The hands were stained with blood, not props, but real wounds, those sharp stinging pains were silently reminding Lan Li that this was reality, and the fingertips could even feel the slippery and sticky blood, making the touch of the fingertips and drumsticks wonderful, but the brain was more awake than ever, there was no struggle, no pain, no confusion, everything became clear.

It's like...... It was as if he could capture the trajectory of the dust dancing under the light, and even the trivial sound of the air movement was like a drizzle and a gurgling stream in the eardrums, and his pupils seemed to be able to catch the trajectory of the flow of light, without missing a single bit, and the entire camera crew had a panoramic view of the scene.

The whole process of the performance just now replayed in my mind again, like a slideshow, the pain, the attachment, the concentration, the suffering, and the ...... Breakthrough, everything is presented in great detail, even the struggles that are imprisoned in shackles and cages.

God, he's so madly in love with acting.

A melody began to flow in the depths of his mind, over and over again, again and again, and again and again, and he couldn't help but think of the years when he was crazy about drama.

"Buried alive", he trapped himself in a coffin for eight hours, and there were even fragments during the filming, completely blurring the line between reality and illusion, as if he had experienced the pain and torment of death again, and this time he was still watching himself buried alive, the kind of torture that went deep into the bone marrow and tore the soul, even now in retrospect, people can't help but shudder.

"Speed & Excitement/Emotion 5", he and Vin Diesel fought for their lives, and the fist-to-flesh fight could even clearly smell the blood, so that both of them were red-eyed and selflessly fighting, if there was a slight error, then he and Diesel might not be what they are now, maybe the body will have to lose a certain part to stop.

"I am fighting cancer", he was immersed in the torment of illness, and in a trance, he returned to the hospital bed of the previous life, trapped himself firmly in a palm-sized square inch, almost gave up the persistence of survival, and even triggered the body's painful reaction, and truly experienced the pain and torture of chemotherapy, weakly and desperately struggling above the death line, with no hope in sight.

"Gravity", confusing the difference between reality and memory, returned to Chu Jiashu's body, even Heather's memory was as entangled as a nightmare, unable to get rid of, at a certain moment, he almost thought that the life of "Lan Li-Hall" was a dream, everything has never changed, and when he opened his eyes again, everything returned to the cruel reality of high paraplegia.

There is also "Pacific War", and "Love is Crazy", and "Detachment", and "Drunken Country Ballad", and ...... The "Burst Drummer", who is now filming, once, again, always pushes himself to the edge of the cliff, dances wildly on the tip of the knife, struggles on the high ropes, and the line between fantasy and reality is always looming, and then he falls into a schizophrenic panic and confusion, unable to extricate himself, and even more unable to get rid of it.

He unleashed all his life energy into the performance, like a moth to a fire.

"You lit up my life like bullets through my heart, the pieces of you that were left in my body, and the madness I loved so much, the bruised holes, the bruised holes. ”

The melody bubbled in the depths of his mind like clear spring water, and he couldn't help but close his eyes and hum softly, as if he could still feel Andrew's drum beat in his ears, and the notes and rhythms were so skillfully combined, and those words that came from the depths of his soul blurted out like this.

Every performance was like being shot, the powerful impact and explosion left Lan Li scarred all over his body, but the fierce and scorching sparks lit up his life like this, blooming with a thousand rays of light, and those bullet fragments left in the blood and muscles were faintly painful all the time.

But the craziest thing, he never tired of it, indulged in it.

Perhaps, he is indeed a madman, wantonly and flamboyantly releasing all his energy in front of the camera, and then looking at the countless wounds left on his body, looking at the bubbling red blood, feeling the pain and bitterness of those faint aches, but he enjoys it, because he is so real and so sure to live.

Alive. Instead of surviving.

If ten thousand arrows piercing the heart can be exchanged for a vigorous ode to life, he will not hesitate to choose to nod. Instead of being trapped in a cage and living a lifetime, it is better to exist for a moment with a thousand lights.

So, he opened his arms and embraced the pain and suffering, and met the struggles and entanglements. Even if he did it all over again, he still wouldn't regret it: he would still lock himself in a coffin for eight hours, he would still fight for his life with Diesel, he would still float through chemotherapy, he would still practice the drum kit until he went mad.

If that's the definition of a madman, then, yes, he's a madman.

"I need to know that you're heartbroken for me, and the truth is that I'm always trapped in it, hurt just to find boundaries, and that bothers me. I need to know that I've left wounds, I wonder if you're finally free, if you're still kissing me like you once kissed, if you're still guarding my secrets?"

He dedicated his life to the performance, and the performance reciprocated the colorful colors, and they were entwined together as if they were fate. Perhaps, he is destined to become an actor, he is destined to shine in the world of performance, and he is destined to live on that stage.

"I'm always speaking my word, and that's causing a lot of trouble. ”

He was always too honest, too straightforward, and too dedicated, and it seemed that there was never a turn or discount in the world of acting, which caused countless troubles, but it was precisely this calmness that made him step by step to where he is today, and he has achieved the current self, and he will not regret it and does not need to regret it.

"You lit up my life like a bullet through my heart, and the fragments of you were left in my body, and what was even more crazy was that I loved deeply, those holes covered with bruises, those holes covered with bruises. ”

The smile on the corner of his mouth couldn't help but rise slightly, just as Heather said, "When the music is flowing, I will realize that there are some things that the darkness cannot take away from me after all", and when the performance is flowing in the blood, he will also deeply feel that there are some things that cannot be taken away from him by illness and torture after all.

In a way, he and Heather are both insane, Heather unleashed all her life energy for her dreams, and finally put the weight of her dreams on Lan Li's shoulders, and now, Lan Li carries the dreams that belong to the two of them, and continues to move forward, just like the promise in the song "The Beast".

It's their secret.

The surging melodies and lyrics in my mind sound like lovers hurting each other without regrets, but after chewing carefully, isn't it a bitter entanglement between dreams and reality?

In real life, how many people have dreams, how many people can realize their dreams, and how many people can stick to their dreams? The cruelty and coldness of reality are everywhere, from "drunken country ballads" to "popping drummers", from Heather to Lan Li, everything confirms this, but in the end, even if you just "once had a dream", life will be different.

Although he had just finished an extremely difficult and extremely torturous performance, Lan Li's physical strength and energy had reached a subtle critical point, and deep tiredness was surging up like a tide, but the joy and happiness in his heart were irreplaceable, and for the first time since the "Pacific War", Lan Li felt unprecedented ease and comfort.

Inadvertently, he finally pierced the window paper again, scarred, faltering, and bloodied to open the door to a whole new world, and then he spied into a higher level of acting, a joy and cheerfulness that no words can accurately express.

The muscles of the body slightly revealed soreness and tiredness, but Lan Li didn't want to rest at all, but couldn't wait to continue to experience, carefully and slowly savoring the state and realm of the performance, refining more realizations, just simply wanting to immerse himself in it and wander freely.

The beauty of this moment makes all those pains and sufferings beautiful.

……

There was still no sound in the Alice Tully room, and Damien seemed to have completely forgotten that this was a shoot, and he just stood stunned, staring at the stage motionlessly, those performances, those performances, those emotions, those breakthroughs, once again awakening those high school memories in his mind, but now, he himself couldn't tell whether he hated or ...... the teacher who was the prototype of Fletcher Thank.

But in the end, Damien came to his senses, coughed twice in embarrassment, to hide his panic, and stammered, "...... Kaka!" and then paused, "This scene, huh...... I mean, the play is excellent, but ...... But we also need reshoots. ”

In fact, these words were completely unconscious, and even Damien himself didn't know what he was talking about, but after saying it, he completely reacted, and his cheeks couldn't help but be slightly hot-

In this scene just now, Lan Li and Simmons' performances are absolutely top-notch, although all eyes are still focused on Lan Li, and no one can compare with that kind of dazzling and powerful aura, but Simmons still gritted his teeth and gave a performance that was not inferior, completely interpreting the position change of Andrew and Fletcher.

Now, both actors are looking a little exhausted. But Damien still asked for reshoots, is this too much?

Note: Bullets - Vega4