This rain came and went quickly, and after a while, it stopped.

After the rain, the air became unusually fresh, and my mood seemed to be washed by this spring rain, and a feeling of brightness grew in my body.

I've never felt the warmth of friendship, but at this moment, I feel it.

I've never experienced a dry frame bleeding, and this moment, I experienced.

Suddenly, I found that this feeling is really good.

Compared with the loneliness and loneliness in the past, this kind of enthusiasm and pride now, it turns out to be so happy, even if I am seriously injured, but I still feel worthwhile, I don't feel pain, I only feel happy, this is the state that young people should have, this, can be regarded as a real man.

Although, at the moment I am still staggering walking, but my heart is arrogant, I am too lazy to go to the hospital, and I don't want to go to school, wandering all the way, unconsciously, I came to the small western-style building where Su Xuejing lived, sitting on the bench opposite the western-styled building, looking at the room on the second floor that reflected the light, I was suddenly reluctant to leave.

In my mind, I can't help but think of all kinds of scenes from my middle school days, those years of crush, bitter with a little sweet, even if I have to face the disgusting eyes of my classmates every day, but I still have an expectation when I go to school every day, the first thing I do when I enter the classroom every day is to look at Su Xuejing's seat first, to see if she comes, as long as I can see her, I will have a sense of satisfaction in my heart.

Now, time has passed, Su Xuejing is still the pure and beautiful goddess, but I have become a distorted bastard in her heart, I have always owed her an explanation, even if the opportunity was in front of me, I didn't solve the misunderstanding, at that time, I think it's okay for Su Xuejing to misunderstand me, as long as she doesn't have a grudge with Wang Yadong, as long as she lives peacefully.

But I don't know why, tonight, at this moment, I suddenly want to tell her everything, I don't want to hide this grievance for the rest of my life, I don't want this goddess who once used me as a role model to learn from me to misunderstand me and look down on me.

Perhaps, that jump off the building really changed me.

I'm no longer the Wu Lai I used to be.

Once upon a time I endured all things. Cold eyes, ridicule, insults, beatings, and even painful misunderstandings, I silently endured that kind of taste, very depressing, depressed to the point that I couldn't control it as soon as it broke out, and finally relied on suicide to relieve myself.

I've died once, I have also figured it out, I have to face everything bravely, I won't endure it, I want to live openly, then, since I have come here today, I should explain everything clearly to Su Xuejing, thinking like this, my eyes slowly closed, maybe my body was too tired, maybe I was relieved, I actually fell asleep on the bench.

All night, I was curled up on a stool, unconscious.

In the morning, the glimmer of the morning sprinkled on me, a cold air suddenly hit, I shivered unconsciously, I immediately woke up from the dream, woke up with pain all over my body, and cold, however, my heart was warm, even excited, thinking that I could solve all the misunderstandings with Su Xuejing immediately, my spirit was doubly uplifted.

I straightened my hat, straightened my clothes, and then hid behind a small tree, staring at the front door of the small western-style building, waiting for Su Xuejing to come out.

The plan of the year lies in spring, and the early morning of spring is the best time for all things to recover, all living things are vibrant, and at this moment, I also feel reborn, my heart is clear and cheerful, even if I wait, I feel so beautiful.

An hour later, the door of the small western-style building finally opened, and the person I was expecting finally walked out of that door, today's Su Xuejing looks exceptionally pure and beautiful, the white shirt worn on her body makes her skin whiter and tenderer, black eyes, ruddy lips, and a hair shawl, she is simply beautiful.

I was stunned for a while, so much so that I forgot all the words that had just been brewing all morning, I quickly patted my head, pondering what I was going to say next, thinking about it, I straightened my clothes again, got my hat, and then stepped forward, ready to explain everything to Su Xuejing.

However, as soon as I got out of the tree, I saw that a bicycle was killed in the air, blocking Su Xuejing in front of Su Xuejing in a very domineering and chic posture, the boy on the bicycle, tall and handsome, full of sunshine, he shook his head slightly at Su Xuejing, Su Xuejing immediately jumped on the back seat of the bicycle with cooperation, her face was gentle and full of happiness.

Immediately, the handsome man quickly stepped on the pedal, and the bicycle drove away briskly, and the two of them formed a happy picture of youth and vitality.

And I, still dumbfounded, was next to the small tree, feeling like my heart had been hollowed out, and my breathing was a little difficult because of the pain, and even my eyes began to blur and tears flowed. I don't know what's wrong with me, it's just very uncomfortable, like the pen that Duoduo gave me was snatched away, my chest was tight, I was suffocating.

Why do I feel this way? It's just that the goddess I once had a crush on has found a boyfriend who is in love, shouldn't I be happy for her? Could it be that I really have expectations for Su Xuejing? I still have luck and want to be favored by the goddess?

I didn't dare to think about it anymore, and the more I thought about it, the more my heart wrenched.

Once, I thought I was just having a crush on her, I didn't even daydream, I never had any fantasies about her.

But it was not until this moment that I suddenly realized that in middle school, I studied hard and hard, not only to have a future career, but also to take Su Xuejing as my goal and strive to be admitted to the same university as her. It turned out that I dared to go against Wang Yadong for fear of being beaten, not only for the sake of so-called justice and bullshit conscience, but I couldn't bear to see Su Xuejing hurt. It turned out that I followed her quietly in the past few days, not only because I was afraid that she would be retaliated against by Wang Yadong, but maybe just to take a sneak peek at her.

It turned out that all of this was just because my toad really wanted to eat swan meat.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but show a self-deprecating wry smile, just like Duoduo said, I'm ugly, destined to be liked by no woman, what qualifications do I have to worry about a goddess like Su Xuejing, who has a good personality, good looks, good family, good university, everything, and what do I have? What am I?

I know, I was wrong, I don't have the right to fantasize about her at all, and now that she has found the boy she likes, I should bless her, but why is my heart still like something is missing, so painful.

I took a deep breath, and then I took a step and left the place.

His feet were like hammers, so heavy and heavy, and every step was so difficult.

After walking for a long time, I walked to a small restaurant, I couldn't help but go inside, found a corner seat, ordered two side dishes, and asked for two bottles of beer.

The first time I drank wine, just to extinguish the sorrow in my heart, it was said that wine can anesthetize the nerves, so that people have no pain, but I drank two glasses, the heart hurt more, a bottle down, the head will be dizzy, but the heart still hurts, and when I gritted my teeth and drank two bottles, my head began to be confused, groggy, lying on the table and squinting for a while, I settled the account, and went out of the restaurant in chaos.

The air outside was very fresh, and my confused mind finally had a little clarity, but when I walked, my body was still a little light, my legs were a little weak, and my chest was still stuffy, and I wanted to vomit, but I couldn't vomit. I simply quickened my pace, staggered and walked briskly, and walked to the door of an Internet café, where I happened to meet a beautiful man and a loach coming out of the Internet café.

The beautiful man's sharp eyes saw my condition at a glance, and he hurriedly walked up to me and asked in a low voice: "Wu Lai, have you been drinking? Aren't you not drinking? If something happens, it won't be the person surnamed Wang who is making trouble for you again, right?"

I raised my somewhat misty eyes, and saw the concerned eyes of the beautiful man, my heart suddenly relaxed, I grinned at him, and said with a wry smile: "I haven't gone to school yet!"

The beautiful man was surprised: "Ah, why?"

I sighed slightly, and there were words of suffering.

Seeing this, the loach on the side hurriedly quipped: "Needless to say, look at his desolate eyes, needless to say, he is out of love!"

The beautiful man was puzzled: "Have you ever talked about a girlfriend?"

I replied bitterly, "No, but it's almost like falling out of love!"

The loach suddenly said, "I know, it's a crush, right, the confession failed?" That's right, you look uglier than me, it's strange to be able to chase a girl!"

Hearing this, the beautiful man immediately glanced at the loach with squinted eyes, signaling him not to talk nonsense, and then, the beautiful man stared at me tightly, and said seriously: "Wu Lai, have you ever been in love?"

I shook my head sheepishly.

The beautiful man's eyes hung and he asked me, "Won't you be a virgin?"

I bowed my head shyly, speechless.

The beautiful man suddenly became serious again, he solemnly patted me on the shoulder, and said, "Go, my brother will take you into a man!"

I was dragged by a beautiful man to a bathing center, this bathing center is quite famous in our area, it is a place used by lonely men for recreation, it is said that the quality of the young lady here is quite high, and the price is quite expensive, I have never thought of coming to this kind of place.

But at this moment, I was brought over by a beautiful man, but I was a little nervous, maybe it was the effect of alcohol, maybe it was the inferiority complex that was hurt by the girl, maybe I really wanted a man, I didn't refuse the kindness of the beautiful man, and directly with him and the loach, stepped into this place that made men fascinated.

The beautiful man seems to be more familiar with the supervisor here, as soon as he enters the door, a few of us are taken into a small room, the market does not need to be introduced, one is a row of beauties, all with heavy makeup, hot bodies, that is, some plump, some skinny, I am dazzled, I feel that my whole body is hot, and my heart is restless.

The beautiful man looked at me with a smile, and then said: "Wu Lai, choose whatever you like, I will pay for whoever you like!"

I didn't reply, the loach's eyes suddenly lit up, and he hurriedly said: "Brother Yang, can I choose one, I haven't had that for a long time!"

The beautiful man ignored him and continued to stare at me.

Seriously, I'm very excited, excited palms are sweaty, this is the first time I blatantly do this kind of thing, much more nervous than the last time I secretly called the service in the hotel, but, thinking of that time, my heart couldn't help but feel melancholy, if it wasn't for that encounter Duoduo, my first time may have been gone, if it wasn't for that encounter Duoduo, I might not have fallen into this third-rate university, and Duoduo, maybe not angry to run away from home.

"What are you thinking?

The beautiful man's sudden words made me suddenly come back to my senses, and for a while, I was a little hesitant again, because Duoduo said that I was not a man, and that I was destined to be a single for the rest of my life, which caused me to be hot-headed and called a special service in the hotel. And now, Duoduo's words seem to have been verified, I really don't have a woman's relationship, no one will take a fancy to me, let alone like me, no matter how much I do. If I continue like this, I will probably really become a monk for the rest of my life.

No, I can't let my life have regrets, if I didn't jump off the building last time I was rescued, then I will be a virgin until I die, which is too sad, since God gave me a chance to be reborn, I have to change completely, dare to act, and be a real man.

After thinking about it, in the end, I raised my head bravely and scanned the row of beauties seriously, and then, I whispered to the beautiful man that I wanted the one who wore red clothes, not because of anything else, but because she was wearing black stockings, which reminded me of the original Duoduo.

The beautiful man praised me, saying that I was really good at picking, and she was the number one here.

Then, the beautiful man said hello to the supervisor. After that, I was taken into a separate room by the woman in red.

The room is furnished warm and elegant, very emotional, which makes people confused and fascinated as soon as they are in it, which makes my beast blood boil, but as soon as the woman in red closes the door, I am still nervous, and I am a little overwhelmed.

The woman in red looked at me stupidly, and couldn't help but smile and said, "Don't stand stupidly, let's take a shower first!"

I hurriedly ran to the bathroom and took a shower. Afraid of being disliked again, I carefully rubbed every part of my body clean, but, I was still boiling with animal blood, after taking a bath, I calmed down, and I felt that I was still impulsive, but now that I am ready to fly, I have to send it, and I have reached this juncture, I must not retreat, otherwise I will waste a piece of the beautiful man's heart, and I will be despised by them, so I directly put on the special clothes of the bathing center and walked out.

Entering this confusing room, my heart can't stop beating wildly, especially when I see the sexy and coquettish woman in red, I can't calm down, she is worthy of being a professional, between her gestures, she exudes a unique charm, just like a vixen who can charm people, and what's more, she also has a unique fragrance on her body, which seems to be a stimulant, which makes me can't help but lose myself.

She hooked her hand to me, I walked over, she told me to lie down, I obediently lay on the bed, she saw me so honest, she couldn't help but blow at me, softly said: "Look at you nervous, it should be the first time to come to this kind of place, it's okay, when I finish serving you, you will definitely come often in the future!" After speaking, she also threw me a wink.

Being by her like this, I was even more nervous, I simply closed my eyes, not daring to look at her directly, for fear of being hooked by her.

Seeing me like this, the woman in red couldn't help but chuckle a few times, and the laughter was seductive, as if a young woman seduced a little boy, and after a while, the woman in red began to untie my clothes, and her movements were gentle.

I bit my lip tightly, my body trembled a little with excitement, and I felt like I was about to be raped, which made me shy for a while, but it was very exciting, and I was a little looking forward to it.

Soon, the woman in red took off my top, and then, her seductive magic finger attacked my pants again, and the moment she picked up my pants, my frowning brows gradually stretched, and my nose couldn't help but snort softly...