"Dad, I still don't want to go abroad. ”

"What do you want to do if you don't go abroad? The labor relations school has been found for you, and if you don't go, you won't go?"

"I didn't ask you to do this, you didn't even ask me if I wanted to, you went and did it yourself, did you care about my feelings? I know that you feel like you're in the way of staying in your current home, I can go somewhere else, I'm not here to get in your way, as long as you don't send me abroad......"

"Hey, what a familiar picture," a middle-aged man sitting next to the father and son thought to himself. Once upon a time, he had quarreled with his father like this, but his father's words were even more disappointing at that time.

More than ten years have passed, and Shan Zhe, who is now 36 years old, still can't forget his father's original sentence: "You are destined to become nothing big in the future, and you can only be a waste person for the rest of your life."

What kind of father can say such things to his children?

Indeed, I have achieved nothing in my life. At the age of thirty or forty, he is just a marketing manager, and he is busy running around every day, all kinds of blind work at home and abroad, and now he has not even found a daughter-in-law.

Thinking of this, Shan Zhe smiled self-deprecatingly and shook his head. In life, sometimes if you miss it, you don't want to settle for it.

"Ladies and gentlemen,

Welcome to Shenzhou Airlines flight SZ036, this airline from Luoshanji International Airport to Modu International Airport, please fasten your seat belts......" At this moment, a female voice without any emotion sounded from the radio, soothing Shan Zhe's brain nerves like a lullaby.

Shan Zhe only felt a burst of sleepiness, too, since a week ago after landing on the mountain base, has been busy with the layout of the exhibition, exhibition and negotiation, almost never had a good rest, if it weren't for the second sister called yesterday to say that the eldest sister's second child gave birth to a little princess, Shan Zhe was anxious to go back to see his little niece, otherwise he would have to stay in the mountain base for a week to sign the contract with the customers at the exhibition.

I remember what I said to the team members yesterday: "The cubs will never learn to fly in the wings of their parents, you must learn to grow yourself." I'll leave the rest to you, I'll go back home first. "Hey, when did you start learning to lie and not blush...

"Ah~"

Shan Zhe yawned and closed his eyes, and within a few minutes, there was the sound of even breathing. After the plane took off, the father and son, who had quarreled before, also quieted down and did not continue to quarrel. Just one looking out the window and one looking down at a book.

In his sleep, Shan Zhe seemed to see the marquee of his life. He was born in a small village in Zhucheng City, Anwei Province, and his ancestors have been farmers for three generations.

It is said that he is poor for no more than three generations, but when he arrives here, he is still like a mud that can't support the wall.

When he was ten years old, his father cheated on him, his mother divorced him, and then his mother went to Hangcheng, Zhejiang Province alone, working hard day after day, just for her unsuccessful son, and his father took the junior to Ningcheng, Zhejiang Province, and immersed himself in the wine table with pig friends and dog friends all day long.

Grandpa was an alcoholic, a heavy drinker but kind-hearted. The eldest sister had to drop out of school to work part-time and work with her grandmother to provide for herself and her second sister to study. My grandmother was 54 years old, my eldest sister was 14 years old, my second sister was 12 years old, and I was 10 years old.

Later, the second sister studied in the kindergarten college, and I will also be admitted to Yenching University of Finance and Economics, which is a happy year, but the death of my grandfather shattered all this impact.

That year, I was eighteen.

……

Memories flashed through my mind, like a blade cutting through the cerebral cortex, stimulating the nerves in my brain.

Shan Zhe woke up from his sleep, shook his not-so-awake head, and looked out of the cabin. It should be raining outside, otherwise why are your eyes wet? Sure enough, when people get older, they are prone to lose control of their emotions.

Suddenly, there was a sense of falling from the plane,

"Are you going to Yanjing?" someone asked.

"Not so fast, it didn't take off for a while."

"Then what's the matter, there was no reminder on the radio."

"I don't know, I think I've encountered some unexpected situation, I should be fine later. ”

"Hey, I don't broadcast a reminder in case of an emergency, I don't know if we old people can't help but be scared, the young people who are working now are really getting more and more irresponsible," an old man in his fifties and sixties answered.

"There's still the sea below, and I haven't seen the land yet, but how do you feel like you're getting closer to the sea?" The boy next to Shan Zhe looked out the window and muttered to himself.

"The plane is tilting down, this is flying into the sea, is this going to crash? What about the flight attendant, the flight attendant, someone, what's going on? The boy's father hurriedly leaned over the window to look at it, and immediately shouted loudly.

As soon as the words landed, the passengers instantly became frightened, and for a while the cabin was in chaos, crying, shouting at the staff, coaxing children, and shouting insults.

"What should I do if the staff are all gone?" asked a seventeen or eighteen-year-old girl on the side of the aisle on Shan Zhe's left hand with tears in her eyes.

Shan Zhe immediately unbuckled his seat belt and rushed towards the cabin leading to the captain's room. "Click, click", the cabin door to the captain's room could not be opened, "the hatch is locked, we are locked inside" Shan Zhe shouted loudly.

"What now?" someone asked.

"Everyone took out the life jackets under the seats and put them on, so that they could hold on for a while after falling into the water. Hurry up, the plane is about to fall overboard," Shan Zhe shouted as he ran to his seat.

It's too late!

"Bang"

For a moment the plane sank into the sea, like throwing a pebble into a pond and causing a wave, but after a moment the sea calmed down as if nothing had happened.

Wrapped in seawater, it was so cold and painful, I couldn't open my eyes, I couldn't breathe, and my body couldn't move. This is how Shan Zhe feels now.

Am I going to die, I haven't gotten married and had children, I haven't honored my mother, I haven't hugged my little niece, I haven't taken a good look at the world, and then I'm dying like this?

I don't have to be urged by my mother to go on a blind date anymore, and I don't have to fight wits and courage with my father's family anymore, I just don't know if my grandmother can bear the news of my death when she hears that she is so old.

By the way, eldest sister, I named my little niece Li Yu, I hope she will have the beauty of sinking fish and geese in the future, and she will definitely be more beautiful than you, and then I hope she can be as lucky as a koi.

I'm dead, you're going to give my little niece that name, hahaha.

In addition, there is a bank card on the top of the wardrobe in my room, and the password is the birthday date of our three siblings, and it is the money I have saved in the past ten years. You take it, honor your mother.

I remember telling my second sister to let her hurry up and find a boyfriend to marry, she has paid enough for me in her life, don't let me feel that I am dead and still dragging her down.

There are some things that you will never hear anymore, and I don't know if you can feel what is in my heart.

There is a song that I have been studying for a long time, and I have always wanted to sing it to you, but I have never had the opportunity. Now in my head, you listen quietly to me singing:

"When I was a child, my teacher always said that you couldn't compare to me.

I've also hid in the corner and laughed secretly.

Rushing out of the teacher's welfare society's favorite blessings,

As a result, all the bad debts are given by you.

……

My sister has a pair of cute tiger teeth,

The big hand took my little hand and grew up with me.

My sister ......"

Goodbye, this world I don't like.

Goodbye, my favorite person living in a world I don't like.

At the same time, in a delivery room of the First People's Hospital of Zhucheng, Yuhui District, Zhucheng City, Anwei Province, a group of people looked at the baby on the crib with a smile on their faces. Suddenly, the mother lying on the bed and a woman next to the bed suddenly bent down and covered her chest.

"What's wrong?" asked the man next to the mother.

"It's okay, it's just that my heart suddenly hurt just now, and now it's okay. By the way, Xiaomei, Xiaozhe, he will come back today, what time will he arrive, do you want to pick him up?"

"I'm coming back today, about seven or eight o'clock. But don't pick him up, he said he's going to buy a gift for your daughter, pick it and he'll come over himself."

"That's good, that's good, Xiao Yu'er is about to see her uncle, isn't she happy." The mother took the baby from her relatives and said softly.

The woman next to the bed looked up at the window, and it was south, the direction of her brother's return......