Child?

My baby?

Song Qingge couldn't care about the pain in her lower abdomen, and insisted on getting out of bed.

At this time, the door of the ward was pushed open, and the nurse came in, looked at her, was surprised, and said, "Whoever told you to get out of bed, lie down!" The nurse put down the tray in her hand and helped her to the bed, "Lie down." Then he looked at the blood flowing backwards in the infusion hose, readjusted the infusion speed, and said: "Look, the blood is flowing backwards, next time you get out of bed, remember to lower your hand." ”

"What about my child?" Song Qingge's lips trembled, and her eyes were fixed on the nurse.

The nurse helped her adjust the infusion speed, and instead of answering, she handed her a thermostat, "Take your temperature first." ”

She didn't say anything, Song Qingge became more and more nervous, "Where is my child?"

The nurse recorded it in her notebook, looked up at her, seemed to be a little unbearable, and just said, "You just came out of the ICU, and your body is still unstable,......

Seeing that she wanted to speak and stopped, the fear in Song Qingge's heart gradually expanded, and she remembered that before she lost consciousness, Xiao Gu barely moved. She pursed her lips, trembling, almost begging, "Tell me, what about my child?

The nurse frowned, and was about to speak, when the door of the ward was pushed open, and Sister-in-law Qin came, holding a thermos bucket in her hand, looking at the pale Song Qing, full of joy: "Miss, are you awake?"

The nurse handed the thermostat to Sister-in-law Qin, "Remember to take her temperature, I'll come back later." With that, he left.

"Sister-in-law, where is the child?" The nurse's attitude made Song Qingge feel faintly bad in her heart, and asked eagerly.

Sister-in-law Qin frowned, her face was a little strange, and she put the insulation Gu on the cabinet, "Miss, do you want to drink water?"

Seeing that they were both like this, Song Qingge's bad premonition in his heart gradually expanded, and the pain of the wound in the lower abdomen became more and more obvious, obviously, the child was taken out by caesarean section, and the child born by caesarean section was born prematurely, and now it may be in the incubator, "Sister-in-law Qin, tell me, where is my child?"

Sister-in-law Qin was a little embarrassed, but she couldn't stand her plea, "Child...... Hypoxia in children...... Suffocate...... Didn't keep it. ”

At that moment, Song Qingge's brain went blank, and she murmured in a low voice: "No, no......" Her hands fell on her lower abdomen, and the bulge there was gone, "He was still moving well before...... "She was in great pain, and she couldn't believe this result at all, "Sister-in-law Qin, you lied to me, didn't you?"

"Miss, you are still young, and the child will have it in the future," Sister-in-law Qin persuaded, "You just had surgery, your body is the most important, you are still in confinement, but you must not cry, crying is not good for your eyes." ”

Pain and sadness attacked all of Song Qingge's nerves...... The classmate Xiao Gu who had been in her belly for eight months...... Every night, she would talk to him with her belly, feel his powerful punches and kicks, and during the fetal examination, the doctor also said that he was well developed, and yesterday, everything was fine, and now, it is ......

She fainted.

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When Song Qingge woke up again, it was almost dusk, and she looked at the ceiling with empty eyes.

"Miss, let's have some soup. Sister-in-law Qin brought her a bowl of soup.

She was stunned, not moving.

"Miss?" Sister-in-law Qin called her, "You can't go on like this, you are weak after giving birth, you have to make up for it quickly." ”

"Is he a boy or a girl?" Song Qingge asked suddenly.

Sister-in-law Qin was stunned, so she had to whisper: "Girl." ”

Song Qingge's eyes were full of tears, girl, classmate Xiao Gu is a girl, she kicked her so hard with her feet, if she lived, she would definitely be a female man when she grew up.

"Sister-in-law, I want to see her. She cried.

Sister-in-law Qin was at a loss for a while, so she had to comfort: "I'll ask the doctor." ”

Later, the nurse said, "It's been signed off by the family." ”

"Deal with it?" Song Qingge's mind was blank, and his hands were clutched tightly on the bed, "How to deal with it?"

"Dead babies are treated as medical waste and incinerated ......," the nurse said.

Hearing the incineration, Song Qingge cried and asked, "Who signed it? Who agreed!"

Thinking that her eight-month-pregnant daughter was burned, she was almost crazy, crying: "I am a mother, I didn't agree, who can sign to deal with her?"

"You give me back my child!" she almost lost control of her emotions, "You give me back my child......"

Several nurses came and pulled her, and then pressed her to the bed, her face was full of tears, and she yelled viciously: "You return my child!" She cried and made trouble, and finally the doctor gave her the notice, and on it, the name "Sang Lanqin" was signed.

Looking at those three words, she cried and fainted.

In the dream, she was holding a child, the child was crying, and behind her was the raging flood, and she held the child tightly and ran desperately...... Finally, she was tired of running, stopped, and looked at the child, whose face was covered with black and blue, and had already stopped breathing, and she cried, and behind her, the flood came and swept her into the water in an instant.

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When Song Qingge woke up again, he just looked at the ceiling in a daze, and the whole person collapsed. Her hand landed on her lower abdomen, recalling what Xiao Gu looked like when she was inside.

This dream is too cruel, but it also reminds her that she has to take all the responsibility for the departure of Xiao Gu's classmates.

In fact, the night before the accident, she already felt that the child's fetal movement was abnormal, and she herself was also very uncomfortable......

It's all her fault, it's all her fault, she shouldn't, shouldn't insist on going her own way, shouldn't be angry, shouldn't be ...... It was she who killed her own child.

She didn't even look at what she looked like, she didn't even hug her, kiss her, and let her leave before she was born, it was her incompetence as a mother.

She's the executioner!

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At night, it was as cold as water, and Sister-in-law Qin fell asleep.

Song Qingge held the fruit knife and slashed her left wrist indifferently, she was already numb, she couldn't feel the pain of the wound, looking at the blood flowing like a pillar on her wrist, she suddenly felt relieved.

Knife, on the ground.

She lay on the bed, looking at the ceiling, and vaguely, she saw a chubby baby, she smiled on her lips, and murmured, "Baby, mommy is here for you." ”

Hazy, she seemed to return to the moment of the car accident, he protected her, his face was bleeding like a pillar, she hugged him and cried, they were together.

Then, in a hazy moment, she seemed to hear the piercing screams of her sister-in-law, and then many people crowded into the room, and then, she was completely unconscious.

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"Wake up," Sister-in-law Qin's frowning brows lifted and she breathed a sigh of relief, "Miss, you're finally awake." She wiped tears from her eyes, "You scared me to death." ”

Song Qingge opened his eyes, dizzy and panicked, looking at the white ceiling, his eyes were dazed.

"Miss, if you want to open a little, you are still young, don't think about it," Sister-in-law Qin sat next to her and continued to wipe her tears.

"It's all my fault," Song Qingge's face turned pale and her lips trembled slightly, "I hurt my own child." ”

"I don't blame you," said Sister-in-law, "no one expected to be in a car accident...... You're crushed for hours. ”

Song Qingge smiled bitterly, looking at the gauze wrapped around her left wrist, which was white and particularly dazzling, she desperately slapped her hand on the edge of the bed, and her emotions gradually got out of control, "Why do you want to save me? Why don't you let me die?"

"Miss!" Sister-in-law Qin pressed her left hand, and blood was faintly oozing from the gauze.

She cried, she was now emotionally deranged, and life was worse than death.

Looking at her appearance, Sister-in-law Qin couldn't help crying, "Miss, you must not hurt yourself! The child is gone, I can only say that my fate with you is over, and I can't keep it." ”

"It's my fault," she said to herself, crying, "Sister-in-law, it's all my fault......"

"I know, it's sad that you don't have children," Sister-in-law Qin's eyes were full of tears, "But people have to look forward, you are still young, and you will have children, you just don't care about yourself, but also think about Mr. Gu!"

Song Qingge suddenly came back to his senses, Fengcheng, Fengcheng...... She only cared about the sad child, and even forgot about him, "Sister-in-law, how is Fengcheng?"

"I heard that Mr. Gu is still in the ICU. Sister-in-law Qin wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.

Song Qingge breathed a sigh of relief, in the ICU, at least he is still alive, as long as he is alive, it is better than anything.

At this time, the door of the ward was pushed open, and Song Yaru came, she looked serious and seemed to be very angry, walked to the hospital bed, and gave Song Qingge a few slaps without saying anything.

Sister-in-law Qin was very frightened, and when she saw this battle, she didn't dare to step forward to stop it.

Song Qingge's cheeks were hit so hot that he saw stars in front of him.

"Don't you want to die?" Song Yaru was extremely anxious and angry, pointing to the window of the ward, "Jump, jump down, it's a hundred, I don't have to worry about it!"

Song Qingge sat on the hospital bed, and after being beaten, he hadn't come back to his senses.

Seeing that she didn't react, Song Yaru looked at her, hating iron and steel, "The Song family is in danger now, what about you, you didn't think about helping, and even committed suicide by cutting your wrists? Who are you doing this? I? I'm sorry, I don't have time to deal with you." She was so busy, but she heard Sister-in-law Qin say that Song Qingge committed suicide, she was angry and bloody, isn't this purely causing trouble for her?

Song Qingge lowered his head, sad.

Song Yaru saw her silent appearance, and she loved and hated in her heart, "If the child is gone, it will be gone, if you look for death and life, will the child be able to come back to life?"

"She is my own flesh and blood," Speaking of the child, Song Qingge couldn't help crying, eight months of day and night companionship, the feeling of mother and daughter connecting hearts, not that you can forget it.

"So what?" Song Yaru saw her crying, and sneered: "Song Qingge, are you still living in a dream? instead of crying about the fetus that died before it was born, you should go to the ICU door and cry for your husband!"

Song Yaru stomped restlessly in the ward, "Qingge, you tell me," she thought for a moment, then stopped and put her hands on Song Qingge's shoulders.