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"It's a little bit. Li Hegang touched it and shrank back.

Seeing that her belly was bulging a little bit every day, Li He's heart was as cold as iron. Thinking about his lively family in the past, now he is the only one left, and he is so bitter in his heart that he can't even sigh.

He Fang asked, "Do you want a boy or a girl?"

"Girl. ”

"What if you give birth to a boy?"

"Then you raise it yourself. ”

"Death. He Fang smiled and punched him, he didn't hide, she saw his displeasure, "Who messed with you again?"

Li He shook his head, "It's nothing. Just think about how much change it makes. ”

"Isn't it big, think about it, when you first entered the school, although you were also calm, your mouth was very poor, and you were much more stubborn than now. They all dare to fight with the Americans, and now they are afraid to think about it. That's a lot of momentum. ”

"Really?" Li He didn't listen to He Fang's words, but he didn't notice the change in himself. But when you think about it, it seems that there has really been a change. When he was just reborn, probably when the hormones in his body were oversecreted, he couldn't suppress any kind of mentality, but he was a little damp.

There will always be a little impulsive, there will always be a little temper, and even a little ambition.

But now?

How did ambition and ambition break halfway?

How should he count his age now, he fell into a confusion again.

During the Qingming Festival, the rain is continuous, the rain is dense, the wind can't hang up.

Ever since he had shared the housework, he had always opened the door early and gone out to buy breakfast. The water had accumulated to the threshold, and he deliberately turned back to He Fang and said, "Be careful when walking, the road is slippery." ”

After He Fang responded, he put on a poncho and went out, first went to buy breakfast and sent it back, and then drove to the post office and sent back the documents sent by Yu Dehua.

In the department store next to the post office, he bought two knives of paper money and a bottle of wine, today he wants to give the old man to the grave, every year Qingming as long as there is time, he will go to help burn two knives of paper money. He came to burn paper and had nothing to do with Yu Dehua, but because he got along well with the old man, it was right to burn two knives of paper money.

I drove to the suburbs, but there was still no road repair, so the car could only stop on the side of the road and walk on a dirt road in rubber shoes for half an hour to reach the cemetery.

The grave of the old man is very easy to find, the tombstone more than one meter high, it is always a little abrupt here, and the other graves are just a raised dirt bag, not even a monument. Some of them were not worshipped, and they were even washed away by the rain.

Because of the drizzle, the flames were very small, and the paper money could not be burned through, so Li He poured a little diesel fuel on it that had been prepared a long time ago, and the flames rushed up.

He picked up some damp branches and put them in the fire, and when the flame was bigger, he put a thicker stick on it.

The circle of fire was bigger, and it was not afraid of the drizzle, but the flames were more intense, and the wood crackled inside.

"Old than the head. The second pot head is strong enough. The second pot opened and sprinkled a cup into the fire, and the flame rose higher, "I'll drink it myself." ”

But this one he didn't put into his mouth, but still threw a cup into the fire.

His body didn't bring it with him, so he was considered dead, probably decayed, so give his dead self a drink.

His sons and daughters should worship him like this.

He stared at the fire in a daze, as if talking to himself and as if talking to the fire, "Old Yutou, you are happier than me, you are quiet when you die." I am dead, and I will not be quiet. ”

"You are comfortable, this life is troubled in this life. But what about Lao Tzu, there is no way. What do you say Lao Tzu should do, I can't be a father and son with my children in this life. Lao Tzu thought about it, but husband and wife couldn't do it. ”

At this stage, he thought that he was smooth and figured it out, but when he thought about it occasionally, he still felt pain for a while, and he couldn't think about it, and he didn't dare to think about it.

Even He Fang noticed his abnormality, and He Fang was also unhappy for him. But he didn't want He Fang to be unhappy.

He Fang's belly is getting bigger and bigger, and he is more and more contradictory.

"My heart is bitter, who can I say, I dare not say it!" Only in such an empty wasteland did he dare to shout and cry out loudly, "To live too sober, to live too clearly, it is really a sin." I'd rather be a fool. ”

A whirlwind came, and the flames were almost next to him, and he hurried to his hind legs, but he tripped and fell, and sat down in the mud with his hands propped up in the mud. The wine was scattered, and he hurriedly picked up the bottle.

He didn't get up in a hurry, just poured a glass of wine, ignored the mud of the glass, poured it into his stomach in one gulp, choking hotly, he couldn't help grinning, in fact, it was more mud in his mouth that was uncomfortable, he spit heavily several times, and then wiped his mouth with the clean place on his shoulder.

"You help me think about it, I want to let them go now, is it cruel?" he stood up and rubbed his hands against the weeds vigorously until the mud was gone. Then he added a few more large logs to the pile of flames, and continued, "That's what I thought, you see, right? I'm almost 60 years old, and there will be a day when I leave them. Now, it's a matter of time before you leave early or late. It's just that their sadness and sadness are in advance, and then, it costs an extra two dollars a year. They're older, they're good kids, they always take care of themselves, and I can put my mind at ease. Now that He Fang is pregnant, they may have a younger sister, and of course a younger brother. ”

"I sometimes feel like I'm dreaming, but I'm pinching myself so hard that I'm stuck on myself, and it really hurts. It's been almost ten years, I can't dream for ten years, can I? So, my life is real, I live really. I have to live, I have to live, my father is here, my mother is here, my brothers and sisters are here. Hey, now I have a new daughter-in-law. The new daughters-in-law are pregnant. I've delayed her for ten years, I have to make it up to her, and I can't owe anyone. They're all alive and well. ”

He sighed again and continued to pour a glass of wine, pouring it into his stomach, "Grandparents love their eldest grandson, and their parents love Lao Gen, right? Now He Fang has a small one in his belly, I have to hold on to the small one, right? You are wrong to say this, right?" If you are a father, you can only be ruthless, and the little one is biased, anyway, the big one is already married and sensible, so I don't need to worry about it. Let's talk about me again, I can't say that I can't bear them, after all, they have been with me for so long in my last life, and I should be content. ”

The glass of wine must have choked on his throat, and he began to cry again, crying so loudly that the tears came down from his face with the rain.

"Since I'm really alive, do I have to do something, tell you something from my heart, I see that those foreign devils are not pleasing to the eye, if you want to say that I am a big nationalist, I also admit it. You say, this man is poor, and dogs dislike him, let alone a country is poor. People have reason to despise you. A few days ago, He Fang mentioned it to me, I had a foreign devil when I was in school, if he didn't mention it to me, I almost forgot about it. There is so much resentment in my heart, if I can't spit it out, Lao Tzu will be uncomfortable. I still have to continue to scold him, if he is not convinced, Lao Tzu will not be happy. ”

"In a few days, Lao Tzu will set up a banquet, which is considered a wedding wine for you to drink in advance. After Li He finished speaking, he poured the last half bottle of wine into the fire, "Oh, by the way, don't worry, your son and I will report him to the position of the richest man in Hong Kong." That's it. ”

With a bang, the bottle was smashed by him on the tombstone.

He took a deep breath, straightened up, and left the cemetery without looking back.

When I got to the side of the road and found the car, I took off my clothes and shoes and threw them away, leaving only a pair of red underwear on my body.