder, "Look there, I still remember that we once went there to play, Guan Ying hung a fish there, thinking that she could raise it when she went home, but she didn't expect to die in two days, Guan Ying cried for a long time, and the two of us comforted her for a long time." ”

I laughed and wanted to take another sip of beer, but found that the can in my hand was gone, so I opened another bottle and did the same as just now: "Qingxuan, every time we snap, we have to grab who is on it, otherwise I will let you in the future, how about you always be on it in the future?"

"If only we could keep doing this. I closed my eyes softly, enjoying the wind blowing in my face, "How nice it would be to keep this way, you just leaning on my shoulder, and I just hugged you tightly." I raised my hand and placed it in mid-air, as if Qingxuan was really next to me.

"Qingxuan, I love you!" I shouted indifferently, but this was not the valley of the ancient Miao tribe, the voice that came out of the shouting, but there was no echo, "Did you hear me, Qingxuan?"

The second can of beer was quickly finished, and I had a very good amount of alcohol, but I don't know what happened today, but I was a little drunk after only two cans, maybe because I hadn't drunk for too long, or because I was sad.

I was a little cold, but the cold barely kept me awake, I put my hand into the plastic bag, but I couldn't touch the beer, I picked up the plastic bag, found that it was empty, and when I looked back, I found that there were beer cans all over the floor.

I laughed and threw the plastic bag on the ground: "You are bullying me too, hey, there is no wine, what should I do, Qingxuan?

I felt that there was a person behind me, and I didn't bother to look back, maybe it was some kind of security guard, who heard the voice I was shouting just now, and came up and grabbed me down, if I did, I would just jump down.

But I felt the man suddenly hug my neck from behind, and his head was also on the back of my neck, and I looked at the little hands that hugged me, it was Ivan's.

"Ivan, what are you doing here, go back, I just want to ......" I shed tears again, I'm afraid that the tears I've added up over the years are not as many as today, "I just want to be quiet." ”

"Didn't you say that you would never leave Ivan alone again? Without Xiao Ranran, Ivan is alone. Ivan shifted his hands from my neck to my waist, Ivan's voice was also crying, I felt that my back had been wet with Ivan's tears, "Ivan didn't want to look at Xiao Ranran sad, Xiao Ran didn't know how uncomfortable Ivan was when he looked at Xiao Ranran sadly. ”