On this day, Jiangling City, the gate of Shuikou Central Primary School ushered in a dusty man.

He walked back and forth at the school gate, his eyes always on the campus, and he looked very anxious. However, what is strange is that the door is obviously open, and he can walk in, but he can never step through the threshold, so he can only wait anxiously.

The man is Qu Jinyan, just a few days ago, he suddenly received a phone call, saying that there was a letter left by Mr. Gao Yilian, and he explained the address and asked him to come and pick it up.

Only at this moment did he know that what he never expected was that Gao Yilian did not go to the place he wanted to go, but went to the place full of his childhood memories.

After receiving this call, he immediately bought a ticket and returned to Jiangling City as soon as possible, and came to his alma mater, where he had brought Gao Yilian once.

From a distance, he could already see the headmaster walking straight towards the gate, his appearance had not changed much, but more than ten years had passed, he was in the prime of life, and now he was close to the age of sixties, adding a lot of gray hair and wrinkles.

"Hello Headmaster. Qu Jinyan said respectfully.

"Qu Jinyan?"

"Yes?" he nodded.

The principal looked him up and down, paused, and then said with a smile: "I didn't expect that after so many years, the little children of the year are already so big." ”

Gao Yilian was missing, although he was anxious, he still smiled patiently.

Seeing Qu Jinyan, who did not take a step beyond the school gate, the old principal said in a slightly playful tone: "Why, are you still thinking about what happened back then? ”

Then the old principal sighed and said, "Come in, Teacher Gao has already educated me about this, and I know that I am wrong, but I didn't expect that a casual sentence back then would have such a big impact on you." Either way, you walked out of this school, I have no right to deprive you of this sense of belonging, and I should not have done so, I should apologize to you. ”

"Headmaster, you are serious, I should thank you, what you educate is, if you don't care about the students, it will hurt me. Qu Jinyan said sincerely.

"Hehe, I really grew up and knew the good intentions of the teachers. The old headmaster patted him on the arm with satisfaction and motioned for him to come in.

Only then did he continue: "It is said that you were also admitted to the university, okay, I remember that your studies were not very good at the beginning, and you often went to the teacher's office at noon, and you were only allowed to eat after completing your homework." Speaking of this, the old headmaster couldn't help but laugh.

Although he was preoccupied, when this matter was mentioned, Qu Jinyan couldn't help but laugh.

"By the way, who are you, Mr. Gao. The old headmaster finally got to the point.

At that moment, Qu Jinyan replied without thinking: "She is my wife. ”

"Really?" the old headmaster couldn't help but look at him more.

"Has she been here before?" Qu Jinyan couldn't help but take the initiative to ask.

"Yes, a few months ago, it was not long after the school started, and now it's summer vacation, and I think she's been here for half a semester. The old headmaster thought for a moment and said.

"And where is she now?" he asked eagerly.

"It's not here anymore. The old principal shook his head, and then asked, "What's the matter, did the husband and wife quarrel?"

Seeing that he didn't speak, the old headmaster continued: "She is a good girl, and she is very talented, you must know how to cherish it." ”

"This is a letter she left for you, and she left her number for me at that time, saying that if she doesn't come back in August, and there is no news from her, let me call your number and forward this letter to you. ”

"And where is she now, and when did she leave?" Qu Jinyan hurriedly asked.

"I don't know where she is now, but I think it has something to do with her body, she passed out in class several times, and it's been more than two months since she left. ”

"Fainting? Why is this happening?"

"Maybe the answer is in your hands, isn't it?"

Looking at the complete envelope in his hand, he was eager to open it, but at this time, he inadvertently felt extremely heavy, so heavy that his breathing became heavy, so heavy that his hands were trembling, and his heart was stinging him at this moment.

When I opened the envelope, when I saw the first line of words, half a year's persistence and hard work collapsed at this moment, and the anticipation day and night, countless nights of dreaming was her name, and now they have turned into dust, and there is nowhere to put my thoughts. In an instant, he wept like rain, like a child, and wept bitterly on his back.

When you read this letter, maybe I'm gone, and even if I'm still there, I'm just barely breathing.

I have leukemia, in fact, I already knew about it two years ago, but because of my mother, I was afraid that she would be sad, so I kept it in my heart and never told anyone.

Even after graduating and working and getting a good salary, I didn't plan to go to treatment, because I knew it was a lot of money, and I wanted to spend it on my mother, who had done so much for our family, and what I had to do for her as a daughter.

To be honest, sometimes I also sigh at God's injustice, why is our family so bumpy? I study hard, strive to get ahead, and be able to make a living, just so that my mother and sister can live a good life. However, fate sometimes always fools people, who would have thought that I was diagnosed with leukemia just after graduation, and my mother had an irremediable stomach disease.

Actually, I wanted to keep it in my heart forever, but some time ago, I couldn't help but talk to Yi Ling on the phone, you told her that we went on a trip, right? I still want to thank you for thinking about her, for me, a wayward and irresponsible sister, the negative impact of what you do is minimized.

When I learned about it, I knew that you didn't stop because of my letter, and I seemed to see your resolute face again. At the same time, my heart is complicated, while rejoicing in your dedication to me, I don't want to delay you because of my affairs, I owe you too much, and I may not have a chance to pay it off in this life!

You've always been curious and want to know why I'm always close to you, and whenever I communicate my heart, I ignore you, and I never talk to you about my inner thoughts, right? In fact, it's not that I don't approve of you, but from the beginning, I treat myself as a person who no longer exists, and I'm afraid that if I get too close to you, when this day comes, it will cause you more damage.

But now it seems that I have failed!

Wouldn't you have thought I'd come here when you were looking for me all over the world, didn't you?

Do you know that every time I see those children going to the cafeteria to carry lunch boxes while eating, and children playing on the table tennis table by the pool, I can't help but think of the scene where you lived here when you were a child, is it the same as the scene in front of me? As if there is an illusion that I have crossed time and seen you in the past.

At least I was beautiful in your mind at the time, and now I am just a painful memory of you, which is obviously not what I want, but I am powerless to change this fact.

Finally, there is a reluctant request, I hope you can take care of Yiling on behalf of my sister, I have gone in vain, but from then on, she is left alone in this family, I failed to fulfill the responsibility of the eldest daughter, failed to take care of her, and lost faith in my mother.

Please forgive me for my shameless plea, but I have no other choice.

Thank you for being your wife for being your wife in the last part of my life, I am very lucky and happy at the same time, but I am not blessed.

Forget me, starting anew, I don't deserve your attention, which makes me more and more ashamed.

Having said all this, in the end, I hope you find the person in your life who really treats you well, and I wish you happiness!

Good bye!

Gao Yilian