I inhaled hard through my nose, and it turned out that the smell of smoke was not all unpleasant.

The traces of his presence still linger here, but the others are gone, and now he doesn't know which dark corner he will be in.

Caiyue raised her head and looked at the high night sky.The summer night sky was covered by thick clouds.It made people feel a little stuffy.Only occasionally there was a gust of wind that was not very cool.People could feel a little comfortable.

"You should be in high spirits tonight, why hide here alone." Behind her was a familiar voice, and as the voice got closer, Qiu Yan walked to her side.

He knew very well that during the free time of the dinner after the press conference, Caiyue had to negotiate business with the dealers, and he was not good to be by her side all the time, because that undoubtedly confirmed the conjecture that everyone thought that he was the boss behind "Yan".

What's more, wherever he appears, he will naturally be surrounded by a group of people, so after finishing the meal, he is almost not with Caiyue, and when he finally breaks through the encirclement, in a blink of an eye, the Yuecai is gone, with his understanding of her, he easily found her in this no-man's corner.

She didn't know if Qiu Yan had seen her with Xiao Tian just now.A trace of panic and unnaturalness flashed on her face: "It's a little stuffy inside.So I want to breathe outside."

"But I don't feel more comfortable with you." Qiu Yan leaned back against the balcony railing, saw the open ashtray, and the faint smell of tobacco was very special, a special smell that only some cigarettes have.

"A lot of times there is always a gap between what you think and what you actually do." She said it speciously, but it made sense.

"That's why there are so many unhappy people in this world, and what is actually is always worse than they think, so there are always so few surprises, and there are always so many shocks."

"That's why you're going to be so pessimistic." She looked at Qiu Yan in disbelief.

"In your heart, I should be a person who is not fragile and emotional." He smiled slightly self-deprecatingly.

"No, I... I was just a little surprised." Such an explanation is better than no explanation.

Indeed, it was hard for her to imagine that Qiu Yan would have such negative emotions, and as Xiao Tian thought, Qiu Yan was close to a perfect person in her mind.

Xiao Tian's shortcomings are so obvious, but Qiu Yan has always made it difficult for her to find obvious shortcomings.He can always control everything just right.With him.She will be nervous but not so scared that she wants to run away.She feels sweet but not so sweet that it is unbearable.Although he has occasionally shown his emotions in front of her.But he has never raised his negative thoughts about the world to a state like this at this moment.

Qiu Yan turned around, leaned on the balcony railing with one elbow, and turned his face to her: "Accident, so if my kindness makes you think that I am farther away from you?"

"You... Why do you say that all of a sudden?" She felt a subtle danger in the distance between herself and Qiu Yan, a closer one that seemed to catch fire, and a farther one that felt cold.

"How could you think it was sudden, so it was what I thought, and my good was my fault." Qiu Yan remembered the Venus analogy he told Xiao Tian on a beach night.

"Qiu Yan, it's not like that, I'm just..."

She just suddenly found that she seemed to have become accustomed to Qiu Yan as if he was a perfect person, so she was used to being vulnerable in front of him, because perfection means that she can accept imperfection unconditionally, otherwise how can it be called perfect.

But he was also vulnerable, and she felt sorry for his fragility, and she felt that there was some pain in her heart at that moment.

These two men were like gods to her, but they were very different.

Xiao Tian seemed to be closer than far away from her, like a fire that could never be caught, she could only watch from afar, but not closer, but in reality, he repeatedly broke through the safe distance and had all kinds of entanglements with her.

But Qiu Yan is like a clear spring in the desert, like the Holy Son in the church, who welcomes her with open arms at any time, He gives her salvation, gives her strength, brings her peace, because of him, she will not die after Xiao Tian's blazing flames, but instead rush to the heavens like a Nirvana colorful phoenix.

But maybe it's all just her delusion, and people always prefer to believe what they want to believe rather than believe the real facts.

She thought that Xiao Tian was a ruin for her, but her heart only beat most warmly when she was close to him.

She thought that Qiu Yan was like a complete holy son, but she had taken off her clothes in front of him with confidence, and he was still unbearable, kissing and caressing her body passionately.

So in fact, many of them are just our own imaginations, we are all physical mortals, we are all living in our own struggles and swayings, she sighed, and looked into the dim sky in the distance.

It's strange.Why do I suddenly have so many emotions tonight.It's because I really turned into a butterfly in an instant.So I saw clearly that the two god-like men were just like mere mortals.Or because they were finally willing to fade that divine light in front of her.Showing their ordinary side.

Qiu Yan stared at her in a little bright light.Slowly he leaned in towards her.Hands raised as if to hold her face.She unconsciously twisted her face to avoid it.

"Your earrings are a little loose, I'll help you get them right." He explained.

She immediately remembered what had just happened here two minutes ago.It must have been Xiao Tian who had just bitten her earlobe and loosened the earring.She wanted to say I'm here myself.But Qiu Yan's hand had already touched her earlobe.He was gently helping her get the earring.So she didn't refuse again.

Since he had once again decided to withdraw from this emotional entanglement, he had withdrawn the people who had followed Caiyue, because he knew that Xiao Tian's people had been protecting her, but with such a clue, he could still easily guess what had happened on this balcony two minutes ago, because there was indeed a slight smell of tobacco on her body.

Then his fingers unconsciously intensified, and she opened her lips slightly in pain, and inhaled sharply.

"Didn't it hurt you?"

"Nope." She smiled slightly unnaturally.

In front of Qiu Yan, she always felt a little ashamed of what happened between herself and Xiao Tian, but when something was going to happen between her and Qiu Yan, she vaguely felt sorry for Xiao Tian in her heart, and she felt as if she was about to split.

He helped her get the earrings.He wanted to keep himself from wanting to hold her in his arms.He wanted not to make himself jealous of the intimacy she might have had with Xiao Tian just here.But those bad thoughts still rushed into his mind and body.He still hugged her.

"Qiu Yan, don't... Don't do that." She panicked, she tried to push him away.

What's wrong with these two men, why do they have to hug her in such an open environment, as long as anyone wants to breathe, they can see all this.

But this is the difference between men and women: women always have to be in private to be completely relaxed, but men like to declare their sovereignty in an open environment.

He hugged her tightly, his heart wrenched and struggled fiercely, and his mouth was muttered and whispered in pain: "Don't reject me, let me feel that you really hold me like a woman who loves me, don't just be grateful and not good, even if it's just once, I'm a man who loves you after all."

At this moment, the pain was felt again in that corner of her heart.

Contradiction, contradiction, uncomfortable, uncomfortable, moving.

With her arms outstretched, she hugged him tight.

He tightened his arms as hard as he could, and could feel her body fit perfectly into his, but he still didn't feel enough, as if he wanted to embed her in his.

I can't love, I can't give up, I only have pain, I keep hurting.

Her gown was completely off-the-shoulder, and he kissed her bare skin heavily. He had said more than once that he liked her to wear off-the-shoulder gowns, so she would often choose off-the-shoulder dresses, not entirely out of pandering, but because he was happy and she would be really happy.

He pressed her down against the guardrail, her back went up a little, and her back was immediately a little uncomfortable against the guardrail. The small half of her upper body was a little dangling, she felt a little scared, her relationship with Qiu Yan was like their bodies hugging each other tightly, and if she went too far, she might fall from a great height.

Qiu Yan opened his mouth again and bit her shoulder, just like the last time he was in his office, leaving his teeth marks there.

It's not that she doesn't want to bite it, but she still can't bear it.

Although she didn't bite it, the pain still made her breathing significantly worse, and her hands unconsciously tightened the clothes on his back, because the pain was also because of the emptiness of his back, and she was afraid that she might be in danger of falling.

He looked condescendingly at the ground, the brilliant picture of the headlights and street lamps being trampled underfoot, how many yuan were flooding the city at night, how much pain was brewing in anticipation of happiness, and he was just one of these beings.

His arms tightened, his lips and teeth tightened, and his skin was finally bitten slightly.

"Ahh She couldn't take it anymore, she cried out in pain, her hands tightened, and her clothes were completely crumpled by her.

A faint fishy sweetness seeped into his mouth, it was her blood, he kissed her wound, a trace of pleasure accompanied by heartache really welled up in his heart, he was extremely sad.