When the sun can no longer make us vibrant, what is the light shining on me in front of me?

Maybe it's oxidation, in the same dust as the light, slowly and firmly disappearing.

I walked through the busy crowd, looking for work.

Ten years ago, I never knew it would be so hard to find a job.

Of course, it's not about age, it's about ......

What does it matter if there are 3,000 enemies? I just want you to die. - There are too many people in this world who want me to die, and starving me to death if they can't find a job, which is undoubtedly the best way to die, because he will not break the law because of it.

In this world, there are many ways to kill people invisibly, and this is one of them.

In a certain sense, I completely gave up my technical profession and switched to a more flexible and versatile martial arts profession with wider applicability, and began to do hard work, which is the new vitality I found in being forced to be helpless for many years.

The ancients said: If you are poor, you will change, and if you change, you will be able to pass, and you will be wide, and you will reach after being wide.

As the saying goes: a living person cannot be suffocated to death by urine.

So here's my change.

In a technical career, others can say that you can't do it for all kinds of reasons, especially in the first half of the month, and then force you away and don't have to pay you a salary, because you don't provide productivity, but it can be said that you are causing trouble to other people's jobs.

But the force work is different, that is, pure strength work, there is no technology is not too hard to be able to take the main post, so naturally from the first day of work began to form productivity, in this way, even if you only do one day of work, you can also get wages according to the distribution of work, return the value of labor.

Over the years, I have lived a really hard life, being targeted everywhere, and encountering countless hardships in order to protect my old friends and family from being harmed.

The most they persuaded me was, 'There is a saying in the countryside that there is a saying that you will not be able to eat your household. It means that Xiao Wu, the only son in the family, has died, and his father's wealth has no successor, so it should be eaten by everyone and divide the wealth. …… As for the ways to persuade me, there are always a few ways: give you the woman you want, give you a piece of the wealth, or give you a "golden job" job, every year.

And the price I don't agree with is very simple, that is, I won't be allowed to live, as long as I keep persecuting me, not letting me make money, and pushing me into a desperate situation, I will naturally have to go with them to harm Xiao Wu's family and eat with them.

To this day, I still refuse to know who Xiao Wu's family is, I don't have any contact with any family surnamed Chen, I refuse anyone to give me benefits, and I am even ready to quit falling in love and getting married.

Just imagine, if you have a friend and trust him as a confidant, but after your death, this person colludes with outsiders to take away your family property, or even kill your family, and finally the family is ruined...... Isn't that ironic? It's probably the biggest irony in the world.

- People who care about me are also persuading me, saying that he doesn't care about you at all, so why do you do these stupid things for him. However, this is not only for him, this is also the principle of my life, it has nothing to do with good and evil, I do not allow such a tragedy to happen to my friend, although the world is full of ugliness, but I can't be ugly because the world is ugly.

So no matter how hard it is, even if I have to beg on the street one day, I want to defend it, not for anyone, but for me, and it is important for me to have a lot of weight in my soul.

Everyone has a death, some are lighter than a feather, and some are heavier than Mount Tai. What people in the world think of this sentence has nothing to do with me, I only know that this matter is more important to me than Mount Tai.

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However, it is no wonder that I have been staring at a piece of fat for so many years, but I have never been able to eat it.

"Hmm? Why is it full? I asked your colleague a minute ago, why are you still hiring, why is it full now? "I was a little helpless to ask about recruitment, this kind of thing has happened many times in the past few days.

"It's really full, and it's useless for you to doubt it. I smiled and turned to leave, and before leaving, I couldn't help but say, "In this day and age, are there still so many people who are willing to do such drudgery as hard work?"

The HR manager looked at me sympathetically and said, "Look for problems from yourself, the factory may be short of people, but maybe there will be no shortage when you come." ”

I nodded and left with a smile.

What she said is already very clear, and what she can say is enough to imply that the factory is short of people, but I can't.

When I walked out of the factory gate, I heard people passing by saying that they wanted to do various technical positions, and at the same time they said that they were too tired to do hard work, and that they would never do it, or they would rather change factories and find a job again.

Yes, in today's era, it is no longer the old era, there are too many jobs that young people can do, and they make a lot of money, and even many of them earn more than hard work, and no one wants to do this kind of thankless work and be ridiculed.

Moreover, people's physical fitness is not as good as before, and even if they are willing to endure hardships, in fact, there are very few people who can do hard work.

It must be that once one accidentally breaks his waist, the health of that life is over. If a man's waist is broken, he will not want to be happy, and even having children will become a problem.

In the era of college students, people yearn for a lofty life, going in and out of the offices of the world's top 500 companies every day, wearing Versace suits, drinking cat coffee, and commanding projects with hundreds of millions, billions, tens of billions or even more investments, as if they are in control of the world and rich enough to rival the country.

It's just that life isn't so dreamy.

I have a friend who I have known since I was a child, a very handsome and smart boy, and we went to kindergarten, elementary school, and junior high school together......

In the era when make-up classes were just becoming popular, the expensive make-up fees had long exceeded the income range that an ordinary family could afford, and his parents ate green onion dipping sauce every day in a poor day, and all the money saved was used for him to go to school to make up for classes, but even this was not enough, when he was admitted to Renmin University in Beijing, which can be regarded as a high-level university in China, his family had already borne a debt of nearly 500,000 yuan because of schooling.

It was around 2005, I was working in a small design company in Beijing, and my monthly salary was only 2,000 yuan, and the little apprentice next to me who came to Beijing Forestry University for internship, a dignified undergraduate, had a monthly salary of 800 yuan......

At that time, he was studying computer science, and he had three or four girlfriends who were said to have a very good background in the family, and he once said to me: Don't look at the 500,000 yuan you owe, once you graduate, you can pay it off within a year, whether you are in politics or business or professional, he can become a dragon and phoenix among people in an instant, and who is the wife he marries, it depends on what kind of achievements he wants to have.

Some people may question his sincerity in treating his girlfriend, but I don't find it strange at all, not everyone in this world needs love, the more real meaning of marriage is that life can be better than when he was alone, although it is not good, but he is willing to give up ethereal love and happiness in exchange for a nepotistic background that can help his career, which is understandable, at least not bad.

…… As long as he can accompany that woman for the rest of his life after marriage, at least, it should be acceptable to people.

Even though I live like that, I respect the lives of others and make any trade-offs because of their needs.

There is a saying that "people are hard to dismantle": life is already so difficult, don't tear down other people's lives. It's even more unfortunate.

- But, unfortunately, even with this choice, he still didn't get what he wanted.

The girl may be willing to marry him, but her parents, as people who have come over, are so easy to deceive.

He was not married, and as an inexperienced new graduate in the capital, he may not have worked hard enough to study in science and technology because he was in love, so it was not easy to find a job, and finally, he went to the computer city near the Temple of Heaven to work as a computer installer.

…… Do I need a bachelor's degree for this kind of job?

Well, it should still be needed, because it is an English communication environment, and many foreigners are buying.

It's just that it's hard to have a future in this kind of part-time job, he's not reconciled, his parents are also unwilling, he must owe 500,000 to his relatives, people want to be faced, in the end, his parents sold their house and gave him the money, and he became a small boss in the computer city,

In the blink of an eye, he seems to have had a girlfriend, yes, just dating, and the ending is: the business went bankrupt, the girlfriend ran away, and all the money invested in it was spent......

Later, when he returned to the north, with the help of that relative, he found a large company to run sales, with a monthly salary of 2,000 ...... It seems that it hasn't risen for three years, and in a company like that, it's extremely difficult to take a step forward.

This is what he said to me when he saw him for the last time, and said: In the future, when he succeeds, he will definitely take me to eat and drink spicy food.

…… I listened quietly, it was at his wedding, and everything in the house was purchased by the woman, including the house.

I listened quietly, probably because of the 2,000 yuan I gave as a gift, although it was a bit much compared to the 50 yuan and 200 yuan that others gave as gifts, but because I had known each other since childhood.

Later, after he got married, I deleted his contact information.

I don't like to disturb other people's lives, so this friend I've known since childhood, that's all.

The story about him is not only about the 500,000 arrears, but also the money from his parents who sold the house...... Just because I went to college......

Life, every kind of life you choose, there is a price, and there must be only a few who can succeed and become rich, even if you are full of persistence to pursue this.

- I'm the same now, just wanting a job to make money to feed me, and many people are going to starve me to death.

How easy is life?

…… Fortunately, the bad situation eased after a week, and I found a hard job, even though it was a very hard job that I could not do with ordinary hardships.

But I don't mind, I'm happy to get a job.

However, in just two or three days, the situation began to turn out again.

"You can't do this kind of work! The old worker said to me mockingly.

"But I'm already much stronger than the average person. ”

"It's useless to say that!

"Doesn't the factory have a three-month probationary period for newcomers? This is not a three-month adaptation period for newcomers?

"No, no, no! You, the best job for you is to be a duck! Accompany a rich woman, how easy it is to make money." ”

I was stunned, the old worker's words were so familiar, I don't know how many times I had heard them for countless years, and I instantly understood: "Oh, so you are still playing games around me." ”

In the chaos of the world, there is a game that will never stop, and the most fundamental purpose of this game is to push me into a desperate situation, and life is worse than death.

However, because it has been so many years, if I had been soft eggs, I would have been soft eggs a long time ago, and I didn't have to wait until now, I smiled at the old worker and asked, "Since being a duck is so good, why don't you do it?"

Ignoring what the old worker said, I left the factory......

When I got home, I felt a restless breath in my body inhibitively washing my vision, my eyes were quietly blood-red, and I had a strange urge in my heart, I wanted to tear everything in front of me, especially flesh and blood...... I longed for the image of blood splattering in my heart......

It's demonization!

I knew that this was a phenomenon of demonization after being bitten, and I began to try many ways to resolve it, but all of them were unsatisfactory, and in the end, I still had to sit in meditation to dissolve the bulging demonic energy in my refining body.

Sometimes I am really grateful that I have cultivated Buddhism since I was a child, otherwise it is really difficult to guarantee that in many cases, I can't suppress my madness.

I finally calmed down, and there was a knock on my door.

Open the door, it's her!

Ouyang Neon, the fox demon girl.

"It seems that you have many enemies, and thanks to you, hating you has allowed me to find a good job. Ouyang Neon's opening remarks were very violent.

I was stunned for a moment, then scratched my head and replied with a wry smile, "That's congratulations." ”

"In two years, I will definitely let you fall into darkness and finally die!" Ouyang Neon looked at me in the eyes, and there was never a lack of hatred.

I smiled wryly, "And then, what if I die?"

Today, I'm physically and mentally exhausted, and I'm really not in the mood to debate and quarrel.

"I'm going to turn the world into hell, don't you think? The world is full of ugliness and doesn't qualify as heaven. "Ouyang Nihong didn't hate me, or not only hate me, but she hated the whole world.

What kind of life made her hate the whole world?

I didn't ask, because she wouldn't tell me, and it didn't seem to matter.

I sat back on the couch, leaned my head back on the couch, looked at the chandelier with pink roses overhead, and muttered, "If the world really becomes hell, it doesn't matter what I become." ”

Chandelier is not alive bright,

Time, two years in the blink of an eye.