Chapter 9: Loneliness

Dean Si pushed open the door of Sima Shu's bedroom, and a smell of wine came to his face. Dean Si looked worriedly at Sima Shu, who was sleeping on the sofa, and came to Sima Shu's approach.

He pulled over the chair, sat down, and looked at Sima Shu, who was still asleep, feeling distressed. He is reflecting on himself, in this life, for the sake of his career, he neglected his family and never cared about his son.

In the end, his wife was far away from him, and his son was not close to him. Now, apart from a successful career and a rich family property, what is left?

guarding the huge family business, but his son is living in such pain.

After all, it was his father who was incompetent, and he felt that his life was wrong, and all these years were wasted!

The dean of Si Yanzhi stared at his son, Sima Shu sometimes frowned, sometimes caress his heart, it can be seen that his heart is bitter, which makes Si Yanzhi even more worried.

Si Yan was extremely distressed, and he decided to let go of some work, return to the family, recover his wife, and compensate his son.

When Sima Shu woke up, he saw his father when he opened his eyes. His face turned cold and he asked, "Why are you here?"

Si Yanzhi asked, "Why do you drink so much?"

"It has nothing to do with you", Sima Shu said coldly and sat up. Aunt Yun brought him a cup of warm honey water, put it down, looked at the father and son who had a cold relationship, and left with interest.

She wanted to create an opportunity for the father and son, who had not seen each other for a long time, but Sima Shu refused to give Si Yan a chance. In fact, it is not that he refuses to give his father a chance, but that he has long been accustomed to living alone and is used to being lonely.

Si Yanzhi didn't blame his son for being indifferent to him, he continued to say with concern: "Son, Dad feels sorry for you, if you have any problems, tell Dad, even if Dad does everything he can, he will help you solve it."

When Sima Shu heard his father's heartfelt words, not only was he not moved, but said angrily: "Dad, over the years, I only know that Lu Qi'an has a father, Uncle Lu's warmth and care, I don't know what my father tastes like, whether it is sweet or salty. I'm thirty years old, don't you think it's superfluous for me to recognize you as a father now?"

Si Yanzhi was silent, yes, when his son needed his father, he didn't fulfill his responsibilities for a day, and now that his son is older, what's the use of having a father?

However, he will not give up, he will work hard to compensate his son and make up for the father's love that he has lacked over the years.

He said to Sima Shu: "Son, you complain about your father, your father knows it, don't worry, your father will compensate you and your mother."

After Si Yanzhi finished speaking, without waiting for Sima Shu to reply, he stood up and left.

When he came to the living room, Aunt Yun was waiting for him, and when she saw him coming down, she asked with concern, "Dean Si, how is it?"

Si Yanzhi shook his head and said to Aunt Yun, "Aunt Yun, Yangyang will leave it to you."

Aunt Yun nodded, she knew that the father and son did not talk peacefully, Sima Shu must not appreciate it, so Dean Si had no choice but to leave.

If this is the case, then she will persuade Sima Shu! She saw that Dean Si was in a low mood and left, so she went upstairs to see Sima Shu, and when she saw that Sima Shu's anger had not subsided, she did not directly open her mouth to persuade her, but said: "Yangyang, Dean Si has been guarding you for two hours, and he is very worried about you."

Sima Shu stubbornly didn't speak, but the hand he put on his thigh inadvertently pushed forward.

This action exposed his heart, he was actually half hated and half resentful of his father, and he also looked forward to family affection, family reunion, and happy life together. In his heavy words to Si Yanzhi, he was actually full of grievances.

In particular, he noticed his father's tired face and slightly curved thoracic vertebrae, which was tired and crooked back from having his head bowed for surgery all year round.

Deep down in his heart, he was distressed.

However, on his lips, he refused to forgive his father, would not speak softly, and gave his father the opportunity to compensate for his shortcomings. He even stubbornly thought: Do you want to make up for what you have been missing for so many years? Do you want to make up for it with a few days of companionship?

Besides, it was his beloved Zhou Yao, what he lost, maybe lost forever! Who can make up for it!

Sima Shu used to be afraid of the night, because the more night it was, the quieter it was, the more lonely he became. Now, he is even more afraid of the night, because he will miss Zhou Yao even more.

He will recall Zhou Jin's funny and cute, erudite and knowledgeable, and he will miss Zhou Jin's quiet elegance in reading, and play tricks on his naughty lecture materials.

The more I miss, the more I fear. And this fear can only be forgotten by drinking.

He even thought that for the rest of his life, without the company of Zhou Yao, he could only be like the lonely old scholar in the poem, the night was always cold, the hut was loose, and in front of the raindrops, lighting candles like beans, drinking lonely wine, chanting "ten years of lights in the night rain of rivers and lakes", sighing that the green mountains hide my bones, and the rain on Chinese New Year's Eve is sad.

This kind of endless lonely days made him dare not look out the window, he pulled up the curtains, covered all the excitement of the city, and was alone, quietly drunk and sorrowful.

Si Yanzhi was deeply worried about his son's state, and he sat in the office, frowning. The assistant asked him, "Dean, what's wrong with you?"

Over the years of following Dean Si, he had only seen his leader at a loss for the failure of the operation, and he had never seen him sigh and worry so emptyly.

Si Yanzhi secretly thought: It's good to ask him, maybe he has a solution!

So, he replied: "It's not for Yangyang."

"Sima Shu?"

The assistant was puzzled and asked, "What's wrong with Sima Shu?"

Si Yanzhi sighed deeply and replied: "He has recently been contaminated with the vice of alcoholism, I don't know why he is so depressed, and he refuses to talk to me openly, I am worried that if he continues like this, his body will not be able to stand it."

"Can't you be drunk, he has recently gone to the peach blossom luck, and the whole hospital is rumored that he is pregnant with a beautiful woman from work, it should be the most beautiful time in life."

The assistant teased with a smile, and the dean asked suspiciously, "Beauty?

"Don't you know yet? It's your future daughter-in-law, a graduate student in the Department of Pediatric Rehabilitation, who seems to be named Wu Ningxin."

"Really?"

Si Yanzhi doesn't feel like it, thinking about his son's state, it doesn't seem like falling in love, but it looks like a breakup.

So, Dean Si shook his head and said, "It's not like ah, he's obviously in the pain of falling out of love."

Then asked the assistant: "Whether it's a beautiful woman or a breakup or a broken love, tell me, how can he be in this state, how can he be high-spirited?"

"Well, I have a solution," the assistant replied.

"What's the way, say it quickly", Si Yanzhi suddenly felt his senses, looked at the assistant, and was eager to find an answer.